Title:
Sharing Beds (sequel to Twins)
Author:
Morgana
Author’s Email:
Web page: http://www.paranoid.nl/avalon
Pairing:
Elladan/Bevyn, Elrohir/Brys, Erestor/Maglor and Elrond/Glorfindel
Rating;
PG 13
Summary: Elladan and Elrohir arrive in Imladris with their charges. Maglor
realizes his feelings for Erestor and Elrond finds his heart opens up faster to
Glorfindel than he thought possible.
Disclaimer:
Not mine. These characters belong to Professor Tolkien. No copyright
infringement is intended.
Warning:
AU of course. And yes, new OMC’s…. They seem to be determined to bother me!
Beta
read by Patricia and DA, thanks sweeties!
All
remaining mistakes are mine.
Sharing Beds
Glorfindel woke to a very
pleasant sensation, namely that of Elrond lying next to him in bed. The
half-Elf was on his side facing him. Elrond’s hands rested on his fair hair and shoulder, as if to keep in physical contact with him.
Glorfindel could have looked at Elrond’s face for hours, but for some reason
the half-Elf woke up.
Elrond smiled, stretched
like a cat, and patted Glorfindel’s hair. “I did not know I was that tired.” He
had slipped between the covers to be closer to Glorfindel and hadn’t planned on
going to sleep. “How did you sleep?”
“As well
as can be expected. Bah, I hate
being incapacitated like this!” Glorfindel tried to move about, but his back
warned him that it was the wrong thing to do and so remained motionless. “Who
is leading the guards at the moment?”
“You might not believe it,
but Maglor volunteered to replace you for the time being. Erestor is explaining
his temporary duties to him and I am confident Maglor will carry them out
correctly. He has some experience in keeping a realm safe!” Elrond’s fingers
meandered through the golden locks and he shifted closer until their faces were
inches away, close enough for kissing. “Maybe you can take him on as your
second in command? Maglor always wanted to be needed and I believe that serving
the guard is his best option right now. He is a warrior at heart, even though
he is also a talented bard and minstrel.”
“Maybe he never really had
the chance to perfect his musical talents and would prefer to work on those.”
Glorfindel involuntarily held his breath. Elrond’s lips were so close and he
was hoping the half-Elf would kiss him, but was that still too soon? He didn’t
know what pace to set where Elrond was concerned.
Elrond rested his hand on
the column of Glorfindel’s neck and inched closer until he could touch his lips
to Glorfindel’s. Glorfindel tasted of spices, cinnamon, musk, and even a bit of
vanilla. It was a lovely taste he could become used to. The kiss remained slow
and gentle; it was a first exploration, but one that lasted several minutes and
when they pulled back, they were smiling at each other.
“I had hoped you would do
that,” Glorfindel admitted in a voice heavy with emotion.
“I thought you would.”
Elrond brushed the golden hair away from Glorfindel’s face and instigated
another kiss, which remained tender and non-invasive. He liked taking his time
with his new love.
Not that Glorfindel had
any reason to complain about Elrond’s kissing talents, but he wouldn’t have
minded a little bit of tongue. Once the kiss ended, Glorfindel raised an arm
and reached for Elrond’s face. “Why must I be injured when you finally decide
to kiss me?” He wanted to be an active kissing partner instead of being incapacitated
like this!
“You will heal and then
you can make up for it.” Elrond stroked Glorfindel’s hair and continued to
smile at his new love. “For now you must rest.”
“I know that,” Glorfindel
replied with a tormented sigh. “But that does not mean I have to enjoy it.”
“There will be other
things for you to enjoy once you have healed,” Elrond hinted.
Glorfindel was pleasantly
surprised to find that Elrond had a playful side to him. He hadn’t really
expected it.
~~~
Maglor nodded. Erestor had
just explained Glorfindel’s duties to him and he was confident he could take
them on. “Glorfindel set up excellent defenses. Imladris is quite safe. I also like
the way he organized the patrols.”
Erestor leaned back into
the comfort of his chair and pointed at the papers laying on the desk
in-between them. “Glorfindel has already finished next month’s rotation
schedule, so you do not have to worry about that. He has also already decided
who would lead what patrol.”
“Is there anything still
left for me to do?” Maglor smiled, feeling happy since he could help.
“Your main task is to
oversee the training sessions. If you notice any guard not being fit to take part
in a patrol, take them out and replace them. Also, if anyone is injured, you
need to adjust the schedule. Each morn and each evening you will debrief the
patrols and if something out of the ordinary happens, you write it down in a
report which you hand to me.” Erestor had covered all of the vital information
and looked admiringly at Maglor, who now wore the Imladris’ blue and silver
uniform. Maglor had adjusted to life in Imladris quickly and looked like he had
been a part of the guards for many years. “There is only one matter left that
we must address: that of your identity.”
Maglor’s expression
darkened. “Do you think they will refuse to follow my lead because of who I
am?” That thought had also occurred to him and he knew it was a real threat to
his new life in Imladris.
Erestor shook his head.
“Melpomaen has already informed everyone who you are. They know you are Maglor
and that the Valar returned you to us. That last bit especially convinced the
guards to give you a chance and trust you. They will follow your orders and not
question your decisions.”
Maglor snorted as his hand
that rested on the desk turned into a fist. “You told them the Valar returned
me to you? That is a lie.”
Erestor wished once more
that Maglor had been awake when Lórien had visited them. “They did return you,”
he said sternly. “Lórien himself told me so.”
Maglor’s eyes widened at
hearing that bit of information. Erestor hadn’t shared it with him before. “Lórien?”
“Right after we jumped and
returned to Imladris he visited with us. You were fast asleep and did not
notice. I talked to him, however.”
“Erestor, have you lost
your mind? Do you really believe you talked to one of the Valar?”
“I did, Maglor.” Erestor
leaned in closer and gave Maglor a stern look. “He told me that they had
decided to return you to us and that you deserved a second chance. I should
have woken you, but for some reason I did not. Maybe it was Lórien’s doing and
he made sure you remained asleep, I do not know for certain.”
“But I do not deserve a
second chance! Not after the many mistakes I made!”
Erestor rose from his
chair, circled around the desk, and came to a stop behind Maglor. He placed his
hands on Maglor’s shoulders and then slid them down. Leaning in closer, he
whispered into Maglor’s ear, “The Valar decided to give you a second chance.
Who are you to doubt their decision?”
Maglor swallowed hard.
“You must understand where I come from! Fëanor and my brothers thwarted the
Valar before. I grew up believing my father to be wiser and more powerful than
the Valar!” Erestor’s closeness was distracting him and he wanted nothing more
than to pull the other Elf onto his lap and hold him, maybe even kiss him!
Erestor closed his eyes,
gathered his courage, and said, “Son of Fëanor you will always be. His blood
flows through your veins, but you are still your own Elf. You can decide to
change your old way of thinking. The Valar mean well and no one save for Eru is
wiser and more powerful. You have to let go of what your father taught you.”
