Title:
The Siren’s Song
Author:
Morgana
Author’s Email:
Web page: http://www.paranoid.nl/avalon
Pairings:
Glorfindel/Erestor and Elladan/Melpomaen.
Rating:
NC-17
Summary: Elrond and Glorfindel travel to the Havens to capture a strange being
that is responsible for the deaths of many mariners. They find something
unexpected.
Disclaimer:
Not mine. No copyright infringement is intended.
Warning:
AU of course.
Beta
read by Patricia and DA, thanks sweeties!
All
remaining mistakes are mine.
The Siren’s Song
1.
The Havens
“How
did you let Círdan talk us into this?” Glorfindel shook his head and looked at
Elrond, who was riding next to him.
“He
sent me letter after letter, Glorfindel. I could not simply dismiss his
request. He helped me a lot in the past and he needs my help now in turn. I
have to go.” And since Glorfindel wouldn’t let him travel alone, the blond
Captain had chosen to accompany him. Glorfindel had girded on his sword, filled
his quiver with arrows, and had hung his bow from his saddle. Dressed in blues
and gold, the warrior looked impressive. Even Elrond easily admitted to that.
Glorfindel’s
eyes narrowed. “You did not protest that much, Elrond. To me, you look happy to
be on the road again!” Elrond had dressed in hunter’s garb and it was unusual
for Glorfindel to see the half-Elf dressed like that. Most of the time, the
Elf-Lord dressed in luxurious, formal robes. But the hair was braided back
warrior style and the brown shirt and leggings gave Elrond a more youthful appearance.
“I
will not deny the truth,” Elrond admitted. “It feels good to be on the road
again. Sometimes I feel I have grown soft and lazy living in Imladris.” Elrond
rubbed his stallion’s neck and smiled happily at Glorfindel. “It has been too
long since we traveled like this… on the road, off to face danger…just the two
of us!”
Glorfindel
chuckled. “So that is why you told the twins to stay at home!” Glorfindel
raised a finger and waved it at Elrond. Elladan and Elrohir had done their best
to talk their way into accompanying them, but Elrond had remained adamant. The
Elf-Lord had told them that they had to rule Imladris in his stead and to take
good care of their mother. The twins had had no choice but to give in.
“I
enjoy being a father, Glorfindel, I really do, but sometimes I *do* miss the
old days when we would travel and experience new things!” Elrond had never
regretted settling down and marrying Celebrían but somewhere deep inside he had
remained a warrior in need of excitement and adventure.
Glorfindel
suddenly grew quiet. “I do not miss it.” He had found a home in Imladris and
Elrond’s family had made him feel welcome. He had become a part of the
Imladris’ household and he liked it when everything was peaceful and quiet.
He’d had his share of war during his first life time and couldn’t understand
Elrond’s need for action.
Elrond
smiled understandingly and briefly patted Glorfindel’s shoulder. It was time to
distract his friend before unfriendly memories of the past surfaced and began
to haunt the warrior again. “So do you want to know why we are heading for the
Havens?”
Glorfindel
nodded his head. So far, Elrond had been mysterious about the reason why Círdan
had requested their presence. “What happened there?”
“During
the last few months, the Sea has been unruly and has caused several ships to
end up wrecked against the rocks that guard the Havens from intruders. The
Elves who survived are telling a strange tale. Apparently, the Sea is still
calm when they leave the harbor, but then a full-blown storm erupts. A singing
voice can be heard above the waves and wind and the mariners lose their minds.
All they can think of is sailing towards that voice and, when they do, their
ships end up wrecked. A dozen Elves have died this way and another dozen barely
escaped death. They had a hard time reaching the Havens to report to
Círdan.”
Glorfindel
listened closely and inquired, “Did Círdan investigate the matter?”
“He
took a ship out and sailed toward the rocks the Elves claimed the singing voice
was coming from. The Sea suddenly turned wild and he heard the voice as well.
It had been calling him closer. Thankfully, he managed to steer the ship away
from the rocks in time, but before he did, he saw a dark form seated on top of
the rock. Círdan wrote that the being had long, black hair and it appeared to
have wings, although, Círdan admits his imagination might have taken the better
of him at that point. This strange being’s voice was what had drawn them close
and Círdan said that it was the most powerful pull he had ever felt.” Elrond
frowned deeply. “He wants us to help him capture this being and make certain it
no longer presents a threat.”
“Does
he want to murder it?” Glorfindel didn’t feel comfortable with that idea.
“Glorfindel,
this being is responsible for the deaths of a dozen Elves! You cannot feel pity
toward this creature!” Elrond was surprised.
Glorfindel
shrugged his shoulders. “Elrond, we do not know what the nature of this
creature is. Neither do we know why it is doing this. We should capture it and
then question it.”
Elrond
nodded. “You are right of course, but if this creature is evil, ending its life
might be the only solution to end its reign of terror. I do not want another
Elf to die because of its presence!”
“I
am only saying we should find out why this is happening before you end its
life.” Elrond gave him a thoughtful look and Glorfindel explained, “I have
changed since I returned to life, Elrond. I am no longer prone to rash action.”
“I
understand,” Elrond said with a smile. “We shall find out why this is
happening…”
Glorfindel
felt reassured. He liked a good mystery as much as Elrond did, but he didn’t
want to take a life when it wasn’t necessary.
~~~
Círdan
welcomed them warmly and offered them food and drink. The three Elves made themselves comfortable on the porch and enjoyed the view of
the Sea, which looked calm and peaceful at the moment.
“It
is hard to imagine that the Sea can become so wild that it actually throws
ships onto the rocks over there.” Glorfindel pointed at the rock formation that
presented a natural barrier between the Havens and the Sea.
“But
it happens… It happened yesterday,” Círdan answered sadly. “One of the sailors
drowned while the other two made it home alive. They have recovered enough to
tell us their story. I told them we would visit shortly.” Círdan was relieved
to have Elrond and Glorfindel at his side. The Shipwright put his trust in them
and hoped the two warriors would help him free the Havens of this threat.
“Elrond, I have missed your company!” he declared and patted the half-Elf on
the back. “But married life becomes you!” Elrond looked happy and had even
fattened up a bit. The half-Elf had always been a bit too slender for a
warrior.
“I
love my family,” Elrond replied and smiled happily at his old friend. “You
should visit us more often!” Círdan had only made the journey to Imladris once
since Elrond had been married and that had been when the twins had been born.
“I
cannot leave like that,” Círdan retorted. “They need me.”
Elrond
knew the excuse only too well. He used it frequently when he was invited to
visit the Golden Wood. “Still, the invitation stands!” Elrond’s gaze shifted
from Círdan to Glorfindel and found the blond Elf staring at the rocks. “What
are you thinking about, my friend?”
“I
am wondering what this being is… and why it is here.” Glorfindel rubbed his
brow. Suddenly he looked old and tired. Sometimes, he felt like he didn’t
belong on Middle-Earth anymore and that his return had been a mistake, but he
would never take his life in order to go back to the Halls of Waiting. The
Valar had sent him back and he was still trying to make his peace with that.
Círdan
shrugged and tugged thoughtfully at his beard. “It started a few months ago. I
was standing right here when I heard a haunting voice weave a bewitching
melody. Aye, even from so far I could hear it. The next thing I saw was a ship
heading toward the rocks and being thrust against it. The impact shattered the
wood and most of the crew died. Only one Elf returned home and told us he had
seen a form on the peak of the rock and that its voice had commanded them to
come closer.”
“I
want to speak with the survivors and you would do well not to send any ships
out there before we know what this is all about,” Elrond stated commandingly,
showing that he had long become accustomed to being obeyed.
“I
have tried holding them back, but they still head out there for two reasons.
One because it is the best fishing ground we have and two they are determined
to bring this creature to justice. They want to deal with the threat and I
cannot blame them for that.” The fact that he had failed to stop them from
going back there burdened Círdan, but there was nothing he could really do
about it. He could hardly destroy the boats or keep the sailors locked up.
Unexpectedly,
Glorfindel said, “We should talk to the sailors who returned home yesterday.
Their encounter with the creature was the most recent and they will be able to
supply us with much needed details.”
“I
will take you to them. Follow me.” Círdan rose and gestured for his friends to
follow him.
~~~
The
sailors looked shaken but also vengeful. It was clear that they wanted to
avenge their drowned mate and eagerly answered each question Elrond and
Glorfindel asked them.
“What
did you notice first?” Elrond asked after assuring himself that the two Elves
were fit for questioning.
“The
winds changed. At first, there was only a mild breeze and then the winds picked
up in speed and developed into a storm. It was awful. We were still relatively
close to the shore and wanted to head back, but the winds prevented us from
doing so,” one of the survivors answered.
“And
then we heard the voice,” the other sailor continued when the first Elf
faltered. “I never heard anything like it before. The voice floated on the wind
and bewitched us. All we could do was listen and obey.
We turned the boat around and headed back for the cliffs. We did not want to do
so, not really, but the voice told us to return and we carried out that order.
It was like we no longer had any control over our actions.”
Elrond
and Glorfindel exchanged a worried look. This sounded bad.
“Then
we hit the rocks and the boat shuddered with the impact,” the first sailor
whispered. “The two of us were cast into the waves and disappeared under water.
We were lucky in that way because underwater we no longer heard the voice and
started to swim back to the shore. Our shipmate was not so lucky though. He
drowned.”
“When
you surfaced again, was the voice still there?” Glorfindel asked, inching
closer.
“Nay,
it had stopped.” The two sailors looked at each other and then nodded. “Had the
creature still been singing we would have drowned.”
“Did
you receive a good look at the creature?” Elrond wondered how they could find a
way close enough to this being without being drawn in by the bewitching voice
as well.
“I
did,” one of the sailors said. His eyes became haunted, but at the same time
they glowed deeply as if remembering an exquisite vision. “I never saw such
beauty before. For one moment I thought one of the Valar had descended onto the
Havens and graced us with their presence, but then I realized that this
creature wanted my death and I tried to shake off the spell. I did not really
succeed.”
“What
did the being look like?” Glorfindel was curious.
“It
sat atop the highest cliff and its long, raven hair danced in the wind. The
eyes were black, not brown, but black. Its face was pale and so was the rest of
its body. The creature sat there naked and was only covered in its hair.”
“Someone
mentioned wings,” Elrond suggested thoughtfully.
“I
did not see any.” The sailor shrugged. “Maybe the raven hair blowing in the
wind could have been mistaken for wings.”
Glorfindel
couldn’t explain what made him ask his next question, but he still did. “Did
you see the expression on its face? Did it look pleased?”
The
sailor shook his head. “Not pleased – terrified.”
~~~
Elrond
joined Glorfindel, who was sitting on the sand. Glorfindel was staring out over
the Sea and, in particular, at the cliffs which was said to be the strange
creature’s home. Elrond lowered himself onto the sand and joined Glorfindel
into staring at the rocks. He waited for a few minutes and then asked, “What is
going on in your head?”
Glorfindel
cocked his head and looked at Elrond. He smiled at seeing the loose hair
dancing against his friend’s shoulders. At times like these, the half-Elf
didn’t look like the fabled Elf-Lord that he was. He looked relaxed and
strangely at ease. Glorfindel figured ruling Imladris and being a seer took its
toll on Elrond. “You are happy to be here,” he commented, ignoring Elrond’s
question for the moment.
Elrond
nodded his head and his gray eyes twinkled with pleasure. “I feel free at the
Havens. I feel less limited.”
Glorfindel
nodded. “We shall stay for a while. Imladris is in the best hands with your
wife and sons.”
“You
did not answer my question,” Elrond gently admonished him. “What were you
thinking of?”
“Of
our mysterious siren,” Glorfindel answered and buried his fingers deeply into
the sand. He loved the way the sand moved between his digits and let it flow
through his hands. “That sailor said it looked terrified and not pleased.”
Elrond
had thought about the same thing. “That took me by surprise as well. I did not
expect to hear that. Why would it have looked scared?” And what had Glorfindel
called the creature? A siren? “Why do you call it a
siren?”
Glorfindel
tackled the second of Elrond’s questions. “The humans have a number of tales
which they tell and one of them is about a siren, a creature that is half man,
half fish. You could call it a merman possibly, but I have the feeling our
siren might be something different. The sailor did not say it had a fish’s
tail.”
Elrond
considered this. “Half Elf, half something else?”
Glorfindel
nodded. “When I lived in Gondolin, bards told us stories which revolved around
Ulmö and the children of the Sea as they called them.” Glorfindel closed his
eyes and thought back. “They sang a song about the children of Ulmö, which the
Vala had appointed as guardians of the Sea. They were part Elven, part Maiar. They were to look out for the Elves that sailed the
Sea and were gifted with a magical voice so that they could draw the mariners’
attention if necessary. That way, they could warn them that danger was close.”
Elrond’s
eyes narrowed. “During a visit to the Golden Wood, Celeborn showed me an
ancient tome that spoke of Ulmö’s children and that they were destined to
protect all that roamed the Sea. Do you think one of them strayed from the
path?”
Glorfindel’s
blue eyes opened and locked with Elrond’s gray ones. “Nay, I do not. Why would
it have looked terrified if it had wanted them to drown? That makes no sense.
It should have been gloating instead.”
Elrond
realized their dilemma. “What you say sounds sane. Let us assume for argument’s
sake that we are dealing with one of Ulmö’s children, one of these mythical
beings that somehow were forgotten. This being is stranded here and is singing
his magical song, causing innocent Elves to drown. If it does not want them to
drown, then why does it sing?”
“There
is only one way to find the answer to that question,” Glorfindel stated with a
determined expression on his face. “We need to find it, bring it back here, and
question it. We can not allow for this to continue. I do not think that it
wants them to drown, but its singing brings death. That must stop.”
“I
agree, but how do you want to accomplish this?” Elrond had been considering his
options as well. “The moment we fall under its spell, we are helpless.”
“Then
we must make certain we do not fall under its spell.” Glorfindel grinned at
Elrond. “I have a plan.”
~~~
“Your
plan sounds good,” Círdan admitted as he sipped his wine. They had eaten dinner
at the Shipwright’s home and Glorfindel had explained his plan to the other two
Elves. So far, Círdan liked what he had heard. “When do you suggest we sail?”
“Tomorrow,”
Glorfindel replied. “I want to solve this problem before another Elf drowns.”
“Why
did I not think of this myself? If we put wax into our ears, its singing can
not affect us. We should be able to go on land safely and capture the
creature.” They would then bring it home, where Círdan and Elrond would pass
judgment over the being. After all, Elves had died because of this individual.
“We
should question it first,” Glorfindel suggested. “And not pass judgment just
yet.”
“It
is difficult for me not to judge it yet,” Círdan replied. “Many of the Elves
here died because of it.”
Elrond
however supported Glorfindel in this matter. The fact that the creature had
looked terrified when the sailors had drowned had made him thoughtful. “We
shall try to capture it tomorrow and once we bring it here, we will question
it. No judgment shall be passed before that.”
Hearing
the decision reassured the blond Elf. He wanted to hear the siren’s tale before
passing judgment.
~~~
“Are
we ready?” Glorfindel had taken charge even though Elrond or Círdan were
supposed to be, since they were his superiors, but both Elves seemed satisfied
in taking their orders from him.
“We
are ready,” Elrond answered. They had slipped the wax into their pockets and
would use it to seal up their ears the moment they approached the cliffs. Their
plan was simple. Unaffected by the siren’s song, they would steer their boat
onto the shore. Once they had left their boat, they would climb the rock face
and catch the bewitching creature. Then they planned on taking it back to the
Havens where they would question it. All three Elves were confident they would
succeed.
“Let
us do this,” Glorfindel said and flipped his hair back. He retrieved a leather
band from a pocket and pulled his golden hair into a pony tail. Together, they
pushed the boat away from the shore and took course for the white rocks that
lay gloomily ahead of them.
~~~
“We
should make sure we can not hear it.” Glorfindel sealed up his ears so the
siren’s song wouldn’t affect him. A moment later, Círdan, who was steering the
boat, followed suit along with Elrond. Since the siren couldn’t bewitch them, they
guided the boat closer to the cliffs.
Glorfindel
was the first to notice something dark attached to the top of the cliff. He
raised a hand and pointed at the form seated high atop. “That must be it,” he
whispered, although the other two Elves couldn’t hear him.
Círdan
changed course and steered toward the shore. The wax in their ears saved them,
not allowing the siren’s song to penetrate their ears. A hauntingly beautiful
melody floated on the air, but its lure didn’t reach them. The boat hit the shore
and Elrond jumped ashore first, quickly followed by Glorfindel. Círdan decided
to stay with the boat, just in case. He was confident that the two warriors
could handle the siren.
~~~
Elrond
and Glorfindel snuck up on the siren from behind. They weren’t going to take
any chances capturing this mythical being. Glorfindel made eye contact with
Elrond and signaled for the half-Elf to move in simultaneously. Since the
siren’s back was toward them, they couldn’t see the being’s face. The only
thing they saw so far was the raven hair and a pale shoulder, just as the
sailor had described to them. They maintained eye contact for another moment
and then launched forward.
~~~
He
felt shocked and relieved at the same time. The Elves hadn’t been affected and
had managed to land ashore safe and sound. That pleased him immensely since he
hadn’t caused any deaths this time, but at the same time, he realized the
danger he was in. They were coming for him, he was certain of that. He had
caused too many casualties and they wanted revenge. But even if he could run,
he wouldn’t. He had been waiting for this moment for a long time and was happy
it had finally arrived. That feeling of happiness changed the next moment when
something tackled him from behind.
~~~
“I
have it!” Glorfindel released the cry automatically, uncaring that Elrond
couldn’t hear him. His hands were full of cool flesh and raven hair and he
pushed the siren onto its back, easily mastering the being when it didn’t put
up any resistance.
Seeing
that Glorfindel had everything under control, Elrond drew a piece of fabric
from his pocket and fully intended to gag their prisoner, so it couldn’t put
them under its spell after they removed the wax from their ears.
Glorfindel
suddenly stared into the biggest, darkest eyes he had ever seen. They looked
ghastly within their setting in the pale face, but it was the expression in
them that took his breath away. He saw pain and joy in them all at the same
time. It was a strange mix.
Elrond
moved forward and forced the fabric in-between the pearly white teeth and
gagged their prisoner. The siren let it happen and didn’t put up a fight, which
made everything that much easier on the two Elves.
Glorfindel
curled his fingers around the siren’s wrists and kept it motionless. Elrond
stood back and both Elves studied their prisoner in detail.
The
raven hair would touch the ground if the siren chose to stand upright, it was
that long. The eyes stared at them in bewilderment while the rest of the face
showed fear. The siren was naked and, even though the hair shielded most of its
body from their curious looks, Glorfindel and Elrond noticed that the siren was
clearly a male indeed.
Since
the siren wasn’t putting up any resistance, Glorfindel felt awkward for keeping
him down, but at the same time, he didn’t dare let him go just yet. The siren
looked innocent and pliable, but he couldn’t forget the power the being could
wield over them if he chose to do so. For the moment, the siren couldn’t sing.
Elrond
removed the wax from his ears and uncovered the Elven rope which he had brought
along. It had been his intention to tie the siren’s hands, but when he looked
into those startled eyes, he felt it would be the wrong thing to do.
Glorfindel
slowly let go of the siren’s wrists, but since he was still straddling the
being’s waist, the siren had no way to struggle free. Neither did he seem to
want to flee, which was odd. He removed the wax from his ears as well and was
finally able to communicate with Elrond again. The siren lay motionless and,
although his features showed fear, he wasn’t trembling. In spite of everything,
Glorfindel found himself smiling at the mythical being. As an Elf he could
instinctively sense evil and the siren didn’t feel evil to him.
“What
do we do now?” Elrond stood there with the Elven rope in his hands, but didn’t
try to tie the siren down.
“I
do not believe he will fight us, will you?” Glorfindel wasn’t certain the siren
could understand them.
The
creature shook his head slowly. No, he wasn’t going to fight them. Why should
he? He had wanted for someone to come and stop his singing ever since the first
sailor had drowned. He understood why they had gagged him and it was the best
solution. As long as he was a prisoner on this rock, he would have to sing.
“Can
you stand?” Glorfindel stood to his feet and extended a hand so he could pull
the siren to his feet. Elrond watched them closely, feeling puzzled. They
should be tying the siren down and treating him like a prisoner, but instead,
Glorfindel was treating him like a long lost friend.
The
siren accepted Glorfindel’s help and allowed the blond Elf to pull him to his
feet. He started to fall though, since he hadn’t stood for a long time.
Glorfindel caught him and he allowed himself to lean against the warm body.
Glorfindel
frowned. It looked like the siren was unaccustomed to being on his feet.
Elrond
then said, “In that ancient tome, I read that sirens have a fish tail. You do
not have one… Most odd.”
The
siren raised his head and looked at the dark-haired half-Elf. He would have
explained everything to them if he had been able to speak, but the gag
prevented that. His long, dark hair possessed a life of its own and wrapped
itself protectively around his body.
Glorfindel
began to lead the siren down the cliffs, but had to stop fairly quickly since
the siren seemed unable to walk, even when aided. In the end, Glorfindel
realized he had no other choice but to hoist the being up into his arms and
carry him.
A
strange sound fled the siren’s throat when he was lifted until he was cradled
against Glorfindel’s chest, but since he had no choice in the matter, he
accepted being carried.
Elrond
fell into step with Glorfindel and studied the blond Elf. “Glorfindel, he is
responsible for many deaths.”
“We
also agreed to hear him first and not pass judgment at once,” Glorfindel
reminded his friend. The siren’s fingers dug into his neck in order to hold on
and Glorfindel didn’t mind. “You hardly weigh a thing,” he commented
absentmindedly. The siren’s legs were long, the body pale, and the hair wrapped
itself around Glorfindel’s waist as if to support its owner.
Círdan
looked up when the party arrived and raised an eyebrow at seeing the way
Glorfindel carried their prisoner. Since the siren was gagged, Círdan also
removed his wax and gave them a probing look.
“He
did not put up any resistance,” Glorfindel answered as he placed the siren in
the boat. “I do not think he will try to escape.” If anything, the siren
appeared happy to be taken away from there.
Círdan
however remained on guard. “We should tie him up.”
“I
do not think that is necessary.” Glorfindel seated himself opposite the siren
and waited for Elrond and Círdan to join them. “We should leave this place
now.” He wanted to hear the siren’s story! Was he really one of Ulmö’s
children? And if he was, why had the siren used his voice to cause death?
Círdan
didn’t quite agree with the ‘friendly’ way Glorfindel was treating the siren,
but since Elrond didn’t seem inclined to back him up, he gave in and let
Glorfindel have his way. As he pushed the boat into the water, he had his first
good look at the siren and involuntarily sucked in his breath. The siren
possessed a beauty that was not of this world. There had to be some truth to
the fact that they were Ulmö’s children and part Maiar.
The
siren kept his gaze trained on Glorfindel, instinctively realizing he had a
protector in the golden-haired Elf, though he was at a loss as to why
Glorfindel would want to keep him safe. Not after what he had done!
As
they sailed away from the rocks, the three Elves became increasingly aware that
they faced a whole new problem now. The Elves living in the Havens might want
to extract some measure of revenge on the siren and they couldn’t allow that.
They had to keep him safe… And once the siren was in safety, they would
question him.
~~~
“Keep
them at a distance, Círdan. I understand that they are angry, but we can not
allow them to put their hands on our prisoner.” Glorfindel had picked up the
siren from the boat again and now carried him toward Círdan’s house. A large
group of Elves surrounded them and they looked angry. Glorfindel understood
their anger, but wouldn’t allow them to hurt the siren before they knew why the
magical creature had caused those problems.
The
siren sensed the Elves’ wrath and curled his hand tighter around Glorfindel’s
neck. At the moment, the blond Elf was his sole protector and he hoped the
warrior would fight the crowd off. The other two Elves emitted mixed emotions
and he didn’t feel safe with them. He realized that these Elves had every
reason to hate him and he would probably have felt the same way in their stead.
