Title: One Second
Author: Morgana
Author’s Email: morganalebeau@yahoo.com
Web page: http://www.paranoid.nl/avalon
Pairing: Elrond/Erestor, Âme/Haleth, and Eómer/Glorfindel.
Rating: NC-17
Summary: A Haradhrim slave trader arrives in Imladris and causes quite a stir.
Disclaimer: Not mine. No copyright infringement is intended. All
characters belong to Professor Tolkien.
Warning: AU of course.
Beta read by Patricia and DA, thanks sweeties!
All remaining mistakes are mine.
One Second
Erestor looked
up from his writing and ended up abandoning the letter he was writing to
Celeborn as he saw what was happening in front of his window, which was much
more interesting. During their daily meeting the previous day, Glorfindel had
told them that a group of Haradhrim had crossed their borders and was moving
into their lands, obviously heading towards the Last Homely House. It seemed
that the party had finally arrived and Erestor’s curiosity won over his sense
of duty as he moved to the window to observe more of the unusual spectacle.
The carts were
covered with cloth which enabled the Haradhrim to travel during the colder
parts of the year, but it also kept them safe from curious eyes, such as
Erestor’s as he pressed his nose against the window to see more. The group consisted
of ten or maybe eleven Haradhrim and most of them were dressed in their
original, somewhat exotic attire. Glorfindel was present as well as he told
them where to camp. Seated high upon Asfaloth, the blond Captain seemed to be
everywhere at once as he made sure that the strangers obeyed his orders.
One Haradhel appeared near Asfaloth and drew Glorfindel’s
attention, demanding more information and the honor of being introduced to the
Lord of the Valley. Erestor studied the stranger and concluded that he didn’t
like the man’s glittering eyes and his large hands, which seemed to gather the
air as he stressed his words with gestures. Dressed in red and grey fabric, his
head was also covered with the material, making it easy for the Haradhel to conceal his features and possibly his true
intentions. Erestor would warn Glorfindel later to watch the man closely.
He moved away
from the window and headed toward the doorway. Elrond probably already knew the
strangers had arrived and most likely wanted to discuss their course of action.
~~~
Glorfindel kept
a close eye on everything that was happening around him. He had led the
Haradhrim to the courtyard so they could make camp, which he felt was the best
place to watch them. The courtyard was centrally situated and his guards could
watch the strangers from every desirable angle. He didn’t trust them. Every
time he spoke with Baal, their leader, warning bells went off in his mind.
There was something in the eyes and the way the Haradhel
looked at him that urged him to be cautious. Glorfindel was no fool and
listened to his instincts. “You will be safe here,” he addressed the
unsympathetic Haradhrim leader, who was eyeing him closely.
“How about
meeting the Lord of this valley, good sir? I’d like to honor him and maybe I
can do some business in the process.” Smelling profit, Baal did his best to
make a good impression on the Captain, but he wasn’t certain he was succeeding.
These Elves were hard to read!
“I will talk to
Lord Elrond and he will decide what to do.” Glorfindel was growing fed up with
the Haradhrim’s groveling. He could tell that the man was acting and not
sincere. “In what way would you want to honor him?” He figured he had better
gather some information before seeking out Elrond.
Baal looked pleased
at that. “We’re not just traders, good sir. Among us are also very accomplished
dancers and musicians. We would be honored if we were allowed to perform for
your master.”
Something about
the Haradhel worried Glorfindel, but he had no reason
to distrust the man. Baal had done nothing wrong and had stuck to every
instruction he had been given. “I will speak with Lord Elrond and will let you
know what he decides.” He turned Asfaloth around to end their conversation and
escape from the man who made him feel so on edge.
“I’ll be
waiting for you,” Baal said and bowed respectfully. His beady little eyes
followed Glorfindel’s form as the distance between him and the blond Elf grew.
Hopefully Elrond wasn’t as stuck up as his Captain and available for some game
and pleasure.
~~~
Elrond sat on
the windowsill and overlooked the crowded courtyard. Although he only counted
ten Haradhrim, they had managed to take possession of the whole area. He didn’t
like having them there, but couldn’t deny them. Since Elessar now ruled in
Minas Tirith and wanted to maintain the peace, Elrond had to abide by his
foster son’s intentions. Besides, he couldn’t have denied the strangers his
hospitality at any rate since hospitality was highly valued among the
Firstborn.
“They provide
quite a spectacle, do you not agree?” Erestor walked into Elrond’s study and
joined the half-Elf at the window.
Elrond nodded
absentmindedly as he watched the events in the courtyard. “There are only ten
of them, but their presence still displeases me.”
“I feel the
same way.” Erestor watched as the Haradhrim moved about. They had removed the
tops from all but one of their carts and erected tents in the courtyard.
“Hopefully they will not stay long.”
At that moment
Glorfindel marched into the study and joined them in watching the Haradhrim.
“There is something about their leader, Baal, that makes me feel on edge,” he
admitted. “He is hiding something from me. He does not speak the truth when I
ask him something. I can feel it.”
“Then we must
proceed with caution,” Erestor said, readily agreeing to Glorfindel’s
observation. “They should be watched at all times.”
Glorfindel
nodded. “I have already instructed the guards. They will be alert and keep me
informed.” His gaze shifted from the Haradhrim to Elrond. “Baal requested the
right to honor you by letting his men perform for you. He says they are
accomplished musicians and dancers.”
Elrond
considered the request. “A good host would give them that opportunity.”
“As your
Captain I advise caution.”
Erestor
considered both opinions and then suggested, “Let them perform in the Hall of
Fire, Elrond. Glorfindel can position his guards and act at the first sign of
trouble. The Hall is also a public place, so it will be crowded with members of
your household. That will add to your safety as well.”
“You do not
trust them either,” Glorfindel remarked as he studied Erestor’s thoughtful
expression.
“There is
something about their presence that makes me feel uncomfortable. I was watching
you talk to Baal and I agree that we need to be careful. They might have a
hidden agenda.”
In the end,
Elrond raised a hand to silence them. “We fought the Haradhrim not so long ago.
They came to Sauron’s aid, but Elessar defeated them. The idea of offering them
our hospitality and having them in Imladris is therefore very distressing, but
we can not ask them to leave until they do something wrong. Elessar has made it
very clear that he would like all races must try to live in peace together.” He
sighed thoughtfully. “Erestor’s proposal is sound. Tell Baal his men can
perform in the Hall of Fire tonight. Glorfindel, you will position guards
everywhere. Erestor, I want you to find out as much as you can about Baal’s
reasons for coming here.”
“I will do my
best, but that might prove difficult.” Erestor employed a fair numbers of spies
but none of them had experience dealing with the Haradhrim.
Elrond looked
out of the window again and wondered why the one cart’s cover remained in place
while the others had been removed.
~~~
Baal regarded
his possession coldly, calculating things. “You have lost weight.” Normally he
wouldn’t mind one of his slaves losing a bit of weight, but Âme's bones were
starting to show and that was a bad thing for a dancer like Âme. “I’ll make
sure you’ll eat more,” he said dangerously. “No more refusing food.” He poked
at the slave with a long finger. “Look at me when I talk to you!” It didn’t
occur to him that Âme lowering his gaze came from the fact that he had beaten
the young man whenever Âme had had the audacity to look at him.
Âme slowly
raised his gaze. He was on his guard, as he always was when Baal was around.
The slave trader had earned the bad reputation he had among the Haradhrim and
Âme had often suffered at the slave trader’s hands. The light-blue, almost
colorless eyes that stared at Baal filled him with pride. As far as he knew, he
was the only slave trader who owned an albino. Âme’s colorless eyes and
flawless white skin made him a unique possession. He had been lucky when he had
come upon the baby whose parents had been killed by Orcs.
He had realized
then the profit he could make by owning such a slave and had seized possession
of the baby. He had made sure Âme received all of the necessary ‘training’, but
as the boy had grown older, sparks of rebellion had started to show and it had
been his task to smother any ideas Âme might have had about becoming a free
man. Baal’s solution had been to turn towards drugs whenever Âme became
rebellious and the boy had learned his lesson once more.
“You are going
to dance tonight, so prepare yourself.” Baal studied the boy who was on the
brink of becoming a man at seventeen. The years also added a seductive touch to
Âme’s dancing, which the boy himself had been unaware of at first. But that had
changed the first time Baal had offered him to a customer. Âme had fought the
man off and had even managed to break one of the customer’s arms before Baal
had interfered and fed him drugs. In that drugged state, Âme had been no match
for the customer.
Âme took the
information in calmly. Dancing for a customer usually meant being drugged and
taken advantage of afterwards. “You’ll have to make me,” he retorted while
grinding his teeth together. Baal slapped him hard across the face, as Âme had
expected would happen, and he stared defiantly at the slave trader. “That will
show.”
“A little blush
and it will be hidden,” Baal replied warningly. “I told you to stop grinding
your teeth. Bad teeth lessen your worth, boy.”
A servant
pushed back the fabric and climbed onto the cart. Baal didn’t want the young
man exposed to curious eyes, so had left the fabric on the top. Some of the men
on his payroll eyed Âme too hungrily and Baal didn’t want any complications.
“You’ll eat,” Baal ordered and pointed at the tray the servant carried. “And
then you’ll ready yourself for tonight’s performance.” He would return to feed
Âme the drugs and guide the slave to the main hall where Âme would dance.
Later, he would offer Âme to Elrond in the hope that having the boy in his bed
would please the Elf Lord. It would benefit any trading he wanted to do in
Imladris hugely!
~~~
Glorfindel
checked on his guards’ whereabouts and moved them about until he was satisfied
that every inch of the hall was covered. The Haradhrim would find their path
blocked if they tried to be too close to Elrond.
“That should
do,” Erestor remarked as he walked up to Glorfindel. “You have every corner
covered.”
The blond
turned and smiled at the other Elf. Erestor and he had been working together
for millennia and knew each other well. They had become especially close to
Elrond as well since Celebrían had sailed West. “I
believe so. I am not taking any chances.”
“What exactly
vexes you?” Erestor asked as he seated himself on a chair close to where
Glorfindel was standing. He was dressed in deep crimson robes lined with gold
and looked as regal as Elrond did. Glorfindel was reminded that Erestor
possessed an impressive heritage too. Erestor had been Turgon’s nephew as well
as Ecthelion’s lover.
Recalling Erestor’s
question, Glorfindel did his best to answer honestly. “I can not tell for
certain. It is something about the eyes. The way Baal looks at me. You will
find out what I am talking about when you are face to face with him tonight.”
Erestor nodded.
“I share your concern.” Something was wrong in Imladris and it had everything
to do with the Haradhrim.
~~~
Baal looked Âme
over, pleased that the slave had obeyed his instructions. The skirt Âme was wearing
had openings at the sides, so one could see his long legs. His waist was
adorned with belts which consisted of flawless crystals. Silver bells had been
strung between the crystals and jingled whenever the boy moved. His torso was
bare and Baal once more noticed in displeasure how thin Âme had become. Âme needed
to show off his curves while dancing, but no curves showed, only bones with how
the youth was currently. The headdress the slave wore had been made especially
for him with silver droplets and crystals that framed the pale face and
highlighted the white hair. “It will do,” Baal said eventually. “But you need
to add on some weight.”
Âme remained
quiet and didn’t react to his owner’s remarks. He hated Baal. He had his entire
life, but he had also learned that resistance was futile. In the end, his owner
always received what he wanted. He shivered within the little clothing he wore.
It was cold in the cart and a part of him was looking forward to going inside
the warm hall. The dancing wasn’t that bad. He enjoyed dancing, but the part
that came afterwards always had him horrified. Later, he would be offered to
the Lord of the valley and Âme had only met one customer who had refused the
offer so far.
“Drink this.” Baal
brought over a drink and urged the slave to take the cup into his hands. “We
have been through this before so you know your options. Either you drink this
out of your own free will or Reo will make you.” Reo was one of the guards who
could easily overpower the young dancer.
The slave
considered his options, which weren’t options at all. If he refused, Reo would
restrain him and force the vile liquid down his throat. That would leave him
bruised and in pain for days. Âme took the cup and quickly emptied the contents
which would rob him of his will. He would become Baal’s puppet until the potion
lost its effect.
Baal smiled.
“You’ll dance for Elrond. Dance your most seductive dance and, after everyone
has gone to bed, I’ll take you to his rooms. You’ll please him, do you
understand?”
Âme nodded. The
potion was already affecting him as his thoughts disappeared until none were
left. Baal’s voice filled his mind and the instructions the slaver had given
him echoed in his mind.
“Excellent!” Baal
grabbed a fur cloak and draped it across Âme’s shoulders. “I’ll take you to the
main hall. Do not disappoint me, Âme.”
Those last
words rang as a warning through Âme’s head. He knew what would happen if he
somehow displeased the slaver. More bruises and maybe even broken bones would
follow and he would do whatever he could to prevent being beaten up again.
~~~
Erestor took
his seat at Elrond’s right, which had become the custom after the Lady of
Imladris had sailed West. Under normal circumstances,
Glorfindel would sit down on Elrond’s other side, but that day was different.
The Captain was standing behind Elrond’s chair, sending out a clear message just
in case.
“Glorfindel, I
wish you would sit down. You make me nervous.” Elrond shifted on his chair as
he looked at the blond Elf from over his shoulder. “Look at how many guards are stationed here. Only a fool would try something. The
Haradhrim might be many things, but I never heard they were fools too.” The
only one who was remaining calm was Erestor.
“I am not
letting down my guard,” Glorfindel replied and remained where he was.
Elrond sighed
and had no choice but to accept his Captain’s decision. He grew bored after his
conversation with his stubborn Captain ended and was lulled into a deep sense
of safety when the Haradhrim didn’t appear during the next hour. He chatted
with Erestor and almost forgot about Glorfindel’s presence until some commotion
started near the doorway. “Glorfindel, what is that all about?”
“I surmise the
Haradhrim arrived after all.” Glorfindel’s fingers curled around the hilt of
his sword reflexively.
The Peredhel Lord’s gaze shifted as he tried to catch sight of
the Haradhrim. He found that six of them had lined up near the right corner and
were positioning their instruments, obviously musicians. Two more were making
their way down the hall and he recognized the Haradhrim leader that Glorfindel
had pointed out to him earlier. Baal, if he remembered correctly. Elrond had to
agree with Glorfindel. There was something in the dark eyes that made him feel
on guard as well. The figure next to Baal was heavily veiled in silver fabric,
but by the shape of the body Elrond deduced that he was dealing with a male.
“My Lord
Elrond,” Baal said and bowed deeply. “I’m honored that you’d allow me to
entertain you tonight.”
The hair at the
back of Elrond’s neck stood rigid in warning and the Elf-Lord distinctively
heard Glorfindel’s hiss when he rose from his chair to welcome the Haradhrim to
Imladris. “Greetings, Baal of the Haradhrim. You are welcome here and are free
to stay as long as you abide by our rules.” Elrond didn’t know why he had added
the last part which he normally wouldn’t have.
Baal looked up
sharply at the concealed warning, but didn't react beyond that to Elrond’s
words. He was counting on Âme to soften the Elf-Lord’s heart, knowing the slave
boy had a certain effect on onlookers. “May I present Âme to you, my Lord? I
trust his dancing will please you.” He looked over to where the musicians were
seated and nodded once to start playing. He then quickly stepped away from Âme
to give the dancer some space.
The music was Âme’s
cue. As he started to move, a wave of murmuring swept through the spectators. He
didn’t need to think on swaying his hips, moving his arms, or removing the veil
that had kept him hidden from curious eyes. His moves, although subtle and
seductive, were nothing but a repetition of gestures that had been ingrained in
him since childhood.
Elrond sat down
again and watched the veiled figure start to dance. Long, agile fingers snuck
out from beneath the fabric and reached for the veil and a hiss escaped Elrond’s
lips when the pale face was finally revealed, which was strangely emotionless.
The colorless eyes registered with Elrond and a look at Erestor showed that his
Chief Advisor was also intrigued.
Once the veil
had fallen to the floor, the boy’s upper body was revealed and Elrond took in
the dancer’s form. Baal mistook the interest for lust, not knowing it was the
healer in Elrond that was reacting to the strange sight the albino presented.
Swaying his
hips and moving his arms in a snake-like manner, Âme performed the dance that
he had danced countless times during the last few years. Whenever they happened
upon a wealthy Lord, greed got a tight hold on Baal and the slaver would use him
to reach his goal. His long, white hair danced around his face and cascaded
down his spine as the bells and crystals bounced high upon his hips each time
he thrust his pelvis. Âme lost himself in the dance.
Erestor looked
at Glorfindel and found that the Captain looked impressed. Neither of them had
expected this. The dancer *was* stunning both in his looks *and* his moves.
“Elrond, I never saw anyone like him before.”
Elrond nodded
at Erestor’s remark. “He is an albino. I have medical accounts in my library
that speak of the phenomenon, but I have never encountered one myself.” Although
the dancer’s moves were hypnotic, he managed to concentrate on the aspects that
interested him as a healer. “I would like to talk to him and find out what is
different about him. I also wonder if his parents were albinos. He could tell
me much about the experience.”
Glorfindel
heard their conversation, but his attention was directed elsewhere...namely on Baal.
He didn’t trust the Haradhel and glanced for
concealed weapons on the man’s form. He found none, but that didn’t reassure
him. His attention shifted to the dancer and one quick look revealed that the
boy didn’t have any weapons on him either. There simply was no way for him to
conceal them since he wasn’t wearing that many clothes.
“He is good,”
Erestor remarked as his gaze followed the dancer throughout the room. “A bit
too thin perhaps.”
Elrond was
about to confirm Erestor’s observation when his gaze lingered on the pale face long
enough to detect the bruise that marred the perfect pale skin beneath the blush
that had been applied. “Someone hit him in the face.”
Erestor blinked
at the comment, but then searched the dancer’s face as well. “You are right,”
he whispered thoughtfully and looked at Baal, who looked very smug while
standing in the corner.
The dance
eventually came to an end with Âme gracefully kneeling in front of Elrond. His
long white hair hid his facial features and he heaved from the exertion the
dance had put him though. His condition had deteriorated since he could no
longer eat his normal rations. He wasn’t doing it to spite Baal, but after his
owner fed him the drugs, eating made him nauseous for a longer period of time.
From the corner
of his eye, Elrond watched Baal approach. For some reason he wanted to reach
the dancer first and rose from his chair to go to Âme. Glorfindel sprang into
action and followed the half-Elf, cursing that Elrond was acting spontaneously.
“Rise,” Elrond ordered
when he had reached the dancer. Baal was still a few feet away and Elrond
wanted to have a word in private with Âme.
Obeying
automatically, Âme rose from the floor. He kept his head bowed though and
didn’t look at the Elf-Lord. His behavior had become second nature to him since
it was what Baal wanted from him.
Since Elrond
was only a few inches away from Âme, he noticed something else that worried
him. Dark smudges showed around the dancer’s wrists as well as the ankles,
proving that shackles had been used. He was determined to investigate, but he
also knew he had to be diplomatic about it. “Your performance was extraordinary.”
Âme heard the
words, but was unable to react to them due to the drugs. He swayed and would
have stumbled if it hadn’t been for Baal steadying him. The effect of the drugs
grew stronger as time passed by. When he went Elrond’s rooms, he wouldn’t be able
to move about any more.
“I’m pleased
that you liked his performance, my Lord.” Baal quickly picked up the fur cloak
and draped it over Âme’s shoulders. “Would you like for me to arrange for a
more...private...performance later tonight?”
Shivers ran down
Elrond’s spine when he caught the underlying message in the words. The leer in Baal’s
eyes showed exactly what such a private performance would entail and, while he
loathed accepting the offer for it would only encourage Baal's behavior, he had
to accept for the boy’s sake. He needed that time alone with Âme to find out
what was going on. Only then could he make plans to take the boy away from Baal.
“I would like that.”
Glorfindel
sucked in his breath in surprise at Elrond’s answer. At first, he didn’t
understand why his friend was encouraging such vile behavior, but a shrewd look
from Erestor helped him understand.
“Âme will be at
your disposal in one hour,” Baal replied, knowing that the effect of the drugs
would render Âme helpless by that time. “I’ll escort him to your quarters.”
“Glorfindel
will show you where my rooms are situated. He will stay with you until it is
time for you to bring him to me.” Elrond tried once more to make eye contact
with the boy, but the white hair prevented that. “Are you sure he will not mind
dancing for me again? He looks tired.”