Maglor had sucked in his
breath during Erestor’s monologue and swallowed hard. “You do not know what it
was like. My father’s word was law. When he made a decision we were supposed to
follow him blindly.”
“Your father no longer
dwells among us and neither do any of your brothers. The Valar did not give
them a second chance, but they are offering you one.”
“But
why?” Maglor needed a reason
why.
Erestor sighed. “Only the
Valar can tell you that and they are not known to explain themselves to us at
our demand. Can you not simply accept that you were given a second chance?”
Maglor didn’t know what
sweet madness compelled him to pull Erestor onto his lap, but he did and to his
surprise, Erestor allowed it. “Maybe the reason I was released from the
painting is you?”
Erestor blinked when he
found himself straddling Maglor’s lap. The expression in the sea-green eyes was
shifting, darkening to almost a midnight-blue, and Erestor’s throat suddenly
felt very dry. “Me?” Why would he be the reason the Valar had returned Maglor to
them?
Maglor slid his hands down
Erestor’s flanks and placed them on the younger Elf’s thighs. He pulled Erestor
close to him until their groins made contact and then slid his arms up
Erestor’s back and began stroking the curve of the raven-haired Elf’s spine
through the fabric of the formal robes Erestor was wearing. “You are a gentle
and compassionate soul and you touched my heart.”
Erestor was speechless. He
had never expected Maglor to maneuver him like that and before he knew what was
happening, eager and possessive lips covered his. Maglor placed his hand on his
neck and pulled him closer until their groins were grinding against each other.
The fingers then slipped into his raven hair and held him in place while
Maglor’s greedy lips tried to deepen the kiss, which he succeeded in.
Overwhelmed by the sudden onslaught, Erestor opened his lips, parted his teeth,
and allowed him in.
Maglor felt victorious and
explored every inch of Erestor’s mouth. He whirled his tongue around Erestor’s
and moaned loudly. He had to break off the kiss in order to breathe and say, “I
want to take you on this desk and make you mine.”
Erestor suddenly regained
his wits and pushed Maglor away from him by placing his hands against the other
Elf’s chest and pushing away some. But Maglor’s fingers remained buried in his
hair. “Maglor, what are you doing?”
The adrenaline and
excitement that had been pumping through his veins only a moment ago died and
Maglor realized what he had been about to do. He had fully intended to claim Erestor
as his mate. Shame-faced, he let go of the raven strands and lowered his gaze.
“Please forgive me. My passion overwhelmed me. I am afraid it is a family
trait.”
Erestor placed a finger
beneath Maglor’s chin and raised the face so the elder Elf had to look at him.
“You have the wrong impression, Maglor. I do not mind the kissing. Although it
was unexpected, it certainly was not unwelcome. But do you not think there are
certain steps we should take between kissing and you wanting to claim me on
Glorfindel’s desk when any of the guards could come crashing in?”
Maglor managed a small
chuckle as Erestor’s words gave him hope. “I apologize for my rash actions, but
all I could think of was kissing you and really knowing you.” He rubbed his
cheek against Erestor’s long fingers and gave the other Elf a pleading look. “I
have taken a liking to you.”
“A
liking? That is what you call
it?” Erestor laughed. “You wanted to claim me on Glorfindel’s desk!” The
development didn’t really surprise him. They had been moving in this direction
for some days now. “Maglor, I have taken a liking to you too, but you can not
simply throw me onto Glorfindel’s desk and ravish me.”
The twinkling in Erestor’s
eyes showed Maglor that the younger Elf was saying one thing and meant another.
“Then what are you saying?”
“That you should throw me
onto my bed and claim me there when the time comes.” Erestor slid his hands up
Maglor’s neck and massaged the tense muscles there. “I am not averse to
becoming your lover and I would receive you most eagerly, but not yet and most
certainly not here.”
Maglor nodded his head
once. “I understand. I have permission to court you then?” Though his ideas of
courtship might differ greatly from Erestor’s!
“As long as you are
discreet and do not try to claim me in public, you have permission to court
me.” Erestor smiled at the other Elf. “You could have given me a warning.”
“That I was going to kiss
you? Then what would have been the fun in kissing you like that when you were
already expecting it?” And with those words, he claimed Erestor’s lips again
and crushed the Advisor close to him.
~~~
Melpomaen closed the door
at once after having seen Maglor kiss Erestor. He had come to consult with
Erestor and Maglor, but surmised the matter could wait...at least until the two
of them were done kissing.
~~~
Elrond found he liked
feeding Glorfindel. He was slipping parts of an apple past Glorfindel’s lips
and watching the blue eyes eye him in turn. The ice had been broken after they
had kissed and they felt more at ease in each other’s company. Elrond was
grateful that he had taken the step to kiss Glorfindel because now the fronts
between them were clear. They were almost lovers, their love new and
unexplored. “Finish the apple,” Elrond instructed as he pushed the last part
past Glorfindel’s lips.
“And then what?”
Glorfindel smiled impishly at the half-Elf.
“And then I am going to
check on your injury and if necessary dress it again.”
Glorfindel suddenly felt
guilty. “I am keeping you from your work.”
“I would rather spend my
time caring for you, Glorfindel.” Elrond placed a tender kiss on Glorfindel’s
lips and then rose from the bed. “Do not worry. I will return to your side
shortly.” There was the one big advantage to it being winter, Elrond decided: lots
of time to spend in bed with his newly acknowledged love. Life was always slow
in Imladris during winter.
Glorfindel sighed, closed
his eyes, and endured the examination. It appeared that Elrond didn’t have to
change the dressings just yet, but the half-Elf did call for fresh healing
herbs, which he slipped between the bandages. “You should be on your feet again
in a few days,” Elrond reiterated as he slipped between the covers again. He
turned onto his side, watched Glorfindel open his eyes, and raised a hand to
stroke the golden locks. “Thank you for telling me that you are attracted to
me. I might not have taken the step to open my heart otherwise. Speaking in
hindsight, I believe that you are the only one capable of unlocking my heart.”
Glorfindel accepted the
compliment gracefully but then stated, “Someone needed to kick you in the butt,
Elrond.”
Elrond burst out into
laughter. “You are right, of course.” He draped an arm over Glorfindel’s
shoulders and moved closer to the other warrior. “You *do* realize that my
sheets will take on your scent and that it will linger here even after you have
healed and moved back into your rooms?”
Glorfindel grinned. “Who
says I am moving back into my rooms? I like being pampered by you.” He didn’t
know why, but Elrond’s eyes cleared as the last remnant of doubt seemed to
disappear. “You needed to hear that.”
“I needed to hear you
would be willing to commit yourself to me.” Elrond smiled ruefully. “I will
commit myself to you in turn.”
“Good, that is good.” Glorfindel
whispered before his eyes started to lose their lucidity as he slipped back
into sleep.