But what had happened wasn’t his fault, not really. He just hoped he would
receive a chance to explain that.
“Stand
back! We shall question him first!” Círdan placed every ounce of his authority
in his voice and it worked. The crowd backed away from them, but their angry
eyes followed the party as they disappeared inside Círdan’s home.
“Put
him down on the couch,” Elrond ordered. He walked alongside Glorfindel and
remained vigilant, since he didn’t trust the siren.
Glorfindel
placed the siren onto the couch and then took a step away from the being. The
raven hair instantly moved to shield the siren’s body from their curious looks
and he lowered his head to avoid looking at them.
“I
am going to remove the gag,” Elrond announced as he lowered himself onto his
heels in front of the siren. The being looked defeated and compliant, but
appearances could be deceiving. “If you try to influence us with your voice, we
shall end your life, do you hear me? I will not take any chances.”
The
siren nodded his head to show he understood. He meant them no harm and
regretted all the pain and sorrow he had caused.
Elrond
reached for the siren and removed the gag. His hand rested on the hilt of his
sword, ready to take action should the siren try to put them under his spell
again.
Glorfindel
pulled up a chair and sat down close to the siren while Círdan remained
standing and looking stern. Glorfindel and Elrond exchanged a look and silently
decided that Glorfindel would question the prisoner. “Who are you?” Glorfindel
asked, putting his first question to the siren. What would his voice sound
like, Glorfindel wondered?
The
siren moistened his lips and slowly raised his gaze to Glorfindel. He liked the
blond Elf best and hoped he would receive a chance to explain himself. “My name
is Erestor.”
Glorfindel
blinked. The siren’s voice was soft and warm like fluid silk and quivers swept
through him. Elrond then placed a hand on his shoulder to ground him and
Glorfindel realized he needed that. The siren’s lure was strong, even when
Erestor wasn’t working his magic. “And what are you?”
Erestor
wondered how to explain it to them. “I am one of Ulmö’s children,” he said
eventually. “I am a child of the Sea.”
Elrond
squeezed Glorfindel’s shoulder to tell him that they had drawn the right
conclusion then. “Why did you use your powers to kill the mariners?”
Glorfindel’s
head jerked back and he glared at Elrond. The half-Elf had been too direct as
far as the warrior was concerned. What had happened to letting him question the
siren? Why had Elrond taken over?
The
siren lowered his head again and stared at the floor. His long, pale hands
twitched restlessly in his lap and the raven hair moved to cover his features.
“I did not want for that to happen.” They wouldn’t understand. They would judge
and punish him.
“Please
forgive Elrond for being so direct,” Glorfindel said and moved closer. He wanted
to establish some sort of contact between them and covered one of the siren’s
hands with his. “Will you tell us what happened? Will you tell us your tale? We
shall listen.”
Erestor
felt nervous doing that since he had no idea how they would react to learning
the truth. “I shall do as you ask,” he answered eventually and kept his gaze
trained on the floor. “I do not remember how I came into existence. One moment
I was water and the next, my essence was clothed in this body. I heard Ulmö’s
voice and he told me, and my kin, that we had been created in order to protect
the mariners that sailed the Sea. We felt honored and vowed to never harm one
of the Firstborn and even guide the mortal souls, should they take to the Sea.”
He hadn’t spoken in a very long time and hearing his voice again felt strange.
Glorfindel
nodded his head and squeezed the long, cool fingers. “We surmised you were one
of his children.” Glorfindel heard Elrond suck in his breath and realized the
half-Elf was about to ask another question which would most likely unbalance
the siren and quickly looked up to stop him from voicing it. Elrond stilled in
his question and remained silent, having understood Glorfindel’s warning.
“I
always carried out my duties, honored that Ulmö had given me life, but I
strayed from my kin and my curiosity led me ashore. I wanted to explore. I
wanted to know how the Firstborn lived.” Erestor shyly looked at Glorfindel.
“So I went ashore.”
Glorfindel
couldn’t help but voice a question again. “When I heard about Ulmö’s children,
the bards said that they have the tail of a fish. Yet you have legs.” Very long
legs…
The
siren risked a smile at Glorfindel. “When I make contact with water, my body
changes. My legs change into a fish’s tail and then I can breathe under water.”
“Extraordinary!”
Glorfindel exclaimed in excitement.
“Glorfindel,
we need to question him about the sailors…” Círdan reminded Glorfindel as to
why they were there in the first place.
Glorfindel
calmed down and nodded his head once. “Círdan is right. What happened after you
went ashore?”
Erestor
swallowed hard and stared at Glorfindel’s hand which was rubbing his fingers.
“I explored against Ulmö’s wishes. He had forbidden us to dwell amongst the
Firstborn and the mortals, but I was curious. At night, I snuck into their
villages and watched them.” The siren drew in a deep breath and gathered his
strength. “One night, I encountered… someone. I thought he was an old man and
did not think he presented a threat so I approached.”
Glorfindel
noticed that the siren started to shake and he wondered what had happened next.
“The
old man was not what he appeared to be. I did not know it at the time, but he
was a wizard…an evil wizard. He had been cast out of his village after he had
been beaten and threatened with death if he dared to return. He needed someone
to vent his anger on and then he saw me.” The shivering increased and his hair
wrapped itself around his arms, wrist, and waist in an effort to comfort its
owner.
“Please
continue,” Glorfindel said compassionately.
“He
was old and his body deformed. The villagers had beaten him and his body was
covered in cuts and bruises.” The siren hoped he would be able to make them
understand what had happened. If only he found the right words. “He screamed at
me. Maybe he had lost his sanity, I do not know. But he screamed at me and
cursed my beauty.”
Elrond
raised an eyebrow. So far, the siren’s tale was nothing like he had expected it
to be and one look at Círdan showed him that the Shipwright felt confused as
well.
“Ulmö’s
power protected me to some degree and the evil wizard could not attack me
directly, so he cursed me. My voice would bring death and destruction from that
moment on. The sailors would no longer hear the warning in my song, but they
would be drawn toward it, causing their deaths.”
Glorfindel
began to understand. “So that is why the Elves died?”
Erestor
nodded. “I did not believe him at first. I did not think he had the power to
curse me like that. When I ran back to the Sea, he called out after me, adding
to the curse.” The siren now felt nervous. “He said that I would never find
peace, no matter where I went and that the curse would force me to sing
whenever someone was close and could be drawn in by my singing. Still, I did
not believe him. I fled back into the Sea and returned to my kin, but they
sensed that something was wrong and brought me before Ulmö.”
Glorfindel
squeezed the siren’s fingers again. “It is important that you continue.”
Erestor
knew that too, but telling his tale was hard on him. “Ulmö realized at once
what had happened and told me that I had become a danger to them: my kin, the
Firstborn, and the mortals. He could not undo the curse, since part of the
wizard was Maiar and he banished me. I was told to
leave and never return to my kin.”
Glorfindel’s
features contorted when he heard the soft sobs and gasps that escaped the siren
and he squeezed the long fingers again. When Erestor raised his head,
Glorfindel saw tears sliding down the cheeks. Automatically, he raised a hand
and captured the tear drops on his fingertips. The moment the droplets landed
on his fingertips, they changed from liquid salt to clear crystal. The crystals
gathered in the palm of his hand and he looked at Elrond and Círdan from over
his shoulder.
Even
Elrond felt some sympathy for the troubled siren, but the fact remained that
several Elves had died because of Erestor’s song.
Glorfindel
waited until the siren had stopped weeping and then placed the crystal tears on
Erestor’s lap. “Those are yours.”
The
siren didn’t know how to react to those words so instead, he continued his
tale. “I roamed the Sea for a while. When I encountered sailors in danger
during a storm, I wanted to guide them into safety, but my song no longer
carried warning, just like the evil wizard had said and they drowned. I wept
when they died, especially once I realized how doomed I really was. I spent the
next year finding a safe place…one where I could not do any damage, but it did
not matter where I went. I always caused death.”
“And
then you ended up near the Havens – on that rock,” Círdan said. He had gained a
much better understanding and felt for the siren, but at the same time, he had
a certain responsibility toward his people.
“I
felt hopeless at that point. It did not matter where I went, or how hard I
fought the curse…whenever sailors were close and in danger, the curse forced me
to sing and cause their deaths.” Erestor finished his tale and awaited their
reaction. He didn’t know what they were going to do with him. “Maybe it is best
that you end my life. That way, I can no longer bring death.”
But
Elrond shook his head. “There must be a way to lift the curse.” He had already
been pondering his options while the siren had told his tale. He knew from
Mithrandir that were was a number of wizards who were part Maiar
which roamed Middle-Earth. Maybe Mithrandir knew of a way to undo the curse.
Surprised,
the siren’s large black eyes made contact with Elrond’s gray ones. That was not
the reaction he had expected to receive. “But I can not be trusted!”
“You
can do little harm at the moment,” Glorfindel pointed out. “Now that you are
not near the Sea, you can not lure sailors toward their doom.” Being abducted
from that rock was probably the best thing that could have happened to the
siren. “I agree with Elrond. We must find a way to lift the curse.”
“You
are not going to end my life?” He had been convinced they would! Reading
Glorfindel’s expression first, he saw understanding and compassion in the blue
orbs. Glorfindel meant him no harm and would defend him. Next, he looked at
Elrond and still saw a hint of suspicion, but also the offer to help. Círdan
looked the sternest and the least convinced, and he understood why that was. “I
regret causing death, master Elf. It was never my intention. I have no control
over my actions. It is the curse that made me do it. If you feel you need to
take my life in turn, I will not fight you.” His life was all he had to offer
after what he had done.
“I
will not demand your life in turn for what has happened,” Círdan responded
after thinking everything over. “I shall talk to my people and make them
understand.”
The
siren couldn’t believe they were so lenient. He had fully expected them to
extract their revenge. “What will happen to me then?” He felt guilty for being
selfish. He was putting his own needs first, while these Elves had lost many of
their kin.
Glorfindel
had an idea and he hoped Elrond would concur. “We could take him with us to
Imladris. He could live there.”
“And
I would not harm anyone there?” The siren wanted to know for certain that the
Sea wasn’t close to Imladris. As long as there were no sailors sailing the Sea,
he wouldn’t pose any threat. He would miss the Sea terribly for the Sea was his
home and he didn’t know if he could deal with being away from it, but he would
accept Glorfindel’s offer if it meant he would cause no more deaths.
“Imladris
is located in a valley. There is a river close by, the Bruinen, but it is
hardly deep enough for someone to drown in. We would not let you go there
unsupervised at any rate,” Elrond said thoughtfully. Glorfindel’s suggestion
made sense. He would be inclined to accept the siren into his home, since
Erestor wouldn’t pose a threat there, but would Círdan agree as well? “The final
decision is up to you.”
Círdan
realized that as well. “He can not stay,” Círdan stated eventually. “He
presents a threat as long as he stays close to the Sea. I do not want to
extract any revenge after hearing his tale, so it would be best if he left the
Havens. I know you will keep a close eye on him in Imladris.”
“You
will inform your people of your decision?” Elrond asked.
Círdan
nodded his head. “I will take care of that. Just make sure you take care of
him. I do not want another Elf to die because of him.”
“Because
of the curse,” Glorfindel corrected Círdan. “Erestor never wanted for any of
this to happen.” The siren nodded his head and Glorfindel gave Erestor an
understanding nod in return. “Taking you to Imladris is for the best.”
“I
know that…” The siren bowed his head. He felt sad and depressed. Not only
because of the deaths he had caused, but he also mourned the loss of being
close to the Sea. He would probably never swim in the Sea ever again and the
Sea was in his veins, just like blood was in the Elf’s veins. The Sea was his
world. “I will miss the Sea,” he admitted in a choked voice. “But you are
right...I can not stay in the Havens. I need to put distance between me and the
Sea. I can never return to the Sea – never.”
Glorfindel
sensed the siren’s distress and wished he knew of a solution. “Maybe we will
find a way to lift the curse. Not everything is lost yet. There is always
hope.”
“Not
for me,” Erestor whispered. “I should never have disobeyed Ulmö’s orders. I
should not have gone ashore. I should have stayed with my kin.” He had no one
else to blame for what had happened but himself. He
had caused his own demise. “I will do whatever you want.” If they wanted him to
live in Imladris, he would go there, but what was he supposed to do there? He
was useless. He didn’t possess any skills to repay them for their kindness.
“You
will travel to Imladris with us,” Elrond decided. He would find an occupation
for Erestor. Imladris always needed an extra pair of hands.
The
siren knew he should thank them for their kindness, but saying goodbye to the
Sea would be hard on him. Even while he was seated in Círdan’s house, he heard
the crashing of the waves in his ears and tasted the salt on his lips.
Glorfindel
instinctively understood why the siren was in pain and he rubbed Erestor’s
knuckles. “There is always hope, remember that. You can not change the past.
You can not undo the deaths you caused, but please find comfort in the fact
that you never wanted them to die. You were just an instrument and the wizard
is to blame for their deaths.”
But
the siren shook his head. “If I had obeyed Ulmö and had not ventured ashore,
none of this would have happened. I *am* to blame.” He was painfully aware of
that.
“We
shall see.” Glorfindel smiled warmly at the depressed siren and then locked
gazes with Elrond. The half-Elf nodded his head and that told Glorfindel that
his friend shared his belief that the siren should be helped and not condemned.
~~~
Erestor
didn’t feel comfortable confined to the house, but he knew it was for the best.
From the outside, the Sea called to him, called him home, but he knew he could
not follow that call for it would cause more Elven deaths. He truly had to go
into exile.
Círdan
had assigned this bedroom to him and he felt awkward lying on the bed.
Glorfindel had carried him upstairs, since his legs, unused to walking these
days, had refused to carry him. He would have to strengthen them by exercise,
so he wouldn’t be a burden to Glorfindel and Elrond. It still surprised him
that they had been so lenient toward him, especially since he had caused so
many deaths. His dark hair covered him like a blanket and only his feet showed.
Círdan had placed clothes onto the bed and he knew he ought to dress in them,
but he couldn’t find the strength to put them on. He was a child of the Sea,
one of Ulmö’s creations and it had never been intended for him to walk
Middle-Earth like one of the Firstborn. If only he hadn’t ventured ashore back
then!
“May
I come inside?” Glorfindel had knocked, but the siren hadn’t reacted and so he
had entered after a bit. Erestor looked depressed and appeared lost. The siren
nodded his head and wrapped his arms around his waist in an effort to comfort himself.
Glorfindel
approached the bed and seated himself on the side.
“I
shall miss the Sea,” the siren admitted softly. It hadn’t been his intention to
speak aloud, but he felt comfortable in Glorfindel’s presence and had lowered
his guard.
“I
can not understand what it is like for you, being cut off from your home and
your kin,” Glorfindel responded compassionately.
“The
Sea is in my veins and Ulmö’s song rings in my ears. No matter where I go, I
will never stop hearing it. It pains me that I can never venture into the Sea
again.” Erestor turned his head and gave Glorfindel a weak smile. “I expected
you to end my life. I hoped for it in a way. Death would end my suffering.”
“There
must be a way out,” Glorfindel retorted determinedly. “We shall find a way to
lift the curse.” The siren’s expression remained sad though and Glorfindel knew
that it would be hard to give Erestor hope.
~~~
“What
is the commotion outside about?” Elrond approached Círdan from behind. The
shipwright was looking out of the window at the gathered crowd. A large number
of Elves stood there and they were discussing something rather loudly.
Círdan
strained his hearing and heard what they were talking about. “They do not want
to let the siren go. They feel he needs to be punished for what he did.”
Elrond
sucked in his breath sharply. “We must explain to them why it happened. Surely
they will understand…?”
Círdan
interrupted Elrond. “They lost relatives because of the siren, Elrond. It
matters little to them that a curse made him do it. They want to avenge their
loved ones.” Círdan drew in a deep breath. “I shall talk to them and try to
reason with them. I want you to stay inside. Let me handle this.”
Elrond
realized it would be wise to let Círdan do as he thought was best for Círdan
knew these Elves best. “I will stay here with Glorfindel and the siren.” Círdan
nodded and Elrond watched his friend go outside to reason with the crowd.
Elrond hoped Círdan would succeed in talking some sense into them and that the
crowd wasn’t going to try to take Erestor by force.
~~~
The
siren had also heard the shouting and gave Glorfindel a confused look. Since he
wasn’t inclined to move off the bed, he relied on the Elf to receive his
information. “Are they angry because of me?”
Glorfindel
listened closely for a few moments and realized Círdan was trying to convince
the inhabitants of the Havens to let the siren leave for Imladris instead of
punishing him for their kin’s death. “I am afraid so. They are not very
forgiving. They lost loved ones due to the curse.”
“Due
to my singing,” the siren corrected Glorfindel. “Maybe I should stop hiding and
go outside, let them do as they please. They have every right to…”
“Nay!” Glorfindel firmly shook his head. “It is that
wizard’s fault. He cursed you. You had no choice in the matter. Círdan will
make them understand.” It worried him that the siren was so eager to give himself over to the angry mob. He had wanted to add more,
but remained silent when Elrond entered the room.
“Círdan
will calm them down,” Elrond agreed as he advanced on the bed. The siren was
still only clothed in his long hair and the half-Elf made a note mentally to
arrange for clothing once they left for Imladris. The siren could hardly travel
naked.
In
a show of extraordinary courage, the siren locked gazes with Elrond and asked,
“Are you certain you want me in Imladris? What if I cause more death and
destruction?”
“There
is no Sea in Imladris, nor are there sailors whom you can draw in with your
voice. You can not do any harm in Imladris.” Imladris *was* the siren’s best
option – his only option!
“I
will not cause any problems,” Erestor promised very seriously. He didn’t want
to cause one more death. He would rather take his own life.
~~~
“You
can not afford to wait,” Círdan said upon entering the siren’s room. “You must
leave now. They will let you go, but the longer you stay, the more reluctant
they will become to let you pass. Ready yourself for departure.”
Elrond
had already surmised as much. “I will ready the horses. Glorfindel, prepare our
‘guest’ for travel.” He glanced at Erestor
then. “Put some clothes on him,” he added upon seeing Glorfindel’s confusion.
“Ah,
yes, of course.” Glorfindel had the grace to blush. Since the siren’s beauty
was so extraordinary he had taken great pleasure in looking at him. “I shall
find you some robes.”
“I
suggest a cloak.” Círdan removed a blue traveling cloak from the closet and
handed the garment to Glorfindel. “Hurry. I am not
certain they will remain placated for long.”
Elrond
draped the traveling cloak across the siren’s shoulders and pulled him to his
feet. “Can you walk unaided?”
“I
can try.” Erestor felt unsteady though and reached forward to support himself
by placing a hand on Elrond’s shoulder. He wasn’t sure the half-Elf would allow
it, but Elrond reacted by wrapping an arm around his waist. “Thank you. I will
grow stronger the more I try to walk.”
Elrond
absentmindedly nodded his head. He wasn’t too concerned by the fact that
Erestor still needed to strengthen his legs. He worried more about the angry
crowd outside. “I suppose you never rode a horse before?”
The
siren shook his head. “You are right. I never did.”
“Well,
there is a first time for everything,” Elrond said.
~~~
Even
Glorfindel felt uncomfortable when he led their horses to the front of the
house. The mood was volatile and the normally placid Elves could resort to
violence at any given moment. Their grief over their lost ones could push them
over the edge.
Círdan,
Elrond, and the siren appeared and a loud noise swept through the crowd. The
Elves raised angry voices and some of them even shook a fist at Erestor.
“Elrond, mount quickly.” Glorfindel moved forward and pulled the swaying siren
with him. He lifted Erestor onto Asfaloth’s back and then mounted as well. In
the meantime, Elrond had mounted his stallion and they were ready to leave.
“I
am sorry that we have to run like this,” Elrond addressed Círdan. He would have
loved to spend more time with his old friend.
“You
have no choice,” Círdan replied in understanding. “Now go!” He didn’t know how
long his people could contain themselves. He swatted the stallion’s back and
urged Elrond and Glorfindel to take to the road.
“Hold
on,” Glorfindel ordered Erestor, whom he had placed in front of him. He had
wrapped his arms around the trembling siren and offered him as much support as
he could. Erestor’s long fingers buried themselves in Asfaloth’s gray mane and
Glorfindel pushed his heels into the horse’s flank.
When
they left the Havens, a wave of angry cries accompanied them and Glorfindel
urged Asfaloth to run faster. The siren’s trembling worsened and Glorfindel
whispered, “It will not be long and then you shall be in safety.”
Erestor
heard the words, but they didn’t comfort him. He might be safe in Imladris,
wanted even, but that didn’t take away the fact that he was responsible for
several deaths.
2.
Imladris
Being
on horseback was a novel experience for the siren who until then had only been
in the Sea or walking ashore. The fact that an animal was moving beneath him
caused all kinds of strange sensations in his body. It helped him become aware
of his changed existence. This was what his life would be like for the rest of
it! He would never return to the Sea and would be confined to the land forever.
That realization left him shaking. Was he brave enough to face a life like
that? But then again, did he have a choice?
“You
do not have to be scared. You will be quite safe in Imladris.” Glorfindel had
felt the siren tremble and had concluded that their flight from the Havens had
shaken him.
“It
is not that,” Erestor whispered, half turning his head so only Glorfindel heard
him. “I shall miss the Sea.”
Glorfindel
nodded. The siren had told him that before. “Elrond had large baths built – the
pools are large enough for you to swim in.” Hopefully that bit of information
would reassure the siren.
Erestor
felt grateful that the Elf was going to such lengths to reassure him, but a
swim in a pool didn’t compare to swimming in the salty, wide-open Sea. “Thank
you.”
Elrond
overheard their conversation and burrowed deeper into the hood of his traveling
cloak. He had taken on quite a bit when he had offered to take the siren in and
offer him a home. What that entailed was only now registering with him.
~~~
They
made camp early that night mainly because the siren began to shift
uncomfortably in front of Glorfindel and the blond Elf concluded that riding a
horse was causing Erestor to grow sore. Since they would be riding several more
weeks, he didn’t want to push their charge and called out to Elrond to make
camp.
Seated
around a fire, the two Elves alternatively cast glances at Erestor. The siren
was silent and rarely spoke when not spoken to. He had pulled the cloak close
and his dark hair fell like a curtain in front of his face. It was impossible
to deduce what he was thinking about. Or maybe it wasn’t that difficult after
all, Elrond realized. The siren had to be thinking of the Sea and that he was
never going to see it again. Elrond wanted to reach out, so he said, “Maybe you
can return to your kin once we find a way to lift the curse.”
That
drew the siren’s attention and he looked at Elrond with large haunted eyes. “I
do not believe there is a way to lift the curse.”
“And
why is that?” Glorfindel asked as he stirred the soup Círdan had packed into
their saddle bags in a small pot over the fire.
Erestor’s
shoulders slumped forward. “Not even Lord Ulmö himself knew of a way to lift
the curse. And you…” He flinched but continued, “You are mere Elves. I do not
mean to offend you, but what makes you think you can help me when the Lord of Waters
could not?”
Glorfindel
chuckled at Elrond’s shocked expression. Sometimes the half-Elf didn’t realize
his own limitations and that was good for it helped the Elf-Lord to achieve the
impossible, like creating a safe haven in Imladris. “We do not possess the
power the Valar do that much is true, so therefore we rely on other abilities.
We are intelligent and cunning…” Glorfindel paused dramatically before adding,
“And we have Mithrandir.”
Elrond
nodded his head thoughtfully. Glorfindel was right. Maybe the wizard could
help. “You make a valid point. I will send for Mithrandir once we are home.”
Erestor
raised an eyebrow questioningly. He had never heard that name before. “Who is
he?”
“Mithrandir
is a wizard and a good friend. Maybe he knows of a way to lift the curse. If I
send for him, he will visit with us and then we can consider our
possibilities,” Elrond explained.
“I
find it hard to believe that a wizard is wiser than Lord Ulmö himself,” Erestor
whispered. He didn’t want to appear disrespectful or arrogant, but as far as he
was concerned, Lord Ulmö was the wisest Vala around.