Baal grinned
and shook his head. “He’ll dance again. He knows how to please his master.”
“His
master?” Erestor
asked as he joined them. Like Elrond, he tried to read the expression in Âme’s eyes,
but the little he could see showed that they were vacant, like the boy wasn’t
even awake. /Drugged,/ he sent to Elrond and
Glorfindel mentally. /That boy is drugged./
“Yes, he’s
nothing but a slave, good sir. He’ll do nothing to displease me since he knows
I’ll punish him for it.” Baal looked self-satisfied and completely mistook the
expression in Elrond’s eyes.
“A
slave?” Hadn’t
Elessar forbidden slavery?
“He’s my
possession, yes.” Baal smelled profit and added, “He can be yours if you’re
willing to pay for him.” He had never offered to sell Âme before, but he
figured the Elf-Lord was extremely wealthy and would pay well for the boy. “We
can discuss the price after he performs for you.”
Elrond fought
down a wave of nausea that suddenly rose in the back of his throat. He
understood only too well what sort of private performance the slaver was
talking about. He managed to keep his loathing hidden though. “We will discuss
his price after I sample him.” He had to play along even when it earned him
shocked looks from Erestor and Glorfindel. “Bring him to me in one hour.”
Baal grinned
triumphantly and dragged Âme toward the doorway. He would wait until the drug
had made Âme completely helpless then would take him to Elrond. Once the
Elf-Lord had ‘sampled’ the boy, Elrond might pay him generously to leave Âme in
Imladris.
Elrond gestured
for Glorfindel and Erestor to follow him to his study the moment Baal left the
Hall of Fire. He wanted a word in private with them. “We need to talk.”
“That boy was
drugged.” Erestor gathered his brown robes around him and paced the room
restlessly. “We can not allow for something like that to happen in Imladris!”
“I can arrest Baal
and confine him. That should give us the time we need to deal with the other
Haradhrim,” Glorfindel suggested. He wanted to act *now*.
But Elrond
shook his head. “No, I do not want to add any stress to Âme’s already weakened
condition. Glorfindel, you will join Baal and take them to my rooms in a few
minutes. Erestor, I want you to go to the healers and gather these herbs.”
Elrond wrote down the names of the healing herbs on a piece of paper and handed
it over to Erestor. When he realized that Glorfindel was still standing there,
he hissed, “What are you waiting for? Move!”
Glorfindel
jolted into action and marched out of the room. Erestor went into motion as
well and headed to the healing wing. Elrond’s expression was determined when he
headed to his private rooms. He vowed to deliver the boy from the slaver’s
hands.
TBC
Part 2
Âme had little
choice but to let Baal lead him down the corridor. Setting one foot in front of
the other was growing difficult and he already needed Baal’s support in order
to keep walking. Once Baal had deposited him onto Elrond’s bed he would be
completely helpless.
Glorfindel led them
to Elrond’s rooms as he bit angrily on his bottom lip. He was acutely aware of
the drugged state Âme was in and cursed the fact that Elrond didn’t want him to
act yet. Instead he had to play his part. “These are Lord Elrond’s rooms,” he
stated and knocked on the door. “I suggest you stay here,” he addressed Baal.
“He only wants to see the boy.” Bah, how he hated acting this way!
Disappointed, Baal
considered arguing with the Captain, but reconsidered. He would get his chance
to talk to Elrond later when he came to collect the young slave. “You’ll have
to support him.”
The blond Elf
opened the door and curled an arm around Âme’s waist, instantly noting how hot
the boy’s skin felt beneath his fingertips. He guided the dancer inside and
then closed the door, not allowing Baal a look into Elrond’s private chambers.
The rooms were
still empty. Apparently Elrond and Erestor hadn’t arrived yet, so Glorfindel
guided the boy, who was struggling to walk, toward the bed. “You had better sit
down.” Knowing Elrond the way he did, the healer would want to examine Âme
thoroughly. Glorfindel lowered his charge onto the bed.
Âme lacked the
strength to remain upright and started to fall backwards. He no longer had any
control over his body and wished he could close his eyes so he didn’t have to
see the leering grin on Elrond’s face when the Elf-Lord realized just how
defenseless he was. Baal’s customers had quickly learned to use his
helplessness to their advantage by causing him pain and humiliating him. He was
therefore surprised when Glorfindel tucked a blanket around his form.
It took all of
Glorfindel’s skill to read the expression in Âme’s eyes. A vacant shade tried
to cover up the remaining emotion, but he managed to see through the drug-caused
haze. “You are safe. We will look after you.” A moment later, another door
opened and Elrond and Erestor entered the bedroom. Glorfindel sighed in relief
and stroked back the white hair so he could have a better look at the boy’s
face. “You are still so young, are you not?”
Âme tried to
answer, but neither his tongue nor his lips would cooperate. Thankfully for
him, Elrond reached the bed and realized that as well. “Glorfindel, I want you
to question the Haradhrim, but do it in such a way that you draw as little
attention as possible. I need to know if more slaves are being kept this way.”
Elrond’s voice betrayed the anger he felt that slavery was still being
practiced. “Once you know more, report to me.”
Glorfindel
nodded and quickly left the room to carry out his Lord’s instructions, having
the fullest confidence in Elrond and Erestor to care for Âme.
Elrond sat down
on the edge of the bed and studied Âme’s expression. “I wonder what potion Baal
uses to create this effect.” Since he couldn’t ask the slaver, he told Erestor
to brew a tea from the herbs that the Chief Advisor had gathered from the
healers. While Erestor set about brewing said tea, Elrond started to remove the
headdress. “Do not worry,” Elrond murmured soothingly to Âme, who could do
little more than stare at him. “You are in the best of hands.”
Âme didn’t know
what to make of Elrond’s words, or his actions. Most of his customers would
have been all over him by now. The care with which Elrond removed the headdress
showed that this was no ordinary person. He had never met an Elf before and
didn’t really know what to expect.
“That can not
be comfortable.” Elrond placed the headdress aside, uncaring that the silver
and crystals started to tangle up. If it was up to Elrond, Âme would never be
forced to wear the thing again. Pushing down the covers further, he pulled Âme
into a sitting position. “Rest against me.” Elrond surmised that Âme was
hampered in his movements, but hadn’t believed that Baal would completely
incapacitate the boy. A sound showing Âme’s distress left the dancer’s lips and
Elrond made quick work of removing the belt around the boy’s waist. He wanted
the dancer to rest comfortably. “Do not worry. I will not disrobe you.”
The slave
stared at Elrond after the Elf had lowered him back onto the mattress and
wished that he could speak, but the potion also affected his vocal cords. He
could do little but lie there and wait for Elrond to act.
“The tea is
ready,” Erestor announced as he made his way over to the bed. “It is still hot
though.” He handed Elrond the cup and the half-Elf started to blow onto the
surface to cool it. “What else can I do?”
“Fetch a bowl.
This tea will fight off the effect Baal’s potion has on Âme and his stomach
might revolt. Also wet some cloth with cool water. He might develop a fever
while his body purges itself.” Elrond watched Erestor fetch the desired objects
and then gazed upon Âme’s form again. “I wonder how long Baal has been feeding
you this vile concoction.”
Âme wanted to
tell him a few years, but his lips remained closed and his tongue paralyzed. He
felt grateful that the Elf-Lord wasn’t taking advantage of him, but at the same
time it also confused him.
Erestor
returned and placed a bowl close to the bed. Then he fetched and immersed some
cloth in the cool liquid. He placed the cloth against Âme’s brow and removed
the sweat that had formed there.
“I need him to
sit upright, otherwise I can not put this tea inside
him.” Elrond didn’t want Âme to choke on the tea. “Erestor, help me.” Erestor sat
down on the bed and Elrond was reminded painfully of a different time when they
had cared for someone in need. Back then it had been his wife, Celebrían.
Erestor and he had been her caregivers since they had been the only ones she
had allowed near.
“Elrond,
focus, my friend.” Erestor
had felt Elrond slip into the past when the half-Elf unintentionally touched
his mind. “Focus.”
Elrond shook
the memories from his mind, picked up the tea, and placed the cooled tea
against Âme’s lips. “Sip slowly. You can take all the time you need.”
Âme did as he
was told and was grateful that the tea wasn’t as bitter as the concoction which
Baal always fed him. It took him several minutes to empty the cup, but neither
of the Elves grew impatient with him.
“Erestor, put some pillows up against the headboard. I want
him to remain upright.” Elrond tucked the blanket back into place around Âme
and, once Erestor had placed some pillows against the headboard, Elrond lowered
the boy into the softness. “You had better keep an eye on Glorfindel. We both
know how easily he becomes carried away.”
Erestor smiled.
It was easy to tell that Elrond wanted some time alone with their charge and
Erestor didn’t mind joining Glorfindel, who could become carried away. “I will
check on the both of you later.”
Elrond nodded
at Erestor and smiled at Âme. “Are you comfortable?” Âme however only returned
a blank stare and Elrond realized he had to be patient. It would be a while
before the boy could answer any questions. He heard how the door closed behind
Erestor. Âme and he were alone. “I promise you that I will find out what
happened to you.”
Feeling sleepy,
Âme’s eyes started to close, which had never happened before while he was under
the influence of Baal’s drugs. It was probably due to the tea Elrond had given
him.
“Yes, try to
rest. Sleep is the best medicine.” Elrond used a little bit of his power to
ease Âme into sleep. Once the boy’s eyes had closed, he stroked the white hair
away from the pale face. “Your days as a slave are over. No one is going to
drug you or abuse you again.”
~~~
Erestor found
Glorfindel near the main entrance to the house, where he was talking to a Haradhel. He waited for the blond Elf to finish up the
conversation and then fell into step beside him as they walked to Elrond’s
study. “Did you find out something?”
Glorfindel drew
in a deep breath. “As far as I can tell Âme is the only slave being kept that way. The others have more freedom.”
“Âme is
valuable to Baal and needs to be kept hidden,” Erestor deduced. “Baal has done
this before. He uses Âme this way whenever he smells profit.”
They reached
Elrond’s study and let themselves in. Glorfindel headed over to the window and
sat down in his favorite spot while Erestor opted for the chair in front of
Elrond’s desk. “He will do it again the next time he needs to weasel himself
into favor,” Glorfindel commented.
“There are a
few options,” Erestor said thoughtfully. “We can buy Âme from Baal, although I
do not like that idea. It will only encourage the slaver to find himself a new
dancer and start all over again.” Erestor steepled
his fingers and rested his chin on them. His long, raven hair was tightly
braided away from his face and his alert eyes took in Glorfindel’s impatient shifting
on the windowsill.
“What other
options do we have?” Glorfindel disliked the idea as much as Erestor did.
“We force Baal
to leave without Âme. We simply keep the boy in Elrond’s rooms until you have
escorted Baal and his party to the borders.”
Glorfindel
shrugged. “They might come back.”
“I do not think
Baal will take that chance, but there is always the third option to consider.”
Erestor paused and then said, “We apprehend Baal and take him to Minas Tirith
where Elessar will pass judgment over him. After all, he abolished slavery and
even the Haradhrim have to abide by his rules since they lost the battle.”
“I do not think
that will be necessary.” Unnoticed, Elrond had entered the study as well.
“How does the
boy fare?” Glorfindel inquired worriedly.
“He sleeps at
the moment. I do not want to leave him alone for too long. I am only here to
hear what you found out. Are more slaves kept the way Âme is?”
Glorfindel
shook his head. “Âme is the only one.”
Elrond started
to pace the room. “I overheard the last part of your conversation,” he told
them. “I am not buying Âme. It is a matter of principle.”
“Of course,”
Erestor agreed with a nod.
“I believe it
will suffice if Glorfindel escorts Baal and his party to our borders and hints
at the possibility of being judged in Minas Tirith if he is ever caught keeping
slaves again. That should do it.”
“It might
work,” Glorfindel said. “When do you want me to take them?”
“Tomorrow
morning…” Elrond stopped, turned around, and addressed Glorfindel specifically.
“Are there still slaves left in Baal’s party?” After the Captain had nodded,
Elrond said, “Offer them asylum. We will find work for them and a place to
stay, but I want Baal and his guards out.”
“Excellent,”
Glorfindel replied, pleased with Elrond’s decisions. “I will see to it.”
“And
what about Âme?”
Erestor wanted to know.
“He will stay
in my rooms for now. I have no idea what kind of mental and physical state he
is in. If Baal has fed him this potion for a long time there might be
complications.” Erestor’s question reminded him that it was time to return to
his charge’s side. “I will keep you informed.” After that, Elrond left his
study and returned to his chambers.
~~~
Elrond found
his charge in distress. Âme was struggling to sit upright and Elrond quickly
came to his aid, supporting him. The strong shudders showed that Âme’s stomach
was revolting after all and he picked up the bowl. “Do not fight it,” Elrond
advised his charge.
Âme had no
choice and threw up a nasty slimy substance that clung to his lips. This had
happened before, usually after the potion had lost its effect and he had tried
to eat for the first time. He had thrown up the little he had eaten each time. Elrond
wiped his lips clean and the half-Elf lowered him back into the pillows once
the heaving had stopped. To his surprise, Âme noticed that he could actually
move about on the bed. The potion wasn’t supposed to lose its effect for a few
more hours!
“You will start
to feel better in a few hours.” Elrond disposed of the bowl, picked up some
water, and placed the glass at Âme’s lips. “Slowly,” he ordered as the boy
sipped.
The slave still
felt drained, but he was alert enough to study the Elf-Lord. Elrond had kind
gray eyes and for some reason the young dancer felt like he could trust him. “Why?”
He was surprised that he could actually form a word. He was still supposed to
be paralyzed!
Elrond brushed
a strand of white hair away from the pale face. He reached for a wash cloth,
immersed it in cool water, and placed it on Âme’s brow. “It was about time someone
intervened, was it not?” Âme’s eyes revealed that the boy wanted to say more,
but was still too drained to speak further. “If you would like I can take the
words from your mind.” Âme’s eyes widened in disbelief and Elrond touched Âme’s
mind gently, sensing no resistance. The boy didn’t mind him reading his
thoughts. “I will only take from your thoughts what you want me to. I will not
pry.”
/Can you really
read my mind?/ Âme found it hard to believe.
“I am an Elf. I
can do many things.” Elrond smiled warmly. “Now is there anything I can do for
you?”
/Can I rinse my
mouth? The taste is awful./ Âme didn’t believe that
Elrond could receive his thoughts, but he was willing to test the Elf. An Elf…
Elrond was actually an Elf. /I never saw your kind before./
Elrond rose
from the bed, filled a goblet with water, and then reached for the healing
herbs. He squeezed the leaves until several droplets of their juices fell into
the water, which he then swirled to mix it. Sitting down on the bed again, he instructed,
“Take a sip, rinse your mouth, and then spit it out again into the bowl.”
/You know what
I thought?/
“Yes, I do. And
I am not surprised that you never saw my kind before. Elves seldom leave their
homes.” He assisted Âme in rinsing his mouth.
/There is a
nice flavor to it./
“That is the
added mint.” Once Âme was done, Elrond placed everything aside and then focused
fully on his charge again. “How old are you?”
/I am seventeen
years old./ Why did the Elf-Lord want to know that?
“You are still
so very young!” Elrond exclaimed in shock. “Have you been with Baal for a long
time?”
/Fifteen years./ Âme was growing fatigued again and wasn’t sure how much
longer he could stay awake. /I am falling asleep again./
“That is quite
all right,” Elrond replied and stroked his charge’s brow. “You can go to
sleep.” But the eyes suddenly opened again and Âme shivered violently. Elrond
caught the subconscious fear and said, “Glorfindel will take Baal to our
borders and he will be forbidden from ever setting foot on Imladris’ soil
again.” Seeing the disbelief in Âme’s eyes Elrond nodded encouragingly. “I know
it is a lot to take in, but it is the truth.”
Âme wasn’t
certain he could believe Elrond, but that didn’t matter that much at the moment
as his eyes closed and he drifted off to sleep again. He felt how Elrond tucked
the blanket tightly around his form to make sure he stayed warm. /Thank you,/ he thought, hoping Elrond was still reading his thoughts.
“You are
welcome.” Elrond waited until Âme was sound asleep and then rose from the bed
to clean up and check in with Glorfindel and Erestor.
~~~
“You can’t do
this to me! You can’t! I’ll tell your Lord what you’ve done and he’ll punish
you!” Baal was livid. Glorfindel, accompanied by a dozen guards, had showed up
at the camp and had started questioning the Haradhrim. Within minutes the Captain
had separated the slaves from Baal’s guards and the slaves had been offered
asylum, which they had all taken. The Elves had gathered the slaves and
escorted them to rooms where they could spend the night.
“Oh, let me
assure you that I can do this.” Glorfindel was eager to remove Baal from the
land. “You might not have heard that King Elessar abolished slavery, so let me
tell you now that your actions are against the law. We could turn you over to Elessar’s forces, but we will be mild and merely banish you
from these lands. Should you ever return to Imladris, we will take you to Minas
Tirith so Elessar can pass judgment over you.” With
satisfaction, Glorfindel noted the growing pallor on Baal’s face. “Now, are you
going to move voluntarily or do I have to tie you up?”
“I’m moving!” Baal
started to walk, but then froze and spun around. “I want Âme!”
“You will never
lay a filthy hand on that boy again.” Glorfindel growled dangerously. “Now
start running!” He pressed his heels into Asfaloth’s flank to make the stallion
rear and the mighty warhorse swung his hoofs at the slaver. Baal, startled,
broke into a run and Glorfindel glared at Reo and the other two Haradhrim who
had been the slaves’ jailors. “I suggest you start running too.” The three
Haradhrim ran after their leader as Glorfindel took up pursuit, enjoying every
moment of his revenge.
~~~
Erestor watched
with grim satisfaction as Glorfindel chased off the slavers. Yes, Glorfindel
tended to be overzealous, but in this case, he approved of it. Baal and the
jailors deserved to be chased to the borders. Hopefully the harsh treatment
they were receiving now would keep them from ever returning to the valley
again.
Turning around,
Erestor left Elrond’s study and headed for the half-Elf's chambers. He knocked
and went inside when beckoned. The white-haired dancer was curled up on his
side sound asleep on the bed, looking fragile and exhausted.
Elrond finished
wiping away the sweat from Âme’s face and then turned to address his friend. “Baal?”
he asked.
“Glorfindel is
chasing him off as we speak. I do not think we will see him and his associates again.”
Erestor grinned. “Glorfindel was rather persuasive.”
“Good!” Elrond
gestured for Erestor to sit down on a chair close to the bed. “He woke up
briefly, but was still too weak to talk to me. I touched his thoughts to
communicate.”
“Did you learn
anything that might be of use to us?” Erestor watched the young dancer sleep
and felt content that they had managed to change the boy’s life for the better.
“He is only
seventeen years old, Erestor. Still a child.”
“He does not
have the body of a child,” Erestor observed.
Elrond
shrugged. “He is at that awkward age where they are changing from child to man.
It will take him another year to mature at least mentally, especially after
everything Baal put him through. He was with that man for fifteen years and I
suspect Baal has been drugging him and using him like this for two, maybe three
years.”
“How do you
know that?”
“His knowledge
on his reaction to the potion that Baal fed him showed that he has been given
it for a few years. If I am right, it is a particularly nasty potion which affects
the intestines after a while. That explains why he is so skinny. Every time Baal
gave him the potion, his stomach would rebel to any nourishment for a few
weeks. He will start to improve once the effect of the potion lessens. That is
why I gave him the tea earlier.”
“You will have
to make arrangements for him soon. He can not remain here in your rooms.”
Erestor was always practical and planning ahead.
“You are right,
my friend,” Elrond responded thoughtfully. “You can ready rooms for him, but
make sure they are located near the family wing. We will have to keep a close
eye on him for a long time.” He smiled gratefully at Erestor. “Make sure they
are comfortable.”
“I will see to
it. There is no hurry, is there? He will probably stay with you for the next
few days.”
“You know me so
well, my friend.” Elrond rose from the bed, pulled a chair close, and sat down
again. “I will sit with him for a few more hours. Maybe then you can take over
and guard his sleep?”
“I surmise
Glorfindel will want to be included too.”
“Then include
him.” There was plenty of work waiting for him at any rate and extra help was
always welcome.