~~~
That evening, Maglor took
his time to bathe and dress in his new evening robes which Erestor had kindly
provided him with. Erestor had managed to procure him several new outfits and
Maglor felt privileged that Erestor was taking such good care of him. He wanted
to show Erestor how much he appreciated having him in his life so he had spent
the hour before dinner hunting for a lyre. In the end, he had been sent to
Lindir, Elrond’s head minstrel. They had talked for a while after Lindir had
recovered from his shock and Maglor had received a lyre which Lindir seldom
used those days. He had taken the instrument with him and had practiced a bit
while Erestor had been carrying out Elrond’s duties.
By that time, Erestor had
returned to his rooms and was in the middle of slipping into something more
comfortable than his formal robes. Maglor stepped into the bedroom soundlessly and
took his time watching Erestor. The lithe Elf was obviously a scholar, but
Maglor would never make the mistake of underestimating Erestor. What Erestor
lacked in battle skills he made up for in diplomacy and cunning. After all, it
was Erestor who had freed him from the painting.
Raven hair spilled down
Erestor’s back and danced against his buttocks. Maglor had already realized
that Erestor preferred to wear it braided during the day when he was in the
capacity of Elrond’s Chief Advisor, but Erestor would let it loose once it was
just the two of them. Maglor’s breathing quickened as he watched Erestor step
out of his under tunic and slip into his evening robes. He had only seen
Erestor’s body for a second, but that had been enough to spark his desire.
“How much longer are you
going to stand there and stare at me?” Erestor turned around and gave Maglor an
amused smile.
Maglor coughed to clear
his throat and covered the distance between them with a few steps. “Come, sit
with me.” He guided a puzzled Erestor toward the fireplace. The flames danced
to music only they could hear there and Maglor pulled Erestor down with him
when he sat down on the furs that lay there.
“You are behaving oddly,”
Erestor remarked, puzzled by the expression in Maglor’s eyes. They were so
expressive, but Erestor still couldn’t be sure what emotions he read in them.
Love might be one of them, passion, and impatience some of the others. His
smile deepened as he remembered what had happened in Glorfindel’s office
earlier that day. He had given Maglor permission to court him and he was
curious to find out what Maglor felt were suitable courtship rituals where they
were concerned.
Maglor coughed again. It
had been ages since he had last sung and he hoped his voice wouldn’t fail him.
“I wrote something for you and I hope it will please you.” He struck the first
chords of the song he had composed on his lyre and gave Erestor a nervous look.
Earlier that day, Erestor had hinted he would like to be courted properly and
Maglor hoped having a ballad composed just for him would earn Erestor’s
approval.
Erestor suddenly realized
why Maglor was acting so nervously and gave him a reassuring smile. Maglor had
the reputation of being a talented bard and minstrel and to have Maglor sing
just to please him flattered Erestor. Maglor didn’t disappoint him. Maglor’s
voice was hauntingly beautiful and the fingers moved across the strings of the
lyre like they had always done so. It was a bittersweet melody and woven into
the chords were words of longing and affection. Feeling breathless, Erestor
listened to the ballad and, when Maglor had finished, tears swam in his eyes.
“That was beautiful!”
Maglor was about to thank
Erestor for paying him such a compliment when he suddenly found his arms full.
Erestor had leaned in closer and had wrapped his arms around Maglor. Maglor
returned Erestor’s smile and leaned in closer in turn to kiss the younger Elf. The
lyre slid down to the furs and Maglor slipped his arms into place around
Erestor’s waist. Slowly, he lowered Erestor onto his back and covered the
Advisor with his body. Hands, locks of hair, and fingers
twined into an arduous embrace. Maglor savored being able to kiss
Erestor again and controlled himself this time, not trying to take it further.
He contented himself with kissing Erestor breathless.
~~~
Later that night as Maglor
held Erestor in his sleep, he realized just how blessed he was to have gained
Erestor’s love. The Advisor had risked being called insane by Elrond when he
had claimed the painting to be alive and Erestor had not given up until he had
freed the elder Elf from his prison. “I owe you so much,” he whispered into
Erestor’s hair, which smelled of lavender, Erestor’s favorite fragrance. “I
love you so much.”
“You are very fortunate to
have Erestor at your side, but you understand that, do you not?”
Hearing a strange voice
from so close alarmed Maglor and his eyes searched his surroundings for the
intruder. “Who are you? Show yourself!” A knife was within his reach and he
moved his hand toward the weapon.
“I do not think that would
be wise.” Lórien moved the knife out of Maglor’s reach using his powers and
walked up to the bed. “You do not wish to murder one of the Valar, do you?
Especially the one who pleaded your case to Eru himself?”
Maglor was surprised that
Erestor wasn’t waking up and tried to wake his love, but Erestor remained
asleep. “Erestor!”
“He will not wake. I put
him under my spell for now.” Lórien seated himself on the edge of the bed,
opposite Maglor so they could look at each other. “We need to talk.”
“Why? Are you here to take
me back into the painting?” Maglor felt enraged and scared at the same time. Since
he had found Erestor and had gained his love, he didn’t want to give that up
again.
“Nay, the painting served
its use.” Lórien cocked his head and read fear in Maglor’s mind. “It is time
for us to discuss your future.”
“My
future?”
“You are to stay here in
Imladris and serve Elrond, like Glorfindel does. Elrond will have need of you
in the future.” Lórien found the way Maglor was holding onto Erestor endearing.
Maglor clearly loved Erestor very much. “And I am here to discuss the Oath you
once took and the consequences it had.”
Maglor’s eyes darkened
with unease. “I did not want to take that Oath, but since my brothers did, I
could not stay behind. I never wanted to take life.”
“I know that and so does
Eru. Eru knows everything, Maglor. He knows your heart – your soul.”
“So what does Eru want
from me now? Why are you here?” Maglor still felt worried. “Are you here to
punish me for my deeds?”
Lórien shook his head.
“You already suffered through your punishment. Maglor, do you realize what it
takes for the Valar, and Eru, to set aside the past and judge you anew? Your
brothers will suffer for all eternity. Aye, even Maedhros.”
“I loved my brothers and I
loved my father, but…” He’d had no choice but to cooperate and carry out his
father’s commands.
“But you never wanted to
kill for the Silmarils. We know that. That is why Eru has given you this second
chance. Tell me, why do you refuse to believe Erestor when he tells you that
you have been given a new chance? Do you think we would have allowed you to
return to Middle-Earth if we did not approve of you returning to the living?”
“I can not believe I am
forgiven.”
“Because you have not
forgiven yourself,” Lórien answered, easily reading Maglor’s heart. “But you
must forgive yourself or else you will poison your love for Erestor with your
guilt. Do you want to lose Erestor because you are determined not to forgive
yourself? Eru forgave you, why can you not do the same?”
“I need to earn
forgiveness,” Maglor responded in the end.
Lórien inclined his head
in thought. “Then earn it. Show Elrond and Erestor the real you. Earn their
respect and forgive yourself, but work on it or else you might lose Erestor. He
loves you and you love him. Do not let your past come in between the two of
you. Believe him when he says that you have earned a second chance.”
“Erestor told me that you
had said so before but I did not believe him.” Maglor gave Lórien a hopeful look.