~~~
Later
that night, the siren lay awake and stared at the stars. The stars remained the
same, regardless of the location from which he watched them, but he still
missed hearing the gentle surf of the waves and his kin’s moonlight songs. How
was he going to cope with being the only one of his kind out there? How was he
going to deal with his loneliness? Unknown to Erestor, more tears appeared and
glided down his face. In the light of the fire, they were clearly visible and
one Elf noticed them.
Glorfindel
rose from the ground and made his way over to the siren. Seeing the tears
sliding down the face, he reached out and stroked the raven hair. At the touch,
Erestor raised his head and his swimming eyes made Glorfindel sigh deeply. The
siren’s pain was palpable and Glorfindel wished he knew of a way to lessen
Erestor’s sorrow. “You are not alone,” he murmured eventually and fingered a
strand of the thick, dark hair. The strand reacted to his touch by wrapping
itself around his wrist and Glorfindel raised a puzzled eyebrow as he realized
that the dark hair possessed a life of its own.
“I
miss…” He missed his old life. He missed his kin. He missed the Sea. “What do I
have left?”
“Me…
Elrond, Imladris… Give yourself time to adjust to these changes.” Glorfindel
exchanged a look with Elrond, who was sitting a bit to the side since he was
keeping watch. He hoped the half-Elf would be inclined to reassure the siren as
well.
“Glorfindel
is right. You will have a new home there.” Elrond wondered if taking the siren
with them had been a smart thing to do. Would Erestor ever grow accustomed to
living in Imladris? But what was the alternative? Letting the Elves of the
Havens have their way with the siren? No, he wanted no part of that. Taking
Erestor with them had been their only option. “I will introduce you to my wife
and sons and we will find a position at my court for you.” It was important
that the siren have a duty to perform because then he couldn’t dwell on the
past. “Maybe you can assist me.” He needed an assistant.
“You
can stay with me, if that would make adjusting to your new life easier,”
Glorfindel offered. Being left alone in separate rooms would give the siren
even more time to brood and he wanted to prevent that from happening.
Erestor
wiped at his tears and pushed himself up onto an elbow. He looked at Glorfindel
for a long time and then said, “I do not want to be a burden to you.”
“You
are not a burden.” Glorfindel didn’t exactly know what made him lie down close
to the siren, but he did and pulled Erestor into his arms. It had probably
started the first time he had looked into those large eyes. He had taken a
liking to the siren, but it was more. He cared for him – deeply. That first
time he had looked at Erestor, he had felt connected to him and that sense had
deepened. The siren gave him a look that spoke of insecurity and Glorfindel
resolutely wrapped his arms around Erestor’s shoulders. “You are not a burden,”
he repeated when the siren tried to keep his distance. “Please do not lock me
out.”
Unable
to maintain his distance since Glorfindel was offering his comfort, Erestor
inched closer. He closed his eyes and soaked up the closeness Glorfindel was
supplying him with. He didn’t know what he had done to deserve such kindness,
but he wasn’t going to question Glorfindel’s compassion and simply accepted it.
~~~
Over
the next few weeks a comfortable companionship developed between Erestor and
Glorfindel. Elrond watched them and kept his distance, realizing that it would
be beneficial if the siren grew attached to one of them. Being close to
Glorfindel would help Erestor adjust to life in Imladris and therefore he
didn’t comment on the fact that Glorfindel held the siren in his arms most of
the nights. He witnessed how Erestor became less guarded and accepted their
support a bit more readily. Yet, the siren remained quiet and seldom instigated
conversation. Erestor vegetated and Elrond hoped that would change once they
arrived in Imladris. Tomorrow, they would arrive at the Last Homely House and
Elrond was already looking forward to being reunited with his family again.
~~~
Erestor
leaned back and rested his back against Glorfindel’s chest. The warrior’s arms
rested around his waist and held him steady. Over the last few weeks, he had
grown a bit more accustomed to being on his feet and could walk short distances
unaided. Yet, he always longed to jump into the Sea and feel his legs change back
to a fish’s tail.
“Look.
That is your new home. That is the Last Homely House,” Glorfindel said as he
pointed out the structure to his charge.
In
spite of everything, the siren felt curious and took in the sight. The fact
that a waterfall was situated close to the structure made him smile. The
presence of water, no matter what kind of water, did comfort him. “It is
beautiful.”
“We
have to pass the river Bruinen first,” Elrond stated and urged his stallion to
descend the path that led toward the river. Now that he was close to home, he
was eager to speed up their pace.
Glorfindel
guided Asfaloth down the path and a moment later, they stood at the banks of
the river. Tension had built in the siren and Glorfindel wondered what was
wrong.
“What
if I cause more deaths here?” Erestor stared at the water and tasted the salt
in it. The river stood in contact with the Sea and carried its taste, smell,
and power.
“Do
you feel the compulsion to sing and bring us under your spell so we will die?”
Glorfindel asked curiously.
“I
do not,” the siren replied truthfully, which was odd.
“Then
do not worry about bringing death, my friend,” Glorfindel said and rested his
chin on Erestor’s shoulder. “Things have changed.”
“Do
you think…” The siren wavered, uncertain if he had the
right to ask something of them.
“What
is it?” Elrond had dismounted and took a moment to reconnect with the lands,
the river, and the power that coursed through his veins since he was home
again. Vilya pulsated on his finger and Elrond drew in a deep breath to still
the surge of power that moved through him. Turning his head, he looked into
large, black eyes and it wasn’t hard to guess what Erestor wanted from them.
“Do
you think it is safe for me to enter the water?” Erestor needed to immerse
himself in the water. His skin itched and his very soul called out to the
river.
“Why
do we not find out?” Elrond raised a hand and gestured for the siren to
dismount and enter the river.
“You
trust me not to escape?” he asked as he slipped from Asfaloth’s back. The fact
that these Elves trusted him amazed him.
Glorfindel
dismounted as well and followed Erestor as the siren made his way to the river.
“We do.” The truth was that both Glorfindel and Elrond knew that Erestor had no
place to run. Where would he go?
The
traveling cloak pooled around the siren’s legs and his raven hair danced in the
mild breeze. The water called out to him and Erestor slowly waded into the
water. He momentarily forgot about the two Elves as his entire being was filled
with the awareness of being surrounded by water. He slid into the cool water
and dived deeper until he had reached the bottom. Instantly, his body reacted
to the changed surroundings and his legs transformed into a tail with silver
scales. His raven hair cloaked his naked form and his lungs adapted to
breathing water instead of air. His entire body thrummed with completion and he
forgot that this was only a momentary state.
On
the river bank, two pair of eyes followed the siren’s form beneath the water.
Both Glorfindel and Elrond stood awe-struck at seeing Erestor’s shape change.
It was one thing to read about Ulmö’s fabled children of the Sea, but it was
another to actually see one of them glide through the water. Elrond eventually
managed to shift his glance from the siren’s form to Glorfindel’s and said,
“Until now I did not fully realize that he was different. He looks like an
Elf.”
Glorfindel
nodded. “But he is not an Elf. He is one of Ulmö’s children. Look at him.” He
already regretted the fact that eventually Erestor would have to leave the
water and travel to the Last Homely House with them. “That is where he belongs:
in the water.”
“But
you know that we can not allow him to return to the Sea,” Elrond reminded
Glorfindel. “The curse will take effect again and his song will cause more
deaths.”
“I
know that,” Glorfindel responded while sighing deeply. He regretted having to
call Erestor back, but he had no choice. It was time they left the river and
headed for the house.
The
siren didn’t hear Glorfindel calling him at first. Locked in his own world deep
beneath the water, the Elf’s calls hardly registered with him, but eventually
he had to acknowledge them and surfaced again.
Glorfindel’s
heart missed a beat at seeing the magnificent beauty rise from the water.
Countless droplets of water hugged Erestor’s form and they glistered like
diamonds set in-between the raven tresses. The moment Erestor left the water
his tail vanished and was replaced with those long legs. The raven hair clung
to the siren’s body and Erestor lowered his gaze once he stood in front of the
two Elves.
It
was hard to accept that this was only a brief moment in time during which he
had been happy. He had felt whole when he had been swimming in the river and
that feeling of happiness was quickly dwindling since he had to deal with
reality again.
“We
can come here whenever you like,” Glorfindel said in an effort to comfort the
distressed siren. He picked up the traveling cloak and wrapped it around
Erestor’s still wet form.
Erestor
pulled the fabric closer and didn’t raise his gaze yet. Swimming in the river
had reminded him of what he had to give up in exchange for those sailors to be
safe. It was a sacrifice he had to make. “Thank you for your kind offer.”
Erestor swallowed hard and then added, “I advise you not to let me come out
here alone, for my instincts might prove the better of me and urge me to return
to my kin in the Sea. The need to return to them is still there, even though I
know what will happen should I fail to resist that temptation.” He finally
raised his gaze and made eye contact with Glorfindel. “I can not be trusted in
that aspect.”
Glorfindel
nodded. “I understand and I will heed your warning. We will come here together.
You will never be alone out here.”
Elrond
agreed silently that keeping a close eye on the siren would be best for
everyone involved.
~~~
“Milady! Lord Elrond is about to arrive!”
Flustered, Melpomaen entered Celebrían’s rooms. “I wish I could have informed
you sooner, but the word reached me only just now!”
She
looked up and smiled at the flushed Seneschal. She sat in her favorite rocking
chair and her hands rested upon her swollen belly. She was eight months
pregnant and felt relieved that her husband had arrived so early. She had been
afraid that his assignment in the Havens would last longer and that he might
not be there to help her deliver their daughter. “Did you already tell my sons,
Melpomaen?”
“Nay,
Milady. I thought I should inform you first. I can do that now, if you would like!”
Melpomaen was about to turn and leave the room when she moaned softly and
raised a hand.
“Before
you leave, kindly assist me to my feet.” She felt heavy and standing up on her
own was becoming more awkward. She also liked ‘toying’ with Melpomaen a bit.
The other Elf had felt shy and awkward around her since she had become pregnant
and embarrassing Melpomaen was a small joy in her life right now.
Melpomaen
nodded his head once as he approached. As carefully as if he was touching
precious porcelain, he helped her to her feet and, once she stood, he instantly
moved back. She gave him a wicked smile, which made Melpomaen blush even more
deeply.
“Tell
my sons then,” she said. “I am going to the courtyard to welcome my husband.”
“Do
you not need assistance? I can call someone who will escort you to the
courtyard.” He didn’t want to leave her alone in her current state! What if she
took a fall?
“Can
I help?” Orophin peeked around the corner. Celeborn had assigned him and his
brothers to watch over Celebrían during her pregnancy after the Lord of the
Golden Wood had learned that Elrond was going to travel to the Havens. The
three Lórien brothers had hovered close ever since. At least one of them was
close to Celebrían and she had accepted their presence with grace after
realizing that her father was concerned about her well-being.
“You
can escort me to the courtyard,” she answered, giving in. She knew only too
well that Orophin would sneak after her if she denied him.
“I
would be delighted to be of service to you!” Orophin bowed and then offered her
his arm in order to support herself. The two of them then headed for the
courtyard while Melpomaen hurried to inform the twins.
~~~
“Too
much paperwork…” Elrohir commented with a sigh.
“Too
much time spent indoors when we could have been riding and sparring,” Elladan
whispered in agreement. They had split Elrond’s duties between them and had
worked well together, but the boring work had made the twins realize that
neither of them was looking forward to becoming the Lord of Imladris. “Let us
hope Adar does not plan to retire any time soon!”
“If
he does, you will become Lord of Imladris, which will leave me free to roam the
lands!” Elrohir stuck his tongue out childishly.
“Do
not count on it,” Elladan countered. “I will name you Seneschal and then you
will have to assist me!”
Elrohir
grinned. “Just try that!” The banter distracted them from their work and they
smiled at each other. They were about to tackle the last pile of letters when
Melpomaen unexpectedly burst into the study.
“Milords!” Melpomaen started and
then gasped for breath for he had been running and was out of breath. Although
he had helped raise the twins, he found it hard to call them by their names.
Since they were the future Lords of Imladris, he felt they should be addressed
properly. The twins however didn’t quite agree.
“Mel.
Stop calling us that!” Elrohir rose from his chair and smiled at the Seneschal.
“What is amiss?”
“Your
father is about to arrive!” Melpomaen had managed to catch his breath and
nodded his head. “Your mother is already headed for the courtyard.”
“Thank
Elbereth that Adar is back.” Elladan cast the letter he had been reading from
him and stood. Elrond could finish their correspondence later! “We shall join
her then!” He grabbed Elrohir’s wrist and pulled his twin along with him. When
Melpomaen remained motionless, he paused, turned his head, and asked, “Mel, are
you not going to join us?” Melpomaen had always been Mel to the both of them.
The brown-haired Elf had been their teacher during their adolescence and had
become a friend after they had reached majority.
Melpomaen
sighed. “That means more running then?” He really *was* out of shape, but that
was hardly surprising considering the fact that he was locked up inside his
study most of the day. Sometimes he longed for the days when the twins had kept
him on his feet. The Elflings had loved to play hide and seek as well as tag
and had kept him in shape in general.
The
twins smiled at each other and then Elladan released Elrohir’s wrist. He
marched over to where Melpomaen was standing and took hold of the Seneschal’s
wrist instead. “Come on now!”
Melpomaen
had no choice but to start running as Elladan pulled him along and he loved it.
~~~
Erestor
felt timid as they entered the courtyard. A number of Elves were already
waiting there and he tried to hide within the hood of the traveling cloak. His
hair moved deeper around his face, shielding him from their curious looks, but
the siren knew that he eventually had to face them. Thankfully Glorfindel
remained close and he found comfort in that.
“They
will like you,” Glorfindel murmured as they approached the welcoming party.
“Not
when they know what I did,” the siren answered nervously.
“They
will only know what you want them to know,” Glorfindel assured the siren.
Erestor gave him a hopeful look and he added, “They do not need to know about
the curse since they are not at risk of falling victim to it.”
“But
they should know,” Erestor replied waveringly. “They ought to know what they
are dealing with. I present a danger to them.”
“Nay,
you do not,” Elrond said after overhearing their conversation. “My wife is
eight months pregnant and we are not going to worry her unnecessary. The curse
does not affect you as long as you reside here. There is no Sea here, no
sailors, and no possibility of drawing them in. You shall keep quiet about the
curse and so shall we. Is that understood?”
The
siren had no choice but to nod his head. Elrond *was* the Lord of Imladris.
~~~
“There
is a stranger with them,” Elladan muttered, feeling curious. “I wonder who he
is.”
Elrohir
had reached the same conclusion. The long, raven hair that peeked from beneath
the traveling cloak glittered like nothing he had ever seen in the sunlight. “Adar
will tell us.”
Orophin
remained close to Celebrían. Although she had repeatedly reassured him that
there was no reason to fuss over her, he remained vigilant. The three brothers
had promised Celeborn to look over her and they took their duty very seriously.
Melpomaen
belatedly realized that Elladan still had a hold on his wrist. Why had the
half-Elf not let go yet?
“Elrond!” Celebrían moved forward and gave her
husband a warm smile. She longed to hold him in her arms again!
Elrond
slipped from his stallion’s back and made his way over to his wife. He
carefully wrapped her in an embrace and kissed her. It had only been weeks, but
her belly had swollen further and their daughter was growing steadily. In
another four months, Celebrían would give birth to their child and he planned
on being there for her during that hour. “It is good to be home again. I missed
you.” He kissed her again and then planted a tender kiss on her brow.
Glorfindel
helped the siren dismount and then followed suit. He kept a hand resting at the
small of Erestor’s back and felt the siren tremble forcefully since he was
about to be introduced to the party. “Calm down. You are among friends.”
Erestor
tried hard to believe that, but he still remembered how volatile and hostile the
inhabitants of the Haven had been. Would these Elves really
welcome them into their midst?
“Glorfindel!” Elrohir moved forward and hugged his
former teacher and friend. “Who is this?” His curious eyes searched the
stranger’s face and he blinked as he encountered a haunting beauty hidden
beneath the hood of the cloak.
“This
is Erestor. We encountered him at the Havens and invited him to travel along
and make his home here. He accepted.” Glorfindel carefully chose his words.
“Welcome
to Imladris, Erestor.” Elrohir inclined his head in greeting.
Erestor
didn’t know how to react to them. They seemed friendly and welcoming, but what
would happen once they learned about his past? He didn’t agree with Elrond. He
felt they had the right to know that they were welcoming danger in their midst.
Elrond
pulled his wife close and then looked at his sons. “Erestor will stay with us.
He will dwell with Glorfindel for now. If he desires so, we will ready separate
rooms for him, but for now it seems best to let him enjoy Glorfindel’s
company.”
Celebrían,
more used to being in touch with magic than her sons, sensed the magic that
clung to Erestor. She didn’t know exactly what he was, but it was clear to her
that he wasn’t Elven. She tasted the power, the magic, and even the salt of the
Sea when she looked into his dark eyes. “Welcome to Imladris, Erestor of the
Havens.”
Erestor
bowed gracefully and then felt at a loss again. What did they expect from him?
He had little knowledge of their rituals or habits and was afraid to do
something that would awaken their anger. Glorfindel thankfully sensed this and
remained close.
“You
must be tired,” Melpomaen suggested, acting his part as Imladris’ Seneschal.
“Maybe you would like to rest before taking dinner with us in the Hall of
Fire?” There would undoubtedly be a feast to celebrate Elrond’s safe return.
The
siren didn’t feel tired. He never did. Being one of Ulmö’s children he had no
need to eat, drink, or sleep, but he didn’t say that aloud since he didn’t want
them to perceive him as different. He would pretend he was tired for it would
hopefully reassure them and they wouldn’t feel the need to probe deeper. “Thank
you for your kindness,” he responded eventually and hoped he had said the right
thing.
“I
will take care of him,” Glorfindel added and began to pull his charge into the
house with him. “We will join you again for dinner later.” He wanted Erestor to
have a chance to calm down before exposing him to a crowd once more. Erestor
followed willingly and Glorfindel guided him through the long corridors.
“They
should know what I am,” the siren murmured and came to a halt when Glorfindel
did. Apparently they had reached the Elf’s rooms.
“Maybe
later…but there is no need to tell them right now.” Glorfindel opened the door
and the sound of laughter reached him. That reminded him: he had forgotten to
tell Erestor about Lindir.
~~~
“I
am delighted to have you back at my side.” Celebrían linked her arm with
Elrond’s and walked alongside her husband back into the building.
“You
look radiant, my love.” Elrond smiled at her. She was blooming and he had the
feeling she would grow lovelier as the day of the birth approached. That had
also been the case when she had carried the twins. Elrond turned his head and
grinned at his sons. “I trust you welcomed this chance to abandon the
paperwork?” He knew of their ‘fondness’ for answering
their correspondence.
“Truly
Adar, we are glad to have you back to!” Elrohir returned his father’s smile.
“For it means we can return to the training grounds and are no longer locked up
inside that dungeon you call a study!”
Melpomaen
found himself walked next to Elladan and the half-Elf gave him a cheeky grin.
Elladan had always been a difficult student to teach. The heir preferred to be
outside and sparring, going on a patrol, or carrying out some prank, and he
hated being locked up indoors. Sometimes, Melpomaen wondered what was to become
of Imladris if Elladan had to follow in his father’s footsteps.
“Why so gloomy, Mel?” Elladan leaned in closer
and gave the Seneschal a probing look. “Are you not pleased that my father has
returned? That will also ease your workload.”
“I
do not mind working hard,” Melpomaen replied softly. “It is my duty to relieve
Lord Elrond’s workload.”
“Your
duty…” Elladan’s eyes probed deeper. “Do you never have any fun, Mel?” His
former tutor had always remained a bit of a mystery to the twin. “What *do* you
do for fun?”
“Fun?” Melpomaen surmised it was best to play along.
“In-between my work and running after you to keep you out of trouble I have no
time to do anything ‘fun’.”
Elladan
snorted. “As if you ever minded running after me!” The
only times he saw Melpomaen laugh was when the elder Elf fussed over him.
“You
were an adorable little Elfling,” Melpomaen replied. “And so was your twin. I
never minded watching the two of you,” he added quickly when Elrohir gave him a
probing look
Elladan
suddenly came to a halt and, since they were about to go left, Melpomaen bumped
into the half-Elf. “What?” Melpomaen inquired as he composed himself and
stepped away from his former charge. “Why did you stop walking?” Elrohir,
Elrond, and Celebrían continued to walk though and quickly rounded the corner
and were out of sight.
“Promise
me that you will dance with me tonight!” Elladan gave Melpomaen his most wicked
look. “I know you are an excellent dancer.” But Melpomaen wasn’t one to walk up
to an Elf and invite them to dance. Making him promise was the only way this
would work.
“Elladan,”
Melpomaen said and a soft smile surfaced on his normally serious face. “It has
been decades since we danced.” Little Elladan used to hop onto his feet and
they would dance like that. “You have reached majority and should be looking
out for a mate instead of asking your old tutor to dance with you!”
When
Elladan replied, he wasn’t certain he was joking or being serious. He was at
that age when one’s feelings baffled one and made little sense. “Maybe I *am*
looking out for a possible mate tonight?”
The
answer stopped Melpomaen in his tracks. He gave Elladan a look full of
disbelief and then stuttered, “W-What?”
“You
heard me.” Elladan felt insecure himself, but asking Melpomaen to spend more
time with him had been on his mind often lately. He had just been waiting for
the opportune moment to ask him. “Just make sure you will be there, Mel.” He
then rounded the corner and disappeared from view before Melpomaen could
question him further.
Melpomaen
just stood there for a long moment. Elladan hadn’t just hinted he would make a
suitable mate, had he? Shaking his head, Melpomaen turned and made his way to
his office. It was probably best he didn’t attend that evening’s celebrations.
Elrond would understand his absence if he told the Elf-Lord what had happened
between Elladan and him just then.
~~~
The
door opened and Lindir launched himself at Glorfindel. Hugging the other Elf’s
waist, he happily pressed his face against the fabric of Glorfindel’s shirt.
“You are back!” The Elfling’s large blue eyes stared adoringly up at
Glorfindel, but then the boy realized that the other Elf wasn’t alone. “Who is
that?”
Glorfindel
ruffled the Elfling’s hair and smiled at his adopted son. “Good afternoon,
Lindir.” He lowered himself onto his heels and pressed a parental kiss onto the
boy’s brow. “I trust you listened well and caused no trouble?” He would
introduce Lindir to Erestor in a moment. First, he wanted to convince himself
that all was well with the child.
“He
is a sweet child,” Rúmil said as he rose to his feet. Lindir and he had been
playing on the floor, building castles out of wooden blocks. “He stayed out of
trouble.”
Glorfindel
grinned at the Galadhel. “Ah, did Melpomaen promote you to baby sitter?”
Rúmil
laughed. “Actually, Elladan did.” The half-Elf had felt it best to assign a
minder to little Lindir and Rúmil had volunteered since he had taken a liking
to the boy. “But now that you are here, I am no longer needed.” He would rejoin
his brothers then.
“You
do not have to leave on my account.” But Rúmil was already on his way out and
Glorfindel added, “You are always welcome to spend time with Lindir.”
Rúmil
nodded his head to show he accepted the offer and then halted when he stood in
front of the stranger. The mysterious eyes that peeked out from beneath a mass
of raven, silky hair lured him closer and he cocked his head questioningly, but
then heard Glorfindel whisper, “Later.” Rúmil understood that he was no longer
needed. He would find his chance to talk to this mystifying being later.
The
siren didn’t know what to make of the fact that a child was clinging to
Glorfindel. The Elfling possessed large blue eyes and golden hair that could
have been Glorfindel’s legacy, but somehow, Erestor didn’t think they were
father and son. “Who are you?” he asked and cocked his head questioningly.
Lindir
let go of Glorfindel and took a step toward the stranger. He didn’t feel afraid
or intimidated and smiled winningly at the new arrival. “I am Lindir. I live
with Glorfindel.” He bowed and then extended his hand in greeting.