“He looks so
young asleep like that,” Erestor remarked painfully. “Only seventeen years
old…”
“But he has
already been through a lot. You thought raising the twins and Arwen was hard work,
but helping this boy recover will be more demanding.”
Erestor nodded,
instinctively knowing that Elrond was right.
~~~
Glorfindel
returned two hours later once he had assured himself that Baal had left
Imladris. They had chased the Haradhrim over the river Bruinen and reminded
them once more that they could be arrested and trialed for what they had done.
Glorfindel was confident that the slavers wouldn’t return to Imladris ever
again. He entered Elrond’s rooms and found the two dark-haired Elves seated
near the bed.
Elrond was the
first to look up and address the Captain. “Are they gone?”
“Yes, we chased
them across the borders. I doubt they will ever find the courage to return to
Imladris again.” Glorfindel remained standing at the foot of the bed. “He does
not look healthy.”
“He needs to
recover from the ordeal he has been through,” Elrond replied.
“And what
happened to the remaining Haradhrim?” Erestor asked.
“The musicians
were slaves as well. We offered them asylum and they readily accepted. Our
minstrels offered to take them in and look after them. They are in good hands.
Lindir is coordinating everything.” Glorfindel felt relieved since everything
had been taken care of.
“That leaves us
with tending to Âme.” Elrond exchanged a look with Erestor and then gazed upon
Glorfindel. “Do you wish to sit with him as well?”
“Of
course!” Glorfindel
would feel offended if he were left out!
Elrond nodded,
expecting nothing else. “It will be up to the three of us to see this boy
through.” But one look at his friends revealed that they knew that and were
ready to support Âme.
~~~
Birds chirping
on the balcony woke Âme some time later. Judging by the position of the sun in
the sky, he deduced that it was already late morning and tried to push himself
a bit more upright. A foul taste in his mouth reminded him that he had emptied
his stomach the night before. Looking about, he wondered where the Elves who
had sat with him through the night had gone. He had woken up sporadically and a
different Elf had been sitting with him.
“Ah, you are
awake!” Glorfindel had been answering the door to collect a tray which
contained a meal before making his way over to the bed to place the tray on the
nightstand. “I am Glorfindel,” he introduced himself. “You probably have not
seen me before.”
“You were in
the hall when I danced, weren’t you?” Âme vaguely
remembered seeing the magnificent Elf. “You were armed,” he added. He had seen
Glorfindel’s hand go to the hilt of his sword when Baal and he had entered.
“I did not trust
Baal,” Glorfindel explained as he set about brewing the tea Elrond wanted Âme
to drink.
Âme sat with
his back propped up by the heap of pillows and watched Glorfindel busy himself.
He was hungry, but not sure he could hold anything down. “He told me that Baal
is gone…that other Elf…”
“His name is
Elrond,” Glorfindel said and poured the tea into a cup. “He is a healer.” He
offered the cup to Âme and noticed how badly the slave's hands were shaking
when the dancer wrapped his fingers around the porcelain. “Can you manage or do
you need help?”
“I can try…”
Âme managed to raise the cup to his lips to sip. It was strange. Normally the
effects of Baal’s potion lasted much longer, but he was able to drink some tea
again. “Usually I feel sick,” he explained as he recalled how often he had
thrown up the day after the potion's consequences.
“Elrond told me
about the potion Baal used on you. The tea you drank last night and are
drinking now neutralizes its effect and should help settle your stomach.
Hopefully you will be able to eat something later.” Glorfindel picked up an
apple from the tray and bit into it.
“I don’t
understand what has happened,” Âme admitted while sipping his tea. “When Baal led
me here I expected…”
“We know what
you expected,” Glorfindel said. “But we are not like that. That was your
salvation. Baal made the mistake of assuming the Firstborn would indulge
themselves that way. We abhor the thought of keeping slaves and we detest the
way he used you to his advantage.” Âme flinched and Glorfindel regretted being
so forceful. “We are not angry with you. We know you had no choice.” At that
moment, there was a knock on the door and a moment later, Elrond entered.
The half-Elf
was pleased to find Âme awake and sipping tea. He advanced on the bed and sat
down on a chair close to it. “How do you feel? A little bit
better?”
“You are
Elrond,” Âme whispered as he remembered the Elf-Lord’s face. “I owe you my
gratitude.”
Elrond smiled
benignly. “We are happy that we could help you and your fellow prisoners.”
“Prisoners?” Âme blinked.
“That is what
you were,” Glorfindel explained. “Slaves…Prisoners.”
Âme’s head
reeled. “I don’t know what to make of all this.”
“You only need
to drink your tea and rest for the time being,” Elrond explained to his charge.
“You need to recover. If you feel sleepy, do not fight it. Give into it and go
back to sleep.” Later he would try to make Âme eat some soup.
Âme emptied his
tea cup and Glorfindel took hold if it when it threatened to fall. “Elrond is
right. You are tired. Sleep some more.”
“I am cold,”
Âme whispered while rubbing his arms to create some warmth.
“Glorfindel,
please close the window and pick up the throw from the sofa when you return to
the bed.” Their charge was human and susceptible to the cold, which he should
have considered sooner. Elrond made his own contribution to warming the room by
starting a fire in the fireplace.
Glorfindel
returned to the bed and added the throw to the blanket which was already tucked
around Âme’s form. “Are you comfortable?”
Âme nodded
sleepily. “I am fine.” He felt better than he had in a long time. “Thank you.”
Once the fire
shone brightly, Elrond walked over to Glorfindel and rested a hand on his
friend’s shoulder. “He will be back on his feet again in a few days’ time. We
need to be patient for now.”
“I know that,”
Glorfindel responded. He was just impatient by nature.
TBC
Part 3
Erestor was
passing time by reading a book which he had taken from Elrond’s private library
that told the history of the Haradhrim. He had selected it on purpose since he
wanted to know about the people. Although he was deeply engrossed in reading,
he still caught the moan that left Âme’s lips and placed the book aside. He
leaned in closer and studied the dancer’s face. The eyelids fluttered and then
opened, revealing those strangely fascinating colorless irises that had just a
hint of blue. “Welcome back. Are you through with sleeping now?” Erestor smiled
at the youngster.
Âme blinked
sleepily. “Do I know you?”
“My name is Erestor.
I am Elrond’s Chief Advisor and therefore a friend.” Erestor reached for Âme
and helped him be more comfortable. “Do you think you can eat? Elrond wants you
to. You need to regain your strength. That potion Baal gave you was rather
vile.”
“I’m not sure.
I’m hungry, but…”
“Let us find
out then.” Erestor rose from the bed and went to the door to summon the guard
that was waiting there, instructing him to fetch some warm soup. He returned to
Âme’s side and sat down again. “You probably have some questions. I will answer
them if I can.”
Some of Âme’s
questions had already been answered by Elrond, but his memory was hazy at best.
“Baal’s gone? I don’t have to return to his service?”
“Glorfindel
chased him and the jailors off. They will never harass you again.” A knock on
the door announced the foods’ arrival and he collected the tray. “Anything else
you want to know?”
Âme watched
Erestor closely. “Why are you taking care of me? I know that Elrond is Lord
here and you sat to his right, so you’re probably a Lord too.”
“Well, one
could say it is a matter of hospitality, but that would not be the entire
truth. Elrond is a healer and wants to see you recover. Glorfindel and I… We
feel the same way. We care. Is that enough for you?”
Âme nodded,
though he still wasn’t sure he completely understood what Erestor was trying to
tell him. The concept of loyalty and caring for someone was rather alien to
him. All he had known was manipulation and beatings. Erestor placed the tray on
his lap and his stomach growled the moment the fragrance of the soup reached
his nostrils.
“Dip the bread
in the soup and eat as much as you can.” Erestor recalled Elrond’s instructions
clearly. The half-Elf had asked him to make sure their charge ate as much as he
could.
“What if my stomach
can’t take it?” Âme wondered concerned.
“I am
prepared,” Erestor replied and showed him a large bowl. “Do not worry about
making a mess.”
That reassured
Âme and he scooped some of the vegetable soup onto the bread. He ate slowly,
chewing each bite carefully. He didn’t want to appear forward but he *did* want
to know what their plans were for him. “Am I to stay here or…?”
“The other
slaves chose to stay in Imladris as well. Since most of them are musicians our
minstrels offered to take them in. Once you have recovered you will move into
your own room and find an occupation that suits you. I always need new scribes
in the library, but that would be a terrible waste of talent. You are a gifted
dancer.”
Âme blushed at
receiving such a compliment. “Baal drilled the moves into me.” He quickly ate
some more since discussing this made him feel awkward.
Erestor knew he
had to tread carefully, but was determined to address the matter. “Do you enjoy
dancing?”
“I used to,”
Âme replied truthfully. “When I was a child I loved to dance, but then…”
The Chief
Advisor nodded in understanding. “Baal defiled it with his crooked intentions.”
Âme’s quick glance revealed that he had drawn the right conclusion. “You see,
we have a number of talented minstrels in Imladris but no one who dances the
way you do. You might consider giving lessons.”
Âme’s head
reeled. “Everything’s going too fast.”
“I apologize.
Glorfindel loses control at times, but so do I. I should give you the time you
need to grow used to your new circumstances.” Erestor ladled more soup into the
empty bowl and encouraged his charge to eat. “Elrond will return shortly.”
At that Âme
realized something. “These are his rooms, aren’t they?” Why hadn’t they moved
him yet?
Erestor smiled.
He didn’t have to read the boy’s mind to understand what Âme was thinking. “You
are still too weak. We do not want to worsen your condition by moving you about.
Elrond does not mind.”
“But I’m
invading his rooms.” Âme didn’t feel comfortable with that.
Erestor thought
it wise to change their subject. “Your home was in that cart, was it not?” Âme
nodded and Erestor continued, “We packed all the items we found there and set
them aside for you.”
“Thank you.
That’s very kind of you.” Âme found that he had eaten enough and glanced at
Erestor in apology. “I can’t eat anymore.”
“You did well.
Elrond shall be pleased.” Erestor placed the tray back onto the nightstand.
When he looked at his charge again, he found that the dancer’s eyes had closed.
“Too much excitement for today.”
~~~
“There has been
no sign of Baal trying to enter the lands again,” Glorfindel said as he
accompanied Elrond to his quarters. “We scared the coward off.”
“How are the
other former slaves doing?” Elrond asked.
“They are still
rather skittish, but Lindir and the other minstrels are confident that music
will bridge the distance between them eventually.” Glorfindel had been pleased
to hear that the other former slaves were doing well. “That leaves only one
more to check upon.”
“Âme. Erestor is sitting with him presently.”
Elrond pushed down the door handle and let himself into his rooms. Erestor was
reading, but the Advisor closed the book upon their arrival. “How does he
fare?” Elrond asked as he approached the bed.
“He managed to
eat some bread and soup,” Erestor updated Elrond.
“And he managed
to keep it down?” Elrond asked.
“Yes, he did.
He is doing fine.” Erestor rose from his chair. “I found him some rooms, just
as you requested, Elrond, and they *are* located near the family wing.”
“Excellent. We
will move him there once he has regained a bit more strength. I will sit with
him now.” Glorfindel would relieve him in a few hours. They would look after the
dancer until Âme was strong enough to start his new life in Imladris.
~~~
“Your progress
pleases me.” Elrond smiled at his charge. Two more days had passed by during
which Âme had mostly slept and eaten. It was time for the young man to leave
his bed for the first time. “Do you feel strong enough to walk over to the
doorway?”
Âme nodded. “I
think so.”
Elrond, however,
wasn’t taking any risks and gestured for Glorfindel to approach Âme. Should the
young man fall, Glorfindel would catch him. Glorfindel took up position and
waited for Âme to push down the covers and rise from the bed.
Âme had been in
bed for only five days, but it felt like five weeks to the normally active
young man. He no longer wore his old costume, the skirt with splits at the
side. Elrond had helped him put on some soft linen pants a couple of days ago. He
swung his feet onto the floor and pushed himself upright. He swayed momentarily
and Glorfindel moved forward. “I can manage…” he whispered and placed his feet
more solidly on the floor. Slowly he made his way over to the doorway where
Elrond was waiting for him. The half-Elf’s face was filled with pride.
“Good! We will
move you to your new rooms tomorrow. Then you will have more privacy.” Even though
Âme hadn’t brought it up, Elrond had noticed that the young man didn’t like
being watched all the time. The healer had also tried to address the abuse the
young dancer had suffered, but Âme shut down whenever the matter came up, so
Elrond had decided to let the matter rest for the moment. Hopefully Âme would
choose a confidante and entrust himself to this Elf.
Âme turned
around and made his way back to the bed. Hearing that he would get his own
rooms shortly pleased him, but it also scared him since he would be alone then
and he had become used to having one of them about. He sat down on the bed
again and grinned. “I did it.”
Erestor entered
the bedroom and exchanged a look with Elrond. “His rooms are ready. We also
delivered the items we found in that cart to his new rooms.”
Âme looked at
the three of them. Elrond, Erestor, and Glorfindel had saved him from Baal’s reign
of terror. They had changed his life for the better. Had he even properly
thanked them for that? Elrond suddenly looked over at him sharply and Âme
realized the Elf-Lord had caught that particular thought.
Elrond made his
way over to the bed and sat down beside his charge. “We are honored that we
were able to do this for you. The only pity is that no one looked out for you
before.”
The dancer’s
eyes filled with tears. Until that moment, he had been strong and had resisted
the urge to cry so he wouldn’t want to fall apart in front of them, but
Elrond’s words somehow undid the dam that had kept his emotions at bay.
“Do not feel
embarrassed,” Elrond said as he carefully wrapped an arm around the sobbing
young man. “It is normal that your emotions need a way out after everything you
have been through.” Suddenly, Âme grabbed hold of him and the young man buried
himself in Elrond’s arms in a tight hug. “Yes, let go, Âme.” Elrond rocked the
young man and made eye contact with Erestor. Touching his friend’s mind, he
said, /We need some hot tea and add some drops of
miruvor to it. Be careful though. Âme is human and too much miruvor is not good
for him./ Erestor hurried away to carry out Elrond’s order and Glorfindel sat
down on one of the chairs that stood close to the bed.
“You are safe
with us,” the warrior said. “You will never be a slave again.” Glorfindel’s
words only caused Âme to weep harder and the warrior offered Elrond an
apologetic look.
/Do not worry
about it,/ Elrond told Glorfindel mentally. /I was
hoping something like this would happen./
A moment later
Erestor returned with the tea and handed the cup to Elrond. “Can you sip some?”
Elrond waited for Âme to let go of him and then pressed the cup into the
trembling hands. “This will help you calm down.” It was a testament to how much
Âme had come to trust them that he sipped, trusting Elrond unconditionally.
Âme calmed down
with something to concentrate on and the miruvor did its job as well. “I don’t
know what to do… I don’t belong here.” He had kept silent until that moment,
but since his emotions were out of control, he couldn’t help but voice them. “I
don’t deserve any of this.”
“Nonsense,”
Elrond retorted. “You just need time to adjust.” The real battle for Âme would
start once he was alone in his new rooms. Elrond realized he had to find
something to distract Âme with when that time came. “And you have friends
here.”
“You hardly
know me,” Âme whispered and lowered his gaze. Elrond rescued the cup from his
shaking fingers and Âme suddenly felt exposed. Luckily for him Glorfindel had realized
that and had risen from his chair, picked up the blanket, and wrapped it around
Âme’s shoulders. “Thanks,” the young man said, managing a weak smile.
“Elrond is
right,” Glorfindel said as he lowered himself onto his heels in front of the
young man. “Your life has changed drastically and you are just now trying to
come to terms with that. The next few months will not be easy, but you have our
support.”
Âme didn’t know
how to react to that. Everything had changed for him. Nothing was the same. How
was he going to find balance in his life when all he had ever known was the
life of a slave?
~~~
Âme blinked in
surprise. “These are my rooms?” He had never had his own room. The last five
years that cart had been his home and before that, he had shared a room with
several other slaves. The suite that had been assigned to him consisted of a
bathroom, bedroom, and living area that was generously cut and luxuriously
furnished. “I can’t accept this.”
“You do not
have much say in the matter,” Erestor said who showed the young man around.
Elrond was caught up in a meeting and Glorfindel was out on patrol, so the task
of showing Âme his new quarters had fallen to him. “These are quite normal
rooms for Imladris’ standards.”
“I don’t know
how to…” Âme swallowed hard and collapsed onto one of the comfortable chairs
standing near the fireplace, which blazed with heat.
“Give it time,”
Erestor advised as he sat down opposite the young man.
“It’s so hard
to believe that my life has changed like this. I still expect Baal to come
after me and take me away from all this.”
“That will not
happen. Glorfindel will make sure Baal will never be close to you again.” Erestor
was tempted to reach out and comfort Âme by touch, but so far, the young man
hadn’t sought out any physical contact. Erestor was very much aware of Âme’s
past, which complicated the matter. Âme could easily misinterpret such a
gesture. “You do not have to worry about anything for the time being. Just try to
adjust to your new situation.”
Âme stared into
the flames and swallowed hard. “As long as I can remember I belonged to Baal.
He had complete control over my life. He could make me do whatever he wanted
and now things are different. I don’t even know how to decide what to do next.”
Erestor smiled
warmly. “You have done well so far. Do not doubt yourself, Âme.”
Fighting all
the conflicting emotions raging inside him made Âme feel confused. “What am I
supposed to do?” he asked Erestor. “Shouldn’t I be working to earn my keep?” He
had worked hard his entire life. When he had been little he had helped out in
the house, but later Baal had made him dance and pleasure his customers. “What
am I supposed to do with all this time that I have on my hands?”
“I suggest you
sleep, eat, and rest some more.” Although Âme had gained some weight, he was
still too skinny. “And after that, you can decide on what sort of work you want
to do, but I do not think that should be an issue right now. You need to focus
on healing.”
“Healing?” Âme
stared at Erestor, not understanding what the Elf was talking about.
Erestor raised
his right hand and carefully placed it on Âme’s arm. The young man allowed the
touch and didn’t seem to mind being in close contact. “You were drugged and taken
advantage of. Âme, Baal abused you in many ways.”
Âme shrugged.
“I’m a slave, Erestor. Such is the treatment a slave receives.”
Erestor shook
his head. “Âme, you are not a slave anymore and what Baal did was wrong. You
should have the choice whether you want to dance or not…or whether you want
someone to bed you or not. Baal took that away from you.”
Âme shrugged
again. “It could have been worse.”
Erestor shook
his head again, this time in disbelief. “How can you say such a thing?”
“I still was
taken care of. I was fed and I had a warm dry place to sleep. Many slaves don’t
even have that.”
Erestor decided
against continuing the argument, hoping Âme would realize in time how badly he
had been mistreated. Living among the Firstborn might show him that. He stayed
with Âme until the young man had fallen asleep and then left for his own rooms.
~~~
Waking up alone
the next morning caused Âme to feel disorientated. He had been confined to
living in the cart for years and the last week he had seldom been alone since either Erestor, Glorfindel, or Elrond had sat with him. Having
a bed to himself was an unknown luxury and he
stretched lazily, stalling his leaving the bed. It was warm and comfortable and
he decided not to get up yet.
Opening his
eyes, he searched his surroundings. These were his new rooms -- *his* rooms! He
had never had something to call his own before. Even the costume and jewelry he
had worn during his performances had belonged to Baal. Warm rays glided into
the room, revealing that it was already late in the morning. He should probably
get up, but he couldn’t convince himself to do so. Instead he buried himself
deeper under the blankets and purred contentedly. Savoring the moment, he
didn’t hear the knock on the door at first, only when it was repeated did it
draw his attention.
“Âme? Are you hungry? You are late for
breakfast, but the cook is willing to prepare something special for you.”
Âme recognized
Glorfindel’s voice and sighed in disappointment. He was hungry, that much was
true, but he didn’t want to leave the bed!
“Âme, are you
in there?” Glorfindel frowned. Why wasn’t the young man answering him?
The dancer
sighed as he realized that he couldn’t postpone the inevitable. “Yes, I am
here. You can come inside.” He pulled the blanket up to his chin and pressed
deeper into the mattress. “This bed is very comfortable,” he explained.
Glorfindel
laughed warmly at the sight of only Âme's eyes
and some white hair showing. “I thought you would be all over the place
exploring.”