“Maybe things will change now that I heard you say it myself.”
“I hope so.” Lórien rose
from the bed and gave a sleeping Erestor a last smile. “Treat him right,
Maglor. He saved you.”
“I will,” Maglor
whispered, but it was to the air, since the Vala of Dreams had vanished into
thin air.
~~~
A knock on the door woke
Elrond and Glorfindel the next morning. “Elrond, it is I, Melpomaen. I have
news regarding your sons.”
“Stay in bed,” Elrond ordered
when Glorfindel started to push himself upright. “Stay on your stomach and
rest.” Glorfindel pouted, but did as he was told. “I will return shortly, but I
might have to check in with Melpomaen and Erestor for a little while.”
“Do not let me keep you,”
Glorfindel replied. “I am quite safe in your bed. Nothing will happen to me.”
Elrond placed another kiss
onto Glorfindel’s lips and then left the bed. Since he was still dressed in his
evening robes, he didn’t bother to change when he answered the door.
“Melpomaen, what news is there?”
Melpomaen didn’t try to peek
inside on purpose, but from where he was standing he saw Glorfindel resting in
Elrond’s bed. It seemed another pair of Elves had discovered they had feelings
for each other! Melpomaen however refrained from commenting and concentrated on
the task at hand. “The sentries reported that your sons have crossed the border
and they are on their way home.”
“That is good news.”
Elrond had missed all three of his children and was pleased that two of them
were returning. But one look at Melpomaen’s face told him there was more to
come.
“They are not alone. They
appear to be in the company of two humans – injured humans.” Melpomaen inclined
his head in question. “Shall I ready rooms in the Healing Wing or in the guest
wing?”
“Let us put them up in the
guest wing for now. If these humans are capable of traveling they can not be
that badly injured.” Hearing his sons were in the company of men surprised
Elrond. His sons had never sought out human company before. “How long before
they arrive?”
“I surmise one or two more
days,” Melpomaen replied.
“Warn me when they are
close enough for me to ride out in greeting.”
“I shall do that.”
Melpomaen bowed slightly and then marched down the corridor to ready the guest
rooms.
Elrond closed the door
behind him and walked over to the bed. “Did you hear that?”
Glorfindel nodded. “I did.
I am just as surprised as you are.”
“These humans are injured.
The twins probably took pity on them.” Elrond grew thoughtful and wondered what
it meant.
~~~
“I need to rest,” Brys
whispered as he turned his head toward Elrohir. “My ribs…” During the last few
days, Elrohir had gained his trust to a certain degree and he had become
convinced that the two Elves meant them well and had no hidden agenda as far as
he could tell. It was soothing to be taken care of. Bevyn had always tried to
look after him, but his twin had often also been injured and hadn’t been able
to protect him much. Things were different with Elladan and Elrohir. The Elven
twins seemed determined to protect them at all cost.
Bevyn smiled at hearing
his twin address Elrohir. It warmed his heart that Brys was no longer too
scared to talk. Brys still rationed his words carefully, but the younger twin
did speak when he felt it was necessary.
“We shall rest for a
while,” Elrohir decreed and told his mare to stop. He looked over at Elladan
and asked, “Do you want to scout ahead?” Maybe Elladan wanted to talk to their
father before they arrived.
“Nay, I will stay with
you.” Elladan jumped from the horse’s back and then lifted his arms to assist
Bevyn to dismount. Although the two young men were recovering, they were still
rather weak.
Bevyn accepted the help,
but also hoped that the day would shortly arrive when he could dismount
unaided. He sat down on the grass and watched how Elrohir dismounted. With
great care, Elrohir lifted Brys from the mare’s back and then carried him over
to where Bevyn was sitting. Brys immediately leaned against his twin for
support. His ribs were still causing him pain.
Letting the horses graze,
Elladan and Elrohir seated themselves close to the two men. “We still have some
bread and fruit left,” Elrohir said as he uncovered their rations. “Try to eat
something.” He divided the food between Bevyn and Brys and then uncovered the
water skins. “Later today, we will cross the river Bruinen and then we are
home.”
“Have you lived in
Imladris all your life?” Bevyn asked as he ate some of the fruit. He made
certain Brys had an ample portion of the bread and the dried meat that Elladan
had handed them. Brys needed the food more than he did.
“Aye, we were born in
Imladris.” Elladan disliked the fact that Bevyn didn’t take any bread and meat
for himself, but let it go. Once they arrived at the Last Homely House, the two
men would have food in surplus. “Our father will want to make certain that you
are healing well. We learned our healing skills from him.”
“What’s your father’s
name?” Bevyn asked and then drank some water.
“His name is Elrond,”
Elrohir replied and supported Brys as the younger twin swayed. “Careful now. You are still weak.”
“Elrond?” Bevyn frowned. He had heard that name before, but
it was nothing but a dark and distant memory. He *knew* that name.
Brys sat safely wedged
in-between Bevyn and Elrohir. “Do you think we will be allowed to stay?” he
asked Elrohir. Bevyn carefully wrapped an arm around his twin’s waist. For one
moment he had felt jealous of Elrohir, for the half-Elf was quickly gaining
Brys’ trust and, until recently, Brys had only trusted him and no one else!
“You will be allowed to
stay. Do not worry about that,” Elladan replied and watched Bevyn closely. He
sensed some of the man’s jealousy, but couldn’t fault him for it. Bevyn and
Brys had only had each other in the past. “We will rest for a few more minutes
and then we will continue.”
Brys closed his eyes and
tried to gather his strength, but his ribs hurt and so did many other places of
his body, which had become even more bruised because he wasn’t used to riding
all day long. Suddenly Elrohir’s voice was close to his ear. “It will not be
long before you can rest in a comfortable bed. You have been strong for so
long. Do not give up now.” Brys nodded against Bevyn’s shoulder. He would try
not to disappoint Elrohir.
TBC
Part 2
Maglor visited with
Erestor several times during the day. He always found an excuse to let Erestor
counsel him and when Melpomaen wasn’t looking, he stole a kiss from his love’s
lips. He felt young, excited, and nervous and couldn’t wait to have Erestor all
to himself again that evening. It was too bad that he had to share Erestor.
Elrond entered his study
and grinned at seeing Maglor kiss Erestor. He had expected them to grow close
and wasn’t surprised to see that they had taken the next step. “Maglor, are you
not supposed to oversee today’s training matches?”
At hearing his voice,
Maglor jumped and quickly straightened. “I am already on my way there,” Maglor
called out and hurried out of the study.
Erestor shot Elrond a
bemused look. “You did that on purpose.”
“I plead guilty,” Elrond
admitted and looked at the papers which required his signature. “It is good to
see Maglor finally in love.” Suddenly his mood darkened and he tried to push
certain memories away.
Erestor however had
noticed the half-Elf’s darkening mood and gave Elrond a questioning look. “You
are keeping something from me.”
Elrond shrugged. “I only
have suspicions.” Suspicions which he had never voiced aloud.
“What kind of suspicions?”