The
siren had seen the Firstborn greet other Elves in this way and slowly placed
his hand in Lindir’s. “I am Erestor,” he introduced himself. “You are very
small.”
Realizing
what was going on, Glorfindel responded, “Lindir is an Elfling. He is only ten
years old and children of that age *are* rather small.”
“I
am not small!” Lindir retorted indignantly.
“I
apologize if I offended you,” Erestor whispered and snatched back his hand.
“You
did not.” Lindir took another step closer to Erestor and smiled reassuringly at
him. At first, Lindir hadn’t realized it, but Erestor was actually nervous to
meet him. “Are you going to live here with us?” He didn’t know why exactly he
had asked that question. He only knew he would like to know Erestor. Erestor
looked like he had stepped right out of one of those tales Glorfindel would
regal him with. A creature of old age and wisdom and in
possession of an amazing beauty.
“Aye,
he is going to live with us,” Glorfindel said and gently nudged Erestor into
the room so he could finally close the door behind them. He would never admit
it, but Glorfindel was someone who always readily took in ‘strays’.
Erestor
turned his head and looked at Glorfindel. Choosing directness, he asked, “Is
Lindir yours?”
Glorfindel
took Lindir’s hand in his and guided the Elfling to the comfortable rocking
chair that stood close to the fireplace, whose fire warmed up the rooms nicely.
“He is mine to care for and love.” He pulled the boy onto his lap and Lindir
wrapped his arms around Glorfindel’s waist. “He may not be my flesh and blood,
but I love him like he is my own.” Lindir smiled at hearing that and Glorfindel
stroked the boy’s fair hair. “I do not know who his parents are. Lindir showed
up one day in Imladris, five years ago. He was traveling with human gypsies and
they used him to attract clients. Elrond talked them into handing the Elfling
over to us and I volunteered to raise him. We have been happy ever since, have
we not, little one?” Lindir firmly nodded his head.
The
siren wondered if accepting Glorfindel’s offer to share his rooms had been a
good decision. “I will be in the way.” He didn’t want to ruin the happiness the
two Elves had found with each other.
“Nonsense,”
Glorfindel retorted and glared at the siren. “Lindir has his own room and he
has become quite an independent Elfling over the years. He just wants to cuddle
occasionally, do you not?” Lindir giggled and so did Glorfindel.
Seeing
them together and happy, Erestor felt uncomfortable. He felt quite the
intruder.
Lindir,
sensing Erestor’s growing depression, jumped from Glorfindel’s lap and walked
over to the adult. He raised a hand and smiled invitingly. Erestor sat on his
heels, just like he had seen Glorfindel do, and watched the miniature version
of Glorfindel closely. The eyes were clear and accepting. There was no jealousy
or discomfort in the corners of the mouth and the Elfling seemed willing to
accept him. “I do not want to intrude on your happiness.”
Glorfindel
held his breath, but at the same time he trusted Lindir to make the right
decision. The child was wise for his age.
“Are
you an Elf? There is something different about you.”
Erestor,
unused to sitting on his heels for so long, sat cross-legged on the floor and
the Elfling followed his example, sitting down in front of him. “Not exactly.” Should he tell Lindir the truth? He didn’t
believe in lies, but Elrond had told him to keep his identity a secret.
Glorfindel
rose from his chair and knelt close to Lindir. He read the questions in
Erestor’s eyes and knew he had to help him out. “Erestor hails from the Sea,
little Lindir.”
“The Sea?” The minstrels had told him about the
Havens and the Sea and even Glorfindel occasionally sang of the longing that
drew a lot of Elves to the Sea. “What is the Sea like?”
“It
is beautiful,” the siren replied and his voice took on a distant tone. “It is
cool and comforting. The waves rock you to sleep and if you listen closely you
hear the Sea’s song.”
Little
Lindir, even as young as he was, realized something odd was going on and looked
questioningly at Glorfindel. Glorfindel however put a finger in front of his
lips, indicating they should let Erestor talk.
Erestor
forced himself to stop drifting away from them and pulled himself away from his
desire to return to the Sea. “I lived in the Sea,” he said when Glorfindel
didn’t stop him. “I am one of Ulmö’s children.”
“I
know that name! Ulmö is one of the Valar! He is Lord of Waters!” Lindir felt
proud for remembering that! “Is he your father?”
“In a way. He created me and my kin.” Erestor felt
lonely and longed for his brothers and sisters.
“Then
why are you here when you belong in the Sea with your family?” Lindir asked,
puzzled.
Glorfindel
intercepted Erestor’s alarmed expression and answered in the siren’s stead.
“Erestor has chosen to live with us because he wants to explore the life of the
Firstborn. He will stay with us for quite some time.” The siren gave him a
grateful look and Glorfindel smiled ruefully.
The
answer satisfied Lindir’s curiosity and the Elfling realized he could learn a
great many things from one of Ulmö’s children. The fact that Erestor *was* some
kind of magical being, as far as the boy was concerned, also appealed to him.
“I hope you will like living with Glorfindel and me.”
“I
hope you will like living with me.” Erestor felt more insecure than he wanted
them to know.
~~~
“Did
any problems occur during my absence?” Elrond seated himself close to his wife
and placed a hand against her abdomen so he could feel their daughter move
about.
“No
problems,” Melpomaen answered as he smiled at the homely scene. “Your sons took
over your duties and performed them well, although grudgingly.”
“They
are not made to sit behind a desk all day. They are still young and want to
explore.” Celebrían understood her sons only too well. Sometimes it vexed her
too that she was confined to the house because of her pregnancy. But she didn’t
want to risk any complications and had accepted her lot. “They will settle down
once they find a mate in life.”
Melpomaen
coughed in order to clear his throat. “I ask to be excused from the festivities
tonight.”
“And
why is that?” Elrond raised an eyebrow and gave Melpomaen a questioning look.
The other Elf was a good friend and they had known each other for a long time.
Melpomaen had been one of Ereinion’s advisors before he had accepted the
position as Elrond’s Seneschal.
“I
feel it is best for me not to make an appearance tonight.” Melpomaen however
knew he had to do better than that. “Elladan asked me to dance with him.”
Celebrían
giggled in delight. “And that is your reason why you do not wish to attend? I
recall that you are a fairly good dancer, Melpomaen.”
Elrond
chuckled and nodded his head once. “I agree with my wife. My son asking you to
dance with him is hardly a reason to forgo the festivities, my old friend.”
“You
do not understand!” Frustrated, Melpomaen started to pace the room. “He hinted
that he was looking out for a mate!”
“But
that is wonderful news!” Celebrían clapped her hands. “I have been hoping
Elladan would finally start searching for one!”
Melpomaen
felt like ripping out his hair. “Do you not understand? He hinted that I was a
suitable candidate!”
Now
that silenced Celebrían, but only for a few seconds. “And would that be so
terrible an option?” she asked Melpomaen.
“I
was his tutor! He was my student! He is just past his majority and I am old! It
would not do!” Melpomaen continued to pace and avoided looking at the couple,
so therefore he didn’t see the amused look Elrond and Celebrían exchanged. “Of
course it is terrible! He should be looking out for an Elf more close to his
own age, like Orophin! Or Rúmil!”
“But
what if he fancies you instead?” Elrond rose from the couch, advanced on
Melpomaen, and forced him to come to a stop by resting a hand on his friend’s
shoulder. “I can not fault Elladan’s choice.”
“By the Grace of the Valar! You can not be serious,
Elrond! I have nothing to offer someone like Elladan! He is your heir!”
Melpomaen felt shocked when he discovered that the couple didn’t oppose
Elladan’s choice.
“On
the contrary; you have much to offer,” Celebrían said from where she was seated
on the couch. “I think you ought to attend the festivities tonight, Melpomaen.”
“Elrond…please…”
Melpomaen gave his friend a pleading look. Elrond was his last hope to escape
this mess.
“I
tend to agree with my wife,” Elrond answered slowly. “I count on you to attend
dinner this evening and to dance with my son. I will not have you disappoint
him.” Elrond delivered the words with a wicked smile, which left Melpomaen
speechless. He couldn’t go against one of his Lord’s direct wishes and would
have to attend.
3.
Courtship Rituals
“You
need clothes!” Lindir declared in a voice that sounded much older than he was.
“You are naked beneath your hair!” Lindir giggled and Glorfindel couldn’t help
himself and joined in.
“Just
have a look in my closet, Lindir. You will find something suitable for Erestor
to wear there!” Glorfindel watched Lindir open the closet and search for
clothes that would fit the siren. The Valar had truly blessed him by placing
Lindir in his way. He had always wanted a child of his own, but since he
preferred male companionship to female, he had given up on becoming a father.
Lindir however had entered his life and he had embraced the opportunity to
raise him. Fortunately Lindir had taken a liking to him in turn and had
accepted him as a parent.
Erestor
didn’t know whom to direct his attention to. Lindir, who was rummaging through
Glorfindel’s wardrobe, or the warrior, who was coming his way carrying a brush,
comb, and hair pins. What was that Elf up to? He recoiled instinctively and
wrapped his fingers around his hair.
Erestor’s
reaction puzzled Glorfindel, who frowned and stopped walking. “I just thought
you would like it if I fixed your hair.”
“What
is wrong with my hair?” He liked wearing his hair just the way it was!
“I
thought…” Glorfindel suddenly realized the mistake he had made. He was trying
to change the siren into an Elf. “I am sorry.” He placed all of his utensils
aside and approached further. “May I?” He raised his hands, palm upward.
Uncertain
on what Glorfindel was up to, Erestor carefully nodded. The next moment,
Glorfindel slid his fingers through the raven hair and didn’t encounter any
tangles. The hair felt soft and alive. “Your hair is perfect the way it is.”
But the siren *did* have to wear clothes. “I am sorry, but you can not attend
the festivities naked.”
Erestor
understood that he had to wear clothes and was comfortable with that as long as
Glorfindel left his hair alone. “What will happen tonight?”
Lindir
returned, dragging long, blue robes behind him. The material was too heavy for
the Elfling to carry. He pushed it into Erestor’s hands and smiled, pleased.
“You should wear that.” Erestor would look good in midnight-blue.
Glorfindel
smiled and answered the siren’s question. “We shall eat and drink. Some Elves
will dance, others will tell stories and the minstrels will make music and
sing.”
“Sing?”
The siren perked up. He would love to sing, but didn’t know how it would affect
the listeners.
“And
later, I have a surprise for you,” Glorfindel hinted wickedly. Lindir pulled at
his sleeve and the warrior briefly focused on the Elfling again. “What is it,
Lindir?”
“Do
you also need house shoes?” Lindir was eager to please and would hunt down a
pair of comfortable house shoes if Glorfindel said yes.
“That
is an excellent idea! Of course, we do need shoes.” Glorfindel chuckled when
Lindir took off again.
Erestor
observed them closely and felt the love that surrounded Glorfindel and Lindir.
The two Elves loved each other like they were kin and he wondered again was
there enough room left for him to move into their lives like that?
“Let
me help you.” Glorfindel removed the traveling cloak from Erestor’s shoulders
and decided not to bother with socks or underwear. The siren wasn’t used to
wearing them and would feel even more uncomfortable. At least the robes were
loose and non-restrictive. He helped the siren into the robes and straightened
the fabric.
Erestor
lifted his hair and smoothed it down his back. Wearing robes felt odd, but he
could deal with it for Glorfindel’s sake. “What is expected from me tonight?”
He wanted to be prepared.
Glorfindel
gave the siren a reassuring look. “All you need to do is to chat with Elrond
and me. Nothing else is required from you.” He would have loved to whirl the
siren about on the dance floor, but Erestor still had a hard time to stay on
his feet unaided. Maybe in the future they could work on sharing a dance.
“I
do not want to cause offense,” Erestor explained.
“I
understand that.” It would take time for the siren to grow accustomed to living
among the Firstborn. At that moment, Lindir returned carrying a comfortable
looking pair of brown house shoes. Knowing that the Elfling wanted to be
praised, Glorfindel ruffled his hair and placed the shoes in front of the
siren. “Please try them on.”
Erestor
did and had trouble finding his balance once he wore them. The house shoes were
awkward and, although he tried to walk in them, he eventually gave Glorfindel
another pleading look.
Glorfindel
correctly interpreted the look and said, “Nay, you do not have to wear them if
you can not walk properly.”
Erestor
gave Lindir an apologetic look. “I am sorry, little one, but…”
But
Lindir nodded his head understandingly. “You do not normally wear clothes or
shoes when you are in the water. I understand that.”
Touched,
the siren stroked Lindir’s blond hair. “You are a very wise boy, Lindir. I like
you.” It was the truth: he liked the Elfling. There was an innocence and charm
to Lindir that attracted him. Lindir possessed some magic of his own like most
Elflings did.
“And
you look dashing too!” Glorfindel declared as he patted Lindir’s hair.
Lindir
beamed with pride and curled his fingers around Glorfindel’s hand. The warrior
had become his hero a long time ago and Lindir adored him. To receive such a
compliment was overwhelming.
The
siren smiled warmly at the delighted expression on Lindir’s face. He had been
afraid that he wouldn’t like living in Imladris and that he would only be a
burden to Glorfindel. But he was slowly beginning to understand how big
Glorfindel’s heart really was.
~~~
Melpomaen
fidgeted with the fabric of his formal robes. He had obeyed Elrond and had
joined them in the Hall of Fire, but he didn’t feel comfortable. Although
Elrohir sat in-between him and Elladan, he had felt Elladan’s eyes on him
during most of the evening.
Elladan
sensed Melpomaen’s nervousness and regretted causing his friend to panic. Maybe
he should have been more tactful earlier that day, but the comment had just
slipped out. Melpomaen averted his gaze and Elladan sighed as he realized that
he shouldn’t come on too strong so he directed his attention away from the
Seneschal and studied Glorfindel, who was entertaining both Lindir and Erestor
with his heroic tales.
Involuntarily,
his gaze drifted back to Melpomaen’s form. He had felt attracted to his former
tutor for a while now, yet had not acted upon it. Elrohir had advised him to be
honest and tell Melpomaen about the attraction, but Elladan hadn’t been certain
the Seneschal would accept him, and it appeared he had been right. Melpomaen
wasn’t very accepting of this development. He still wanted a chance with the
Advisor though. If Melpomaen rejected him, he would at least have tried to win
him over.
After
drawing in a deep breath, Elladan pushed back his chair, rose, and made his way
over to Melpomaen. “You promised you would dance with me.” Melpomaen looked
lovely to him that evening. The long, brown hair had been forced into an
intricate braiding pattern, but here and there a strand had managed to free
itself of confinement. Melpomaen’s brown eyes hesitantly met his and Elladan
noticed the nervous twitch that appeared at the left corner of the Seneschal’s
mouth. Dressed in rich browns and reds, Melpomaen looked young and
approachable.
Melpomaen
knew only too well that he couldn’t refuse Elladan, for then he would embarrass
them both, and some Elves were already looking their way. It would be best to
give in. “One dance then.”
Elladan
sighed, relieved. He had received his chance. He extended a hand and pulled
Melpomaen to his feet. After leading him to the dance floor, Elladan wrapped an
arm around the elder Elf’s waist and pulled him close. “Is dancing with me truly
such a horrendous task?”
Melpomaen
grew pale. “Oh no, please do not think such a thing!”
“What
else am I to think when you shy away from my touch?” Elladan knew he had to put
his point across if he wanted a real chance to win Melpomaen’s affection. “What
am I to think when you would rather not dance with me?”
“I
am sorry,” Melpomaen whispered. “It was never my intention to hurt your
feelings. I just believe this is inappropriate.” He averted his eyes and stared
at the wall behind Elladan. It had been ages since he had danced. The last time
had been at Ereinion’s court and his dancing partner had been a half-Elf as
well, but that half-Elf had been Elrond.
Melpomaen’s
words made Elladan frown. “Why do you think it is inappropriate for me to spend
time with you or even to merely dance?”
“Because
I was your teacher once and you were my student.” One part of Melpomaen wanted
the music to continue forever and another part wanted it to stop that very
moment. Losing his heart to Elladan was dangerous.
“You
used the past tense, Mel. I *was* your student and you *were* my teacher.”
Elladan was not going to give up so easily. “Things have changed now.”
Melpomaen
sighed and finally made eye contact with Elladan. “Are you determined to pursue
me or is this just a game?” He had to know for sure.
“This
is no game...at least not to me.” Elladan firmly nodded. “I have wanted to talk
to you about this for quite some time. Even Elrohir urged me to confide in
you.”
“He
knows?” Melpomaen’s gaze fluttered from Elladan to Elrohir. The other twin gave
him a wink, confirming his suspicions.
“Elrohir
is my twin. He knows everything about me and I know everything about him.”
Elladan didn’t quite understand why Melpomaen felt worried. “Elrohir and I do
not keep secrets from each other.”
“And
he told you to confide in me?” Elrohir approved then? Both of them had gone
mad! “Elladan, I am too old for you!”
“Age
does not matter. My father is older than my mother. Does that mean they have no
right to be together?”
“Elladan,
their age difference does not compare to ours. You are eighty years old and I
am over four thousand years old!”
“And
that is a problem why?” Elladan cocked his head. Melpomaen looked young to him,
as young as Elrohir did. “They are only numbers, Melpomaen. What counts is what
I feel in my heart. And I am smitten with you. If only you would give me a
chance!”
Melpomaen
felt trapped. He knew he could not count on Elrond to back him up. His old
friend seemed to like the idea of having Elladan court him. What was an Elf to
do in such circumstances? What could he do but give in gracefully? He could let
Elladan court him for a while and when the half-Elf finally realized that they
weren’t meant to be together, he would let him down gently. He had always cared
for Elladan and, if he was brutally honest with himself, Elladan had always
been his favorite, though he had never let it show when he was teaching the
twins.
The
truth was that it had never occurred to him that one of the young half-Elves
might find him attractive because he didn’t think of himself as attractive. He
thought of himself as an Elf who had had his exciting moments in the past when
he had served Ereinion. To consider the possibility of taking Elladan as a
lover was so far fetched that he found it impossible to believe it could come
true.
Melpomaen
moistened his lips and answered, “Elladan, I do not think this is wise, but…”
Elladan had wanted to protest, but then he had heard the ‘but’ and kept silent.
“But I can see you are determined to court me.” Elladan nodded repeatedly and
Melpomaen sighed before continuing. “I will let you court me, although I
believe it is folly for you to pursue me. I have nothing to offer you,
Elladan.”
“You
are wrong and I will show you just how wrong!” Elladan gave Elrohir a
triumphant look, signaling to his twin that he won his way with Melpomaen.
Elrohir gave him a wink and the twins grinned at each other. Now it was up to
Elladan to prove to Melpomaen that they were indeed suited for each other.
~~~
“Come
with me,” Glorfindel ordered as he pulled the siren from his chair. Erestor had
done his best to blend in during the evening, but Glorfindel could tell how
taxing the effort had been. He wanted to do something that would replenish
Erestor’s spirits.
“But what about the little one?” Erestor didn’t want
Glorfindel to neglect Lindir just because he had entered their lives.
“Look
at them,” Glorfindel retorted and pointed at Celebrían and Elrond, who were
entertaining the Elfling. “They are perfect parents. Lindir will not mind
spending time with them and I have something to show you.”
The
siren followed Glorfindel, feeling curious after all. He allowed the warrior to
lead him down several flights of stairs. “Are we going underground?”
“Aye,
we are.” Glorfindel hoped Erestor would like his little surprise. He was fairly
sure the siren would.
Erestor
walked slowly beside Glorfindel as they entered the underground caves. His
nostrils flared and his skin itched as he detected the salt in the air. He gave
Glorfindel an inquisitive look.
“Elrond
and I found these pools by accident and we have been using them ever since.
Most Elves come here during the day though.” Glorfindel raised an arm and
pointed at the large pool to their right. “That one has salt water since the
Bruinen is its source. I thought you would like to swim.”
Tears
of happiness gathered in Erestor’s eyes. “That is so very thoughtful of you. So kind.” Glorfindel guided him to the rim and he went
willingly, already shrugging out of his robes. “May I?” he asked as he readied
himself to dive into the water.
“That
is why I brought you here.” Glorfindel took a step aside and watched the siren
dive into the water. He had the feeling he would never tire of seeing the
transformation the siren went through. The long legs disappeared and a
silver-scaled tail appeared.
Erestor
felt divine as he glided through the surprisingly warm water. There had to be a
hot spring nearby. For one moment, he forgot that he was cursed and could never
swim in the Sea again.
Glorfindel
sat on his heels and smiled. Watching Erestor was a pleasure and he surmised
they would be spending many nights there. Surprised, he saw that the siren was
on his way over to him and wondered what was wrong. A moment later, Erestor’s
head appeared from beneath the water and a thousand water droplets clung to the
face and the hair. “Is the pool not to your liking?”
“I
love it,” the siren replied coyly. “But I was wondering if you could join me.
Elves can swim, can they not? I would like to share this with you.”
Glorfindel
considered the request. “Aye, Elves can swim.”
“Then
why are you hesitant to join me?”
Glorfindel
honestly didn’t know the answer to that question. “I shall join you. Just give
me one moment to undress.” Glorfindel removed his boots, socks, leggings,
underwear, and shirt and then waded into the water. “This is nice,” he
whispered once the warm water cradled his form. Something smooth glided across
his thigh and he realized it had been the siren’s tail that had made contact with
his skin. Swimming after Erestor, he followed him until they had reached the
center of the pool. There, he could still stand and Glorfindel watched
Erestor’s form with great interest. “May I touch your tail?”
The
siren nodded. “I realize my tail intrigues you. You may touch it.” Feeling
Glorfindel’s fingertips stroke his tail caused Erestor to quiver. No Elf had
ever touched him like that before – so intimately. A moment later, he moved
away from Glorfindel’s fingers as the touch awoke a strange sensation deep
inside him. “Can we come here often? I would like that.”
“We
can come here every evening,” Glorfindel replied and let himself float on the
water. It had been a while since he had been there last. Normally he went there
alone and it was nice to have company for a change. “Would you sing for me one
of these days?” He knew it was too early to ask Erestor to sing for him that
very evening, but maybe sometime in the future, the siren would indulge him.
Erestor
averted his gaze and swam further away from the Elf. “I do not dare sing. What
if it would cause you to drown?” He cared too much for the Elf to take such a
risk.
“But
you do not feel the urge to sing right now?” Erestor shook his head and
Glorfindel continued, “Then I am in no danger when I am with you.”
Erestor
wanted to believe him, but he was afraid to do so. He went under the surface
and explored the pool, ignoring Glorfindel for a while so he could sort out his
raging emotions.
~~~
An
hour later, Glorfindel sought out the siren and said, “It is time for us to
leave. We need to pick up Lindir and take him home. I always tuck him in when I
am at home.”
Erestor
had known the moment would come, but he still regretted having to leave the
pool. He wanted to stay down there forever. But eventually he followed
Glorfindel out of the pool. It hurt when his tail changed into legs again. He
stumbled, gasped, and sat quietly in order to catch his breath. His long hair
tumbled in front of his face, but then Glorfindel was beside him and pushed it
back behind his right ear. “It hurts,” Erestor explained. “The
longer I stay in the water, the more my body becomes used to being in my
original form again.”
“I
am sorry,” Glorfindel whispered and stroked the raven head. “If there is
something I can do to ease the pain, please let me know.”
“Thank
you, but there is nothing you can do. Just give me a moment to catch my
breath.”
Glorfindel
remained at the siren’s side and eventually curled his fingers around a
trembling hand, showing his support that way.
~~~
Lindir
was already asleep on his feet when they collected him from Elrond’s arms.
Glorfindel carried the Elfling and Erestor managed to keep up with him since
the warrior walked slowly. Still, Erestor was relieved when he could lie down
on the bed and take the weight off of his feet.
Glorfindel
carried Lindir into the boy’s room, removed his clothes, and put him into a
night shirt before tucking him in. He kissed the Elfling’s brow and sang a
lullaby. Once he was absolutely certain that Lindir was fast asleep, he
returned to the siren’s side. “You look tired.”