Âme shook his
head. “No, staying in bed is much nicer. I never had a bed of my own before and
staying in late was out of the question.”
The Elf Lord
hadn’t thought of that. He walked over to the bed and sat down at the foot.
“Maybe I can convince the cook to send a servant with some food to your room.
That way you can stay in bed even longer.”
“You’d do
that?”
Glorfindel
smiled at the adoring look on Âme’s face. “I will arrange for it.” There was
something else he wanted to ask though before seeking out the kitchen. “Are
these rooms to your liking? Do you feel at home here?”
Âme’s
expression darkened. “I never had a room to myself, Glorfindel. These rooms are
gorgeous.”
The blond Elf
sighed. “It is the least we can do.” He rose from the bed and gazed at Âme, who
looked happy amidst his sea of pillows and blankets. “What are your plans for
the rest of the day? Are you going to stay in bed all day long?”
“I would if I
could…” Âme surprised himself with how casual he was being with Glorfindel. Was
behavior like that acceptable? “I’m sorry if I…” he started and pushed down the
blankets.
Glorfindel
quickly raised a hand. “Stay where you are and do not worry about taking things
easy. You are entitled to do that after all you have been through.”
“I’m not normally
like this,” Âme answered while sitting up and wrapping his arms around his
knees, which he had pulled toward his chest. “I’m not lazy.”
Sighing,
Glorfindel returned to the bed. “I doubt you ever had the chance to be lazy.
And you are not lazy right now,” he stated quickly. “You are taking your time
to grow accustomed to a new situation.”
“It sounds much
better when you say it like that.” Âme smiled warmly at Glorfindel. His white
hair tumbled in front of his eyes and he peeked at Glorfindel through the
strands. “It’s easy being around you.”
“Thank you,”
Glorfindel replied, pleased at receiving such a compliment. “I will bring you
breakfast. You stay in bed a little longer.” Glorfindel rose from the bed and
headed for the doorway.
Âme made himself comfortable again and smiled happily.
~~~
Glorfindel was
surprised to find Erestor in the kitchen as well. But, when he caught the
fragrance of a freshly baked apple pie, the warrior knew what had lured the
Advisor into the kitchen. Erestor had a sweet tooth and loved apple pie. “Are
you going to leave anything for the rest of us?” he asked in bemusement as
Erestor tried to slide a second slice of pie onto his plate.
“I was not
planning on leaving any.” Erestor calmly looked Glorfindel in the eye. “It is
all mine.”
“You are
greedy,” Glorfindel said, laughing. Apple pie was the one thing Erestor would
leave his bed for in the middle of the night. Sometimes when Glorfindel had
been unable to sleep, he had headed to the kitchen to warm some milk and more
than once had found Erestor there searching for sweets.
“I am Chief
Advisor to Elrond and Seneschal. I can afford to be greedy. What are you doing
here, Glorfindel? I thought you would be overseeing today’s training.”
“I decided to
check on Âme first.” Glorfindel turned away and asked the cook to prepare a
late breakfast for their human guest.
“And is he
still in bed?” Erestor grinned. “I had a look inside earlier and he was
blissfully asleep. I could not find it in my heart to wake him.” Erestor cut another
slice and placed it on a plate. “Here, take this to Âme. He will love it.”
“You are
actually willing to share? I am impressed.” Glorfindel’s smile was warm and
caring when his gaze met Erestor’s. “And what about me?”
“Open up,”
Erestor ordered and fed Glorfindel a morsel. “That is all you will receive.”
Glorfindel
burst out laughing before collecting the tray and heading back to Âme’s rooms.
~~~
“You are
looking cheerful,” Âme stated as Glorfindel placed the tray on his lap. Feeling
lazy, he had stayed in bed. His eyes glittered with excitement as he caught
sight of all the delicacies on the tray.
“With
compliments from Erestor,” Glorfindel replied as he pointed out the apple pie
to Âme. “He does not share with just anyone.” He winked and sat down before
taking hold of the cup of tea that he had brought for himself. Amused, he
watched Âme taste all the different foods before settling on eating the apple
pie. “If you are willing to leave the bed, I would show you the Last Homely
House.”
Âme’s belly was
full and he felt content. Since his needs had been met, he *did* feel curios.
He was going to live in the Last Homely House so he had better learn his way
around. “You would show me and I wouldn’t impose on people?”
“Âme, you are
welcome here. We want you here.” Glorfindel surmised that it would take a while
before Âme actually believed that. It was a good thing that they had time. He
then wondered what Âme’s problem was when the young man remained frozen in
place in bed. In the end, he asked, “What is amiss?”
“I have no
clothes…” Âme blushed. He was still wearing the pants Elrond had given him and
he couldn’t explore the Last Homely House dressed like that.
Glorfindel
walked over to the closet situated in the corner of the bedroom and opened the
door. “You have plenty.”
Âme pushed back
the covers and walked over to the closet. Frowning, he shook his head. “Those
aren’t mine. I don’t own any clothes.”
“You do.
Erestor took care of that and created a wardrobe for you. I hope everything
fits.” Glorfindel selected a gray robe lined with silver for Âme and added
house shoes as well. After all, Âme was human and might grow cold. “See if they
fit.”
Open-mouthed,
Âme let his fingertips glide down the fabric and shook his head. “I can’t accept
this. This is much too valuable!”
“Go and dress.”
Glorfindel turned Âme around and marched him in the direction of the bathroom.
“Take your time.” He closed the door behind Âme and then returned to the closet
where he selcted a warm cloak for the young man consisting
of heavy velvet. That should keep him warm!
~~~
Âme stared into
the basin full of water and saw his reflection. He looked different, he
realized. He looked stronger and he had these Elves to thank for that. A year
ago he wouldn’t have believed it possible that he would be free from Baal one
day. He was doing his best to adjust, but it was hard. He was trying to find
out what was acceptable to these Elves and what they wouldn’t allow. So far,
they had been most generous and accommodating.
After washing
up and removing his pants, he slipped into the robes and stepped into the house
shoes. They kept him warm and he smiled at his reflection. He picked up the
comb lying next to the water basin and removed the tangles from his hair until
it shone like snow. His colorless eyes stared back at him and he quickly
lowered his gaze. Although Baal had loved his pale skin and white hair because
they appeared seldom in a Haradhel, the slaver had
hated his colorless eyes and as a result, Âme hated them too. Hearing
Glorfindel move about in the other room reminded him that he wasn’t alone and
he joined the blond Elf in the bedroom.
Glorfindel
nodded approvingly. “Those robes fit nicely.” He walked toward the young man
and draped the heavy cloak made from rich burgundy velvet across Âme’s
shoulders. “Are you ready to go?”
“I’m not quite
sure.” Âme caressed the velvet fabric and blinked. “This is so unreal.”
“You will grow
more comfortable in time,” Glorfindel offered soothingly. “Come with me now.
There is a lot to see and explore.”
~~~
Âme hadn’t
realized how large the Last Homely House was when Baal had led him to the Hall
of Fire. Since he was alert and not drugged, he found his surroundings
fascinating and stopped walking regularly to take in some details in the
artwork.
Glorfindel
remained patient and pointed out the location of the barracks, the guest wing,
and the corridor in which Elrond and Erestor’s studies were located. His final
destination however was the wing that housed the minstrels and musicians for he
thought that Âme would like to see how the other former slaves were doing.
“Where are we
going?” Âme was curious.
“I thought you
would like to talk to them,” Glorfindel explained and pointed out the former
slaves who were moving about among the Elven minstrels.
“Âme!” One of the former slaves, a man in his
early thirties, left Lindir’s side and ran over to the young man. His gaze was
one of wonder and gratitude.
“Zain!” Âme flung himself into the older man’s
arms and held on tight. “I thought…” The dam broke once more and he wept
unabashedly.
“I’m happy that
you got rescued too.” Zain hugged the younger man whom had come to look upon as
his son.
Glorfindel
watched the reunion closely. The other former slaves approached as well and Âme
greeted them. It was clear that Âme was well-liked and all of the former slaves
were happy to see the young dancer doing well. Glorfindel stayed in the
background and let them talk.
TBC
Part 4
Later that
evening, Erestor went to Âme’s rooms to escort him to the Hall of Fire, where
they would have dinner. “Did you enjoy yourself today?” Erestor asked
conversationally.
Âme nodded
slowly. “Glorfindel showed me around and I talked to some of my friends. I’m
glad you offered them a place to stay. They deserve better than being slaves.”
“So do you,
Âme.” Erestor gestured for the young man to follow him to the main table, but
stopped walking when he realized that Âme had come to a halt. “What is wrong?”
he asked as he saw the distant light in the dancer’s eyes.
“The last time
I was here I was drugged. I didn’t really see any of this…” Awed, the dancer
took in the ancient hall with its wooden ornaments, large fireplaces, and
glass-stained windows.
Erestor raised
his hand for Âme. To his delight, Âme took it and curled his fingers around it.
/Thank the Valar that Baal never broke your spirit. You are a fighter, Âme. You
will grow stronger with each passing day. You are a survivor./
~~~
Elrond smiled as
he saw Erestor and Âme approaching. So far none of them had tried to touch Âme,
fearing the dancer’s reaction to physical closeness. But it seemed that holding
Erestor’s hand didn’t seem to cause Âme any distress and that was encouraging.
“Please, sit!” Elrond gestured to the vacant seat to the left of him. Glorfindel
was away on patrol and Elrond wanted Âme close so he could keep an eye on him.
Âme seated
himself and lowered his gaze as he felt many eyes upon them. The last time he
had been in this Hall, he had been dancing seductively. That memory made him
feel shy and nervous.
After Erestor
had also seated himself, food was placed upon the table and Elrond gestured for
all present to start eating. Glancing at his charge, Elrond smiled. Âme had
quite an appetite and was practically inhaling the food. It was probably a
novel experience for the young man to eat without having to worry about any
stomach aches. “The food is to your liking?”
Elrond’s
question made Âme stop eating and he realized he had been wolfing everything
down. “I’m sorry. I’m hungry.”
The Peredhel smiled. “Do not worry about it. I am glad that you
have your appetite back. Your stomach no longer gives you any trouble?”
“It behaves.”
Âme blinked as he realized just how much his physical state had improved. “I
have you to thank you for that.”
Elrond nodded.
“I am happy I could help.”
Âme lowered his
gaze, suddenly feeling shy and unworthy of being the object of the Elf-Lord’s
attention. “I want to thank you for everything you did for me and my friends. If
there is anything I can do to repay you, please tell me. I can earn my keep
too. If you have work for me…I’ll take it.”
“Do not think
about repaying me or working yet, Âme. I want you to feel at home here first.
In time, we will find an occupation for you.” Elrond placed his hand on Âme’s
arm and patted the fabric. “Just make yourself at home first.”
The dancer
swallowed hard. He had never encountered such generosity before.
~~~
Later that
night, Âme slipped into a nightshirt before going between the covers as silver
rays of the moon glided into the bedroom and illuminated his surroundings. He
had seldom had a bed to himself and being alone felt awkward. He wasn’t sure he
would be able to sleep. He wished one of the Elves were near to keep him
company. The silence was getting to him, making him feel edgy.
He couldn’t
possibly seek out Elrond, Erestor, or Glorfindel. He didn’t want to be a burden
to them. So, he gritted his teeth, determined to endure the silence and the
loneliness.
~~~
Erestor and
Elrond were seated near the blazing fireplace, enjoying a glass of wine. It was
regrettable that Glorfindel hadn’t returned from that day’s patrol yet for the Captain
liked to join them whenever he could.
“My rooms seem
empty these days,” Elrond remarked in-between sips. “I grew used to having Âme there.
I wonder how he is doing on his own.”
“We could find
out,” Erestor suggested and tapped a finger against his temple. “Nothing in
Imladris is ever hidden from you. You only need to reach out with your mind.”
“You are not
suggesting I peek on him, Erestor!” Elrond pretended to be offended, but the
thought *did* appeal to him. The more he thought about it, the more eager he
became to have a peek indeed.
“You are a
healer, Elrond. You are only checking on your patient,” Erestor suggested
manipulatively as he smiled.
Elrond shook
his head at his Adviser’s deviousness, but in the end, the Elf-Lord reached out
to check on his charge. His eyes darkened and a pained shadow appeared on his
face. “He feels lonely and is about to panic. I never considered the effect of
being alone could have on him. He is not used to being on his own.”
Erestor picked
up the wine and an extra glass, having seen the distress Elrond had been. “Let
us visit him. We can stay until he is asleep and then leave.”
The Peredhel approved of the idea. “But do we not need a reason
to drop by?”
“I am sure we
can come up with something,” Erestor replied confidently.
~~~
Âme blinked in
surprise when someone knocked on his door. Most of the Elves had turned in for
the night, so who was knocking on his door at this late hour?
“Âme? It is Elrond…and Erestor,” Elrond called
out just loudly enough for Âme to hear but quiet enough to not disturb the
other Elves already asleep in the rooms close to them. “May we come inside?”
“What are you
doing here?” Âme pushed back the covers and made his way over to the doorway.
Opening the door, he stared at the two Elves. He was grateful that they had
decided to visit with him, but why?
“We thought you
might like a night cap,” Erestor explained while raising the wine. “Are you
interested?”
Âme didn’t
normally drink wine, having a dislike of everything that made him feel drugged.
But if drinking wine meant he would have their company, he would drink some.
“Please step inside.” He watched as Erestor started to light the candles and
oil lamps. Elrond busied himself by stirring the fire to a new high before they
made themselves comfortable on the bed. Erestor rested his back against the foot
of the bed and Elrond chose to lean against the head. Âme climbed onto the bed
between the covers.
Elrond poured
some wine and Âme noticed that only a small amount went into the glass the
half-Elf handed him. He smiled happily at having them close. “I’m glad you’re
here.”
“So are we,”
Elrond responded and raised his glass. “Let us toast to your new rooms.”
“And your new
life,” Erestor added before sipping his wine.
Âme continued
to smile and even sipped his wine. He didn’t have to worry about them wanting
to sedate him so they could take advantage of him. He could trust them
unconditionally.
~~~
“He is asleep,”
Erestor whispered conspiratorially. “It did not take him long to fall asleep.” They
had spent a little over an hour in Âme’s rooms and the young man’s eyes had
quickly begun to close. They had continued talking until they had been
completely sure that Âme was sound asleep. “We can leave now.”
Elrond and
Erestor rose from the bed. The half-Elf reached for the covers and tucked them
around Âme’s form. “May your dreams be sweet.”
“May the Valar
guard your sleep,” Erestor added.
The two Elves
then tiptoed over to the doorway and let themselves out before strolling down
the corridor. If staying with Âme was what was needed for the young man to go
to sleep, they would do so.
~~~
That he was
alone again the next morning didn’t surprise Âme. He was simply grateful that
the two Elves had stayed until he had fallen asleep. Though...wasn’t falling
asleep on them awfully rude? He should probably apologize.
He left the bed
and quickly washed up before slipping into the robes he had worn the day prior.
His stomach growled, signaling he needed food, but he ignored it. He walked
through the corridors, staying close to the walls until he managed to find
Elrond and Erestor’s studies again. Shuffling his feet and letting his white
hair fall in front of his face, he inched inside.
Erestor was
seated behind his desk writing while Elrond dictated for him. He hated
interrupting them, but he had to speak. “I’m sorry,” he whispered and peered at
them through his hair. Elrond stopped talking and Erestor put down his quill,
obviously surprised to see him standing there. Âme wished the floor would open
and swallow him.
Elrond walked
over to Âme and smiled encouragingly at the young man. “What are you sorry
for?”
“I interrupted
you just now and last night… I fell asleep on you. That was rude of me.” Âme
didn’t feel comfortable enough to look Elrond in the eye and stared at the
floor instead.
“Âme, we
visited because we thought our presence might help you fall asleep. You did
exactly what we wanted you to do, so do not feel guilty.” Elrond rested a hand
on the young man’s shoulder. Âme stayed in place and didn’t step away, which
encouraged Elrond further. “You can always visit with us, Âme. I was only
dictating a letter...nothing that can not wait.”
“Is there
anything I can do to help? I don’t want you to think I’m lazy.” Âme still felt
guilty in spite of Elrond’s reassurance. “Didn’t you say that you always needed
scribes?” he asked Erestor.
“Can you read
and write, Âme?” Erestor asked, suspecting that he already knew the answer.
“No, I can’t.”
Âme let his head hang further. “I’m of no use to you.”
“Do not be so
hard on yourself.” Elrond gently guided Âme over to a comfortable chair and sat
down opposite him. “If you want to learn how to read and write, we will teach
you. But there is no reason for you to work at the moment. You have so much to
do!”
Âme looked up
at Elrond’s last words. “I have nothing to do…”
“Oh, you are
wrong, my dear friend. You need to adjust. You need to know yourself again and
to build friendships here. You already made a good start befriending
Glorfindel, Erestor, and me, but you need more friends.”
“Do you think
they’ll want me as their friend?” Âme was painfully aware that his past set him
apart from the Elves living there.
“Of
course. They are
interested in who you are, not in what you were, Âme.” Elrond hoped Âme
understood what he was trying to tell him. “Go among them and learn about
them.”
“I’m not sure I
can do that on my own. I like spending time with you, Glorfindel, and Erestor,
but…”
“I shall
introduce you to our head minstrel, Lindir. He is easy to be around and can
introduce you to our musicians. You have a gift, Âme. I saw that when you
danced. You might want to reconnect with that part of yourself. You no longer
need to dance for Baal or to please Baal’s customers. You should find out if
you still want to dance and, if you do not, we will find suitable work for
you.” Âme looked at him thoughtfully and Elrond nodded once. “Take the time to
know yourself again. You really need to do so.”
“Elrond,
Glorfindel, and I will help should you need our support,” Erestor added as he
joined them. “You do not have to do this alone.”
Âme swallowed
nervously. In his heart, he knew they were right. “You’ll introduce me to
Lindir then?”
“Do not worry,
you will like Lindir.”
Âme nodded. He
hoped so.
~~~
“This is
Lindir, my head minstrel,” Elrond said in introduction.
“Good
afternoon,” Âme murmured in greeting since he was unable to come up with
anything else. He peeked shyly at the minstrel. Lindir’s hair was almost as
white as his, but even longer. Âme’s hair didn’t quite reach his buttocks where
Lindir’s glided past his derriere. Bright green eyes looked at him with
curiosity and the full red lips were pouted. “I hope I’m not intruding?” In the
corner a number of musicians had gathered and were rehearsing their songs.
“You are not
intruding at all,” Lindir reassured the timid human. “Zain already told me
about you and I was hoping you would visit with me. Music and dance go well
together, do they not?”
Âme managed a
smile. “I don’t play any instruments though.”
“You do not
need to. You can help us in other ways.” Lindir extended his hand. “Come with
me, I shall introduce you to the others. Your friend Zain will join us later
today.”
The dancer
accepted Lindir’s hand and allowed the minstrel to guide him over to where the
others where seated. He looked at Elrond from over his shoulder, still smiling.
Elrond nodded
slowly, approving the situation. “I will collect you in two hours,” he
announced. Âme no longer heard him though as Lindir introduced him to the other
musicians.
~~~
“Show them!”
Zain elbowed Âme in the side. “Show them!”
Âme grew
flustered. “I don’t think that would be appropriate.” Lindir had expressed
interest in his dancing and had requested a demonstration. Zain had started to
cheer for Âme, urging him on, but Âme didn’t feel comfortable dancing so
provocatively in front of the Elves. The Firstborn struck him as pure and innocent
and he didn’t want to offend them. It was bad enough that Baal had ordered him
to dance that night for Elrond. He felt that he had embarrassed himself greatly
and the Elves were kind enough not to comment on his performance.
Lindir smiled
and tipped his head. “And why do you think dancing is inappropriate?” He liked
the timid young man with the extraordinary looks.
The young man
let his hair fall in front of his face. “From what I’ve seen you don’t like my
sort of dancing.”
Lindir raised
an eyebrow. “Âme, I saw you dance for Elrond that night. I liked the way you
moved and let me assure you that there is nothing inappropriate about it.”
“I don’t know
if I should do this.” Âme stared at the floor and wished Elrond would return
and take him back to his rooms. He hadn’t thought that Lindir would ask him to
dance.
“Do not feel
ashamed,” Lindir responded, correctly interpreting Âme’s expression. “There is
no reason to feel like that. You have a talent and you should use it.”