Erestor grew curious as he watched Elrond.
“Maglor… He never took a
lover...an official lover.”
“He does not seem
inexperienced to me,” Erestor replied and couldn’t stop himself
from blushing as he remembered Maglor’s intention to take him on Glorfindel’s
desk. If he hadn’t stopped Maglor, the elder Elf would have done just that.
“There were certain
rumors,” Elrond started and then suddenly hesitated to confide in Erestor.
“Go on. You can not stop
now.” Erestor crossed his arms in front of his chest and tapped his foot
impatiently.
No, he couldn’t stop at
that time and Elrond realized that as well. “There were rumors that Maedhros
and Maglor shared a bed…that they were intimate at times.”
Erestor’s eyes grew big. “Maedhros and Maglor?” It wasn’t unlikely that the two
brothers had found comfort in the other’s arms, but if so, then why hadn’t
Maglor told him so?
Elrond shrugged. “As I
said, it was rumored, nothing more.” But he still wondered if anything about
that rumor was true. “I never saw him with another Elf and you claim he is
experienced.” Elrond left the rest unsaid since he knew Erestor was intelligent
enough to draw his own conclusions.
“I will talk to him,”
Erestor replied thoughtfully, though wasn’t sure he had the right to pry. After
all, all of that had happened so long ago and he wasn’t certain he wanted to
open old wounds.
~~~
Brys had fallen asleep
resting against him and Elrohir had a tight, though not pressuring, hold on his
charge. He sensed the odd look Bevyn gave him and flinched. It was not his
intention to take Brys away from Bevyn, but Brys needed something Bevyn couldn’t
give him at the moment. Brys needed a strong, protective presence in his life
and Bevyn couldn’t be that because he was still hurting himself.
Elladan also sensed that
something was wrong and turned his head so he could look at Bevyn, who sat
behind him. “Why are you so tense?” He had a fairly good idea why, but he
wanted to hear Bevyn say it.
“Elrohir likes my twin a
bit too much. Why?” Bevyn knew he was being unfair, but he felt hurt.
Elladan drew in a deep
breath and urged his horse to fall back so Brys wouldn’t accidentally hear what
they were saying. “Elrohir and I are twins too, Bevyn. We know how important we
are to each other and we would never doubt each other’s love. Why do you doubt
Brys’ love for you?”
Damn, Elladan had nailed
his fear in one go! Bevyn felt caught and shifted nervously. “It was always
just Brys and I, but now…now Elrohir is there as well.”
Elladan chose his next
words very carefully. “Elrohir is a naturally gifted healer and he cares for
your brother. Why does that make you feel threatened? He only wants for Brys to
heal.”
Bevyn closed his eyes and
bowed his head so Elladan could no longer see his expression. “In the past, the
people that claimed to help us always demanded something in return for their
aid.”
“Ah…” Elladan had
suspected as much and, although he had been prepared to hear the words, he
didn’t quite know how to react to them. “Elrohir is not like that. He gives
freely and without hidden intentions.”
“And
what about you?” Bevyn lifted
his head and timidly made eye contact with Elladan.
“I am like Elrohir, Bevyn.
I do not expect anything back either. All I want is for the two of you to
heal.”
“You’re right,” Bevyn
admitted. “I’m jealous. Until now, Brys only trusted me.”
“I understand why you feel
jealous, but Bevyn, please consider what is best for
Brys. Although he has you, he also needs friends. I might be wrong, but it
seems to me that Brys was hurt more than you were.”
Bevyn nodded once. “You’re
right.” He bit his bottom lip, knowing he shouldn’t confide in Elladan just
yet, but in the end, the horrid truth needed a way out. “For Brys, his torment
didn’t stop with mere beatings.” He tried, but the words wouldn’t come. “I’m
sorry, but I can’t tell you what our master did to him… I never found out why
he targeted Brys and never me.”
“He abused your brother
sexually?” Elladan asked, hoping to make things easier for Bevyn.
“Yes, but never me. I
still don’t get it. We’re twins – we’re identical. Why force him and not me?” Afterwards
he had tried to comfort his twin, but Brys had locked him out and he had been
unable to reach Brys. “I failed him.”
“It was not your fault
that Brys did not know how to deal with his pain.” Elladan turned his head
toward Elrohir and saw that his twin had heard every word they had said. “But
maybe Elrohir knows of a way to reach your twin.”
Bevyn’s shoulders slumped
forward and he snaked his arms into place around Elladan’s waist. “I tried, but
I can’t reach him. If you really think Elrohir can succeed…” Then he would be a
selfish bastard not to let Elrohir try! “I want what’s best for my twin.”
“I know that and we do not
desire to separate Brys from you. Just allow Elrohir to grow close to him as
well,” Elladan advised.
“And
what about me?” Bevyn hated
himself for feeling so selfish. He should do what was best for Brys, but at the
same time he was deathly afraid of losing his twin to Elrohir and ending up
alone.
“And you will have me,”
Elladan replied and placed his hand on Bevyn’s wrist. “You are not alone.”
A weak smile shone on
Bevyn’s face and he rubbed his cheek against Elladan’s shoulder. Elrohir, who
had overheard their conversation, wasn’t smiling though. He had just realized
how much he had taken on when he had committed himself to Brys’ recovery.
~~~
“Elrond? The twins are close enough for you to ride out to
greet them.” Melpomaen had already instructed the stable hands to ready
Elrond’s stallion. “It is a pity though that Glorfindel can not accompany you
yet.” He stood inside Elrond’s private rooms and endured the dirty look
Glorfindel threw at him from the bed before smiling sweetly. It wouldn’t be
long before the rest of the household knew that Glorfindel was sleeping in
Elrond’s bed and not just for his injuries.
Elrond exited the
bathroom. He had changed into less constricting robes and stepped into his
boots. “Do not worry about Glorfindel. He will be back on his feet in one or
two days.” All the tender loving care Glorfindel was receiving was speeding up
the healing process. “Maybe you want to accompany me instead of Glorfindel?”
Melpomaen arched an
eyebrow. “I will tell Erestor that you want him to be there when you greet your
sons. Please excuse me now.” Melpomaen left, but still heard Elrond’s amused
laughter.
“That one is growing
cheeky on you, Elrond.” Glorfindel shifted until he rested on his side. He was
growing tired of lying on his stomach. Later that night he planned on trying to
stand. Being confined to bed was something that drove him up the walls. He was
too impatient to rest properly.
“It is about time that
Melpomaen showed some initiative.” Elrond made his way over to the bed, bent
down, and kissed Glorfindel. This time, he tried to gain entrance to the
blond’s mouth. Surprised, but eagerly welcoming Elrond, Glorfindel allowed the
half-Elf to explore his mouth. They moaned in unison and both Elves felt
disappointed when they had to stop kissing. “I have to go now or else I will be
late.” Elrond didn’t want to leave Glorfindel behind, but he also rejoiced at
the thought of being reunited with his sons. “Wait for me here?”
Glorfindel snorted. “You
know darn well that I can not move much about yet! What choice do I have?”