The
transformation *had* drained him and Erestor stretched his long legs. “I will
become used to this.” Glorfindel stripped until he was only wearing his
leggings and stretched out on his side beside Erestor. The siren moved into his
arms and rested his raven head against Glorfindel’s shoulder. “I hope I am not
a burden to you. I do not want that.”
“I
said it before, Erestor. You are no burden.” Glorfindel tucked the raven head
beneath his chin and held the siren close.
Erestor
listened to Glorfindel’s breathing evening out as the warrior dozed off. What
was this strange feeling that had settled in the pit of his stomach since
Glorfindel had joined him in the pool? He had never felt anything like it
before.
~~~
Melpomaen
allowed Elladan to escort him to his rooms, but then stepped away from the
half-Elf and opened the door to his rooms. “Elladan…” He didn’t really know how
to handle the awkward situation.
Elladan
was much better prepared though and said, “I shall see you tomorrow at
breakfast. I hope you will rest well tonight and maybe you will even dream of
me.” Feeling bold, he quickly placed a chaste kiss on Melpomaen’s lips.
Elladan’s
pace overwhelmed Melpomaen and he was about to tell the half-Elf that when he
realized that his young suitor was already rounding the corner. Shaking his
head, he just stood there, feeling quite dazed.
~~~
Melpomaen
went to bed, but sleep eluded him. All he could think about was Elladan’s kiss.
He tossed and turned and, when someone knocked on his door hard, he welcomed
the intrusion. Within seconds, he was out of his bed and had slipped into his
morning robe. “What is amiss?” he asked as he opened the door.
“I
beg your pardon, master Melpomaen,” the guard answered. “But Mithrandir has
just arrived and we do not know what to do.”
“I
will have guest rooms readied. Offer him food and drink. I will join you in a
moment.” Melpomaen welcomed the distraction for it helped him focus on
something else but Elladan. He quickly slipped into his formal robes to ready
everything for their guest.
~~~
The
siren remained awake through the night and listened alternatively to the wind
making the leaves rustle just outside the window and Glorfindel’s breathing. If
he listened real close, he could also hear Lindir’s breathing. As he lay there,
he realized just how lucky he was to have found a home with these wonderful
Elves. When they had come for him on that rock, he had fully expected them to
end his life.
Life
in Imladris was like nothing he had thought it would be. The Elves were kind
and they seemed to want him there, but that was basically because they didn’t
know about the atrocities he had committed. If they knew, they would cast him
out or try to punish him like the Elves living in the Havens had wanted to do.
He
had to be a model ‘Elf’ while he lived there. He would do his best to please
everyone and push back his own needs. He couldn’t afford for even one of them
to grow suspicious and find out the truth about him.
~~~
“Lord
Elrond?” Melpomaen had seen light coming from beneath the door and surmised the
half-Elf was still awake. So he called out to the Elf-Lord softly and patiently
waited for a reply. A minute later, the door opened and Elrond appeared. The
Elf-Lord was already dressed in his nightshirt and had quickly slipped into his
morning robes.
“Melpomaen? It is late. Can this not wait until
tomorrow?” Seeing the expression on his friend’s face he hoped it wasn’t
something Elladan had done that had brought his Seneschal to him.
“I
thought you might want to know that Mithrandir arrived an hour ago. I had rooms
readied and he is staying in the guest wing. He said he wants to talk to you in
the morning.”
Elrond
actually smiled. “That is good news!” Now he didn’t have to send for the wizard
and could ask about lifting the curse right away. “Thank you for telling me,
but you should return to your bed now, my friend.”
“I
can not sleep.” Melpomaen looked startled and quickly covered his mouth. He
hadn’t wanted to say that.
“And
why is that?” Elrond gave his friend a compassionate look. “I trust Elladan did
not cross any borders you have set? He can be stubborn and single-minded. I am
afraid I am to blame for that. He inherited that family trait from me.”
Melpomaen
blushed much to his consternation. “He kissed me.”
“And
you found it not pleasurable?” Since this was turning into a longer
conversation, Elrond stepped into the corridor and closed the door behind him.
He didn’t want his wife to wake up due to their talking.
“Elrond,”
Melpomaen retorted in a voice that showed they had been friends for many
centuries. “It is not right. It is not. Why does he not pursue Orophin? Or Rúmil? Or even Haldir? Why me?”
Elrond
smiled warmly and caressed Melpomaen’s face. “There is much beauty in you, my
friend.”
Melpomaen’s
blush deepened. “Oh, stop it. I am no handsome Elf.” He had always known he
looked plain and had accepted that long ago.
“Not
all beauty lies on the outside, my friend. You are beautiful on the inside
too.”
It
was the little word Elrond added, *too*, that had Melpomaen shaking his head.
“You do not have to say that, you know.”
“Why
should I not speak the truth? Melpomaen, when was the last time you looked in
the mirror? Really looked?” Elrond drew his hand back and put it on the
doorknob. It was time to return to his wife’s side and guard her sleep.
“I
do not understand why you encourage Elladan in his quest to win my love.”
Melpomaen shook his head and started to turn away from Elrond, but the half-Elf
grabbed him by the shoulders.
“Elladan
made an excellent choice by choosing you. I agree with my son that you would
make a fine mate.” Elrond surmised Melpomaen needed to hear it. “You are a kind
Elf with a great heart. You are wise, supportive, and you will never harm any
Elf willingly. My son’s heart is safe with you. Those are just a few reasons
why I encourage Elladan to go after you and, by Elbereth, I hope he will
succeed.” After that statement, Elrond disappeared inside his rooms and closed the
door behind him, leaving a very shocked looking Melpomaen standing in the
corridor.
~~~
Mithrandir
stood at the window and looked out over a peaceful Imladris that had been lured
into sleep. Well, most of the inhabitants were asleep, except for one very
special being. Mithrandir could sense the siren’s presence. Sensing it had been
the main reason why he had journeyed to Imladris when he should have been on
his way to visit with Saruman.
The
wizard wondered what had led this child of Ulmö to Imladris and wanted to know
why he sensed dark magic whenever he reached out to him.
~~~
“You
look tired,” Elrohir remarked as they rose early that morning. He had heard his
twin toss and turn until he had fallen asleep. “Is Melpomaen keeping you
awake?” He gave his twin a cheeky smile and then a wink.
Elladan
was in too good a mood to be cross with his twin. “At least *I* know who I am
in love with!” he countered easily. Elrohir tended to be in love with a
different Elf each day. The other day it was Haldir and that day it would
probably be Rúmil. “Or do you fancy Orophin at the moment?”
Elrohir
blushed. “I was actually thinking about Saelbeth.” Or Silinde. Both blond Elves were
rather stunning and held a position that would make them acceptable in Elrond’s
eyes.
Elladan
threw back his head and laughed warmly. “Enjoy being in love, Elrohir, though
you might want to decide which Elf you would like to pursue eventually.”
“I
have time,” Elrohir replied, not in the least concerned that he was always
quickly falling in and out love. He was convinced that would change the moment
he encountered his true love.
~~~
“Mithrandir! I am glad you are here! I was going to
send out messengers to find you!” Elrond embraced the wizard and then headed
for a comfortable chair next to the fire place. He sat down and arranged his
formal robes around him. “Please sit so we can talk,” he said and gestured for
Mithrandir to sit down next to him.
Mithrandir
obliged the half-Elf and seated himself. “I think I know what you want to discuss
with me. Something magical came to Imladris.”
Elrond
nodded once. “His name is Erestor and he is a siren – one of Ulmö’s children.”
Mithrandir
cocked his head. “One of the children of the Sea? I am
impressed.” But he sensed more than that.
Elrond
nodded again. It wasn’t hard to guess what Mithrandir was thinking. “A wizard
cursed him, forcing him to use his singing voice to cause mariners to drown. We
found him in the Havens, where he was responsible for several deaths, and
brought him here, since he is safe here. Glorfindel is determined to find a way
to lift the curse.”
“Glorfindel,
you say?” Mithrandir frowned.
“Aye,
Glorfindel has taken the siren under his wing.” Elrond paused and then added,
“He took a liking to Erestor the moment they met and has been the siren’s
champion ever since.”
Mithrandir
considered everything he had learned and slid his fingers through his long
beard. “I should talk to Glorfindel then.”
“Do
you know of a way to lift the curse?” Elrond asked, leaning in closer.
Mithrandir
shook his head. “Maybe Saruman the White knows of a way. Before I can search
for a cure, I need to know the identity of the wizard who cursed him. I do not
know of an evil wizard, but maybe Saruman does.” All wizards were sworn to do good.
“Do
you want to talk to Glorfindel now?”
Mithrandir
nodded his head. “Aye, for I will not stay long. I am only passing through.” He
would like to talk to the siren too, though the answer to their problem lay
with Glorfindel. Glorfindel was the only one who could lift the curse.
~~~
“Good
morning, Mel. I hope you slept well?” Elladan seated himself next to the
nervous looking Seneschal and inspected the contents of the other Elf’s plate.
He hoped Melpomaen was going to eat more than that. Melpomaen had always been
skinny and Elladan wouldn’t mind Melpomaen adding a few pounds.
Melpomaen
sighed. With Elladan looking at him, he found it hard to eat more. “Mithrandir
arrived during the night.”
“And
you had to look after his needs?” Elladan studied the elder Elf a bit more
closely. Melpomaen possessed a somewhat brittle beauty which faltered whenever
the elder Elf neglected himself. “And who takes care of your needs?”
Melpomaen
almost choked on his tea. Elrond, who was seated close to them, chuckled, and
Melpomaen shot his old friend a glare. It vexed him that Elrond supported
Elladan’s cause. “I do.”
“Do
you really?” Elladan inclined his head. “For starters, you eat too little.”
Melpomaen’s
eyes almost bulged from their sockets. No one had ever told him that before! “I
eat enough!”
Elladan
sighed. “Will you allow me to bring you some treats during lunch?”
Melpomaen
desperately tried to find a way out. “I will be working all day.”
Elrond
decided it was time to come to his son’s aid. “We will pause for lunch.”
“Excellent.
I will see you then!” Elladan grabbed hold of Melpomaen’s hand and squeezed the
fingers. After giving the elder Elf a last, stunning smile, he exited the room
to join the guards for their training session.
“You
should not encourage him like that,” Melpomaen said angrily.
“I
do what I think is best.” Elrond rose from his chair. He had promised to join
Mithrandir, who had briefly left to freshen up and change into a new set of
clothes. “I will see you later today.”
Melpomaen
shook his head and wondered what he had found himself in when he had agreed to
let Elladan woo him.
~~~~
Erestor
felt apprehensive when he caught sight of the gray-haired wizard that
approached them. The fact that Elrond walked alongside Mithrandir didn’t
reassure him. He felt the power the wizard radiated and recognized its
potential. Therefore it wasn’t unusual that he tried to hide behind Glorfindel.
Glorfindel
frowned at Erestor’s odd behavior, but then smiled upon seeing Mithrandir. The
wizard had become a friend and Glorfindel was glad to see him, hoping
Mithrandir could help him lift the curse. “My good, old
friend!” Glorfindel patted the wizard on his back and smiled at him. “I
am glad you are here.”
“Well
met, Glorfindel. It is always a pleasure to meet up with you!” Mithrandir gave
the golden-haired Elf a warm smile. “And this must be Erestor.” The siren was
trying to hide from his view, but was doing a poor job. There was nowhere
Erestor could hide. “My name is Mithrandir and I am a friend. I mean you well.”
Erestor
found that hard to believe as he recalled another wizard who had harmed him.
Maybe Mithrandir was only pretending to be his friend.
Mithrandir
had been advancing on Erestor, but came to a halt. He saw the fear in the dark
eyes and didn’t want to add to the siren’s unease. “Greetings,
child of the Sea.”
Erestor
still didn’t trust Mithrandir and stayed safely behind Glorfindel. He wanted to
put as much distance as possible between the wizard and him.
“Glorfindel, a word please?” Since he had to talk to
Glorfindel about the curse, Mithrandir felt it was best to carry on the
conversation with the Elf instead of also trying to engage the siren. “Walk
with me.”
“I
will be right back.” Glorfindel smiled reassuringly at the siren. “Elrond will
stay with you if you do not want to be alone.” Erestor nodded his head and
Glorfindel gave Elrond a meaningful look, telling the half-Elf to be careful
around the siren.
With
a heavy heart Erestor watched Glorfindel walk toward Mithrandir. Rationally he
knew Glorfindel wasn’t in any immediate danger, but a part of him remained
worried that Mithrandir wasn’t the friendly wizard he seemed to be.
~~~
“Your
friend is suspicious of me,” Mithrandir started off their conversation.
“He
has good reason to be.” Glorfindel fell into step with the wizard. “Did Elrond
tell you what happened?”
“He
told me about the curse and that you are determined to find a way to lift it.”
“Do
you know of a way?” Glorfindel asked hopefully.
“I
can only lift the curse if I know the identity of the wizard who cursed our
child of the Sea.”
“I
asked Erestor that once. He does not know who the wizard was.”
Mithrandir
came to a halt and so did Glorfindel. The wizard placed his hands on the Elf’s
shoulders and looked into Glorfindel’s radiant blue eyes from beneath his bushy
eyebrows. There was only one piece of advice he could give the Elf. “Love is
stronger than hate. Remember that.”
“Surely
you can offer me better advice than just that?” Glorfindel had hoped Mithrandir
would know of a way to lift the curse!
But
Mithrandir merely smiled. In a way he *had* just given Glorfindel a way to lift
the curse. The Elf just didn’t realize that yet.
~~~
As
promised, Elrond kept Erestor company during
Glorfindel’s absence. But the half-Elf wasn’t the only one close: Lindir had
joined them as well. It was time for the boy’s morning break from his lessons
and he had chosen to spend his time with Erestor that day.
“Erestor!” Lindir ran toward the siren and crawled
onto the adult’s lap, failing to see the somewhat shocked expression on his
face at being ‘attacked’ in that way. Lindir had developed a preference for
Erestor’s hair, which seemed to possess a life of its own, so wrapped his
greedy little hands around the thick strands.
The
siren told himself to remain calm. Lindir was just a
child and he had to learn how to deal with the little one if he was to live
with them. “Good morning, Lindir,” he mumbled, hoping he wasn’t making any
mistakes.
“Good
morning, Erestor! Good morning, uncle Elrond!” Lindir gave the half-Elf a
winning smile. He liked Elrond because the adult never refused to play with him
and Elrond knew what games a boy his age liked best. “I studied hard today!” he
declared proudly.
“What
did you learn then?” Elrond asked, making conversation. They were in
Glorfindel’s rooms and he knew his way about them, so he quickly found a pot to
heat water in for tea. While he busied himself he kept a close look on his
charges.
“I
learned about Fingon!” Lindir loved hearing all the tales about their
ancestors. Silinde and Saelbeth
were great teachers and knew how to captivate his attention.
Since
Lindir’s attention was focused on Elrond, Erestor started to feel more at ease.
Lindir was an endless bundle of energy and couldn’t sit still on his lap. The
boy’s enthusiasm reached him and, for the first time, Erestor regretted that he
would never know the joy of being a parent. Ulmö’s children didn’t marry,
neither did they sire offspring. Caring for Lindir came as close to caring for
a child as he would ever experience and so he decided to savor these moments
and treasure them.
~~~
Glorfindel
returned an hour later without Mithrandir in his wake and Elrond took that as
his clue to leave the two. Lindir had already returned to his teachers and Elrond
could tell by looking at Glorfindel’s face that his friend wanted to talk to
the siren.
Erestor
sensed the tension and disappointment that had built in Glorfindel and worried
that the Elf had bad tidings for him. “What did he say?” he asked eventually,
softly.
Glorfindel
laughed bitterly. “He told me that there is nothing he can do as long as he
does not know who exactly cursed you.”
Erestor’s
shoulders slumped forward. “Then I shall remain cursed forever.”
Glorfindel
looked at the siren and cringed at seeing the effect his words had had on
Erestor. He didn’t want to see the siren so depressed and walked over to him.
Erestor was sitting down and Glorfindel lowered himself onto his heels so he
could lift the handsome face to study Erestor’s expression. “But Mithrandir
also tried to give me hope. He told me that love is stronger than hate. I just
do not know yet how that can help us lift the curse.”
Erestor’s
sorrow lightened when he looked into Glorfindel’s trustful eyes and a gentle
smile even surfaced on his face. “I am grateful that our paths crossed,
Glorfindel. You are giving me a reason to carry on, even though I know I shall
never return to the Sea or my kin. Your presence comforts me.”
Glorfindel
didn’t know why he did it, but he rested his head on Erestor’s knees and
enjoyed feeling the siren’s fingers stroke his hair. It was no use in denying
the truth any longer. He realized that only too well that he was falling in
love with the siren and could only hope that Erestor was developing some
feelings for him in turn.
~~~
Melpomaen’s
gaze was currently directed at the clock. Lunch hour was drawing closer and he
hoped Elladan had forgotten about bringing him those treats the half-Elf had
hinted at. And why did Elladan think he was too skinny to begin with? A mirror
hung on the wall and Melpomaen studied his reflection. He just didn’t see what
Elladan thought was so attractive about him. All he saw was a plain looking Elf
glaring back at him with angry eyes.
Elladan
stood in the doorway carrying the tray that held the sweets and tea and watched
Melpomaen study himself with such angry eyes. It was beyond him why Melpomaen
thought he wasn’t desirable. “I brought lunch,” he announced, making his
presence known as he stepped into the antechamber.
Melpomaen
sighed. Apparently Elladan hadn’t forgotten about their little arrangement.
“You are too early. I have not finished my work yet.”
Elladan
placed the tray onto the desk and then sat on the corner. “I just talked to my
father. He told me that he gave you the afternoon off.”
Melpomaen
blinked. Elrond hadn’t told him that! Did that mean…?
“I
have you to myself for the rest of the day,” Elladan declared triumphantly.
“And you are to decide what we do after I feed you some treats!” Maybe the best
tactic was to keep Melpomaen unbalanced. Maybe then he would have his way with
the elder Elf.
“I
do not know… I would not know what to do…” Melpomaen filled his days with work.
There was little he did for ‘fun’ as Elladan would phrase it.
“In
that case, I will think of something. Now eat.” Elladan selected a small piece
of fruit cake and offered it to Melpomaen, but the Seneschal merely looked at
him in wonder. So Elladan boldly pushed the sweet substance past the elder
Elf’s lips. “Eat,” he ordered and chuckled.
Elladan’s
move stunned Melpomaen and he automatically swallowed the sweet offering.
“Elladan,” he mumbled a moment later. “You can do so much better.”
It
still eluded Elladan how it was possible that Melpomaen thought so little of
himself. “You are treasure, Mel and I shall find a way to show you.”
Melpomaen
however remained unimpressed. He had only tried to woo one Elf once and that
Elf had rejected him. That had instilled the belief within him that no one else
would ever want him. And then Elladan came along and declared he wanted him.
Melpomaen couldn’t believe that…and he doubted Elladan would find a way to
convince him.
4.
Love
Melpomaen
still wondered how he had put himself into this situation. Elladan had
suggested that they go riding and, when he had agreed to the plan, he had
assumed they would each be riding their own horse. But Elladan had surprised
him by only taking the half-Elf’s stallion out and declaring they were going to
share the horse. So he had ended up seated in front of the young half-Elf with
Elladan’s arms wrapped tightly around his waist. He could only wonder what else
Elladan had in mind for him. “Where are we headed?” he asked curiously.
“The Bruinen! Arien is about to set and Ithil shall rise
shortly.” Elladan wanted to bring a touch of romance to Melpomaen’s life. He
rested his chin on Melpomaen’s shoulder and smiled as he inhaled the other
Elf’s scent. It was beyond him how Melpomaen could think of himself as plain
and boring. “Will you tell me about your life? I want to know what happened to
you.”
Elladan’s
request took Melpomaen aback and he turned his head to look into the half-Elf’s
gray eyes. “Why do you want to know?”
“Because
I am curious and I want to know everything that happened to you. I *really*
want to know you!” Elladan chuckled. “Do you really find it that hard to
understand that I am interested in you?”
“Actually, yes.” They reached the
Bruinen and Melpomaen slipped from the horse’s back
first. He walked over to the waterside and his features took on a pensive
expression. Elladan walked up behind him, but the half-Elf remained at a
distance, sensing Melpomaen’s discomfort. Melpomaen realized that there was no
way out for him. The only way he would make Elladan understand why he was the
way he was would be to explain himself to the half-Elf, but that meant baring
part of his soul to Elladan.
“You
look troubled. Why is that?” Feeling the need to cross the distance between
them all of a sudden, Elladan took a step closer to the distressed Elf and curled
one arm around Melpomaen’s shoulders and pulled him close. “You need to tell me
this, do you not know that?”
“I
know it,” Melpomaen admitted softly. “But I am not looking forward to telling
you.”
“Please
trust in me, Melpomaen. You know me. You have known me all my life. You should
know I care for you.” Elladan hoped Melpomaen would find the courage to confide
in him. It was the only way for them to move on.
Melpomaen
sighed and closed his eyes. “It began when we assembled at
Still
uncertain of what exactly Melpomaen wanted to share with him, Elladan moved
until he stood in front of the elder Elf. He moved closer still, wrapping his
arms around the other Elf’s waist while resting his brow against Melpomaen’s.
He didn’t speak, giving Melpomaen the time he needed to sort out his thoughts.
“I
was a fool back then. I actually thought I had a chance to win Thranduil’s
heart.” There, he had finally said it! Elladan knew his secret! “I tried my
best to court him. At first, he did not notice my efforts, but when he
eventually did, he told me that I was not an acceptable match and that was it.
End of story.” Melpomaen didn’t want to look into Elladan’s eyes, but since
their brows were resting against each other, he had no choice but to look into
the gray eyes. “I never fell in love again after that. I guarded my heart
closely.”
Elladan
swallowed hard and gave Melpomaen a look filled with understanding. He raised a
hand and let his fingers glide through the brown hair. “Thranduil is a fool
then for not recognizing your kind and gentle soul.” Elladan then drew in a
deep breath and prepared to deliver maybe the most important speech of his
life. “But Mel, I am not Thranduil. I *see* you and I want to know you like
only a lover can. I understand that Thranduil hurt you and that you stopped
trying after being rejected, but do you not want life to be more than work? I
know you serve my father well, but Mel, there is more in life. I am offering
you a chance to discover what it is like to have a lover. Do you not want to
find out? Do you not care about me in turn? And do not lie to me! I will know
it when you lie!”
Melpomaen
wanted to avert his eyes, but found he couldn’t. A pure and driven tone colored
Elladan’s eyes, telling him the half-Elf was telling him the truth. “I do not
understand what you love about me, Elladan, but yes, I have always cared for
you. I still do.” He might even be developing feelings for the half-Elf, but
was he ready to admit that? “Elladan, I find this hard to believe – to
understand.”
Elladan
rested his hand at the nape of Melpomaen’s neck and stroked the sensitive skin
there. “Maybe you need to stop thinking, Mel. Maybe you need to start feeling.
Something tells me you have not allowed yourself to feel deeply for a long
time.”
Melpomaen
closed his eyes and moaned at the delicious sensation that Elladan’s fingers
were causing. Never before had anyone touched him that way and he quivered with
the new sensation swiping through his body. “Elladan,” he whispered, trying to
stop the half-Elf from waking all those feelings inside him.
But
Elladan merely smiled and leaned in closer to touch his lips to Melpomaen’s. As
far as he was concerned this was the opportune moment to kiss the elder Elf.
Melpomaen’s eyelids fluttered and then opened, but the Seneschal didn’t pull
away from the kiss and, feeling encouraged, Elladan deepened it.
~~~
When
Glorfindel returned to his rooms that evening, he found Lindir seated on
Erestor’s lap. The Elfling’s little fingers were moving through the raven hair
in a combing motion, and the siren was allowing it. That put a smile on
Glorfindel’s face, since he remembered how vehement Erestor had looked at him
when he had approached the siren with a brush and a comb.