Âme sighed
deeply. “This goes against my better judgment,” he muttered and pushed himself
to his feet.
Zain rested his
back against the wall and clapped, supplying Âme with a rhythm. Âme sighed
again, but realized that they would pester him until he gave in. So he started
to move slowly. Some of the Elven minstrels eventually picked up their
instruments and started to improvise on the rhythm Zain was setting.
“You should
remove your cloak,” Lindir instructed. “This way we can not see what you are
doing.”
Âme complied
reluctantly, cursing the fact that he had chosen to
dress in black satin pants and a white shirt. Had he chosen to dress in robes,
his movements would have been more concealed. But as he rotated his hips, every
move was clearly visible.
“How do you do
that?” Lindir felt curious and stood as well. Standing next to Âme, he tried to
mimic the young man’s moves.
Âme looked up
and studied Lindir’s movements. “You’re doing it wrong.”
“Then show me
more clearly,” Lindir demanded. From the corner of his eye he caught Erestor
entering the room. The Chief Advisor leaned against the doorway and grinned as
he took in the situation.
Âme didn’t want
to remove his shirt, but it was the only way for him to show Lindir the mistake
he was making. Releasing another deep sigh, he stripped off his shirt and
demonstrated the moves again. Lindir followed his example and removed his
shirt. Âme blushed and quickly looked away. For some reason, seeing a
half-naked Elf made him nervous.
“Did I do it
right this time?” Lindir asked.
Lindir’s
question forced Âme to look at the white-haired minstrel. “Yes, you’re doing it
right.”
“I want to
learn too.” Erestor grinned at Âme’s visible shock. “Let me disrobe first.” He
shrugged off his heavy formal robes and then joined them only wearing thin
black leggings.
Âme cursed
himself for giving into Lindir and Zain. What had he gotten himself into? Erestor
came to a halt next to him and imitated the moves Lindir was doing. Âme
couldn’t help, but admire the way the raven-haired Elf moved. Erestor was a
natural.
“Music! Play some music!” Erestor exclaimed
when the minstrels stopped playing. “We can only dance if we have a rhythm!”
The minstrels resumed playing and Zain applauded, urging them on. Enjoying
himself, Erestor took one of Lindir’s hands and then grabbed hold of Âme’s
right one as well. “Teach us more,” he demanded. Âme had turned crimson and the
blush looked becoming on the young dancer. /You will have no problems finding a
mate when the time is right./ Erestor didn’t think
that Elves and humans were made to be alone. They were at their best when they
had a mate.
Âme gave in
once more, knowing better than to fight them over this.
~~~
Elrond watched
the dancers in awe. He had quickly identified Âme and Lindir by their white
hair, but he was momentarily puzzled as to the identity of the third dancer.
There was really only one Elf with such ebony hair in Imladris, but it couldn’t
be Erestor swaying his hips over there!
Erestor swirled
about and thrust his hip to the left. He hadn’t thought he would enjoy dancing so
much, but Âme’s moves were seductive and elegant as well. A true challenge and
one he intended to master. Feeling a gaze upon his form, Erestor raised his
gaze and looked right at Elrond’s stunned face. “Elrond!
Do you wish to try as well?” Lindir and Âme stopped dancing when they saw
Elrond standing there, but Erestor didn’t notice it and continued on. “It is
rather challenging!”
“You are doing
a fine job though,” Elrond whispered and his eyes widened as he realized that
he had said the words aloud. He wanted to cover his mouth with his hand, but
stopped himself just in time. Erestor’s eyes glittered with mirth and his lips
were curled in a seductive smile. The way he moved his hips was sinful and
something stirred in Elrond’s soul...a need which he had thought dead. /Oh no,
this can not be happening!/ But his body begged to
differ and a part of him grew hard, showing the half-Elf his true desire.
Erestor was
blissfully unaware of Elrond’s sudden revelation. He had grown tired though and
stopped dancing. A fine layer of sweat had formed on his upper body and brow
and his long, raven hair had managed to free itself from the confining braids. “You
should try it yourself some day!”
“Some day,”
Elrond mumbled, trying to keep his reply to a minimum since he didn’t trust his
voice. Why had his body decided to wake up when he was surrounded by members of
his household? He prayed that his arousal didn’t show and was thankful that he
wore such loose-fitting formal robes.
“It is close to
dinner time,” Lindir said after he had redressed. “We should stop for today and
continue this tomorrow.” He had enjoyed dancing with Âme and Erestor and hoped
the young man would teach them again tomorrow.
Âme quickly
picked up his shirt and cloak and got dressed again. At first, when he had
danced with Lindir and Erestor, he had felt nervous, but Erestor’s enthusiasm
had set him at ease and he had forgotten all about his nervousness. But as the
adrenaline rush wore off, he didn’t know how to react to any of them.
“You probably
want to refresh yourself, Âme,” Elrond suggested after having composed himself.
The sudden attraction he had experienced when Erestor had danced had stunned
him. He had never thought of his long-time friend that way before! That he did
so now made him thoughtful. Had he made a mistake in embracing Erestor as a
friend only? Was it possible that they could be more than just friends?
~~~
Was Elrond
really watching him during dinner? Erestor couldn’t be sure yet. He looked at
Âme, who was telling him about the origin of his dance, before he quickly
averted his gaze to see what Elrond was doing. Elrond was indeed staring at
him.
Elrond quickly
looked away, feeling caught. What was he doing staring at Erestor all the time?
Erestor obviously had noticed, so he should stop ogling his friend, but for
some reason he couldn’t. All of a sudden, Erestor looked very tempting and
charming and Elrond was constantly trying to calm his treacherous body. This
couldn’t be happening! Not to him! Not now!
What could
possibly be vexing Elrond? Erestor considered the situation. He didn’t know of
any complications where their trading or treaties were concerned. The only
thing he could come up with was that Elrond was worried about Âme, but the
young man was doing remarkably well. The timidity that had overcome the youth
that afternoon had gone away.
Âme noticed
Erestor was distracted and stopped talking. While Âme’s first reaction to
Erestor's distraction had been that he had done something wrong, he quickly
dismissed that thought when he noticed that Erestor was staring at Elrond, who
was returning that look.
Glorfindel
seated himself next to Âme and noticed the staring as well before smiling at
their preoccupation. It was something he might bring up later once they were in
the privacy of Elrond’s rooms...or…maybe not. It might be interesting to see
the two dark-haired Elves try to figure things out. Glorfindel of course
already knew what it was all about. He had always hoped Elrond would look at
Erestor with different eyes one day.
~~~
After dinner,
Âme joined Lindir at the Elf's request. Apparently a fair number of the Elves
wished to learn how to dance and Âme didn’t have the heart to disappoint them. While
he was with Lindir, Elrond, Erestor, and Glorfindel retreated to Elrond’s
private rooms to enjoy a glass of wine.
Elrond was
cautious and seated himself as far away as possible from Erestor. He didn’t
want to be caught staring again. Glorfindel poured some wine and offered him a
glass which he readily accepted. Hopefully the wine would have a calming effect
on him.
“I heard you were
busy today,” Glorfindel pointedly addressed Erestor as he seated himself close
to the Advisor. Sipping his wine, he eyed Elrond’s reaction closely. The
half-Elf seemed to be on edge and clearly ill at ease.
Glorfindel’s
remark surprised Erestor, who didn’t know how to interpret the comment. “In what way?” He had discarded Elrond’s stares in an effort
to ignore his friend’s puzzling behavior. Instead, he focused his attention on
the Captain.
“You learned
how to dance!” Glorfindel grinned smugly. “Care to give a demonstration of your
new talents?”
“Oh,
no.” Erestor shook
his head decisively. “But Lindir wants to convince Âme to give dance lessons.
Maybe you can join one?” Erestor smiled sweetly. “I do not believe I ever saw
you dance, Glorfindel.”
“I have no
sense of rhythm, Erestor. Trust me you do not want to see me dance.” Glorfindel
was trying to think of a way to address Elrond’s staring without causing any
major embarrassment to his friend. In the end, he ploughed through, saying,
Turning toward Elrond, he said, “Did you see Erestor dance, Elrond? Did he
entice you? Is that the reason why you can not stop staring at him now?”
Glorfindel knew he was being direct, maybe too direct, but he wasn’t a diplomat.
He was merely a warrior.
Elrond stared
at Glorfindel in mortification. Had Glorfindel really exposed him just now? Erestor
knew he had to come to Elrond’s rescue or his friend might not be able to look
him in the eye again. “At least Elrond has taste, Glorfindel.”
Glorfindel
inclined his head. /Touché,/ he thought. It pleased
him that Erestor had come to Elrond’s aid. “You must have had quite an impact
on our dear friend.”
“I do not swing
my hips for just anyone, Glorfindel.” Erestor smiled and winked at Elrond.
Elrond released
the breath he had involuntarily been holding. /Thank you,/
he thought, but he was careful not to touch Erestor’s mind. His friend might
notice other emotions besides gratitude as well. “I am honored that you would
swing them for me.” Since the awkward moment had passed, Elrond felt a bit more
comfortable and participated in their verbal banter.
TBC
Part 5
Glorfindel left
early that evening and hoped that his departure didn’t attract any suspicion.
After Elrond had relaxed, the half-Elf had bantered with them. But Glorfindel
couldn’t shake the feeling that his friend was still on guard.
“May the Valar
guard your sleep tonight,” he said in parting for the night. “We will see each
other again at breakfast.” With that, he closed the door behind him, leaving
Elrond and Erestor alone.
Once Glorfindel
had left, Elrond started to feel fidgety again. Being alone with Erestor was
something he had tried to avoid all evening. “Âme is doing better, do you not
agree?” Maybe steering their conversation to a safe subject would save him.
Erestor tipped
his head. “He is adjusting, but I doubt he has fully realized how much his life
has changed.” He took pity on his friend and allowed the distraction. “The real
problems will start when he takes a lover for the first time. We can not forget
that he was forced to have intercourse in a drugged state.”
“I talked to
him about that,” Elrond replied, relieved that Erestor was allowing him a way
out. “He said that some slaves had been much worse off and that he had been the
lucky one. But you are right, Erestor. We will face problems when he finds he
is attracted to someone.”
“But that
probably will not happen for quite a while.” Erestor rose from his chair. He
judged it best to leave, because if he stayed, he might bring up Elrond’s
obvious attraction to him. “I will retire now. Today’s events tired me.”
Elrond didn’t
want Erestor to leave yet, but he also knew it was for the best. He might end
up staring at his friend otherwise. He rose from the chair and escorted Erestor
toward the doorway. Erestor glanced at him thoughtfully, which cut into his
heart, so he stammered, “I liked seeing you dance. Glorfindel was right about
that.”
Erestor figured
it was a start and smiled warmly at Elrond. “I did not think I would enjoy it
that much.”
Elrond shuffled
his feet nervously. “I never saw you like that before. So…free
and uninhibited.”
Erestor’s
breath caught. Elrond was doing his best to open up to him, which hadn’t
happened for quite a while. After Celebrían had sailed, the half-Elf had locked
away his heart. Erestor had always thought Elrond had thrown away the key, but
maybe he could unlock the Elf-Lord’s heart if he was careful and went slow. “I
do not often have a chance to feel like that. We are always busy and there is
little time to relax.” He was offering Elrond an opening and was curious if the
half-Elf would take it.
“Maybe you
would enjoy a game of chess then in the evening? Perhaps after having had
dinner with me?” Elrond thought himself mad to suggest
something that private, for normally they would include Glorfindel during such
activities.
“I like that
idea,” Erestor answered and nodded. “Why do we not do so tomorrow evening?”
Elrond smiled uncertainly.
“I will arrange for it.”
“Good…” Erestor
pushed down the door handle, smiling contentedly. Just before leaving Elrond’s
rooms, he turned and said, “I will check on Âme tonight to make sure he falls
asleep easily.” Elrond had a dazed look on his face and Erestor’s smile
deepened. “I wish you sweet dreams, my friend.”
Elrond
swallowed hard and managed to stutter, “May the Valar…guard your dreams…as
well.”
Still smiling,
Erestor exited the room and hummed contentedly as he made his way to Âme’s rooms.
~~~
Âme had enjoyed
spending time with the minstrels and they had even convinced him to dance
again. To his surprise, he had realized that he loved being able to dance
again, especially once the Elves had joined in and tried to dance as well. He had
done his best not to laugh at their awkward efforts. Now he was on his way back
to his rooms in Lindir’s company.
“Thank you for
teaching us that roll,” Lindir commented. Âme was a good teacher and knew how
to correct them without making them feel like they were lacking. “I suppose
they will want another lesson tomorrow.”
“I am not a
teacher,” Âme responded, feeling overwhelmed. “Why do they want to learn how to
dance like that anyway?”
“Two reasons
mostly,” Lindir replied. “It is something new and
exciting and they like spending time with you.”
Lindir's reply
flattered Âme as they reached his rooms. “But the 'why'
escapes me. Why they like to spend time with me, I mean.”
Lindir caressed
a strand of Âme’s hair with his hand, noting that the hair was even lighter
than his. “Do not think so little of yourself, Âme. It does not become you.”
“I hate my
eyes,” Âme suddenly blurted out. He hadn’t wanted to admit that, but it just
needed a way out. “And I know I am not as pure as you. You are all so perfect
and I…”
“We are not
perfect, even though we might seem like that to you.” Lindir slipped a finger
beneath Âme’s chin and lifted the young man’s head. “Your eyes make you quite
unique. Take pride in that. You are handsome, you know.” Lindir giggled when
Âme grew more nervous. “I am sure you will find someone who will tell you so
frequently. It is a pity that there are so few humans in Imladris.” To his
surprise, Âme turned his head away.
“I don’t want
for someone to like me that way and I doubt anyone ever will.” Âme stared at
the floor and his hand reached for the door handle.
Lindir drew in
a deep breath. He knew what had happened to Âme when he had been Baal’s slave.
Most of the Imladris Elves did, but that didn’t lessen Âme’s worth in their
eyes. It was a different matter for Âme himself though. “When the time comes
you will find love and know that you are deserving of it. Do not think
otherwise.” He brushed the hair away from Âme’s brow and then leaned in closer.
Âme’s breath
caught when Lindir’s lips brushed his forehead in a chaste kiss. He had never
believed an Elf would do something like that...not where he was concerned. He
pulled away, feeling confused.
The minstrel
smiled and patted Âme’s hair. “I am almost three thousand years old, Âme. Trust
me when I say that I see your inner beauty. Do not question your worth.”
The dancer
swallowed hard at learning Lindir’s age. “Are you really that old?”
Lindir
chuckled. “Yes, I am. Does that convince you that I am wise? Do you believe me
now?”
Âme nodded
slowly. “I’ll try, though it’s hard.”
The Elf wrapped
his arms around the young man and hugged him loosely. “Try your best, Âme. You
are worth it.” After that, he released Âme and returned to the other minstrels.
Âme stood there
stunned for another minute before entering his rooms. He closed the door behind
him and rested his back against it since his breathing was a little sped up.
The exchange just then had been rather intense, causing Âme to think.
He changed into
a comfortable nightshirt and then sat cross-legged on the fur in front of the
fireplace. It hadn’t registered with him until that moment that someone kept
the fire going when he wasn’t there as well as tidied up. He rested his elbows
on his knees and supported his chin while gazing into the flames. He wondered
how the Elves perceived him and his looks. To Baal, he had been something
unique and to be used to make more profit. Âme’s looks had served the slave
trader well.
But would they
serve him now as well? He hated the way he looked, but realized that he
couldn’t change much. He couldn’t change the color of his hair, the pallor of
his skin, or his irises. He had been born this way.
Lindir’s words
had given him much to think about. The mere fact that the minstrel thought that
he would one day encounter someone who would like him in a special way confused
him. He had never had a lover. Zain had been the only friend that he had ever
had and the older man had been like a father figure to him. What would it be
like to have a lover?
“Âme? Are you in there?”
Erestor’s voice
interrupted his musings, but he didn’t look away from the fire. “Yes, I’m in.
You can come inside.” He had figured out by then why someone always checked on
him during the evening. They were making sure he slept peacefully and he loved
them for being so considerate. That night, it was apparently Erestor who would
sit with him until he was asleep.
The Advisor entered
the room and approached the fireplace. “You look melancholy,” he commented as
he opted to sit cross-legged on the floor as well instead of sitting down on
one of the comfortable chairs.
“I was
thinking. Lindir said something that confuses me.” Âme had no reason to lie to
the dark-haired Elf. Feeling Erestor’s curious eyes upon him, he added, “He
said that I would find someone who loved me one day. I don’t believe that.”
“And why is
that?” Erestor arranged his robes around him as he watched the youth pensively.
He hadn’t thought that they would breach this particular subject so quickly. “Because of your past perhaps?”
Âme nodded once
and then looked Erestor in the eye. “I’m not stupid. I know that no one will
want me after what happened to me.”
The Advisor
shook his head firmly. “What happened to you was not your fault. Baal forced
you...do not forget that.”
“But once he
finds out…” Âme shivered.
“You like males
then?” Erestor stored that information away.
“I never looked
at girls and all my experiences were with men.”
“Be careful
now, Âme. Your past experiences do not resemble a normal relationship between
two males. They took advantage of you. A loving relationship is quite different
from that.”
“I don’t think
I’ll ever find out the difference,” Âme murmured sadly. “Even if someone would
want me, I could not let him soil himself by being with me.”
“Hopefully you
will change your views in time.” Erestor smiled in understanding at Âme. “Now
tell me about your day. Did Lindir invite you to return again tomorrow?”
Erestor didn’t want to push Âme too far too quickly on that topic, so he
changed their subject.
“Yes, he did.
He explained to me why they want me to teach them, but…” The dancer still had a
hard time accepting the things Lindir had told him and distracted himself by
saying, “You’re talented, Erestor. You’d make an excellent dancer.”
Erestor smiled.
“I have little time to indulge in things like that. There are always letters to
write, negotiations to lead, treaties to be signed…”
“Excuses,” Âme
whispered. “You like to dance. I saw it.”
“You are right
of course,” Erestor admitted. “Would it please you if I joined your class
tomorrow?”
“I’m not giving
classes! I’m not a teacher!”
“My dear Âme,
you have just been promoted, do you not realize that? And make no mistake...Lindir
can be quite persistent if he wants to. If he wants you to give classes, you
will end up giving them.”
Âme wanted to
be annoyed, but couldn’t pull it off. He felt pleased instead. “I didn’t think
fitting in would be this easy.”
/It is easy
because we are making every effort to make you feel welcome and at home,/ Erestor thought and it was good that way. After
everything the young man had been through, he needed a home and friends.
~~~
Glorfindel
happened upon Erestor in the kitchen long after
Erestor smiled
gratefully at Glorfindel and ate some of the apple pie with his fingers. “Do
you want some too? I am in a mellow mood and willing to share.”
“I will take
advantage of that then.” Glorfindel cut away a small piece of the apple pie and
indulged himself. “Is Âme asleep?”
“I stayed with
him until he was fast asleep. He is starting to question himself. Everything is
catching up with him and he believes himself unworthy of any attention he is
getting. Lindir offering him his friendship confuses him.”
“It is a good
thing that he has friends to guide him through it.” Glorfindel gave a blinding
smile when the Advisor pushed his hot milk toward him and he sipped contentedly.
“Are you going to tell me the real reason why you can not sleep?”
Erestor shot
Glorfindel a long, hard look and realized that the blond Elf probably already
knew what was troubling him. Glorfindel’s remark in Elrond’s rooms earlier that
evening had been head-on. “You know that this is about Elrond, do you not?”
Glorfindel
nodded. “I figured that out. However, I do not understand why this is a
problem.”
“It is a
problem because…Elrond has not thought of taking a lover since Celebrían sailed
West. I never thought I stood a chance.”
“Until
now?” Glorfindel
risked his fingers and stole another crumb of apple pie. Erestor didn’t swat
his fingers...he *was* in a mellow mood indeed. “He was staring at you all
evening. Seeing you dance might have opened his eyes, my friend.”
Erestor sipped
his hot milk and shrugged. “We both know how much he loved Celebrían. Do you
really think that there is room left in his heart to love again?”
“You will not
know for sure until you have tried.” Glorfindel cupped Erestor’s cheek in the
palm of his hand and brushed the soft skin. “You waited a long time for him to
notice you. You do not have that much to lose. Even if you try and it does not
work out, you will not lose his friendship. Elrond is not like that. You can
always count him.”