“None,” Elrond retorted
and flashed Glorfindel a charming smile. “Rest.”
Elrond patted the fair hair and then headed for the doorway. He was dying to
find out what the two humans were doing in his sons’ company.
~~~
Brys couldn’t bear it any
longer. “Elrohir, I need to talk to Bevyn.” All day long he had felt his twin’s
stare directed at him and he knew something was wrong. He just didn’t know why
his twin was so angry with him. Elrohir promptly steered his horse closer to
Elladan’s and tried to stay out of the conversation that would follow shortly.
A look at Elladan showed him that his brother intended to not become involved either.
“You’re angry with me,”
Brys stated as his gentle, green eyes sought out his brother’s tougher ones.
“What did I do?” He felt miserable for causing his twin to be mad at him. What
had he done? Maybe he might be able to undo it!
Bevyn cringed. It had not
been his intention to worry Brys. “I’m not angry with you.”
“Don’t lie…” Brys
whispered sadly. “I know you’re angry with me. What did I do?”
Bevyn buried his hands in
the fabric of Elladan’s traveling cloak and then gave his twin an apologetic
look. “You did nothing wrong. It’s something I did.”
“You did nothing wrong,”
Brys declared, blinking in surprise. His brother had always been there for him
and had never let him down! Not once! He admired Bevyn, who had always been his
hero. He had always wanted to be like his twin – stronger and tougher – but he
had never succeeded. “How can I make it all right again?”
Elladan had wanted to stay
out of their argument, but his heart went out to Brys and so he interfered.
“Your brother feels a bit jealous.” Bevyn immediately shoved an elbow into his
side and Elladan momentarily fought for breath.
“Bevyn, don’t hurt him!”
Brys raised his good hand and tried to stop Bevyn.
Bevyn however had already
stopped and regretted hurting Elladan, but he felt betrayed. “Why did you say
that?”
Elrohir answered in
Elladan’s stead, “Because you need to be honest with your twin.”
Brys instantly felt
guilty. “It’s because I like Elrohir, isn’t it?” He had been selfish and had
put his own needs first instead of Bevyn’s. “I’m sorry, Bevyn.”
Seeing guilt and shame
written all over Brys’ face opened Bevyn’s eyes and he realized he had hurt his
brother deeply. Elladan was right: Brys and he were connected as brothers, as
twins, and were as close as they could get. But Brys needed more than that. He
needed friends he could count on and Elrohir was trying to be such a friend.
And what had he just done? He had made his twin feel like crap for accepting
Elrohir’s friendship while he had eagerly embraced Elladan’s. “Please don’t feel
guilty, Brys. It’s my fault. I have no reason to be jealous. You need Elrohir
like I need Elladan.” Both half-Elves smiled at each other at hearing Bevyn’s
words, but they remained quiet and let Bevyn do the talking. “I don’t want you
to feel guilty, Brys, please!”
But Brys shook his head
and kept his gaze lowered. “No, I was wrong, not you. I should have remembered
that you always come first. What was I thinking?”
Bevyn gave his twin a
horrified look. What had he done? “Brys, don’t say
that!” But he was too late. The damage had been done and he didn’t know how to
right this wrong, so in the end, he whispered, “Help me, Elladan?”
Elladan wasn’t sure he
should become involved and gave Elrohir an inquiring look. It was Elrohir and
not Elladan who eventually tried to help Bevyn out. “Bevyn, Brys needs to learn
that his needs are important too. Would you allow me to make a suggestion?”
Elrohir waited for Bevyn to nod, and at the same time, he pulled Brys closer to
his chest. The younger twin’s head was bowed and he radiated a sense of loss.
“I was thinking about our housing arrangements. Maybe it would be a good idea
if you stayed with Elladan and I looked after Brys.” He was convinced that
spending some time apart would do the twins some good.
“No!” Brys’ head jerked
back and his facial features contorted with pain when his body reminded him of
the fact that he was still far from healed. “Please don’t punish me in that
way. I want to stay close to Bevyn!”
“It is not meant as
punishment,” Elladan explained as he realized the benefits to Elrohir’s
suggestion. “Bevyn needs to heal as much as you, and when he is constantly
close, you might not be able to put your own needs first. That way, the two of
you would not fully heal.”
Bevyn had sucked in his
breath when he had heard Elrohir’s suggestion and had wanted to strongly
protest, but once he was thinking everything over, he realized Elrohir was suggesting
it for both their benefit.
“You can still see and
talk to each other,” Elrohir explained further. “We have no intention of
keeping you apart and if it does not work out, we can quickly prepare you a
room together, but please consider my suggestion first.”
Brys wanted to plead with
the three of them, for he was afraid that Bevyn didn’t want him close anymore
and would therefore agree with Elrohir’s suggestion. He should have kept his
mouth shut to begin with! That was probably the very reason why their old
master had always beaten him into silence. Whenever he opened his mouth, he did
everything wrong. He deserved to be punished for what he had said. His lips
became a narrow line and he was determined not to say anything again any time
soon.
Elrohir sighed as he felt
the body in front of him become rigid with tension. Brys wasn’t ready yet to
take this step. “Please forget I ever suggested that. We will find you a room
which you can share.” It was a pity though for he was convinced that both
humans would have benefited from such an arrangement.
Bevyn peeked at Brys’ face
and cringed at seeing the anguish in his twin’s eyes. He would need Elladan’s
help to set things right again with Brys.
~~~
“Melpomaen said you
required my presence?” Erestor had readied himself to go for a ride. He wore a
black shirt, leggings of the same color, and leather boots. He had braided his
long hair and looked ready to ride into battle.
“My sons are about to come
home and I want you to accompany me.” Elrond mounted his stallion and gestured
for Erestor to do the same.
“I surmise Melpomaen
refused to accompany you? I am not surprised. He never learned how to handle a
horse.” Gracefully Erestor mounted his mare and steered her closer to Elrond’s
stallion. “What about the rumor that the twins are not alone?”
“That is no rumor. It is
the truth. They are in the company of two men and the humans are reported to be
injured.” Elrond gave the sign and Erestor followed the half-Elf toward the
river Bruinen where they would meet with the twins.
~~~
“Brys? Do you want to rest?” Elrohir was growing
increasingly worried. Brys had stopped talking and was tense in his arms. He
looked at Bevyn for an explanation, but the young man was too caught up in his
own thoughts to notice.
The more Bevyn thought
about Elrohir’s suggestion the more he realized that the half-Elf had been
right. If only he had handled things differently! Being with Elrohir would be
good for Brys.
“Look, there is father and
Erestor!” Elladan momentarily forgot about their problems and raised a hand in
greeting. It was good to see Elrond again!
Bevyn whispered, “Is that
your father?”
“Aye, that is my father
and that is our good friend Erestor.” Elladan steered his horse toward the
other party. “It is good to be home again!”