“Good
evening,” he said and closed the door behind him. It warmed his heart that
Lindir had taken a liking to Erestor. He had vowed to always put the Elfling’s
needs first when he had taken the orphan in and seeing him interact so easily
with the siren was the best thing that could have happened to them.
Erestor
looked up and smiled at the golden-haired Elf. “Good evening, Glorfindel.” When
Glorfindel had left earlier, he had been worried he would feel uncomfortable
without having the warrior close, but Lindir had been most pleasant company.
“Evening,
Glorfindel!” Lindir giggled and wrapped a strand of raven hair around a finger.
“You are back!”
The
serenity that the scene radiated made Glorfindel realize something very
important. He had gained a little family. When he had arrived in Imladris all
those years ago, he had been alone. Then he had adopted Lindir, the son he
would normally have never had. And then Erestor had come along, completing his
little family. It was a dream come true. He knew he
had long fallen for the siren and had given Erestor his heart. He just wasn’t
sure the siren realized that yet. Did Erestor love him in turn? They hadn’t
discussed the matter yet, but the evenings spent in the pools gave him hope. An
intimacy had built between them and the relationship was still deepening.
Glorfindel
also knew they had to address the matter sooner or later…
~~~
Lindir
and Glorfindel were playing something they called ‘house’. The warrior had
explained the concept to Erestor, who had been baffled at first to see them
play with dolls. But he soon understood what the game was about and sat back
and relaxed.
Strange,
how the world of the Firstborn differed from that of Ulmö’s children. In the
Sea, different laws applied. Ulmö’s children always stayed close together. They
were a tight-knit group and had soon turned into lovers, but since they
couldn’t sire children, the concept of having a family was foreign to them.
Therefore, Erestor was surprised to learn that the idea of being part of this
family appealed to him. He could imagine living there for the rest of his
immortal life – with Glorfindel and eventually an adult Lindir. He could
imagine becoming a part of them and realized he was already on the way to
become part of this family.
~~~
“I
can not sleep,” Glorfindel admitted as he moved restlessly about in bed. He had
turned onto his side and looked into the siren’s eyes. “Do you ever sleep?” he
asked, realizing he hadn’t seen Erestor asleep yet.
“I
do not require sleep, but I can close my eyes and pretend if you like.” Erestor
smiled warmly and looked past Glorfindel to where Lindir’s room was located.
The boy had been allowed to stay up late and when he had practically fallen
asleep on his feet, Glorfindel had carried him to bed. The Elfling had been
sound asleep ever since, allowing them their privacy. “I like living here,”
Erestor said and raised a hand to tuck a strand of elusive blond hair behind
Glorfindel’s left ear. “Thank you for allowing me to live here.”
“I
am honored to have you,” Glorfindel answered and sighed. Erestor’s fingers
brushed his facial skin and he realized he couldn’t put it off much longer. But
he didn’t want to discuss his feelings in bed. “You do not need to sleep and I
am not tired. Do you want to go to the pools?”
The
siren’s eyes shimmered with excitement at the mention of the pools. “Aye, let
us go there now!” He had been yearning to go there all day long, but since
Lindir had kept him company, he hadn’t wanted to desert the Elfling. But since
Glorfindel had brought it up, he was eager to leave.
Glorfindel
pushed down the covers and jumped to his feet. He extended his hand and pulled
the siren to his feet. There was no reason to waste precious time. Erestor
wanted to emerge himself in water and he needed to admit his feelings to the
siren.
~~~
“You
should not have kissed me,” Melpomaen whispered into Elladan’s ear. His face
was flushed and he could still taste Elladan on his lips. He bowed his head and
his brown hair tumbled in front of his face.
Elladan
merely shook his head. “Nay, you are wrong. It was about time someone kissed
you.” Elladan’s thumbs rubbed along the nape of Melpomaen’s neck and the touch
made the elder Elf raise his gaze questioningly. “Please give us a chance,
Mel.”
Melpomaen
still wasn’t convinced though. “You can do so much better than me, Elladan.”
Elladan
sighed. “We are not having that discussion again. I want you, Mel and you had
better accept that.”
Melpomaen
flinched for it was obvious that Elladan wasn’t going to take ‘no’ for an
answer. “What do I do?” he asked himself aloud unintentionally.
“You
let me have my way with you,” Elladan replied and raised Melpomaen’s face by
placing a finger beneath the elder Elf’s chin. Looking into the surprised brown
eyes, Elladan cocked his head and gave Melpomaen a hopeful smile. “What do you
have to lose? What would you gain by giving us a chance?”
Melpomaen
forced himself to consider those questions. These were questions which he had
always avoided answering each time he had felt attracted to another Elf. He
forced himself to answer Elladan out loud. “I could lose my heart again,
Elladan.”
“And
what can you gain?” Elladan asked determinedly.
Melpomaen
closed his eyes and swallowed hard. “Your love?”
“More
than that: a mate. Someone who will stand by you and wait for you in the
evening to come home,” Elladan whispered and drew Melpomaen toward him.
“Someone who wants to hold you, touch you, and kiss
you. No more lonely nights for you – you would know days filled with love – if
you give us a chance.”
Melpomaen
knew he should say no. Elladan was too young, too naive, and too handsome to be
happy with him, but at the same time the half-Elf was determined to court him.
“I am afraid to say yes.”
“I
can understand that.” Elladan raised a hand and caressed the elder Elf’s face
and Melpomaen involuntarily leaned into the touch. Encouraged, Elladan said,
“You have nothing to lose that you have not lost before. You lost your heart to
Thranduil and he did not want it. He carelessly threw it away. But I am
different. I will keep your heart safe.” Elladan’s heart twitched painfully
when Melpomaen’s eyes opened. He saw the miserable air in the brown eyes and he
instinctively pulled the elder Elf close into an embrace.
In
the end, Melpomaen gave in and leaned heavily against Elladan, accepting the
embrace. “Whatever you do, please do not break my heart.”
Melpomaen’s
whispered plea touched Elladan’s heart and he answered, “I promise I will not.”
~~~
Glorfindel
stood on the rim of the pool, still fully clothed, and watched how Erestor’s
scaled body slid through the water. Each time he saw the transformation, he
felt awed. Yet, at the same time, his heart ached at the loss Erestor had
suffered. He was the only one of his kind in Imladris and would never return to
the Sea.
“Are
you not joining me?” Erestor came to a halt in the water, whipped his tail
about to turn himself, and looked at Glorfindel from over his shoulder. The
blond Elf was a vision to look at and the siren found great delight in knowing
Glorfindel preferred his company above that of other Elves, even including
Elrond’s. There was a thoughtful expression on Glorfindel’s face which worried
the siren and he started to swim towards where Glorfindel was standing.
Glorfindel
drew in a deep breath. He couldn’t stall any longer. He removed his boots and
socks, rolled up his leggings, sat down, and let his feet dangle until they
were immersed in warm water. “Erestor? Can I talk to
you about something that troubles me?” He didn’t feel as brave as he sounded
and his heart pounded like mad. How was Erestor going to react?
Erestor
swam closer and looked at Glorfindel. “You are worried? Why?” He had thought
that everything was fine. Was it something he had done? Had Glorfindel
reconsidered about adding him to his family and wanted him gone? Where was he
supposed to go? And how was he going to manage without Glorfindel?
Glorfindel
cringed as he correctly read the expression in the siren’s eyes. “Nay, it is
not your fault! You did nothing wrong!” He reached forward and stroked the
long, raven hair which floated upon the surface of the water.
Erestor
didn’t feel relieved though. “Then what is wrong?” He cherished Glorfindel’s
touch and swam even closer until he could rest his head on Glorfindel’s knee.
“There
is nothing wrong – not exactly,” Glorfindel answered after drawing in another
deep breath. Suddenly he realized that he didn’t know a thing about possible
mating rituals between Ulmö’s Children. Did they love? Did they mate? Did they
choose a life partner?
“I
do not understand,” Erestor murmured as he raised his head to look into
Glorfindel’s hooded eyes.
Glorfindel
quivered and then asked, “Did you have a lover when you were among your kin?”
Erestor
frowned. “Why do you want to know?” Glorfindel’s question had taken him by
surprise.
“Because,
if you do not have one, I would like… I want you to know that I…that I
am…available.” Glorfindel cursed himself privately. He hadn’t phrased that very
well at all! He averted his eyes and bowed his head, waiting for the siren to
understand what he had just revealed.
Erestor’s
eyes had widened during Glorfindel’s declaration. Glorfindel wanted him to know
what? That he was available in case he was looking for a mate? Suddenly
everything began to make sense and the siren cursed himself
for not sensing Glorfindel’s deepening emotions sooner. “Are you in love with
me?”
Glorfindel
shrugged his shoulders once and let his shoulders slump forward. “I already
regret bringing this up since you obviously do not return my feelings.” He had
made a huge mistake in judgment and now lacked the courage to look the siren in
the eye.
Erestor
raised his arm and cupped Glorfindel’s chin in the palm of his hand. “Please
look at me.” Glorfindel gathered his courage and met Erestor’s gaze. He failed
to read the look in the dark eyes and prepared to be rejected. Erestor stroked
Glorfindel’s face with his fingertips and gave him a smile. “You reached the
wrong conclusion, Glorfindel. I *do* return your feelings.”
Glorfindel
felt too shocked to react and all he was capable of was staring at the siren. “You what?”
Erestor
laughed warmly. “I return your feelings, Glorfindel!” He reached for the blond
Elf and promptly pulled him into the pool with him, clothes and all. “Do not
doubt yourself! Or me!”
Relieved,
Glorfindel chuckled and then realized he was in the pool. “What did you do?” He
was soaking wet now, though he didn’t really mind. Erestor’s arms came up
behind him and he willingly went into the embrace. “I had hoped you liked me in
turn, but… I was not certain. Lindir has also taken a liking to you and that
never happened before. I courted a few Elves, but he never liked them. You are
the first person we both like!”
Erestor
embraced Glorfindel tightly and pulled him along as he floated on the water.
His tail swished happily and Glorfindel moved closer until the Elf could also
wrap his arms around him. “I am glad you found the courage to tell me.”
“You
would not have told me?” Glorfindel questioned as he slid his fingers through
the wet, raven hair.
“I
do not know…” Erestor looked thoughtfully at Glorfindel. “I am still young,
compared to my brothers and sisters. This is the first time that I am
experiencing these feelings and I was not sure just what I was feeling. You
showed me though.” He whirled Glorfindel with him through the water and then
kissed him.
Erestor
tasted of salt, of the Sea, of freedom, and his lips were surprisingly cool.
Glorfindel embraced all those qualities and returned the kiss. They closed
their eyes and *really* tasted one another. Glorfindel tasted of the wood,
spices, leather, and his lips were unexpectedly warm, warming Erestor’s. A
happy sigh floated from Erestor’s mouth into Glorfindel’s and they deepened the
kiss, finally able to express their newly found feelings freely.
~~~
Elrond
stood on the balcony and instantly noticed the two Elves that were slowly
walking across the courtyard. Elladan’s arm was wrapped around Melpomaen’s
waist, which left little to the imagination. It was obvious the two Elves had
talked and that Elladan had managed to sway Melpomaen. Melpomaen however didn’t
look too happy and Elrond understood why. He still remembered how crushed
Melpomaen had been after Thranduil had rejected him. /My son, treat him gently
and do not disappoint him,/ Elrond thought, hoping
that his son would make Melpomaen happy. Melpomaen deserved some happiness.
~~~
Glorfindel
regretted the fact that they had to leave the pools eventually, but they
couldn’t stay much longer. Arien was about to rise and they had to look after
Lindir. They held hands during their walk back and Glorfindel stole a kiss from
Erestor’s lips whenever he could. The siren reacted with a smile and his eyes
sparkled with mirth whenever Glorfindel robbed him of a kiss. This love was
unexpected, but very welcome. When he had left his people, he had imagined
himself living a life without love, without companionship, and now he had
gained a family.
~~~
Elladan
faced a dilemma. He wanted to stay with Melpomaen, but he didn’t know if the
other Elf would feel pressured if he voiced his request. How was he going to
solve this problem? Strangely enough, it was Melpomaen who helped Elladan find
an answer.
“Do
you want to stay a little longer?” Melpomaen asked nervously after opening the
door to his rooms. He still found it hard to believe that someone like Elladan
wanted him.
Elladan
smiled and gracefully accepted the invitation. Stepping into Melpomaen’s rooms,
he looked about. He had never been in there before. Melpomaen’s rooms were
spacious and warmly decorated. The soft-yellow walls reflected the rays of the
rising sun and the large number of plants gave the rooms a cozy feel. The bed
stood in the corner of the room and warm blankets literally invited Elladan to
cuddle up there with Melpomaen. They had spent most of the night talking and he
thought it important they rested for a little while. “Come with me.”
Uncertain
on what Elladan wanted from him, Melpomaen followed, feeling shy. Nervously, he
looked out the window. He had to report to Elrond in about an hour. “Elladan, I
can not…” But Elladan wouldn’t have it and pulled him down onto the bed with
him. “Elladan, I need to…”
“You
need to rest and so do I.” Elladan pulled Melpomaen close. They were on their
sides, facing each other and the half-Elf slid his fingers down Melpomaen’s
hair. Once he had located the nape of the other Elf’s neck, he massaged the
column. Staring into the brown eyes, Elladan still saw a hint of loneliness
there. “I like holding you.” Melpomaen laughed strangely, sounding amused and
bitter at the same time and Elladan wondered what it meant.
“I
should be holding you! I am no good…” Self-disgust slipped into Melpomaen’s
voice. He was the elder Elf. He should be holding and comforting Elladan and
not the other way around!
Elladan
wondered if there was something else in Melpomaen’s past that had affected the
elder Elf in such a way that he thought so little of himself. If that was the
case, he had to be patient and continue to gain Melpomaen’s trust. Then, he
hoped Melpomaen would *really* open up to him!
~~~
Little
Lindir was already up and about when Erestor and Glorfindel returned to their
rooms. The Elfling had taken up residence in their bed and looked at them with
big, shining eyes. Glorfindel had been worried that Lindir would feel deserted
when finding them gone, but the Elfling looked rather pleased with himself.
“Where
have you been?” Lindir asked and giggled.
“We
went for a swim,” Glorfindel replied as he sat down on the edge of the bed.
“Can
I come with you the next time you do?” Lindir knew they were keeping something
from him and he wanted to find out what it was.
Glorfindel
gave Erestor a thoughtful look and the siren took charge. He lowered himself
onto his heels in front of Lindir and folded the Elfling’s hands into his. “Do
you remember Glorfindel telling you that I am not an Elf?”
Lindir
nodded his head and his fair hair danced on his shoulders. “You are a fish!”
Glorfindel
couldn’t contain himself and burst out laughing. He sobered a moment later when
Erestor glanced at him. “I never said that!” he cried defensively as he raised
his arms in surrender.
“I
asked Silinde, one of my teachers, and he explained
to me what a siren is. You are part fish!” Lindir smiled victoriously at
Erestor. “Where is your tail?”
“My
tail only appears when I am in the water,” Erestor replied patiently to the
Elfling. “You will see it when we go for a swim.”
“Can
we go now?” Lindir, all excited, jumped on the bed.
“Later
today,” Glorfindel said, interfering. “It is time for you to go to your
teachers for today’s lesson.” He was relieved to see that Erestor had taken the
‘you are a fish’ in stride. He had been worried about the siren’s reaction, but
Erestor had remained calm and it looked like they were going for another swim
that evening, with Lindir accompanying them.
~~~
Elrond
took pity on Melpomaen and assigned the most urgent letters to himself instead
of to his faithful assistant. Melpomaen looked pensive and distant and the
half-Elf had a good idea what was occupying his friend’s mind. He wondered how
long it would take for Melpomaen to address the matter. Most likely not long.
“I
need to speak with you,” Melpomaen said as he came to a halt in front of
Elrond’s desk. His gaze was aimed at the floor and his hands were hidden in the
folds of his robes.
Elrond
placed the quill on the desk and tried to make eye contact with his friend.
“Then speak.” There was no way to make this easier on Melpomaen.
“Your
son requested my permission to court me.” Melpomaen flinched and then
hesitantly sought out Elrond’s eyes. He knew Elrond would approve – the
half-Elf had said he would applaud such a relationship, but standing there now,
he felt insecure.
“I
hope you gave him permission to do so?” Elrond wiggled an eyebrow.
Melpomaen
nervously looked at the half-Elf. “He did not take no for an answer.”
“Must
be a family trait,” Elrond commented half jokingly. On a more serious note, he
added, “You made the right decision to let him court you, my friend. You have
been alone for much too long.”
“But…
Elladan is your son!”
“Brilliant
observation,” Elrond deadpanned. “And that is a problem why?”
“He
is your heir!”
Elrond
shook his head. “And you are a trusted friend – my confidante. Elladan chose
well as far as I am concerned.” Elrond rose from behind his desk and covered
the distance between them. Slowly raising a hand, he placed it on his friend’s
shoulder. “I wish you happiness, Melpomaen. I hope Elladan will make you
happy.”
“I
will do my best to make him happy too,” Melpomaen responded, at long last
realizing that he had better make the best of the situation since these
half-Elves were so determined to see him happy.
~~~
Lindir
drove Silinde crazy that day. The Elfling found it
impossible to concentrate on the lectures and kept moving about on his chair
all day long. In the end, Silinde couldn’t take it
anymore and dismissed the Elfling for the day. Lindir didn’t waste any time and
ran back to his room in the hope of finding Erestor there.
The
Elfling had taken an instant liking to Erestor and that was surprising,
considering he had done his best to chase away any possible suitors who were
interested in Glorfindel. After losing his parents, he had built his world
around the golden-haired Elf and had refused to share Glorfindel with anyone
until Erestor had come along. Lindir didn’t know what it was about Erestor that
made him like the siren, he just knew he really liked him and didn’t mind
sharing Glorfindel with him. That he was allowed to spend time with the siren
in turn was an additional bonus.
Lindir
didn’t bother to knock and flung the door open. Dashing into the room, he
located Erestor as he sat in front of the window and was finger-combing his
hair. Erestor was lost in thought and hadn’t noticed his arrival yet. The siren
was singing softly and Lindir felt drawn closer. He walked over to Erestor and
cocked his head in wonder once he stood at the siren’s side. He had heard many
minstrels sing at Elrond’s court, but not a single bard possessed such a
wonderful voice. Erestor’s singing voice was unique and in that moment, Lindir
knew what he wanted to do once he was an adult. Glorfindel had often asked him
what he would like to study once he grew older and now Lindir knew that he
wanted to become a minstrel. He wanted to learn to sing like Erestor.
Erestor
suddenly grew aware of Lindir’s presence. Realizing he had been singing, he
instantly grew quiet. He hoped his voice hadn’t affected Lindir negatively.
“Do
not stop,” Lindir requested as he climbed onto Erestor’s lap. “Please do not
stop singing!”
Erestor
gave the Elfling a saddened look. “I can not sing when you are near.”
Lindir
frowned. “Why not?”
“Because
my voice attracts mishap,” Erestor replied, trying to find a way to explain his
problem to the Elfling. “Those close to me are hurt.”
“I
was not hurt!” Lindir said vehemently. “I loved hearing you sing!” Nodding his
head, he added, “When I am old enough I want to study with you and the
minstrels and become a singer myself!”
Erestor
studied the Elfling. Lindir was only a child, but at the same time he sounded
very determined. “Why?”
“Because
I want to learn how to sing like you did just now! I loved it!” Lindir raised
his little hands and placed his palms against Erestor’s cheeks. “Please sing?”
Erestor
blinked and found it impossible to deny the Elfling. He wavered then, afraid
his voice might spell doom for Lindir, but the child hadn’t been affected when
he had sung earlier. Maybe he should try. Erestor slowly and softly started to
sing and watched Lindir while he did. He would stop singing the moment Lindir
showed any signs of unease. But the Elfling cooed and clapped his hands to urge
him on. Erestor bowed his head and gave in, his voice swelling in volume.
~~~
Erestor’s
magical voice glided through every study, office, hall, and kitchen in Imladris
and Glorfindel exchanged a look with Elrond when he heard his love sing.
Glorfindel instantly grew worried and checked for any kind of strange reactions
from the Elves surrounding them. But all they did was look up and listen to the
silvery singing. Glorfindel allowed himself to breathe
a relieved sigh and then looked at Elrond for directions.
Elrond
cocked his head and nodded his head once. “Mithrandir was right,” he suddenly
realized. “Love is stronger than hate.”
And
suddenly Glorfindel understood as well and fear crept into his heart. If
Elrond’s observation was right, then the curse had been lifted because of the
love Erestor and Glorfindel shared. That implied that Erestor could safely
return to the Sea. Glorfindel shuddered. He didn’t want to think about that. “I
need to go to him,” Glorfindel said and practically fled the room. He couldn’t
lose Erestor just after admitting his love to the siren!
~~~
“You
are excused as well,” Elrond commented and smiled sweetly at Melpomaen. The
brown-haired Elf hadn’t noticed Elladan’s arrival and was still working hard on
finishing that day’s paperwork. “Off with you.”
Melpomaen
looked up in surprise. “But I have not finished yet!”
Elladan
grinned and approached Melpomaen from behind. The other Elf still hadn’t
noticed him and Elladan startled Melpomaen by tightly wrapping his arms around
him. Melpomaen gasped, looked over his shoulder at his ‘assailant’, and frowned
when he found that Elladan had returned to his side.
“You
heard what my father said. You can finish up tomorrow.” Elladan rested his chin
on Melpomaen’s shoulder and sensed the growing unease that was building in the
elder Elf’s body. “Hey, it is me,” Elladan murmured, hoping to reassure his
love.
Melpomaen
sighed deeply and bowed his head. He hadn’t thought Elladan would seek him out
again so quickly. A part of him still didn’t believe that their love was for
real. “I know it is you.”
Elladan
sought out his father’s gaze and gave him a puzzled look, but Elrond didn’t
know either why Melpomaen had reacted like that and shrugged his shoulders.
“Are you coming with me? I would like to have dinner with you,” Elladan
suggested.
Melpomaen
told himself to calm down, but it was new – so new – and so unexpected. He had
resigned himself to a life without love, a life mate, but now this young
upstart called Elladan was determined to upend his life. In the end, he nodded
his head.
Elladan
kept his arm wrapped around Melpomaen’s waist and started to pull him toward
the doorway. He caught Elrond’s gaze and nodded once. He would take good care
of the nervous Seneschal.
~~~
Glorfindel
cautiously entered his rooms only to find Lindir seated on Erestor’s lap. The
Elfling was drooling onto a strand of raven hair and his big eyes were trained
on the siren’s face. Glorfindel felt happy and sad at the same time. Happy
because Erestor’s curse had been lifted and sad because he might lose the siren
once Erestor realized he was free again.
Erestor
noticed Glorfindel and smiled gently at him. He raised a hand and gestured for
the Elf to approach. Glorfindel walked over to them and seated himself on the
edge of the vanity close to Erestor. Erestor finished his song and then waited
for Glorfindel to speak. Being able to sing again without causing the ones
close to him to commit suicide had been a revelation. He had remembered just
how much he had loved to sing.
Glorfindel
knew he had to be honest. He couldn’t lie to Erestor. “Mithrandir was right.
Love is stronger than hate.”
Erestor
blinked and then the full meaning of what Glorfindel’s words implied sank in.
“Do you mean… Do you think…?” Had the curse been lifted because Glorfindel
loved him? Glorfindel slowly nodded his head and Erestor’s world spun. If
Glorfindel was right, then he could return to the Sea. He would be reunited
with his kin and return to praising Ulmö in song, but did he still want that?
Yes, he did, but he didn’t want to leave Glorfindel behind. “I do not want to
think about that at the moment.” He wanted to savor Lindir and Glorfindel’s
presence.
Glorfindel
nodded his head and felt encouraged. Maybe a part of him had expected Erestor
to run off and jump into the Bruinen which would take him to the Sea. “As you wish.”
Lindir,
who had woken from the lovely trance he had been in due to Erestor’s singing,
tugged harshly at the raven hair to gain the siren’s attention. “Can we go
swimming now? I want to see your tail.”