The dark-haired
Elf considered everything Glorfindel had said. “I am afraid to try. Does that
make me a coward?”
Glorfindel
caressed Erestor’s face and shook his head. “You rely on your mind, Erestor.
You reason, calculate, deduce, and predict. The thing that scares you is that
you do not know the outcome of this situation. Elrond on the other hand is just
plain scared that he desires you. He thought that he had lost the ability to do
so.”
“You know me
well,” Erestor murmured while smiling weakly. “And I believe you are right
about Elrond too. I have loved him for a while now.”
“I know that. I
am not blind…although I must admit that you hid your feelings well.”
Erestor
gracefully accepted the compliment. “I managed to fool Elrond, did I not?”
Elrond sighed
from the shadows. Yes, Erestor had fooled him indeed. He had never thought that
his Advisor had feelings for him. He had decided to head for the kitchen in
search of tea and something had told him to keep hidden when he had heard
Glorfindel and Erestor talking. Now he was grateful that he had listened to
that inner voice for he might never have learned about Erestor’s feelings for
him.
A wave of
exultation went through him that one thing he didn’t have to worry about was
that Erestor might reject him. Now he faced the problem of properly courting
Erestor. How was he going to accomplish that? It had been centuries since he
had even considered courting an Elf!
Elrond turned
away and returned to his rooms. He had a lot to think about.
~~~
Erestor worked
quietly during the morning. Elrond seemed pre-occupied and he didn’t want to
disturb the half-Elf. He wondered if Elrond remembered that they were supposed
to have dinner together and then play a game of chess. The half-Elf hadn’t
mentioned it again.
He was so lost
in thought that he didn’t notice when Elrond walked up to his desk and pulled
up a chair until the Elf-Lord was sitting opposite him. “Erestor?”
Hearing
Elrond’s voice all of sudden, Erestor stilled his writing. He didn’t want to
make any mistakes, so he placed his quill down. “Yes?” While he was startled to
find Elrond so close all of sudden, he managed to conceal his surprise.
“Did I ever
tell you how much it means to me that you always supported me? When Celebrían
was attacked, you helped me take care of her. And then later, after she had
sailed, you continued to support me. I do not know if I would have managed
without you.”
Was it just his
imagination or were Elrond’s eyes swimming? Erestor reached out and placed a
hand on the half-Elf’s arm. “That is what friends are for, Elrond. They support
each other and are there for the other.”
Elrond placed
his hand on top of Erestor’s in turn and enjoyed the contact. “I might have
taken you for granted, Erestor.”
“No, do not
worry about that. I know you care about me.” Erestor wrapped his fingers around
Elrond’s. “And I care about you,” he added boldly.
Elrond actually
blushed. “It has been a while since I did this.”
“You are doing
everything right, so do not worry.” Erestor squeezed Elrond’s hand.
“I *have* taken
you for granted,” Elrond whispered, but that would change.
~~~
That afternoon,
Âme agreed to teach those who wanted to learn more dance moves. His class consisted
of ten Elves, Lindir and Erestor among them. Their presence set him at ease and
the longer he danced, the more joy he found in teaching them. Before he knew
it, their time was up and everyone had to return to their duties, including
Erestor.
Âme regretted
seeing Erestor leave, but he also knew that he had to make more friends and
this was the perfect opportunity. Ever since he had talked with Lindir, he had
accepted the fact that these Elves wanted to get to know him and he was going
to do his best to make as many new friends as possible.
~~~
Elrond studied
his appearance in the mirror and, once he was pleased with the way he looked,
he started to pace the living area. Erestor was about to arrive at any moment
and Elrond was growing nervous. This was ridiculous! Erestor was his oldest
friend and he knew the other Elf well. There was no reason to be nervous,
especially since he knew that Erestor liked him!
He still didn’t
understand why he had never thought of Erestor romantically. He thanked Âme for
reminding him that Erestor was more than *just* a friend and Advisor. Erestor
was a handsome Elf as well.
“Elrond? I hope you do not mind that I let
myself in. I knocked, but you did not answer.” Erestor smiled at the distant
and confused look in Elrond’s gray eyes. He hadn’t thought that the half-Elf
would be so nervous about their ‘date’. Apparently he had been wrong.
“Oh, I must
have been lost in thought. Of course I do not mind. Please sit down.” Elrond
privately berated himself for being so lost in thought that he hadn’t heard
Erestor knock. “I hope the dishes are to your liking.”
“Elrond, if we
are going to make this work, you can not be afraid to speak of your feelings.
There is no need to…hide…behind formality.” Erestor
seated himself opposite Elrond and eyed the other Elf closely. Elrond seemed
ready to panic and bolt from the room. “You like me and I like you. Is that
knowledge not enough to put your worries to rest?”
“I can not help
myself.” Elrond replied.
“Try to relax,”
Erestor advised. “It will become easier once you calm down.” He leaned in
closer and added wickedly, “If you calm down I might even dance for you.”
Elrond laughed and relaxed, just as Erestor had hoped it would. “Âme is an
excellent teacher.”
“We have been
locked up in our duties lately. We should make the time to relax as well.”
Elrond put some food onto his plate and started to nibble on it to distract
himself. It was easy for Erestor to say that they should discuss their
feelings, but he wasn’t ready to do that yet.
Erestor didn’t
pressure Elrond and merely enjoyed having dinner. He kept their conversation
going and, whenever Elrond grew nervous, poured wine into their glasses. Once
they were done eating, they picked up their glasses and moved to the fireplace,
where they sat down on some comfortable chairs. Elrond uncovered the chess
board and they situated their pieces before the half-Elf made the first move
and smiled contentedly.
“You really
liked seeing me dance, did you not?” Erestor remarked to start their conversation
again. He moved his piece and tried to anticipate Elrond’s reaction.
Since Elrond
was distracted by the game, he answered more easily. “I did not think of you as
an Elf I could desire until I saw you dance. I merely thought of you as my
friend and Advisor.”
Erestor
chuckled. “I should have swung my hips earlier then.”
Elrond blushed
and looked up from the board. “I do not really know how to handle this,
Erestor. This attraction has taken me by surprise.”
“You do not
have to ‘handle’ it, Elrond. Just allow for it to happen.”
Erestor’s words
put Elrond at ease and he smiled gratefully. He would try to do just that.
~~~
“I enjoyed
spending time with you,” Elrond said as he escorted Erestor to the door. He
suddenly remembered Âme. “We forgot…”
Erestor quickly
shook his head. “Glorfindel looked after him. Âme is fine.”
Relieved,
Elrond calmed down again. “Thank you for thinking of that for me.”
“That is what I
am there for.” Erestor took the first step again and wrapped his arms around Elrond,
who froze upon contact. “Please accept this,” he whispered and hugged Elrond
close. Elrond’s reaction showed that it was still too early for a kiss, so he
settled for hugging the half-Elf instead.
Feeling
Erestor’s arms around him was a strange experience for Elrond, but once he became
used to being held, he savored it. “I will see you in the morning. We still
need to finish that letter which we started this afternoon.”
“I will be
there,” Erestor replied and smiled at Elrond. He regretted letting go, but he
had to take things slow. Elrond freezing upon contact had showed him that.
“Sleep tight, Elrond.” He stepped into the corridor and made for his rooms,
which were located at the end of the corridor.
Elrond watched him for another few seconds before closing the door again,
sighing happily and congratulating himself that everything had gone well.
~~~
The next
morning, Glorfindel received the puzzling news that a group of the Rohirrim was
approaching the borders. He decided to check on it, mounted Asfaloth, and
guided a division of guards toward the border.
~~~
Eómer steered
his stallion to the left. Although the lands were at peace and there was no
real reason to ride out in his leather armor, he had chosen to do so
nonetheless. The long hair that was attached to his helmet flowed behind him as
he reached forward in concern. “It won’t be long now,” he told Haleth.
The young man
looked up with tired eyes. Buried deeply in his warm cloak, he managed a weak
nod. “I can manage.”
But Eómer
wasn’t fooled. Haleth looked drained and he knew the young man was in pain. “We
should rest.”
But Haleth
shook his head and his shoulder length blond hair moved about his face. “I’m
not that tired.” It was a lie though. He was hurting and wanted nothing more
than to rest.
Eómer had
offered to build a litter so Haleth would be more comfortable, but the young
man had refused. /He’s still so young, only sixteen years old, but at the same
time, he shows such courage and strength./ He was
proud of his adopted son. “You can rest once we are in Imladris. Elrond will
look after your wound and you’ll finally heal.”
Haleth nodded
weakly. He didn’t share Eómer’s optimism, but didn’t want to show it.
TBC
Part 6
Glorfindel and
his patrol reached the party from Rohan in the afternoon. The blond Captain
raised his hand in greeting and reined in Asfaloth to a halt. “Hail, Eómer
King.” He had been introduced to the young king during Arwen’s wedding and they
had become friends. “You are always welcome in Imladris. Please allow me to
escort you to the Last Homely House.” He would dispatch a messenger in a bit
once he knew why Eómer had come to Imladris.
“Greetings,
Lord Glorfindel. I hope I’m not causing you any problems by visiting you
unannounced.” Eómer quickly steadied Haleth when the young man swayed in the
saddle.
Glorfindel
quickly caught on. “You have a wounded man among you. Elrond will tend to him.”
“Thank you.
Haleth is the reason why I’m seeking out Lord Elrond. He’s a renowned healer
and I was hoping he could help my son.”
Glorfindel
raised an eyebrow. “Your son?” He hoped Eómer wouldn’t
find being questioned offensive.
“I adopted him
after the war was over. He’s Háma’s son and Háma was one of my uncle’s trusted Captains.”
Eómer acted quickly when Haleth threatened to lose his hold and exchanged his
stallion for Haleth’s mare as he slid into place behind his charge.
“Then we ought
to hurry.” Glorfindel gestured for one of the guards to approach and sent him
ahead to Imladris to inform Elrond of the approaching party and Haleth’s needs.
Once the messenger had left, Glorfindel steered Asfaloth closer to Haleth’s
mare. “I wish we could travel at a higher pace, but it seems to me that your
son’s injuries will worsen if we ride hard.”
“Your
assessment is correct,” Eómer replied. “This wound has been plaguing him for a
year now. At first, I thought our healers could heal him, but the wound refuses
to close.”
“A
year?” The battle at
Helm’s Deep had taken place a year ago. Glorfindel eyed the boy closely. Haleth
seemed a child to him, but he knew humans aged differently.
“He helped defend
the Keep. Unfortunately he was injured. An Uruk-hai had cut into his shoulder
and had left him to die.” Haleth had been found when they had been collecting
their dead. “How long will it take us to reach Lord Elrond?”
“Two hours at
the least, if we continue this pace.” Glorfindel cast a glance at Haleth and
found that the boy’s eyes had closed. “Did he faint?”
“I’m afraid
so.” Eómer gritted his teeth. “He should never have needed to fight at Helm’s
Deep. He’s too young.”
“Helm’s Deep
was a massacre,” Glorfindel readily agreed, feeling for Eómer because of the
losses the young King had suffered. His gaze shifted from Haleth to Eómer as he
studied the man.
Eómer was still
young enough to be considered too immature to rule, but Estel had been adamant
and had installed his friend as King of Rohan. There had been demands to
install Faramir and Eówyn instead, since the two had married and had more
chance of producing offspring. Glorfindel had also heard rumors that Eómer
would have welcomed such a decision since the young King felt he lacked the
necessary experience to rule. Estel had quickly dismissed Eómer’s worries,
stating that he lacked experience as well and that they would both learn
together. After that, Eómer had had no way out and had accepted the rule of
Rohan.
It was true
that Eómer was a young and inexperienced King, but the news that had reached
Imladris from Rohan had proven that Eómer was a good King and that his people
loved him. His dedication towards his adopted son impressed Glorfindel and he
hoped Elrond would be able help the boy.
Haleth regained
consciousness during their journey to the Last Homely House, but didn’t open
his eyes. That would only alert Eómer, who would want to halt so he could rest.
Haleth hated being such a burden to the man he loved more than anyone else on
Middle-Earth. Eómer had saved him.
Aragorn had
impressed him during the battle for Helm’s Deep, but the hero had moved on,
whereas Eómer had stayed and had made him part of his family. That was enough
for Haleth to worship the ground Eómer walked on.
Eómer had given
him a reason to go on with his life. When he had lain wounded in the Houses of
Healing, he had been ready to give up. He had lost his mother at a young age
and then he had lost his father as well. What other reason had he had to
continue living? He had been wounded, miserable, and in a lot of pain. He had
wanted to die, but then Eómer had visited with him. Háma, Gamling, and Eómer had
been brothers in arms and the new King had wanted to check on him. Once Eómer
had realized that Haleth had no one left, he had taken the boy under his wing.
The wound,
which had been inflicted upon him by the Uruk’s
poisoned blade, refused to heal and he was in constant pain. He would never get
used to it, but he had learned to live with it. Eómer’s love and dedication
made it possible for the young man to continue on.
“He is awake,”
Glorfindel whispered, alerting Eómer to the changed situation.
/You shouldn’t
have told him,/ Haleth thought, feeling tired.
“Haleth? Do you
want to rest? Or do you want to drink some water? It’s been a while since you
drank last.” Eómer couldn’t help being concerned. Haleth was young, but also
brave to endure such pain all the time.
“I’m fine,”
Haleth whispered again. He had lost track of the times he’d had to assure Eómer
that he was coping. Although moving would increase the pain in his shoulder, he
pressed tighter against Eómer, enjoying the warmth and feeling of Eómer’s arms
around him.
Glorfindel
averted his gaze when Eómer started to whisper soothingly, giving them some
privacy. Children were precious to the Firstborn. They were the greatest gift
the Valar could bestow on them and to care for one was an honor and a duty
which each Elf took very seriously. That Eómer had taken on that duty impressed
Glorfindel as did the tender way with which the warrior cared for the injured
boy. He could only hope that Elrond knew of a cure for the Uruk’s
poison.
~~~
Âme was in
Elrond’s study when the messenger reached the Elf-Lord. Erestor was behind his
desk in the adjourning room writing letters while Elrond had been pacing and
every so often peeking at his Advisor. Âme had smiled, having figured out what
had happened between the two dark-haired Elves.
Upon receiving
the grave news, Elrond took charge and sent Erestor to the healers to inform
them to prepare a room for Haleth. Once the Advisor had gone, Elrond turned to
Âme. “Follow me. I might need you.”
How Elrond
could need him escaped Âme, but he followed the Elf-Lord anyway. Once they
entered the courtyard, he was reminded of how the Haradhrim had camped there
only weeks ago. He had still been a slave then...a prisoner. He gathered his
robes closer around him and felt grateful that he had chosen to wear heavy,
deep grey velvet robes. For some reason most of his clothes in the closet were either white, grey, or blue. Maybe Elrond thought those
colors suited him best? He wasn’t questioning the decision since he had never had
so many clothes to choose from.
“We will take
Haleth to the healing wing,” Elrond told Âme. “I have to examine him and I want
you to assist me.”
“But I have no
experience in caring for the wounded,” Âme pointed out to the healer.
“You will have
some before the day ends.” Elrond searched the horizon, but didn’t see them
yet. “If I remember correctly Haleth is about your age. That boy fought in the
battle of Helm’s Deep and was wounded.” Estel had
pointed the boy out to him when he had stayed at Minas Tirith. Haleth had been
in Eómer’s company back then and had looked exhausted. He hadn’t paid the boy
much attention though since his daughter was about to be married to Estel.
“He fought at
Helm’s Deep?” Âme had never heard of such a place even though he had traveled
about a lot.
Elrond cast a
look at his protégé. “Remind me when this is over that Erestor needs to set you
up with lessons. You need an understanding of basic history and to learn how to
read and write.”
Âme looked at
Elrond, puzzled. “Do I really need such skills?”
“Of course you
do! Every Elfling learns them.”
“I’m no
Elfling,” Âme said, smiling awkwardly.
“No, you are
not, but you will be treated the same way our children are and that means you will
receive lessons.” Elrond turned as he heard something. At the horizon the party
from Rohan had appeared. “Now pay attention. You are going to learn how to
treat someone who is injured.”
Âme’s smile
brightened. Elrond saw so much more in him than Baal ever had and he felt
grateful for encountering the Elf-Lord and gaining his friendship. Truth be
told, he was beginning to look upon Elrond as a father.
~~~
“Are you
awake?” Eómer asked his charge when they entered the courtyard. “We have
arrived, Haleth. We reached Lord Elrond.” Eómer felt flattered when he realized
that Elrond was already waiting for them. He’d had little dealings in the past
with Elves save for Legolas and, though they had been off to a bad start, they
had become friends in the end. The Elves impressed Eómer, who saw them as
something more…something better than man, but he had never voiced that aloud,
believing it would cause bad blood.
“I’m awake,”
Haleth replied softly. He forced his eyes open and took in his surroundings.
“Looks nice,” he whispered in a drained voice. “Do you think they also have a
bed for me?”
“Of course we
do!” Elrond had overheard Haleth’s comment and felt the moment had come to become
involved. “We have already prepared a room in the healing wing for you.” Elrond
made eye contact with his newest patient and smiled at the boy. “I am Elrond
and I will take care of you.”
Haleth leaned
heavily against Eómer. His head lolled from right to left in an attempt to nod.
He wanted to speak, but his strength had finally deserted him as his eyes
closed in surrender as he fainted.
“Hand him to
me,” Elrond requested as he raised his arms to collect Haleth in them. The look
Eómer gave him showed that the young King didn’t want to part from his charge,
but Eómer couldn’t dismount and hold Haleth at the same time. He wrapped his
arms tightly around Haleth and lowered him into Elrond’s waiting ones. Elrond
moved, which enabled Eómer to see the white-haired boy standing behind the
half-Elf who he instantly recognized.
Âme recognized
Eómer as well and flinched. He tried to hide behind Elrond, but the half-Elf
was moving to take Haleth to the healing wing. He considered running back to
his rooms, but then Elrond suddenly addressed him. “Âme,
put your cloak over Haleth’s form. I do not want him to grow cold without
Eómer’s body warmth.” Elrond turned toward the young man and frowned at the
startled look in the pale eyes. “Now Âme,” he said, hoping to jolt the boy from
whatever shock he was in.
The dancer
reacted eventually and removed his cloak. He tucked it around Haleth’s sleeping
form and considered fleeing once more, but then Elrond ordered, “Follow me, Âme
and stay close. I might need your help. Glorfindel, will you show Eómer to the
guest rooms?”
“Forgive me my
Lord Elrond, but I intend to stay close to Haleth.” Eómer removed his helmet
and his wild blond mane tumbled past his shoulders. “I don’t wish to be parted
from him at this point. He doesn’t know this place and, when he wakes up, he
might panic.”
Elrond nodded.
“Come quickly then. I want him out of the cold and in the warmth.” He started
toward the doorway. “Âme, open that door for me.”
Âme did his
best not to look at Eómer, but felt the older man’s eyes upon him, making him
feel uncomfortable. He should have known that his past would catch up with him,
so he had better face reality.
Eómer followed
Elrond and kept a close eye on the sleeping Haleth. At the same time though, he
wondered what the white-haired slave boy was doing in Imladris.
~~~
Elrond placed
Haleth onto the bed before focusing on Âme. “Tell the healers to send in warm
water.” He wanted to examine the wound before he decided on a course of action.
“Return to me then,” he added in afterthought since Âme looked nervous though
the reason for that edginess escaped him.
Eómer took up
position at the head of the bed and brushed Haleth’s hair away from the boy’s
face. “He has been in constant pain for a year now. Our healers can’t help him
and I didn’t know what to do except to come here and ask for your help.”
“You left
Rohan, Eómer. Your land is without her King,” Elrond remarked as he unbuttoned
Haleth’s shirt to expose the injury.
“Faramir and
Eówyn are perfectly capable of looking after the land. I had to come
here.” Eómer pulled up the chair from
out of the corner and sat down before resuming his tender stroking of Haleth’s
hair. “He’s much too young to be burdened by such a grave injury.”
Elrond’s
features contorted when he realized how deep the Uruk’s
poison had spread. It’d had a year to find a way into the young man’s body. “There
is no instant cure for this,” he told Eómer.
“But can he be
healed? I want the pain gone.” Eómer looked beseechingly at the healer.