Elrond wanted to pull his
sons into his arms, but his first glance was for the two injured men that
accompanied his sons. It only took him a moment to realize that they were
twins. Something about their features seemed familiar to him, but he didn’t
know what. “Welcome home, Elladan, Elrohir!”
Elladan sensed his
father’s concern and curiosity and deemed the time right to introduce his
charges. “Father, may I introduce our new friends to you? This is Bevyn, and
his twin’s name is Brys. We extended our protection and friendship to them.”
“My sons’ friends are
always welcome in Imladris. Please look upon me as your host and Imladris as
your home.” The healer in him had quickly assessed their injuries and realized
that Brys needed medical attention. “I trust my sons already attended to your
injuries?”
“They did, Milord,” Bevyn
whispered since he knew that Brys would never dare to address the Elf-Lord.
Elrond seemed as kind as Elladan and Elrohir, but Bevyn still felt intimidated
because Elrond wielded power in the valley. Elrond could chase them off or
offer them a home.
Erestor inclined his head
in greeting and addressed Bevyn. “We already readied guest rooms for you, but
maybe you would like to share a suite instead? I can imagine that you do not
want to part.” Elladan and Elrohir had also always been close.
“Thank you, Milord. We
would like that.” Bevyn was growing pale since the mighty Elves continued to
address him. He lowered his gaze and
fidgeted with a strand of Elladan’s hair that had got caught between his
fingers.
“Come now. I want to know
you safe at home again!” Elrond gestured for his sons to put their horses into
motion and steered his stallion closer to Elrohir’s horse. He wanted to have a
closer look at Brys’ injuries. “Do your ribs pain you?” he asked as he saw how
difficult it was for Brys to remain upright unaided. Elrohir’s arms were
wrapped around Brys’ waist and kept the young man upright.
Brys panicked and Elrohir
reacted at once. He came to Brys’ defense and said, “Brys is rather shy,
father. He does not speak to strangers.”
Bevyn was grateful that
Elrohir had come to Brys’ aid and admitted to himself that Elrohir possessed
the qualities which his twin needed the most. Elrohir was emotionally stable,
strong, and committed. What Bevyn needed was Elladan at his side.
Elrond read between the
lines and did not question Brys further. Instead he said, “You are most welcome
here and can stay as long as you like.” Brys nodded but kept his face carefully
hidden behind his fair hair.
~~~
“I hope this suite is to
your liking.” Elrond had dismissed Erestor and had taken it upon himself to
escort their guests to their rooms. He had suggested Brys stayed in the Healing
Wing for some days, but his guest had panicked and clung to Elrohir while
whispering that he didn’t want that. So Elrond, being a good host, had stopped
pressuring Brys, but that didn’t mean he wouldn’t keep an eye on the younger
twin. He would make certain that healers checked on the young man regularly.
Maybe it would be best if his sons took on that role and he could personally
supervise the progress Brys made.
Bevyn swallowed nervously.
The rooms were spacious and luxuriously furnished. A fire burned in the
fireplace and food had been laid out on the table near the window. Two big
comfortable looking beds awaited them, but they would only use one. Ever since
they had been little they were used to sleeping close together. That way they
could keep each other warm and safe.
Elladan smiled and came to
Bevyn’s help. “He likes them, father.” He refrained from using any Elven dialogue
since he didn’t want the twins to feel left out.
Brys stood in between
Elrohir and Bevyn. They both supported him and he was hoping he would be
allowed to lie down some time soon. Not in the luxurious bed of course. The rug
on the floor would do. Feeling Brys lean more against him, Elrohir slipped his
hands beneath the young man’s knees and shoulders and lifted him. “Allow me.”
Not long ago, Brys would
have panicked at being picked up like that by Elrohir, but he had started to
trust the half-Elf and clung to Elrohir instead. With his good hand, he reached
for his twin. Bevyn walked alongside Elrohir and held Brys’ hand.
“Pull down the covers,”
Elrohir ordered and Bevyn pushed the covers down. Next, Elrohir lowered Brys
onto the mattress and Bevyn pulled up the blankets so Brys would be warm. Brys
was stunned to be lowered onto the bed. He hadn’t expected it and gave Elrohir
a surprised look.
“We shall let you rest for
now,” Elrond said and exchanged looks with his sons, telling them silently that
he wanted to talk to them in depth. “You are safe here,” he added because he
thought the two young men needed to hear it.
“Thank you for your
kindness, Milord,” Bevyn said and waited for the three half-Elves to leave the
suite. Once Brys and he were alone, he crept into bed with his twin and hugged
him tight. The mattress was soft, the blankets would keep them warm, and Bevyn
released a deep sigh. “This is too good to be true,” he whispered, voicing his
fears.
For once, Brys didn’t
agree with his twin, but he was afraid to say so. He remembered what had
happened after he had asked Bevyn why his twin was angry with him. “We are safe
here,” he mumbled, barely audible. “I trust them.” His eyes closed and Brys
drifted off into a much-needed sleep.
Bevyn however couldn’t
sleep. He knew he had hurt Brys, although he hadn’t wanted to hurt him and was
trying to think of what would be best for his twin. Elladan and Elrohir were
right and he accepted that. Brys needed to be with Elrohir and he needed
Elladan, but how was he to accomplish that?
~~~
Elrond released a deep and
troubled sigh when his sons finished telling him and Erestor why Bevyn and Brys
were traveling with them. “You did the right thing,” Elrond stated eventually.
“You saved them and took care of them. That is how I raised you. You make me proud.”
Erestor nodded his head to
show he agreed. “What do you suggest we do next regarding our guests? The way
they look, especially Brys, makes me wonder why you did not take them to the
Healing Wing instead.”
“Because that would have
scared them further,” Elrohir replied. He sat opposite his father while Elladan
was restlessly pacing Elrond’s study. “They need to trust us first. We can not
simply force them into doing something because we want them to do so. They were
forced to follow orders for much too long.”
“I agree,” Elrond said.
“It is good that you told us what their ‘master’ did to them. That knowledge
will help us understand them better.”
“You need to be patient
with Brys,” Elrohir whispered absentmindedly. His thoughts were with the
younger twin. “He is easily intimidated and always blames himself for things
that go wrong. He lacks any self-esteem.”
“You have grown attached
to him,” Erestor concluded.
Elrohir shrugged his
shoulders and sighed. “You are right. I feel for him and it vexes me that it
takes us so long to gain their trust.”
“You said it yourself a
moment ago, Elrohir,” Elrond replied. “We need to be patient with them.
Hopefully they will come to us once they realize that we mean them no harm.”
~~~
Bevyn woke because Brys
was crying in his sleep. “Brys? Brys!”
Concerned for his twin’s well-being, Bevyn tried to wake Brys. “What’s wrong?”
Brys opened swimming eyes
and wiped at his face with his good hand. “You’re still angry with me.”
Bevyn drew in a deep
breath. “I’m not.”
Brys continued to sob
softly, even though the movement caused his ribs to act up again. “You’re angry
with me. I know it. I’m sorry that I like Elrohir. I really am.”
Bevyn pulled Brys close
and hugged him as tightly as he dared. “Brys? I’m not
angry with you.”