Erestor
absentmindedly nodded his head. Although he didn’t want to think about the
curse being lifted, he had no choice but to consider his options. The urge to
return to the Sea was strong since he knew that he no longer presented a
danger, but at the same time, he didn’t want to desert his new family. “We will
go for a swim,” he said eventually, pushing thoughts of deserting Glorfindel to
the back of his mind. Maybe he was wrong and the curse hadn’t been lifted at
all. Maybe they were wrong. Yes, that was it. It only *seemed* like the curse
had been lifted!
~~~
Lindir
couldn’t believe his eyes when Erestor’s tail moved through the smooth water.
Normally, a swimmer’s movements would cause the water to stir, but the siren
easily glided through the water. Excited, the Elfling descended the stairs and
waded into the pool. “Can I touch it?”
Erestor
swam toward the Elfling and nodded his head. He understood the boy’s
fascination where his tail was concerned.
Glorfindel
floated at a distance. He was on his back and stared at the ceiling. He was
lost in thought and couldn’t help but wonder if he was going to lose his new
love.
Lindir’s
fingers stroked the scaled tail and he giggled at the sensation it caused in
his fingertips. “You feel warm.”
Erestor
allowed the Elfling to explore further and endured all the probing touches the
Elfling bestowed on his tail. With the passing of time, Lindir would become
less fascinated and seeing him in this state would become more normal to the
boy.
~~~
“Are
you not hungry?” Elladan was seated opposite Melpomaen and had placed several
delicacies on the elder Elf’s plate. He felt disappointed when Melpomaen hardly
touched his food. He had gone through great lengths to convince the cook to
prepare Melpomaen’s favorite foods.
Melpomaen
gave Elladan an apologetic look. “I *am* hungry, but… I am too nervous to eat.”
Elladan
wondered if the best thing to do was to stop dancing around the real issue.
“Mel, did you ever have a lover?”
Melpomaen’s
appearance turned shocked at being asked so directly. He averted his gaze and
shook his head. That should answer Elladan’s question.
Intrigued,
Elladan leaned in closer and studied Melpomaen’s expression. “How old are you
exactly?”
Melpomaen
swallowed hard, suddenly feeling ashamed of himself
for having never had a lover. “I am almost four thousand years old.”
“And
you stayed chaste all that time?”
“The
only Elf I ever desired was Thranduil…and now, you.” Admitting the last bit was
hard on Melpomaen, who would have preferred to stay in denial. “I do not know
how to approach you. I have no experience in these matters.” His face grew
flustered as he confessed.
“Mel?”
Elladan shifted his chair until he sat next to Melpomaen instead of opposite
him and cupped the elder Elf’s face in his hands.
Melpomaen
had no other choice than to lift his head and look at Elladan. He still felt
ashamed for having never had a lover before. An Elf his age should have some
experience and should be able to lead an encounter like this. Elladan was about
to speak again and Melpomaen felt worried because he didn’t know what the
half-Elf wanted to tell him.
“I
do not have any experience either, so there can be no mistakes. We learn
together.” Elladan hoped those words would truly register with Melpomaen. “I
want to experience all these things with you for the first time.”
Melpomaen’s
throat felt raw and his mouth dry as he looked into Elladan’s trusting gaze.
The setting they were in was rather intimate for they had retired to
Melpomaen’s rooms instead of Elladan’s, which the half-Elf shared with his
twin. That way, they were ensured of some privacy. Being in his own rooms
should make Melpomaen feel more at ease, but it didn’t. The fact that Elladan
was close made him feel agitated. “I am afraid you will have to take the lead,”
he whispered when Elladan moved closer toward him. Their faces were only inches
apart and Elladan’s warm breath caressed his face. “I am scared.” Scared wasn’t
the right word though. Elladan’s lips softly descended onto his in a light
kiss.
Melpomaen
trembled against Elladan and the half-Elf pulled him into a half embrace. Elladan
slipped one hand into place at the nape of Melpomaen’s neck and used the other
to hug the Seneschal close to him. Melpomaen closed his eyes in bliss. The kiss
was everything he had hoped it would be. Elladan was gentle, warm, and
yielding, and Melpomaen finally relaxed so he could enjoy the kiss. He moaned
softly and pressed closer. Having to go without these caresses, these kisses,
and this closeness for all those millennia had made him hungry and he hadn’t
realized that until now.
~~~
Lindir
hadn’t wanted to leave the pools, but Glorfindel had been adamant. It was time
to eat dinner and he didn’t want the Elfling to miss a single meal. Lindir
reluctantly agreed to leave for their rooms, but not before claiming Erestor’s
hand and trotting next to him. Glorfindel smiled since Lindir had taken such a
shine to Erestor, but then his smile faltered. What if the siren decided to
return to the Sea? Glorfindel hated having to address the matter, especially
since Erestor had indicated he didn’t want to discuss it. But there was no way
around it: they had to talk about the possibility of the curse having been
lifted.
~~~
Glorfindel
tucked Lindir into bed and kissed him goodnight. The Elfling had been exhausted
due to all the excitement and had quickly fallen asleep. Glorfindel tucked the
blanket around Lindir’s form and then rose from the bed. He walked over to the
doorway and closed the door until it was only slightly ajar. Looking into the
bedroom, he found that Erestor had made himself
comfortable on the bed and the siren was looking at him with his large, dark,
entrancing eyes. Glorfindel swallowed hard at the temptation Erestor presented
and then made his way over to the bed where he sat down. Erestor was only
dressed in a thin nightshirt and Glorfindel was careful not to undress. He
didn’t want to complicate matters even further.
Sensing
that something was wrong, Erestor placed a hand on Glorfindel’s wrist and gave
the blond Elf a puzzled look. “What is on your mind?”
“You
know what troubles me,” Glorfindel replied with a hint of reproach in his
voice. “Mithrandir was right: love is stronger than hate. When you sang earlier
today, you realized the truth as well.”
Erestor’s
hand trembled, but he still forced himself to speak. “And what truth might that
be?” He didn’t want to hear it!
“That
the curse has been lifted. We never noticed it, but it has happened. The spell
has been undone and you can return to your people. We would have sensed it
before if we had opened ourselves up to that possibility. I love you…and you
love me…that undid the spell.”
“I
do not believe that!” Erestor’s jaw set firmly. “The curse can not be lifted –
and certainly not that easily! Not even Ulmö could undo it and you think that
something like falling in love achieved the impossible? I do not believe it!”
He crossed his arms in front of his chest and glared at the Elf. “Impossible!”
Glorfindel
however was much more accepting than Erestor. Maybe in his heart he always had
known that this love was too good to be true and that something would ruin it.
Falling in love with the siren had been a mistake, but it was too late to
convince his heart otherwise. “It is possible,” he said eventually, giving
Erestor a rueful look. “And the Sea will start to call to you. You will leave
me – us.”
“No!”
The intensity of his negation stunned Erestor as well. Until that moment, he
hadn’t known he would react so vehemently. “I will not leave you!”
Glorfindel
was touched for he realized that Erestor meant it. He moved closer, took the
siren’s cool hands in-between his, and said, “You will. You will not have a
choice. Once the Sea calls out to you, you will have to answer that call.” He
felt strangely accepting of that fact. He couldn’t fight fate anyway.
5.
Into The Deep
Melpomaen
recalled only one time before that he had been so nervous and that had been
when he had told Thranduil about his feelings. Back then, the Mirkwood Elf had
simply laughed at him and had then walked away. Now there was a different Elf
he was developing feelings for and he still felt afraid that Elladan would
reconsider and realize he could do better. Melpomaen knew he had to trust
Elladan and have faith in the younger Elf, but that was hard on the
brown-haired Elf.
He
had reluctantly followed when Elladan had pulled him along to the bed and had
yielded to the passionate kisses, allowing the half-Elf to take the lead and
guide him. He hadn’t regretted surrendering to Elladan so far. The younger Elf
hadn’t betrayed his faith and they had done little more than kissing and touching.
They were still fully clothed and, although one part of Melpomaen yearned for
more, another felt relieved that Elladan was going slowly.
Elladan
knew he had to go slow because Melpomaen looked at him with fright in those
large, brown eyes. He sensed that the elder Elf wanted more from him, but at
the same time, Melpomaen felt too insecure to take the next step. Elladan
didn’t mind too much – he had time.
They
had curled up on Melpomaen’s bed, which was large, soft, and comfortable and
Elladan caressed the long brown hair with his fingertips. He even pressed a
chaste kiss onto the crown of Melpomaen’s head. Melpomaen had snuggled up next
to him and the elder Elf had rested his head on his chest. Elladan had wrapped
an arm around his new love and smiled, even though Melpomaen couldn’t see it.
He felt contented and hoped Melpomaen felt the same.
~~~
Mithrandir
took a stroll through the gardens. He had used the last few weeks to enjoy
Imladris’ peace and splendor and to mentally prepare himself for his trip to
Saruman’s tower. He felt rested and smiled when a butterfly tried to hook
itself tightly to his beard. Mithrandir caught the butterfly within his hands,
removed it from his beard, and set it free again. “You have to find another
place to nest, my friend.” The butterfly flew away and that was when Mithrandir
grew aware of a pair of dark eyes watching him. The siren stood to his right,
wrapped up in a green cloak while his raven hair danced along his form.
“Erestor,” Mithrandir greeted Erestor as he inclined his head in greeting. The
dark magic which he had sensed before was gone and he realized that the curse
had been lifted. Love was always stronger than hatred.
“Mithrandir.” Erestor approached the wizard. “May I
speak with you?” He had left Glorfindel’s rooms when the blond Elf had left to
train with his guards. Lindir was studying with his teachers and Erestor had
finally found a chance to talk to Mithrandir in private.
Mithrandir
nodded his head once. “Of course. What do you wish to
know?” The wizard had a feeling he knew why Erestor had sought him out.
“I
want to ask you about the curse. You told Glorfindel that love is stronger than
hate and I need to know…” Erestor seldom felt nervous, but this was one of
those times. If Mithrandir confirmed that the curse had been lifted he didn’t
know how he would react. He didn’t want the curse to be lifted because then his
life would become complicated again.
“I
no longer sense any dark magic surrounding you,” Mithrandir answered and read
the apprehension in Erestor’s eyes. He sensed the siren’s distress and felt
pity toward him. This couldn’t be easy – but then again, life never was.
“Then
it is true – the curse has been lifted.” Erestor’s shoulders slumped forward in
defeat.
Mithrandir
walked toward the siren and waited for Erestor to raise his head. When the
siren did, Mithrandir murmured, “You could rejoice, my friend. You are free to
return to the Sea again. Ulmö, and your brothers and sisters will be delighted
to find out that you are free to join them again.”
Erestor
averted his eyes and then the truth slipped out. “I do not want to return to
the Sea. I love Glorfindel.”
Mithrandir
nodded his head. “It is that love that freed you.”
Erestor
gave Mithrandir a pleading look. “I do not want to leave Glorfindel and Lindir.
I found a home here in Imladris.”
Mithrandir
felt a deep sympathy toward the siren. “I understand your dilemma,” he replied.
“But you are the only one who can decide what your future will be. You have
reached a crossroad. One path leads back to the Sea, to Ulmö and your kin. You
can resume your old life and serve Ulmö and guide the sailors into safety.
Another path leads to Imladris, to Glorfindel and Lindir. You have found a new
family here – a home. You must decide what you want, Erestor.”
Erestor’s
hands trembled when he hid them in the folds of his sleeves. He hadn’t even
admitted this to Glorfindel. “I have started to feel the call of the Sea again.
Ulmö is calling me home and I hear my kin’s song in my ears when I lay down at
night and wrap myself up in Glorfindel’s arms. What do I do?”
Mithrandir
shook his head. “Erestor, only you can answer that question. Take your time
finding the answer. You do not have to act now.”
Erestor’s
eyes swam with unshed tears. “I do not know if I have that time. The call is
strong and I ache to be reunited with my kin.”
“I
can not help you,” Mithrandir stated eventually and his heart went out to the
distraught siren. “Only you can shape your future.”
~~~
Elrohir
grinned when he finally ‘caught’ his twin unaware. Elladan had joined him and
the guards on the training grounds and the half-Elf curiously studied his twin.
Elladan was clearly happy and in love and therefore easily distracted during
sparring. Elrohir landed a so-called killing blow by tapping Elladan’s brow.
“Pay attention, brother. Melpomaen is distracting you and thinking about him
would have found you killed.”
Elladan
sighed deeply and admitted defeat. “You win. I can not put Mel out of my mind.”
The twins sheathed their swords and seated themselves beneath a tree, enjoying
its shade. “He is so sweet,” Elladan whispered dreamily. “And
still completely innocent. I never thought I would have to take the
lead!”
Elrohir
smiled warmly. “Are you happy, Elladan?”
Elladan
nodded his head. “I do and he returns my feelings, but he has been hurt in the
past and that prevents him from opening his heart completely. I need to win his
faith first.” Eager to change their subject, Elladan asked teasingly, “And who
is the Elf of your heart at the moment.”
“Rumil!” Elrohir exclaimed.
Elladan
laughed. “Last time we talked it was Salbaeth!”
“Nay,
Silinde!” Elrohir chuckled and Elladan happily joined
in.
~~~
Erestor
fought the pull he felt. The Sea rushed in his ears and the blood in his veins
rushed through his body at a frightening pace. Everything pushed him to seek
out the Bruinen and swim home to his kin, but the thought of having to leave
Glorfindel and Lindir behind held him back. The siren didn’t know how much
longer he could withstand the urge to dive into the Bruinen and return home. He
only knew he had to do his best to resist the pull because if he failed and
gave in, he would wound Glorfindel and Lindir tremendously.
~~~
Glorfindel
sensed that something was wrong when he met Erestor for lunch. Lindir had also
joined them and the Elfling bounced happily on the blond Elf’s knee. Lindir
seemed unaware of Erestor’s distress, but children were bright and Glorfindel
suspected Lindir was merely acting happy.
Lunch
passed in near silence. Although Erestor smiled and Glorfindel returned that
smile, their unease was palpable and Glorfindel knew that it was only a matter
of time before he would lose his love to the Sea. When that happened, he had to
be there for Lindir and couldn’t give into his grief. He would have to go on
without Erestor.
~~~
Elrond
watched the relationship between Glorfindel and Erestor fall apart within the
next few weeks. The half-Elf didn’t doubt that the siren loved Glorfindel, but
Erestor was a child of the Sea and not an Elf. It was only normal that he
wanted to return to his kin. He even considered discussing the matter with
Erestor, but the siren’s hurried movements and excited manner told him that a
discussion would be useless. He watched with pain in his heart and realized all
he could do was to be there for Glorfindel when it all fell apart.
~~~
Erestor
stopped fighting the call of the Sea late that evening. The Elves of Imladris
were about to meet in the Hall of Fire for dinner when Elrond first noticed
that one person was missing – Erestor.
Glorfindel
bowed his head in surrender when he realized what had happened. “He is gone,”
the blond Elf whispered miserably.
Elrond
placed a hand on Glorfindel’s shoulder and squeezed gently. “I am sorry, my
friend.”
“I
can not say I am surprised,” Glorfindel admitted truthfully. “I knew this day
would come. I realized it after the curse had been lifted. The call of the Sea
was too strong.” His swimming eyes sought out his friend’s gaze. “I do not
blame Erestor. He is what he is. He can not escape his fate and neither can I.”
On the inside, Glorfindel screamed out in anger, but that anger was directed at
himself. “I knew this could happen and I let myself fall in love with him. Now
I must pay the price.”
Elrond
squeezed Glorfindel’s shoulder again. “You are remarkably strong, Glorfindel.
If I were in your place, I am not sure I could have accepted this development
so easily.” The look Glorfindel gave him caused Elrond heartache.
“What
choice do I have?” Glorfindel shrugged. “I can not blame Erestor for being a
child of the Sea. He is no Elf. He never was.” Glorfindel’s gaze searched the
room and came to rest upon Lindir’s form. The Elfling was looking about and
apprehension lay in those eyes. “He knows,” Glorfindel whispered when Elrond
caught sight of Lindir as well. “Lindir knows Erestor is gone.” The Elfling
came first at the moment and Glorfindel walked over to Lindir and lifted him in
his arms. Large, wet eyes met his and Glorfindel’s heart ached. “I am sorry,
little one.”
“He
left,” Lindir whispered brokenly. “Erestor is gone.”
“I
am afraid so. He returned to his people – to his brothers and sisters. But you
will always have me, Lindir. I promise you that.” Glorfindel pulled the Elfling
close and hugged him tightly. They would make it *together*.
~~~
Melpomaen
reached for Elladan’s hand beneath the table. The fact that Erestor had left so
suddenly had affected everyone and Melpomaen needed to *feel* Elladan’s
support. He had never had an Elf support him in such a way before.
Elladan
curled his fingers around his love’s and rubbed the
digits. His gaze met Melpomaen’s and he gave the elder Elf a reassuring look.
“I will stay with you tonight,” he whispered into the other Elf’s ear. “You
will not be alone.”
Melpomaen
gratefully nodded his head. “I do not want to be alone – not tonight or ever
again.”
“I
understand,” Elladan replied, squeezing the clammy fingers that rested in his
gentle grip. “I will be there for you.”
~~~
Lindir
climbed into Glorfindel’s bed and snuggled up to the blond Elf. He raised his
head and looked at Glorfindel with big, haunted eyes. Like most children, the
Elfling blamed himself. “Was it something I did,
“Oh no.” Glorfindel hugged the Elfling close and
kissed a strand of the fair hair. “You did nothing wrong. Erestor had to make a
decision and the urge to return to his people was too strong. I know he fought
it.” He had seen the tormented expression in the dark eyes. “I am sure he loves
you still, little one.”
Lindir
wanted to believe Glorfindel, but he still blamed himself. It *must* have been
something he did!
~~~
Erestor
stood only a few feet away from the water. The Bruinen stood in direct contact
with the Sea and the water would carry him home. He was naked now and had
dropped the cloak onto the ground, knowing that Glorfindel would find it there.
The blond Elf hadn’t tried to keep him back. The truth was that nothing could
have stopped Erestor from diving into the water, taking on his true form, and
swimming away from Imladris. It was something he had to do no matter how much
his heart ached due to the loss. He really loved Glorfindel and Lindir, but he
was a child of the Sea and that was where he belonged: in the Sea with his kin.
~~~
“Hold
me?” Melpomaen extended his arms and pulled Elladan onto the bed with him. He
wasn’t in the mood for kissing and the half-Elf respected that. Melpomaen
pressed close to Elladan and moved even closer when the half-Elf embraced him
tightly. “I did not think Erestor would leave like that – could leave like
that. He did not just break Glorfindel’s heart...he broke Lindir’s as well.”
Elladan
nodded his head and, as he did so, his chin rubbed against Melpomaen’s hair.
Elrond had told them about Erestor’s true identity and, although Melpomaen and
he understood the pressure the siren must have been under, they did not
understand how Erestor could have possibly left Glorfindel and Lindir behind.
Most Imladris’ Elves had seen Glorfindel and Erestor fall in love and they
couldn’t understand how everything could have gone so terribly wrong so
quickly. “I will never leave you,” Elladan whispered into Melpomaen’s ear. “I
will always be at your side.”
Melpomaen
raised his head and studied Elladan’s gray eyes. “I love you,” he said, finally
fully admitting and voicing his feelings. “I love you, Elladan.”
Smiling,
Elladan brushed Melpomaen’s lips with his. “And I love you.” He then tucked
Melpomaen’s head beneath his chin and held him tight.
~~~
Erestor
swam down the Bruinen and with every mile the taste of salt on his lips became
stronger. He was growing closer to the Sea and it wouldn’t be long before he
would be reunited with his kin. But Glorfindel’s eyes and Lindir’s smile
haunted him and he couldn’t put them out of his thoughts. He felt trapped,
cornered between wanting to be with Glorfindel and Lindir and returning to his
family.
~~~
Glorfindel
held Lindir during the Elfling’s sleep and didn’t release his tears until he
was absolutely certain that the child was deeply asleep. Once he knew that
Lindir wouldn’t notice him crying, he sobbed softly, mourning the loss of his
love.
~~~
The
first thing that reached Erestor was the singing of his brothers and sisters.
Their song was quiet at first, but then gained in intensity until in the end
their sweet voices rang in Erestor’s ears, urging him on. He sped up and swam
toward them. He had reached the open Sea and could make out their transparent
forms in the water around him as they swam close to him in greeting. One by
one, they came to him, greeted him, sang to him, and pulled him with them
toward the part where Ulmö dwelled. Their lost brother had returned home, free
of the curse, and they were eager to welcome him among their midst again.
~~~
Late
that night, Elrond visited with Glorfindel in the blond Elf’s rooms. He sat
down on the edge of the bed and sighed upon seeing Lindir’s red eyes. The
Elfling had clearly wept in his sleep. Glorfindel’s blue eyes fixed on his form
and Elrond’s sympathy-filled eyes met his friend’s. “This must be hard on you,”
the half-Elf said.
Glorfindel
checked if Lindir was still asleep and then nodded his head. “I miss him. We
shared this bed since we arrived in Imladris. Sleeping
without him in my arms feels…empty.”
“I
considered what you said,” Elrond whispered, careful not to wake the sleeping
Elfling. “You were right: Erestor did not have a choice. He is a child of the
Sea and never belonged here.”
Glorfindel
saw a hint of guilt in Elrond’s eyes and understood where it was coming from.
“You are not to blame, Elrond. We had to take him away from the Gray Havens. He
could not stay there either.” He had set himself up for heart ache when he had
taken Erestor to Imladris. “Lindir and I will need you,” Glorfindel added
softly.
“You
have my support.” Elrond leaned in closer and kissed first Lindir’s brow and
then Glorfindel’s. “You will always have it. Now rest.”
“I
am afraid to rest. I am afraid of what tomorrow will bring.” Glorfindel
accepted Elrond’s soothing touch when the half-Elf began to stroke his hair.
“No
one knows what tomorrow will bring,” Elrond answered sagely. “Not even you.”
~~~
Erestor
felt ecstatic now that his brothers and sisters surrounded him. Their song was
soothing and their touches were reassuring. He had finally come home and
Erestor whirled through the water alongside his kin.
They
reached Vaiya, Ulmö’s dwelling place, and the
children of the Sea entered Ulmönan, Ulmö’s grand
palace. They swam into the great hall and waited there for their Lord to join
them. Erestor felt agitated and worried that the Lord of Waters might not
welcome him back and would cast him out again.
Then,
the Vala appeared in front of his children. The Lord of Waters appeared in all
of his might. Surrounded by myriads of vortexes and dressed in glittering green
garments of seaweed and pearls, the Vala floated toward his lost child. His
long, blue hair that was streaked with green floated behind him and his
transparent eyes, which were filled with water, took in Erestor’s form, sensing
and reading everything in the dark eyes that fastened on him.
“Welcome
home, child,” he said eventually and inclined his head. “You have been sorely
missed.” Erestor was one of his youngest children, one of the last sirens he
had created and he had always been extremely fond of the youngster. “You found
a way to lift the curse.” Just like he had expected would happen. Everything
was falling into place now.
Erestor
bowed and remained in place in front of his Lord. Ulmö was a kind and just Lord
and Erestor, like the rest of the sirens, looked upon Ulmö as their father. The
children of the Sea loved their father and didn’t fear him, so therefore,
Erestor spoke freely. “Love freed me, my Lord.”
Ulmö
nodded once and his long hair danced around his face in the water. Countless
fish swirled around his form and Ulmö raised a hand, gesturing for Erestor to
approach further. “Tell me.”
Erestor
told him what had happened since he had been cast out. He spoke of the deaths
he had caused in the Gray Havens and the children wept salty tears for the
deaths of the Firstborn, but then the tone of Erestor’s voice changed and
became filled with hope when he told them about his saviors. He told them how
Glorfindel had caught him and had taken him to Imladris with him. He didn’t
hold back when he spoke of the hospitality of the Elves, the wisdom of Elrond,
and the love he had found when he had dwelt with Glorfindel. And then he talked
about Lindir, the small Elfling that had touched his heart. In each word, they
heard the love Erestor had for Glorfindel and Lindir and many of the children
curiously turned their heads to look at Ulmö to find out their Lord’s reaction.