Elrond smiled
reassuringly. “It will take time, but he will heal. He is still young and
strong and that will help him recover.”
Âme entered the
room with the hot water Elrond had requested and placed the bowl on the
nightstand next to the bed. If Elrond hadn’t explicitly told him to return he
would have left. Avoiding eye contact with Eómer, he remained standing close to
Glorfindel.
“We need to
remove the shirt.” Elrond slowly pulled Haleth into a sitting position while
Eómer quickly sat down on the bed so Haleth could rest against him. The two of
them removed the shirt and then lowered the boy back onto the bed. “I need to
clean the wound first. Glorfindel, you know which healing herbs I require to
draw the poison from the body. Fetch them.” Elrond immersed a wash cloth in the
water and removed the grime from Haleth’s chest area. “You should have sent for
me, Eómer King. I would have traveled to Rohan to look after him.”
Eómer bowed his
head, feeling like he had failed Haleth. “The thought had entered my mind, but
I didn’t want to impose.”
“You did what
you thought was right,” Elrond offered. “Âme, I need some warm blankets once I
am done. Ask the healers to give you some.” Âme was glad to be able to leave
and hurried out of the room.
“That boy… I
know him,” Eómer said, wondering if Elrond knew the truth about the slave.
Elrond looked
up from cleaning the wound. “Did Baal’s Haradhrim party visit Rohan as well?”
Eómer nodded.
“You know then who he is.” Elrond nodded and Eómer continued. “He danced for us
that night and I must say he moves well.”
The half-Elf
sat down on the side of the bed and waited for Glorfindel to bring him the
herbs he needed. “Did Baal offer Âme to you as well?”
The Man nodded
again. “He did. That poor boy was so drugged that he couldn’t stand unaided. I
refused, of course.”
“Of course,”
Elrond agreed thoughtfully. “We chased Baal and his jailors off. Âme and the
other slaves opted to stay in Imladris. I have taken the boy under my wing.” Glorfindel
returned and handed him the herbs. “Haleth needs more than
this.” He squeezed the juices from the plants and smeared the substance
across the injured area before placing his right hand on Haleth’s chest and
closed his eyes. Focusing his energy, he forced a minute fraction of it into
the young man’s body. Haleth yelped and Eómer immediately stroked the boy’s
brow in an attempt to soothe him. “Now we must be patient.” Elrond opened his
eyes again and sought out Âme, who stood near the doorway. “Come over here.”
This time, Âme
kept a close eye on Eómer as he approached the bed. He wasn’t sure the King
would allow him close to Haleth and prepared to either flee the room or be
backhanded.
“Cover him with
the blankets,” Elrond instructed when Âme stood frozen at the side of the bed.
“We want him to keep warm.” He noticed the way Âme stared at Eómer and a glance
at the Man showed that Eómer was watching Âme in turn. Hands shaking when he
tucked the blanket around Haleth’s form, Âme quickly stepped away from the bed
once he was done.
“Haleth is in
the best hands,” Elrond informed Eómer. “My healers will look after him and I
promise you that at least one person will sit with Haleth at all times. That
means you can rest for a while.”
Glorfindel
stepped forward. “May I show you your rooms now?” Eómer looked tired now that
Haleth was being taken care off. The King had to feel like a giant burden had
been lifted from his shoulders.
Eómer nodded.
He needed to sleep, Elrond was right about that. He had constantly cared for
Haleth since they had left Rohan. “Thank you for your hospitality. I’ll follow
you, Lord Glorfindel.” He rose from the bed and tiredly brushed some wild curls
away from his face.
“Glorfindel
will do. There is no need for formality between us.” Glorfindel gestured for
Eómer to follow him.
Nodding
gratefully, Eómer focused on
Elrond. “Who will sit with him for the next few hours?”
“I will look
after him,” Elrond said, knowing that fact would reassure Eómer. “Âme will keep
me company.”
Âme startled
and glanced at Elrond in shock. Why?
Elrond chose to
ignore Âme’s nervousness however and gestured for the young man to sit on the
chair which Eómer had vacated. “I will teach you how to care for Haleth.” Âme
lacked the courage to defy Elrond and sat down, all the while feeling Eómer’s
eyes upon him. Elrond handed him the wet wash cloth and told him to place it
upon Haleth’s brow, which he did. Âme stared at Haleth so he didn’t have to
look at Eómer.
Eómer drew in a
deep breath while telling himself that Haleth was safe
with Elrond and then followed Glorfindel out of the room.
~~~
“He doesn’t
want me to look after his son.” Âme muttered before peeking at Elrond. “And I
understand why.”
“Ah, so you
recognized him too.” Elrond checked Haleth’s temperature with a hand against
the young man’s cheek. Haleth only had a very mild fever. Since Haleth was
taken care of, Elrond focused on his protégé instead. “Why do you think Eómer does
not want you close to Haleth?”
“I had almost
forgotten what I am,” Âme replied shame-faced. “But now that I’ve seen him, I
remember. I remember Baal forcing me to dance for him and afterwards… Baal fed
me drugs and I expected to wake up again in the King’s bed. But instead, I woke
up in the cart. Baal never told me what happened.”
“Eómer told me
he refused you. Baal probably took you back to the cart after Eómer had said
no.” Elrond tipped his head and searched Âme’s eyes. “What do you think you
are?” he asked, feeling intrigued.
Âme shrugged. “A slave…a whore...a dancer at best.” He wanted to turn away
from Elrond, but the half-Elf unexpectedly reached for him and turned his head
toward him again. “It’s the truth, Elrond. I know what I am. I know what I did
when I was alone with those men.”
Elrond shook
his head vehemently. “Baal drugged you, Âme. You did not have a choice when he
left you behind with those men. They took advantage of you. You are no longer a
slave and you never were a whore, Âme. You are a dancer, yes, but foremost, you
are a very bright young man who needs to come to terms with what Baal did to
you.”
Elrond’s firm
tone took Âme aback. “It’s not that easy,” he whispered, feeling lost.
“I know it is not
easy and I do not expect you to recover overnight, but Âme, you need to
understand that you had no choice. Baal forced you to do those things.”
Âme nodded
slowly. “You’re right. I’d never have gone to their beds willingly.” He looked
pleadingly at Elrond. “But what about Eómer?”
“I do not
believe you need to fear him, as you obviously do.” Elrond brushed Âme’s cheek
with his thumb. “Will you stay with Haleth tonight? I need to discuss matters
with Erestor.” He immediately noticed the growing panic in Âme’s eyes and
soothed him. “My healers are next door. If you need anything, or Haleth wakes
up unexpectedly, call them. They will aid you.”
“Elrond, I
can’t stay with him! I’m not…” Âme swallowed nervously. “I’m not fit to stay
with him.”
“Nonsense,” Elrond
retorted decisively. “You are perfectly capable of looking after him. You need
to gain confidence in your own abilities. This is a good place to start.” He
leaned in closer and looked Âme in the eye. “You can do this. Call for help if
you need assistance.”
There was
little Âme could do except let Elrond leave and guard Haleth’s sleep.
~~~
“I trust these
rooms are satisfactory?” Glorfindel escorted Eómer to the guest rooms which had
been assigned to the young King.
“They are most
splendid.” Eómer took in the luxury that surrounded him. The rooms at the
Hornburg were luxurious as well, but they didn’t compare to the beauty of Elven
architecture. “I’m grateful that Lord Elrond is willing to help Haleth.”
“If you do not
drop the titles, I will be forced to address you as sire, Sire.” Glorfindel
chuckled and Eómer quickly caught on, laughing as well. “Please rest for a
while. Food will be delivered to your rooms shortly and if you wish to visit
your son, just ask one of the guards in the corridor to take you there.”
“Thank you,”
Eómer replied and inclined his head in gratitude.
“I will collect
you in the morning and take you to the Hall of Fire where we break our fast.”
Glorfindel moved to the doorway. “You will find clothes in the closet. They
should fit you. Erestor usually has a very sharp eye for measurements.”
Glorfindel had informed the Seneschal of Eómer’s arrival and, after Erestor had
cast a look at the young King, he had set about preparing rooms for him.
Glorfindel
closed the door behind him and hoped Eómer would be able to rest.
~~~
Eómer didn’t
bother to undress and just walked over to the bed, letting himself
fall backward until his back met with the comfort of the mattress. He sighed
deeply as he turned onto his right side and curled up. He was asleep within the
minute.
~~~
Elrond felt
puzzled. He had checked both of their studies and Erestor had not been there.
Then he had checked the Hall of Fire and his Advisor had not been there. In the
end, he went to his rooms to rest and have some tea to
strengthen him. He opened the door to his rooms and was surprised to find the
oil lamps and candles already lit. Tea stood waiting for him on the table and
he frowned, wondering who had arranged for this.
“Ah, there you
are. I was about to seek you out!” Erestor had been staring out of the window
and turned around to greet Elrond properly. “I thought you might like to talk
to me.”
The Peredhel
blinked. When had Erestor moved into his rooms? The ease and grace with which
the Advisor moved showed how much at home Erestor felt there. “I was searching
for you too,” he managed after a long pause. “I did not expect to find you
here.”
Erestor merely
chuckled. “You still need to become used to our changing relationship, do you
not?”
Elrond nodded, his mouth suddenly dry as he allowed Erestor to
guide him over to the couch. Erestor asked him to sit down and he complied. A
moment later, his fingers were wrapped around a steaming hot cup of tea, which
was just what he needed. “You have fewer problems accepting this.”
Erestor seated
himself next to Elrond. “I wanted this for many years and I am going to enjoy
every moment of it.” Elrond offered him a shy smile in turn. “Tell me about the
party from Rohan.”
Elrond felt
relieved when Erestor changed their subject. “Eómer brought his adopted son,
Haleth. Apparently the boy was injured during the battle for Helm’s Deep and
has been in pain ever since. I supplied Haleth’s body with an antidote and gave
him healing. It should take Haleth two or three weeks, but the pain will go
away and he will recover. I am surprised however that Eómer would leave his
lands to seek healing for Haleth.”
Erestor smiled.
“Eómer is a lot like Estel. Do you
remember the times when Estel was still a child and brought you injured animals?
Eómer’s heart is that of a King, even when he does not have the self-confidence
to match it. He is a warrior, Elrond, and fiercely loyal to his people.”
“Rohan is in
the best hands then.” Elrond enjoyed his tea and Erestor’s presence as well
after he had calmed down. “I am a bit tired,” he admitted after a bit. Giving
of his healing power always drained him.
“Do you want me
to leave?” Erestor asked, willing to give Elrond his privacy should the
half-Elf wish for it.
“No, please
stay.” Elrond quickly placed a restricting hand on Erestor’s wrist.
“Do not worry.
I had no intention of leaving.” Erestor curled his fingers around Elrond’s
hand. “Why do you not rest for a while? You need to sleep a bit.”
“Will you
stay?” The thought of not having to go to sleep alone warmed Elrond’s heart.
“I will stay,
but maybe you would like to lie down? Sleeping upright can not be restful.”
Elrond looked
at the bed and then at Erestor. He wasn’t comfortable with inviting Erestor
into his bed yet. “Maybe we can make ourselves comfortable on the couch?”
Erestor
understood. Elrond had shared his bed with Celebrían and to invite him into it
meant the end of an era. He could give Elrond the time the half-Elf so
obviously needed. “Why do you not lie down and rest your head in my lap?”
Elrond liked
that idea a lot, but it also meant being closer to Erestor. He wanted to become
closer to him, but at the same time, he feared the intimacy. “Why am I afraid?”
he asked, opting for the truth.
“Because you
have not done this in centuries and I am not Celebrían. This is new to you.”
Erestor
mentioning Celebrían made Elrond’s heart ache, but he recovered quickly and
sighed. “You are right. I do not know how to act around you. It has been
millennia since I courted someone.”
“Lie down,
Elrond and do not worry that much.” Erestor smoothed the folds of his formal
robes and cupped the back of Elrond’s head as the half-Elf lay down, resting
his head in his lap.
Looking up,
Elrond wondered about the peculiar sight that greeted him. Erestor was smiling
at him and the dark eyes blazed with affection. “You hid your feelings for me
very well.”
“I had no
choice. I did not want to chase you off.” Erestor stroked Elrond’s hair and
leaned in closer to brush his lips over the half-Elf’s brow. “Try to sleep.”
“What about you?
Do you not wish to rest?” Elrond was already growing drowsy.
Erestor shook
his head. “No, Elrond. I am not going to sleep. I am going to savor every
moment of this.” His words brought a smile to Elrond’s lips and the half-Elf
fell asleep like that – smiling happily.
TBC
Part 7
Haleth woke from
being thirsty. The fever was drawing the liquids from his body and he was
desperate for some water. The next thing he noticed was someone humming softly.
Opening his eyes, he looked about and saw a white-haired young man seated close
to the bed. The eyes were only half open and he seemed to be fighting sleep. “Wa…ter…” he whispered, hoping that
the young man would hear him. The eyes opened at once and he stared into the
lightest eyes he had ever seen. Only a hint of blue touched the iris.
Startled, Âme
realized that his charge had woken up while he had been dozing off. What had
Elrond been thinking asking him to sit with Haleth? “I’m not sure you’re
allowed to drink. I’ll ask one of the healers what to do. I’ll be right back.” He
jumped off of his chair and ran into the next room, where he explained Haleth’s
request to a she-Elf. She handed him a tray with a pot of lukewarm tea and told
him to make sure Haleth sipped some.
Âme returned to
Haleth’s side and placed the tray on the nightstand. “You can have this,” he
said and poured some tea into a cup. “Can you hold this?” he asked while
handing Haleth the cup.
“I don’t think
so…” The white-haired boy was seated at his injured side and moving about
pained Haleth.
“I’ll help
you.” Âme placed the cup aside again and assisted Haleth into a more upright
position with another pillow beneath the blond head. “Will this work?”
“We’ll find
out.” Haleth, whose fever was still very mild, took in the boy’s face, noticing
once more the light-blue eyes and the white eyebrows. “Who are you?”
“My name’s Âme.
Elrond asked me to sit with you.” Âme slipped a hand beneath Haleth’s neck and
supported the young man as he sipped. “Are you still in pain?”
“The pain has
lessened. Did you do something?” Haleth wondered if Âme was an Elf too.
Âme shook his
head. “Elrond gave you healing and he smeared some paste onto your chest.”
“Are you an
Elf?” Haleth asked curiously.
“No, I’m not.”
Âme smiled weakly. “I’m not that beautiful. They’re all striking…”
Haleth thought
Âme looked striking too, but was too tired to voice his opinion. With Âme’s
help, he sipped some more tea. “Do you live here?”
Âme frowned. “I
think you can phrase it like that. They offered me a home and I took it.”
“You actually
live here? Do you know any Elves personally?” The tea worked and momentarily
gave him strength.
“I know Elrond
rather well...I think,” Âme answered hesitantly. “And then there are Erestor
and Glorfindel…and Lindir as well.”
“I’m envious,”
Haleth said, smiling. His eyelids however were drooping again. “I’m going to
sleep some more…”
Âme nodded.
“You should. Elrond thinks it’ll help you heal.” Âme placed the cup onto the
tray and leaned in closer to study Haleth in detail. The long, blond hair
needed washing as did the face, which still bore the dirt of the road, but Âme
thought he saw kindness in the brown eyes, which were closing once more.
“Will you…still
be here…when I wake up…again?” Haleth asked before surrendering to fatigue.
“I’ll try to be
here.” The dancer didn’t know Elrond’s plans for him and much depended on when
Haleth would wake next.
“Good…I
like…you…” Haleth finally succumbed to his fatigue and was fast asleep again.
Âme smiled
warmly. “I think I like you too.”
~~~
Eómer woke at
the first rays in the morning. At first, he didn’t know where he was, but then
he remembered that they had finally arrived in Imladris. For a while, he had
despaired because they hadn’t been able to find the path that led to the
valley. Only when they had met Glorfindel had he been convinced that they were
on the right way.
He sat upright
and drew in a deep, steadying breath. He had slept deep and undisturbed through
the night, which was quite unusual. Eómer hadn’t slept well for the last year
since he had been constantly worrying about his lands, his people, and his
adopted son.
Taking in a
swift sniff, he realized that he stank. He hadn’t bathed for days and was
desperate for a bath. He got to his feet and explored his suite a bit,
delighted to find a bath tub in the next room. He crouched down next to the tub
and looked at the strange taps angled into the tub. Curious, he started to
manipulate them and almost jumped back when hot water started to stream into the
tub. A grin broke out on his face and he quickly stripped off his dirty clothes
and stepped into the water. He had just seated himself when an Elf unexpectedly
stepped into the bathroom and Eómer quickly tried to cover himself up.
“You must not
have heard me knock,” Melpomaen commented as he smiled in amusement. “Lord
Glorfindel asked me to escort you to the Hall of Fire, but it looks like we
will be a tad late. That is not a problem though,” he added at Eómer’s guilty look.
“You are entitled to a hot bath after the journey you made. I will wait in the
living room.” Melpomaen coughed and then pointed at the delicate glass flagons that
were on the windowsill next of the tub. “You might want to use those to clean
yourself up.”
“Don’t you have
soap?” Eómer asked when he found his voice again.
“It is better
than soap. Trust me.” With that, Melpomaen turned and left the man to the
pleasures of his bath.
Eómer reached
for the flagon that stood nearest and uncapped it. An oily substance flowed
into the palm of his hand and changed into foam the moment it came into contact
with the water. Chuckling, Eómer moved the foam about and then immersed himself
in the water, wetting his hair. He spent the next few minutes cleaning up and
washing his hair as a sweet flowery fragrance filled the bathroom. Eómer shook
his head. He would smell like a bed of roses once he was through cleaning up.
“Please excuse
me for intruding again, but I thought you might like to dress in clean
clothes.” Melpomaen draped the clothes he had selected for Eómer over a nearby
chair and gathered the dirty ones. “I will have these cleaned.” He glanced at
the Man and blinked in surprise. Eómer had cleaned up well. “Take your time.
There is no hurry.”
“I thought you
said we were late,” Eómer inquired while waiting to get out of the tub until
Melpomaen had left again.
“They will
wait. After all, you are a guest here.” Melpomaen turned and left the bathroom once
more.
Eómer rinsed
his hair, squeezed the excess water from it, and rose from the tub, hoping that
Melpomaen wasn’t going to pay him another visit. He took hold of a towel and
dried his skin before walking over to the chair and examining the clothes
Melpomaen had brought him. The brown leggings and white shirt would do,
although he liked his Rohirrim outfit better. He dressed quickly and stepped
into his boots again. Shivering, he searched for his cloak, but realized
Melpomaen had taken that with him as well. Eventually he stepped into the
living area.
Melpomaen rose
from the chair he had been seated on and saw Eómer shiver. Elves didn’t feel
the cold and he had forgotten that other races did. “It is cold in the
corridors. Let me fetch you a cloak.”
Eómer waited
and gratefully accepted the cloak Melpomaen handed him. It was beige, lined
with fur. It was a cloak fit for a King. The only problem was that he didn’t
feel like one. “Can I see Haleth after we eat?”
“But of
course,” Melpomaen replied as he stepped into the corridor, followed closely by
Eómer. “But you should eat first.”
The King of
Rohan followed Melpomaen to the Hall of Fire, which was relatively empty when
they finally arrived. He saw Elrond and Glorfindel, who were seated at the main
table and thought he also recognized the dark-haired Elf seated to Elrond’s
right. Erestor...that was the Elf’s name! Elrond had been in Glorfindel and
Erestor’s company when the Elf-Lord had dwelt in Minas Tirith. “I apologize for
being late,” Eómer said while inclining his head in greeting. Melpomaen had
suddenly vanished from view and Eómer stood alone in front of their table.
“It is of no
consequence,” Elrond answered and gestured for Eómer to seat himself next to
Glorfindel. “Please eat and, once you have had enough, we will check on Haleth.
He had an uneventful night and slept soundly.” Eómer sat down and a servant
placed a plate in front of him filled with bread, cheese, dried meats, and
fruits. “Eat,” Elrond ordered and waved his hand invitingly.
Eómer
practically attacked the food. They’d had little to eat on the last part of
their journey and he was ravenous. Elrond, Erestor, and Glorfindel had waited
for their guest to join them, so they started eating too.
“I want to
thank you for your hospitality,” Eómer said once he had finished. “It’s more
than I had hoped for.”