“I know you are, but I
didn’t do it on purpose. Elrohir is kind and I like him. I’m sorry…” Brys cried
softly against Bevyn’s chest.
Bevyn realized he had to
take action. “Brys, please look at me?” He had to wait a few minutes before
Brys finally looked him in the eye and, when his twin did, Bevyn saw new tears
lurking in the muddy green eyes. “Do you remember Elrohir’s suggestion?”
Brys wiped at his tears
and continued to sob softly. “You didn’t like his suggestion.”
“I spoke too quickly. I
have changed my mind.” Brys gave him a look that told Bevyn that his twin
didn’t know what to make of his words. “Would you like to stay with Elrohir?”
Panic appeared in Brys’ eyes, but Bevyn had also seen the hope that had
preceded the panic. “Spending time with Elrohir would be good for you.”
“You don’t want me any
more?” Brys couldn’t believe it. Was his twin dumping him? He had always been
afraid that might happen one day. “I’m sorry that I’m not as strong as you are.
I will try harder. I won’t cry any more. I won’t wake you any more!”
“You don’t understand.”
Bevyn soothingly stroked his twin’s face. “We both are a mess and we have
different needs. Elrohir and Elladan are right about that. We need someone
stable in our lives, someone who can helps us rebuild our lives and show us who
we are. I can’t be that person for you. I’m damaged, like you are. And you,
Brys, I love you so much… You’re my twin…the only family I have left and I will
never desert you, but you – you need so much more than I can give.” Brys had
grown quiet in his arms and the large eyes revealed shock and fear. “I want
what’s best for you – for both of us.”
“I don’t understand,” Brys
whispered, stunned.
“It’s simple. You need
someone strong and balanced to help you find your way and that’s not me. I need
guidance myself. But Elrohir is strong and balanced and you trust him.”
“And
what about you?” Brys still
didn’t know what to make of any of this.
“I need Elladan. I was a
fool not to accept what they were offering just because I was jealous. But I
understand now, Brys. They’re right. We need to accept their offer, can’t you
see?”
Brys’ head reeled. “Are
you saying that I need to stay with Elrohir?”
“And I need to stay with
Elladan. Brys, I need to fix this.” Bevyn let go of Brys and sat upright. “No, stay where you are. You need to rest. I will bring
Elrohir to you.”
“What are you going do?”
Brys was so used to living in a constant state of panic that he always felt
exhausted and simply lacked the strength to get up.
“I’m going to search for
them. Trust me, Brys. I know this is hard on you. It’s hard for me too, but we
need to do this if we want to recover.” Bevyn kissed his twin’s brow and hugged
him. “Trust me.” Brys didn’t feel like he had much of a choice. Bevyn left
their suite and all Brys could do was wait.
~~~
Bevyn had walked the
corridors for several minutes in search for someone who could direct him to
Elladan’s rooms before he finally found an Elf who might be able to help him.
“Forgive me,” he said and quickly lowered his gaze. “I’m searching for
Elladan.”
“Child? You do not need to fear me.”
Bevyn swallowed hard at
being called a child. He was far from being a child. Too many sordid things had
happened in his life for him to feel young, but he still peeked at the other Elf’s
face and sucked in his breath, overcome with wonder and admiration. The Elf was
tall, lean, and possessed golden hair that seemed alive. The fair locks framed
a handsome face and the eyes possessed a dreamy quality. He gathered his
courage and asked, “Do you know where I can find him?”
“I will walk you to his
suite, which he shares with his twin. Follow me.” Bevyn made certain he stayed
at least one step behind the fair Elf. He didn’t want to offend the stranger.
“Bevyn, do not be afraid of me. I am a friend.” Bevyn’s head jerked up. How was
it possible that this stranger knew his name? “I know many things,” Lórien answered
the unspoken question as they reached the twins’ suite. “Knock and Elladan will
answer. I must be on my way.” But they would see each other again. “Do not give
up, Bevyn. Your life has changed. Have faith.”
“Faith
in what?” But the fair Elf had
rounded the corner and was gone. Bevyn remained behind alone and he timidly
knocked on the door. “Elladan? Are you in there?”
“Bevyn?” Elladan looked up and saw that Elrohir had also
recognized the voice.
“Something must be wrong
with Brys for him to seek us out,” Elrohir said, growing worried.
Elladan rose to his feet
and walked over to the doorway then opened the door. His heart contracted
painfully at seeing Bevyn’s downcast eyes and submissive stance. “Bevyn, what
is wrong?” He pulled the young man into his rooms and raised the face with a
finger beneath Bevyn’s chin. “Is it Brys?”
Bevyn swallowed hard when
he made eye contact with Elrohir. The half-Elf cared as much about Brys as he
did. “Brys needs you, Elrohir. And I need you, Elladan. You were right when you
suggested I stayed with you instead. Please, Elrohir, will you go to my twin
and comfort him? He needs you.”
Elrohir nodded and hurried
out of the room. “I will take care of him,” he called out as he marched down
the corridor.
Elladan pulled Bevyn into
a loose embrace and guided the trembling man to his bed. “Sit down. You are
shaking all over.”
Bevyn sat down on the bed
and collapsed against Elladan. “I can’t do it. I don’t know how to help Brys. I
used to be the strong one all the time, but I can’t do it anymore. I’m so
tired. I feel beaten.”
Elladan eased Bevyn onto
the bed and then stretched out beside him. “Do not think right now. Do not
torment yourself. You are tired and you need to rest. You did the right thing
in coming here. I will take care of you.” Bevyn had been lulled into sleep by
Elladan’s soothing voice. Elladan curled himself protectively around Bevyn and
held him tight.
~~~
“Brys, may I come inside?”
Elrohir didn’t want to enter without permission.
“You can come inside,”
Brys replied and flinched. He had hoped Bevyn would return to him, but his
brother had sent Elrohir in his place. The door opened and Elrohir stepped
inside. Brys closed his eyes and curled up beneath the blanket as far as his
mending ribs allowed.
Elrohir made his way over
to the bed and sat down on the side. “Brys? I am here
to look after you, but you know that, do you not? Bevyn is staying with
Elladan. This might be hard to accept or understand, but it is for the best.”
Bevyn needed Elladan’s support as much as Brys needed his. “May I hold you? You
might not feel so alone that way.” Brys peeked at him from below the rim of the
blanket and seeing the fear in the eyes broke Elrohir’s heart. “My intentions
are honorable. I would never hurt you.” Brys timidly pushed down the blanket in
invitation and Elrohir gave him a grateful smile.
Elrohir stretched out onto
his side and raised an arm in case Brys wanted to move closer. Brys accepted
the invitation and shifted closer. His facial features however contorted
because of the discomfort his mending ribs still caused him. Sharing a bed with
Elrohir didn’t scare him that much and he relaxed eventually. “Please do not
think that Bevyn is angry with you. This is for the best for the both of you.”
In his heart, Brys knew
that, but it would take him some time to really accept that.
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