“And
yet, you returned to us.” Ulmö knew the role he had to play and carried out his
part. “You returned here even though you lost your heart in Imladris.”
Erestor
bowed his head in defeat. “You called me home. The Sea called me home. The song
of my brothers and sisters rang in my ears – it still does. How could I deny
them – you?” He raised his head and looked pleadingly at Ulmö. “I thought that
when the curse would be lifted, that I would be happy again, but I was wrong. I
hurt. My heart aches because I want to return to Imladris and feel Glorfindel’s
arms around me. I want to hear Lindir laugh and bounce him about on my knee.”
Erestor’s
distress touched Ulmö and he reached out to his child. Erestor swam closer and
Ulmö spoke the words he had waited to speak for years. “You have to make a
decision, child.”
Erestor
looked upon Ulmö in a mixture of awe, hope, and love. He had sprung forth from
the Vala and would always be connected to him. “I made my decision, father. I
returned to you.” But to his distress, the Vala shook his head. “I do not
understand.”
“You
*think* you made your final decision when you left Imladris. Your true decision
must be made here, but first listen to your options.”
Erestor
trembled and he sensed his brothers and sisters’ distress as the children of
the Sea increased the distance between them. “My options?” he asked, still not
understanding Ulmö.
Ulmö
knew this had to happen, but regretted putting his dearest child in this
situation. “You must choose between living here with your brothers and sisters
and serving me or returning to Imladris. If you choose to return to Imladris,
you will take on Elven form and you will never be able to come back to Vaiya. You will stay with Glorfindel and Lindir and live
out the rest of your immortal life there.”
Erestor
felt shocked. “I thought I had already made my decision!” But he realized that
he had to make his final choice there, in front of Ulmö and his kin. “I could
never betray you, father.” And therefore he had to stay with his kin.
Ulmö
however didn’t agree. “What does your heart say, Erestor? You must follow it.”
Erestor
listened closely to what his heart had been trying to tell him all along. “I
love Glorfindel… I want to be with him.” The revelation wasn’t that sudden. He
had known the truth all along, but he’d had to come there to tell Ulmö and his
kin.
Ulmö’s
features softened and a wave rolled toward Erestor, engulfing him. He hadn’t
known what Erestor would decide. The ultimate choice had always been Erestor’s,
but the Vala agreed that his child had made the right choice. “Then return to
Imladris and take on Elven form. Walk Arda until the end of days and never
regret your choice. Know that I love you like I love all my children. We will
miss you, but we shall not weep for you because you found love.”
The
wave started to push Erestor away from the Vala and out of the hall. He was
swept out of the palace and ended up in a vortex that pulled him along so
swiftly that he fainted due to the spinning sensation in his head.
“Take
him to Imladris and leave him at the river side. Glorfindel will find him there,”
Ulmö instructed his children. He watched how they gently pulled Erestor with
them. The siren had already lost consciousness and the transition to his Elven
form had already begun. “It is done,” Ulmö declared and disappeared into his
private rooms once more. His work was done.
~~~
“Mithrandir?” Glorfindel had left his room in search of
a baby sitter and had happened upon the wizard first. He carried Lindir in his
arms and came to a halt when he stood in front of the wizard. “I can not stay
inside. I need fresh air.” He felt like he was suffocating indoors.
Mithrandir
nodded, showing he understood. “Give the child to me. I shall watch over him.”
Mithrandir opened his arms and cradled Lindir close to his chest once
Glorfindel had released the Elfling. “Go to the Bruinen. You shall find peace
of mind there.”
Glorfindel
flinched. “I do not want to go there. That is where Erestor waded into the
water so he could go home.”
“Trust
me,” Mithrandir replied. “Go there.”
Glorfindel
shrugged his shoulders. “If I must.”
Mithrandir
nodded again. “Go to the river, Glorfindel. Trust me.”
“You
never lied to me before,” Glorfindel whispered and turned around. He would
follow Mithrandir’s advice although he knew his heart would shatter into a
million pieces once he stood on the river bank.
~~~
Erestor
was too exhausted to open his eyes when he finally felt ground beneath him. He
still heard his brothers and sisters call out to him, saying goodbye to him,
but no longer felt the overwhelming urge to join them. His hands opened and his
fingers dug into the soft earth that made up the river bank. They had returned
him to Imladris, just as the Lord of Waters had ordered them and, although his
feet still floated in the water, he no longer sported a tail. He moaned softly
and tried to raise his head, but he lacked the strength and simply lay there,
hoping an Elf he knew would find him and take him to Glorfindel.
~~~
Glorfindel
took his time making his way to the Bruinen. The truth was that he didn’t want
to go there and almost turned around and headed back. But then he caught sight
of the traveling cloak Erestor had worn and rushed to the river bank. He sank
onto his knees and picked up the cloak, cradling it close. It still carried
Erestor’s scent. “I understand why you did it… I just wished I did not hurt so
much.” Lost in grief, Glorfindel at first didn’t hear the soft moans that came
from lower down on the bank, but in the end he did. Thinking that an animal was
in pain, he rose from the bank, dragging the cloak with him as he made his way
down.
The
sight that greeted him stunned Glorfindel. Erestor lay there, only dressed in
his long, raven hair as his fingers clawed the mud while he moaned softly. “Erestor?” For one moment, he was frozen, but then he shook
off his stupor and ran over to Erestor. He collapsed onto his knees and pulled
Erestor into his lap. The head lolled from right to left and the eyes were
closed in exhaustion. “Erestor? But I thought…” He had
thought Erestor had left him!
The
dark eyes opened and tried to focus on Glorfindel. A weak smile curled the
corners of Erestor’s mouth and he raised a hand to cup Glorfindel’s cheek in
the palm of his hand. “I came back to you,” he whispered. His body felt broken,
his mind was in turmoil, but his heart beat a steady beat now that he had been
united with the Elf he loved. “And I am staying…if you will still have me.”
Glorfindel
cried out and pulled Erestor against his chest. He rocked his love and sobbed
softly, but this time, the tears that dripped from his chin were tears of
happiness and not of sorrow. “I thought I had lost you!”
Too
exhausted to fill Glorfindel in on everything that had happened, Erestor simply
caressed the blond Elf’s face and smiled. “Take me home, Glorfindel. Take me to
Lindir.”
Glorfindel
didn’t need any more encouragement and lifted the exhausted Erestor in his
arms. He was so shaken that he never realized that Erestor’s tail was gone even
though he was still in touch with the water.
~~~
Mithrandir
didn’t mind that Lindir had woken for he knew an important moment was upon
them. Lindir sat on his hip and the wizard supported the Elfling when they made
their way over to the balcony. “Look over there, little one,” he said softly.
Lindir’s
eyes which had still been swimming with tears had a little trouble making out
the two forms that were approaching the Last Homely House. He recognized
Glorfindel first and then realized the blond Elf was carrying something, or
rather someone. He yelped when he recognized Erestor cradled against Glorfindel’s
chest and his big eyes sought out Mithrandir’s.
The
wizard read the question in Lindir’s eyes and answered, “Love conquers all,
Lindir. Erestor realized his life lies here now, with you and Glorfindel.”
“He
is back?” Lindir asked, hoping that he had reached the right conclusion.
“Erestor is back?”
“Aye,
little one, Erestor is back.” Mithrandir could tell that the child wanted down
so he could run over to Glorfindel, but he didn’t put the Elfling down yet.
“Now that you know that Erestor is back, you can dismiss your worries. Give
them a few hours in private, Lindir. I am sure they will come to you shortly.”
Lindir
would have preferred to greet Erestor at that moment, but the child sensed that
it was important Glorfindel and Erestor spoke in private. He would give them
those hours, but after that, he wanted to be hugged by Erestor – tightly.
~~~
Glorfindel
carried Erestor to the rooms they shared and placed him on the bed. He pulled a
blanket into place and covered the naked Erestor with it. He then sat down on
the edge of the bed and waited for Erestor to address him again. The eyes had
closed during their journey and Glorfindel hoped Erestor had recovered
somewhat.
Erestor
opened his eyes and smiled at the distraught Elf. “You do not have to worry. I
am here to stay.”
Glorfindel
buried one of Erestor’s hands in-between his and was surprised when they felt
warm to the touch instead of clammy or cool. “You look tired,” he said, even
though knowing no child of Ulmö could experience something like fatigue. “You
are safe now – here with me.” He didn’t really know what to say. The fact that
Erestor was back still stunned him.
“I
*am* tired,” Erestor agreed as he realized that he had to tell Glorfindel what
had happened. He pulled Glorfindel’s hand close and the Elf had to follow.
Glorfindel lay down next to him and Erestor moved onto his side so he could
look into the blue eyes.
Glorfindel
frowned. “But…”
Erestor
smiled and shook his head. “Something happened...something extraordinary.”
“Do
I want to hear this?” Glorfindel wasn’t certain he wanted to know what had
happened.
“Ulmö
made me Elven and allowed me to dwell in Imladris. I am like you now – an Elf.”
Erestor closely monitored Glorfindel’s reaction and he received one.
Glorfindel’s eyes widened and the blond Elf’s breathing sped up. “I am telling
you the truth. I am like you now.”
Glorfindel
gasped. “But…”
“I
realized I love you. I had returned to my kin and thought I had already made my
decision. Imagine my surprise when Ulmö told me that I had not. That my *true*
decision still lay in front of me.” Erestor caressed Glorfindel’s face with his
thumb. “I chose you. I chose Lindir. I chose a life in Imladris.”
Glorfindel
was speechless. “I do not know what to say.”
“How
about I love you?” Erestor hinted wickedly.
“I
love you!” Glorfindel exclaimed happily. He crushed Erestor to his chest and
rocked his love. Just when he had thought he had lost Erestor, he had been
granted a second chance. Erestor was back and there to stay!
~~~
“Can
I see Erestor now?” Lindir had forced himself to be patient, but now tugged at
Mithrandir’s impressive beard. “I want to see Erestor!”
Taking
pity on the Elfling, Mithrandir nodded his head. “Aye, we shall visit with
them.” Two hours had passed since Glorfindel and Erestor had returned and that
had to be enough, since this little impatient Elf was eager to be reunited with
Erestor.
~~~
Mithrandir
politely knocked on the door while at the same time tried to contain a
struggling Elfling, who was fighting to be put on the floor. “Be patient,
Lindir.” But the wise words were lost on the child.
Lindir
managed to escape Mithrandir’s grip and stormed into the room. He scanned the
room and found Glorfindel and Erestor – as expected – in the bed. Running over
to them, he threw out his arms and then climbed onto the bed. “Erestor!”
Erestor
laughed warmly and caught the Elfling when Lindir crashed against him. “Slow down, little one!” But Lindir’s greedy little hands
were all over him and soon found a tight grip on his hair. “Do not worry
anymore. I am back and I will not leave you again.” Those were the exact words
Lindir had needed to hear and the child hugged Erestor tightly.
Glorfindel
watched the reunion happily, but then caught sight of Mithrandir, who was trying
to quietly leave the room. Since Lindir was engaged in hugging Erestor,
Glorfindel left the bed and marched over to Mithrandir. He caught the wizard by
his robe and Mithrandir was forced to come to a stop. Glorfindel swallowed hard
when Mithrandir’s wise gaze met his. “Did you know he would return to me?”
Mithrandir
shrugged his shoulders. “I had a very strong feeling he would. Ulmö is a very
compassionate ruler and Erestor’s fate would have touched him. There was a
chance he would urge Erestor to return to you.”
“Thank
you,” Glorfindel mouthed with a warm smile on his face. “Thank you for sending
me to the Bruinen.”
Mithrandir
smiled. “It was your love that brought him back, Glorfindel. I had little to do
with that.” He then turned around and Glorfindel let go of his robes. The
wizard left the room, giving the family some privacy.
6.
Happily Ever After
Later
that evening they put Lindir into his own bed and watched the Elfling sleep
peacefully. There were no more signs of grief or tears on the child’s face and
Lindir happily snuggled up to his toy dragon.
“I
missed him,” Erestor admitted in a shaky voice. He still needed Glorfindel’s
support since he was wobbly on his feet and leaned against the blond Elf.
Glorfindel
kept one arm wrapped around Erestor’s waist and silently thanked Ulmö for being
the compassionate Vala he was. “I missed you too,” he said and sought out
Erestor’s gaze. He was trying hard to accept that Erestor was an Elf now. For
so long he had thought of him as one of Ulmö’s children! He guided Erestor back
to their bed, where they sat down. Glorfindel lifted Erestor’s feet and
stretched out on his side next to his love after Erestor had lain down. “I
still can not believe I have you back. Only a few hours ago, I lay here weeping
and mourning your loss.”
“I
am sorry,” Erestor whispered apologetically. “The call of the Sea was too
strong. I had to go back. I fought it, but lost the battle. I never wanted to
leave you – or Lindir.” He raised a hand and slid his fingers into Glorfindel’s
mane. “I do not think I have ever loved before.”
Glorfindel
blushed slightly. “I have…” He swallowed hard. “And I thought I would never
love again…until you came along.” He peeked at Erestor through strands of his
hair and cocked his head. “I want to kiss you.”
“I
feel the same way.” Erestor slid his hand into place at the nape of
Glorfindel’s neck and pulled him closer. Their lips touched and locked in a
passionate kiss. His body hummed with need and desire and his blood now sang a
different song. “Show me…”
Glorfindel
nodded once, immediately understanding Erestor’s request. He wanted to make
love with Erestor too. “Trust yourself to me.” His arms slid beneath Erestor
and he rolled his lover onto his back. It was a good thing that Erestor wasn’t
wearing any clothes, for now he had complete access to his lover’s body. “I
have wanted to do this for quite some time,” he whispered as his lips moved
lower down Erestor’s throat. He suckled the sensitive skin there and ran his
large hands all over Erestor’s body. His lover’s body arched beneath him and
Glorfindel took his time in exploring the quivering body. Erestor had
instinctively parted his legs and Glorfindel’s hand slipped lower to touch his
lover intimately.
Erestor
gasped in surprise when soft, warm fingers wrapped around his member. He then
realized that Elves expressed their love physically. Ulmö’s children loved in a
different way and he wondered what to expect. His body however knew how to
react to the slow stroking and he grew hard.
Glorfindel
smiled at his lover and chuckled softly. “Everything functions perfectly.”
“Did
you doubt it would?” Erestor found it increasingly hard to focus on returning
pleasure to Glorfindel. His lower body had become the center of his existence
and all he craved was for Glorfindel to continue this seduction. Then the lips
were back and the tip of Glorfindel’s tongue pressed against his lips. Catching
on, Erestor parted his mouth and then experienced another first. Glorfindel’s
moist and playful tongue slid into his mouth and Erestor moaned ecstatically.
Glorfindel
was thrilled to see Erestor react so wantonly to his advances. His lover shook
beneath him and began to thrust upward to increase the friction his fingers
supplied. He would have preferred to take his time with Erestor, but his body
urged him on. He had to unite them – he couldn’t wait much longer.
Erestor
thought that this was it...that this was making love and so he kissed
Glorfindel back with all the passion he felt inside. His fingers, which had been
clawing at the sheet, sought out Glorfindel’s clothed form and he literarily
tore the clothes from Glorfindel’s back.
Lost
in a daze of passion, Glorfindel hardly noticed being undressed in that manner.
He only knew that his upper body was bare all of a sudden and Erestor’s nails
dragged down his chest. “Oh, I need you…” Within a few seconds, he had undone
the lacing to his leggings and resolutely shrugged them off, kicking them onto
the floor. Finally naked, he lowered himself onto Erestor’s trembling body. He
buried his fingers in the raven hair and consumed Erestor’s mouth, noticing
that even now he still tasted the salt of the Sea on his lover’s lips.
Climax
built in Erestor’s body and, helplessly, he looked at Glorfindel to guide him
to orgasm. Glorfindel caught on and dragged the tip of his tongue down
Erestor’s chest. He playfully lapped at the leaking erection and then shoved
his hands beneath his lover’s buttocks. Lifting him slightly, he sought out the
entrance to his lover’s body and prepared him.
Erestor’s
eyes grew big as he felt something wet and wiggly *there*. The pressure in his
groin was building and he felt like he was going to burst from the sensation
alone.
Glorfindel
loved seeing Erestor’s uninhibited response to his seduction and pushed the tip
of his tongue past the ring of muscle. Erestor quavered beneath him and one
look at the hooded eyes told him that he couldn’t wait much longer: Erestor was
about to peak.
Erestor’s
gaze clung to Glorfindel’s and he watched every move his lover made when the
blond Elf knelt between his legs. Glorfindel’s hands kneaded his buttocks and
then something hard, though moist, pushed against the part of his body which
Glorfindel had just lavished with so much attention.
Moving
his hands down Erestor’s long legs, Glorfindel hooked them beneath his lover’s
knees. Pulling Erestor closer, he literally impaled his lover on his erection
and easily slid inside. Erestor wanted this, wasn’t afraid to experience any
discomfort, and his lover’s channel expanded around him, accepting him.
Erestor
had never experienced anything so intense before. When Glorfindel entered him,
he thought he would faint due to the sweet invasion he was experiencing.
Looking up at Glorfindel, Erestor raised his arms and placed the palms of his
hands against Glorfindel’s flat abdomen.
Glorfindel
had always been a passionate and demanding lover. Ecthelion had experienced
more than one round of fierce lovemaking. And although Glorfindel had intended
to make love slowly to Erestor, he soon lost control and drove himself deep
into the willing body.
Surrendering
to the new instincts that were surfacing within him, Erestor arched his back to
meet Glorfindel’s next thrust. His fingernails scratched Glorfindel’s skin, but
didn’t draw any blood. Seeing Glorfindel move so powerfully above him, Erestor
lost it and cried out in ecstasy.
Much
too soon...Erestor had come much too soon and Glorfindel was still too driven
to make love to him to join his lover in orgasm. He continued to drive himself
home, trying to penetrate his lover as deeply as possible and, by doing so, he
continued to rub his lover’s gland.
Just
when Erestor thought his body couldn’t take any more, Glorfindel hit the right
spot and drove him even further into ecstasy. Erestor’s hands fell onto the bed
and spasms made them move uncontrollably.
Erestor’s
inner muscle contracted around his length and, although Glorfindel wanted to
draw the encounter out further, his body decided it was time to let go. He
thrust hard one last time, remained in place, and found release inside
Erestor’s contracting passage. In the end, Glorfindel collapsed atop Erestor
and wrapped him up in a warm hug. Too tired to speak, he managed to tilt his
head slightly to look at Erestor. His lover looked equally dazed and Glorfindel
gave him a cheeky smile. If making love to Erestor would always be like this,
he would make love to him every day and night!
~~~
“Elrohir?” Elladan found his twin in the kitchen and
sat down next to him. Elrohir gave him a wink and Elladan felt himself grow
flustered.
“I
have been expecting you,” Elrohir commented wickedly.
Elladan
sighed. It was impossible to keep things from his twin. He didn’t how it was
possible but Elrohir always knew what was on his mind. “I am moving out of our
rooms and into Mel’s,” he stated, knowing Elrohir already expected to hear
something like that. “It is time for me to make this change.”
Elrohir
nodded his head. “I was counting on it.”
Elladan
blinked. “What?”
“I
invited Orophin and Rumil into my rooms tonight,” Elrohir replied naughtily.
Elrohir
shook his head in disbelief. “Ro!”
Elrohir
laughed. Elladan hadn’t called him that in years. “I can not help it! I can not
decide on one Elf yet!”
Elladan
elbowed his twin in the stomach – gently though – and gave him a look full of
warning. “I hope you are not tackling more than you can handle.”
“We
will see.” Maybe the Lorien brothers were taking on more than they could
handle!
~~~
Melpomaen
gave Elladan a restless look. When he had agreed to let the half-Elf move into
his rooms, he hadn’t realized how many personal belongings Elladan would bring
along. He didn’t mind that much though. It was nice to share his rooms with
someone special.
He
knew he acted skittishly around Elladan, but he couldn’t help it. He wasn’t
used to having an Elf so close at all times. His bed linens now carried
Elladan’s scent. He had come across Elladan bathing in *his* bath tub, and the
other night he had accidentally slipped into one of his love’s night shirts.
For shy Melpomaen, this was a huge change in lifestyle.
It
helped that Elladan was understanding and patient. Melpomaen needed that. They
had limited themselves to kisses and loving touches, but Melpomaen realized
only too well that they needed more. The problem was he wasn’t ready to take
the next step.
~~~
All
of the Elves had assembled in the Hall of Fire that evening to celebrate the
birth of Imladris’ newest inhabitant. During the day, the Lady Celebrían had
given birth to a baby girl and Elladan and Elrohir had been quick to hold their
new sister in their arms. Elrond had then shooed them off, telling them mother
and child needed to rest.
Elladan
had then sought out Melpomaen and the Seneschal had kept the half-Elf company
during the day. They had talked, laughed, and kissed in a relaxed atmosphere.
It seemed that the birth had lifted a veil that had hung over the valley since
Erestor had stolen out of Imladris earlier in the year.
Elrond
raised his glass and voiced a toast in honor of his daughter. He wouldn’t stay
long since he was eager to return to his wife and baby. Elrohir seemed to be
enjoying Haldir’s company that evening and all Elladan could do was shake his
head at his brother’s care-free behavior. It probably was a good thing that he
was the first born and would rule Imladris one day. If the ruling had fallen to
Elrohir, the Elves of Imladris would have been too distracted following their
Lord’s newest conquests.
Once
Elrond had left the hall, Elladan grabbed hold of Melpomaen’s hand and pulled
him along. Surprised, Melpomaen followed his love into the corridor. Where were
they going?
Elladan
guided Melpomaen to a quiet spot in the gardens and pulled his love down onto
the ground beside him. He brushed a strand back behind one of Melpomaen’s
pointy ears and then smiled at him. Still holding Melpomaen’s hand in his, he
leaned in closer to kiss him. Skittishly, Melpomaen pulled back and Elladan
frowned questioningly. “What am I doing wrong?”
“Nothing,”
Melpomaen whispered. “I am not used to receiving this kind of attention still.
Four millennia is a long time to go without a lover. You will have to be
patient with me still.”
Elladan
nodded his head. “I understand.” He tried again and this time Melpomaen stayed
in place to be kissed. The kiss they shared was long and deep and their tongues
wrapped around each other. Elladan grew bolder and slipped a hand past the
folds of Melpomaen’s robes, encountering warm skin beneath his fingertips.
Melpomaen gasped and his eyes searched Elladan’s. “Relax,” Elladan whispered
into Melpomaen’s mouth. His thumb drew small circles on Melpomaen’s lower back
and it was a few minutes before the other Elf started to relax underneath the
caress. Realizing he had to take it one step at a time, Elladan didn’t push
Melpomaen any further and settled for more kissing.
Melpomaen
trembled when he buried his fingers in Elladan’s hair to pull the half-Elf
close. Passionate moans fled their lips and their kissing became heated.
Flustered, Melpomaen pulled away because he needed to breathe. “I love you,” he
whispered, wanting Elladan to know that if they went slowly, they would arrive
at their goal eventually.
“We
will go slowly,” Elladan said, reassuring Melpomaen. Rubbing his lover’s
fingers between his, he rested his brow against his lover’s.
Suddenly
the air around them filled with a song and one look to their right showed them
Erestor and Glorfindel, seated beneath an old oak tree. The former siren was
singing and the song touched everyone close to them. Melpomaen listened closely
and saw the expression in his love’s eyes change. In them, he saw the purest
expression of love he had ever seen. Claiming Elladan’s lips, he took the
initiative and kissed him.
Seated
beneath the old oak tree, Erestor smiled at seeing the other couple kiss. He
might not be a child of the Sea any more, but the siren’s song would always be
heard throughout Arda.
The end