Elrond inclined
his head. “It is our custom.” He glanced at Erestor and regretted having to
leave his newly realized love, but Erestor had to attend to their formal duties
since Elrond was tied up escorting Eómer and caring for Haleth. “We will meet
later.”
“I will wait
for you in your rooms,” Erestor replied as he rose from his chair. He smiled at
Eómer and Glorfindel before heading for his study.
“I need to
leave too,” Glorfindel announced. “I need to oversee today’s training.”
Glorfindel was about to leave, but then turned to face Eómer. “Maybe you would
like to join me later? I could show you about Imladris and we have some fine
horses in Imladris which might interest you.”
Eómer felt
flattered that Glorfindel would include him. “I’ll join you after I have visited
with Haleth.”
“I will take
you to the training grounds,” Elrond offered.
Glorfindel
turned and left the Hall of Fire, which was Elrond’s cue to rise as well. “We
shall visit with Haleth then.” Eómer eagerly got to his feet and they headed
toward the healing wing. “Was your sleep restful?” Elrond inquired.
“It was. It has
been a while since I slept through the night.” Eómer took in the beautifully
carved details on the banister of the stairway which they were climbing. “I
feel inferior when I walk these halls.”
Elrond eyed
Eómer closely. The man’s heart was on his tongue and his emotions were visible
in his hazel eyes. This man hid nothing. “You have not grown accustomed to
being a King then?”
“I am not a King…”
Eómer shrugged. “Théodred was supposed to succeed Théoden. I never thought both
would die and that I’d inherit the throne. I’m a warrior, my Lord...a soldier.
I’m not fit to rule a kingdom.”
“My name is
Elrond and I believe you worry too much. Your people love you and you have the
heart of a King. Everything will work out just fine.”
“I don’t think
so,” Eómer admitted. “I make mistakes.”
“We all do,
Eómer. That does not mean we are not suited for our duties.” They reached the
healing wing and Elrond opened the door. A she-Elf approached and told them
that Haleth had woken a few minutes ago and was alert enough to have visitors.
“Did he drink something yet?” Elrond inquired.
The she-Elf
nodded. “Âme helped him drink some tea.” She opened the door and then stepped
aside to let Elrond and Eómer pass.
“You let the
boy sit with him?” Eómer frowned.
“Give Âme a
chance. He was forced into a role in the past and only now does he have the
chance to be himself.” Elrond smiled when he saw Âme seated close to the bed.
The youth’s eyes had closed as he dozed.
“He’s asleep when
he’s supposed to be watching Haleth,” Eómer remarked in displeasure.
Haleth looked
up at Eómer’s voice and watched them enter. “He was awake all night,” he explained
when Eómer’s displeasure registered with him. “He deserves a nap.”
Their voices
woke Âme, who instantly grew guilty as he realized that he had been sleeping.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered and bowed his head.
“Do not feel
guilty,” Elrond replied as he reached Haleth’s bed. “You were awake all night
and it is only normal for you to be tired.” Elrond glanced at Eómer, daring the
man to contradict him. Eómer sighed, but didn’t say anything.
Elrond’s words
however did little to raise Âme’s spirits. In order to make up for his
conceived mistake, he quickly updated the healer. “Haleth drank some tea during
the night and says the pain has lessened.” He wanted to get up, but Elrond
raised his hand for him to remain where he was.
“Is that true,
Haleth? Did the pain lessen?” Elrond lifted the blankets and checked on the
wound, which looked less angry that day. Eómer stood behind him and gasped as
he saw the improvement. “He will be confined to bed for at least a week, but he
will steadily improve.” Suddenly Eómer grabbed his hands and squeezed, his gratitude
showed in his eyes when Elrond looked into them. “He will recover. Your son
will no longer be in pain by the end of the week. He will however remain weak
for another one.”
“I’ll sit with
him during that time.” Eómer smiled at Haleth, who smiled back.
Elrond had
other plans however. “That will not be necessary. Âme and the healers will look
after him. You should use this time to distract yourself. You have gone through
a hard time as well. You could join Glorfindel and spar with him. Become
familiar with the horses and ride out.”
Eómer wanted to
protest, but Haleth raised his good hand and rested it on the King’s wrist. “He’s
right. You looked after me this past year. You need to do other things as
well.”
“But…” Eómer
wasn’t giving in yet. He didn’t like the fact that Elrond had entrusted Haleth
to Âme. The young man had been asleep when he had entered and didn’t seem
trustworthy to him.
“Eómer, please…
The Elf-Lord is right. You need to recharge too. Let me rest and recover. I’m
in good hands.” Haleth glanced at Âme warmly. He liked having someone close to
his own age about.
Eómer backed
off since Elrond *and* Haleth were working against him. “I’ll join Glorfindel
then, but send for me if you need me.” He leaned in closer and pressed a
parental kiss onto Haleth’s brow, which didn’t feel hot for a change. “I mean
it. Send for me.”
“I will…Now
go.” Haleth playfully pushed Eómer away from him. “Go, join Glorfindel and see
if they have any decent horses.”
The King of
Rohan managed a smile and walked toward the doorway. From out of nowhere
Melpomaen reappeared. “Would you like me to take you to the training grounds?”
Eómer blinked
in surprise. “Did you follow me?”
Melpomaen
chuckled. “Maybe.”
“Yes, please
take Eómer to the training grounds. I would like another moment with Haleth,”
Elrond instructed. Eómer gave in and followed Melpomaen out of the room. “He is
very stubborn,” Elrond remarked, hoping to start a conversation with Haleth.
“You have no
idea.” Haleth smiled shyly at Elrond. “I’ve forgotten your name, I’m afraid.”
He hadn’t been very lucid when they had arrived in Imladris.
“It is Elrond.”
He sat down on the edge of the bed and reached for the fresh herbs lying on the
nightstand. “I need to refresh this.” He removed the dried up paste with a wash
cloth and then smeared the juices from the herbs onto the shoulder injury. “He
cares a lot about you.”
Haleth’s
expression darkened. “He also feels guilty that so many children and elders died
at Helm’s Deep. He believes that if he had stayed
closer, we wouldn’t have had to fight. He’d have arrived in time to prevent the
worst. I don’t agree.”
“Eómer has a
kind heart and blames himself when there was nothing he could do.” Elrond
reached for a piece of cloth and pressed it onto the wound. Haleth yelped
softly, but more out of surprise than pain and Elrond knew that. “You need to
stay in bed for at least one week, maybe even two. Can you do that?” Haleth
gave him a puzzled look and Elrond explained. “My sons never managed to stay in
bed for long. I often caught them sneaking out of the room even though I had
confined them to bed.”
Âme perked up.
“You have children? I didn’t know that.”
“My children
are at Minas Tirith for the time being. My daughter was married last year and
my sons decided to stay and help Estel rebuild Minas Tirith.” Âme looked at
him, dumbfounded, which proved that the young man had no idea what he was
talking about. Haleth frowned and was able to piece some things together, but
the real important fact that Elrond was Elessar’s
father in law also escaped Haleth. “It is of no importance.”
“I’ll stay in
bed,” Haleth promised. Suddenly his stomach growled and his eyes widened. “I
must be hungry.”
“I will fetch
some food,” Elrond responded and rose from the bed. Before he left the room
however, he addressed Âme. “There is a comfortable couch over there. You should
sleep some after you eat.”
“Am I not
supposed to watch Haleth then?”
“Even you need
sleep.” Elrond patted Âme’s hair on his way out and left, leaving the two
youngsters alone once more.
“I’m sorry for
falling asleep on you.” Âme glanced at Haleth in apology.
“You were
tired. You stayed up all night.” Haleth didn’t see the problem. “Lord Elrond is
right. You should listen to him and sleep after you eat something.”
Elrond returned,
balancing two trays. He placed one on Âme’s lap and the other on the
nightstand. “Can you eat unaided?” He didn’t want Haleth to feel handicapped
when the boy didn’t have to.
Haleth however
was realistic. “I might need help. My left side still hurts a bit.”
Âme had already
moved forward to assist, but Elrond moved faster. “Stay there and eat,” Elrond ordered.
He helped Haleth acquire a more comfortable position before replacing the tray
on his lap. “Try to eat with your right hand.”
Haleth managed
quite well single-handed and ate a fair amount, but all the while he kept
watching Âme. Elrond noticed that and smiled. He had hoped the two young men
would hit it off. Âme finished eating and, after a sharp look from Elrond, lay
down on the couch in the corner. He curled up on his side, but in a way that he
could still keep an eye on Haleth. “Go to sleep, Âme. I need you refreshed for
this evening.” Reluctantly Âme closed his eyes. Elrond waited until Âme was
sound asleep and then smiled at Haleth. “I thought you might like to have
someone of your own age about.”
“You were
right.” Elrond offered to help him lie down again, but Haleth was comfortable
reclining into the pillows and wanted to stay that way. “How old is he?”
“Seventeen, I
believe.” Elrond indulged himself in a cup of tea since Âme hadn’t touched his,
opting instead for spring water. “How old are you, Haleth?”
“Sixteen.”
Haleth’s answer
pleased Elrond. “You are quite evenly matched then.” He hoped they would become
friends.
~~~
Glorfindel beckoned
for Eómer to approach. Since they had reached their destination, Melpomaen
excused himself and returned to the house. As Eómer advanced on Glorfindel, a
feverish gleam of anticipation appeared in his eyes. He watched the Captain
take down one of the guards by running into him. Apparently Elves took their
training rather seriously.
“I am glad you
managed to join us!” Glorfindel was still experiencing the rush his last
sparring match had caused as he patted Eómer on his shoulder. “How does Haleth
fare?” He remembered just in time to inquire about Eómer’s adopted son. He had
wanted to invite Eómer to a wrestling match first.
“He has already
improved. Lord…uhm, Elrond’s treatment’s working.” Eómer
still had to get used to not using any titles. “You have them working out
hard.”
“As
they should!”
Glorfindel called out at a soldier, who was letting his guard down. “I need to
keep them sharp.”
“Even
when Imladris is no longer in any danger?” Eómer joined Glorfindel in watching the guards
work out.
“There is
always danger. There are still Orcs roaming about and I want them sharp should
we encounter some.” Painful memories featuring Celebrían’s fate assaulted
Glorfindel momentarily. “We will never lose a fight again.”
Eómer sensed
that something had upset Glorfindel, but didn’t address the matter. “I’m out of
shape,” he admitted. “It has been a while since I sparred last.”
“You had a good
reason to forego any training. You had Haleth to take care of.” Glorfindel
smiled. “I will go easy on you.”
The King of
Rohan swallowed hard when Glorfindel removed his shirt and his impressive
physique was revealed. He would have a hard time keeping his own against the
experienced warrior.
~~~
Eómer knew he didn’t
stand a chance against the blond Elf when he almost immediately ended up on his
back with Glorfindel straddling his waist. Glorfindel caught his wrists and
kept them in place above his head. “This wasn’t much of a contest, was it?”
Eómer questioned, feeling rather embarrassed at being defeated so quickly.
“You do not
have to admit defeat yet. You are merely out of practice.” Glorfindel flashed
his sparring partner a blinding smile. He released Eómer’s wrists and rested
his hands on his thighs. “Show me what you can do.”
Eómer accepted
the challenge and raised his arms. He brought them up along Glorfindel’s back,
grabbed hold of him, and flung him onto his back. At the same time, he hooked
one leg around Glorfindel’s making sure the blond Elf couldn’t flip him again.
“Well done!”
Glorfindel smiled approvingly. It didn’t matter that he had moved along with
the move instead of fighting Eómer. He could tell that the Man was badly out of
shape, but he wasn’t going to take it out on him. After all, Eómer had spent
many nights guarding Haleth’s sleep. “But watch this!” Glorfindel wrestled
free, wrapped his arms around Eómer’s waist, and then they were rolling
downhill. “Hold on!” Glorfindel cursed privately, having forgotten that they
were on a slope. He pulled Eómer close and tried to protect the startled Rohirrim
as much as he could.
They ended up
at the bottom of the slope with Glorfindel once more blanketing Eómer. He was
about to apologize for his oversight, but then the Man burst out laughing. The
Elf took in Eómer’s exultant expression before joining in. Glorfindel rolled
off of Eómer and continued to chuckle. Seeing Eómer laugh so freely warmed his
soul, especially when he recalled how haunted the Man’s gaze had been when he
had arrived in Imladris. “I hope the guards are not going to follow our
example,” Glorfindel commented while still chuckling.
Said guards
stood at the top of the hill however and were laughing as well.
“I doubt we
impressed them.” Eómer got to his feet and offered him his hand while still
laughing. Glorfindel accepted and stood before placing a hand on Eómer’s
shoulder and falling into step beside him as they made their way uphill. /You
needed that,/ Glorfindel thought. /And I am glad I
could offer your pent up emotions a way out./
~~~
“Can I leave
you alone or do you want to call in a healer?” Elrond had been speaking to
Haleth for over an hour while Âme slept, but his duties called and he had to
join Erestor.
“I’ll be fine.”
Haleth wasn’t in much pain and was resting comfortably. “I’ll just watch Âme
until he wakes up.”
“His appearance
is quite fascinating, is it not?” Elrond collected the trays and headed for the
doorway.
Haleth nodded
thoughtfully. “I never before saw someone whose skin is so pale or whose hair is
so white… Even his eyebrows are white. Do you think it is an illness?”
“No, he was
born that way.” Elrond watched them a moment longer before adding, “I expect
Eómer will check on you again sometime this afternoon. Try to endure his
concern. He means well.”
Haleth smiled
brightly. “I love him for it.”
Elrond turned
and exited the room, giving Haleth the time and space to watch Âme sleep.
~~~
When Eómer
returned from the training grounds, he was in a far better mood, which resulted
in no displeasure on his part when he found Âme asleep on the couch. Haleth however
was awake and alert as he smiled in greeting. “I can’t believe how fast you’re
healing!” Eómer pulled up a chair and sat down.
“Lord Elrond
obviously knows what he’s doing. You look different,” Haleth observed. “Less gloomy.”
“I wrestled
Glorfindel and I think I lost.” The smile returned to Eómer’s face.
“You think?”
“Well, we ended
up rolling downhill. The hill was the true victor and defeated us both.”
Haleth giggled,
but then stilled as it caused the ache in his shoulder to intensify. “You don’t
have to check on me all the time. I’m in good hands.”
Eómer snorted.
“Your keeper’s asleep. Do you call that being looked after?”
“Don’t be so
hard on him,” Haleth retorted in Âme’s defense. “He stayed awake all night and
helped me when I was thirsty.” He suddenly realized that Eómer didn’t like Âme
and wondered why.
Eómer recalled
Elrond’s request that he give Âme a second chance and decided to let the matter
rest. “Shouldn’t you try to sleep?”
“I’m not
tired.” He also enjoyed watching Âme, but didn’t tell Eómer that since he
wasn’t sure how the older man would receive that news.
~~~
“I already
finished today’s letters with Melpomaen’s help. You only need to add your
signature and seal.” Erestor placed the letters in front of Elrond on the desk.
“You did well.”
Elrond quickly signed and sealed them before placing them aside so the
messenger could pick them up later and deliver them. To his surprise, Erestor
sat down on the desk and studied him. Erestor had never seated himself on the
desk before!
“I suppose we
must make an appearance in the Hall of Fire tonight?” Erestor asked.
“We should.
Eómer is our guest and it would not do to let him dine on his own.”
“Such
a pity. I had hoped
on some privacy this evening.” Erestor gazed at Elrond meaningfully.
Elrond grew
flustered. “You are shameless.”
Erestor
laughed. “For wanting some time alone with you?” He
slipped a hand into Elrond’s thick hair and massaged the back of Elrond’s neck.
He was going as slowly as he could, but he still had the feeling that he was
moving too fast for the half-Elf. “What is keeping you back?” he asked, wanting
to know what was on Elrond’s mind. “I thought you desired me?”
The Peredhel
felt awkward having to explain and it didn’t help that Erestor was leaning in
closer. “It took me ten years to court Celebrían and another ten to ask her to
marry me or have you forgotten that?”
“I do not mind
moving slowly, but not that slowly!” Erestor’s lips were only an inch away from
Elrond’s and he wondered if the half-Elf would jump up and run if he kissed
him. “In that case, it might be best if I set the pace, yes?”
Elrond felt
caught and stared into Erestor’s dark eyes. “As you wish…”
“Good. Now that
we have established that I am in charge...I say we kiss. Are you agreeable to that?”
The Elf-Lord
nodded, not trusting his voice to obey him. Suddenly soft lips pressed against
his and Erestor’s scent invaded his nostrils. His body stirred and he grew
hard. “Erestor…” he mumbled. He raised his arms and buried his fingers in
Erestor’s raven hair. Erestor in turn hummed contentedly for this was the
reaction he had been hoping for. They would arrive there eventually.
TBC
Part 8
Âme woke
sometime in the late afternoon. He had slept soundly and still felt a bit dazed
as he finally opened his eyes. Haleth was looking at him and the young man’s
lips curled upward in a smile. “Did I sleep long?”
“Only
a few hours. You
needed it.” Haleth enjoyed having company once more. “A healer brought
something to eat and tea. It should still be hot.” With his good hand, he
pointed Âme in the right direction. “Can you pour me some too?” The healer had told
him that the tea had healing qualities and that he should drink some regularly.
Âme pushed
himself to his feet and swayed momentarily. Normally he didn’t sleep that deep
and he still felt affected by it. He made his way over to the nightstand and
poured them tea, then handed Haleth his cup, which the other young man curled
his fingers around it.
Unable to
contain his curiosity much longer, Haleth asked, “Why are you so pale?”
The dancer
flinched and hid his face behind his hair. “It has always been like that. I was
born that way.”
Frowning,
Haleth realized that Âme felt ashamed of his appearance, but why? “It makes you
stand out.”
That had been
the reason why Baal had refused to let him go and had forced him to dance while
drugging him so men could bed him. “I don’t want to look like this, but I don’t
have a choice, do I?” He sounded bitter.
Haleth sensed
that he didn’t have all of the information that he needed to understand Âme’s
reaction and didn’t pressure him. “Aren’t you hungry? Eat something.” The
healer had brought enough for them both.
“Did you
already eat?” Âme eyed the tray hungrily.
“Yes, I did. Go
ahead.” Haleth gestured for Âme to start eating. The other young man made his
way over to the tray and picked up a plate laden with bread and cheese and Haleth
found that he enjoyed watching Âme eat as well. “You’re seventeen, aren’t you?”
Âme nodded. “I
think so.” He couldn’t be sure. Baal had only gauged his age. He could very
well be a year younger or older.
“You think so?”
Haleth frowned. Speaking with Âme made him forget about the dull ache in his
shoulder.
“I don’t know
when I was born.” Âme stopped talking as he realized that he was about to
confide in Haleth. He felt scared however and backed down. “My parents died
when I was young. I hardly remember them.”
“My parents are
dead too.” Haleth’s mood grew gloomy. “I don’t remember my mother and my father
died a little over a year ago. He died during an attack.”
“I’m sorry to
hear that. He must have been a brave man.” Âme hated the distraught expression
in Haleth’s eyes and tried to comfort him.
“He was a
warrior – one of Théoden’s Captains.” Haleth still felt proud of his father.
Théoden had
been King in Rohan before Eómer. Âme had deduced that from everything he had
heard lately. “And then this new King adopted you?”
“I was very
lucky that Eómer was interested in me. I needed someone like him in my life. I
still do. Do you have someone like that?”
Âme considered
the question in depth. “That would probably be Elrond. He has helped me a lot.”
Haleth’s smile
contained a touch of sadness when he looked at Âme next. “We have much in
common then.”
/Yes,/ Âme thought. They had some things in common, but their
lives couldn’t have been more different. He wasn’t going to burden Haleth with
his history though. Instead, he was going to focus on helping him recover.
~~~
Eómer made a
stop to his rooms to freshen up and change into a clean outfit since the
clothes he was wearing carried traces of their wrestling bout. To his delight,
he found his own clothes in the closet cleaned and happily slipped into them.
He expected Melpomaen to show up and wasn’t surprised when someone knocked on
his door. Striding over to the doorway, he answered it and found Melpomaen
standing there.
“I thought you
would like to know when dinner was being served.” Melpomaen made no attempt to
enter having just planned on updating Eómer so the man could make plans.
“Dinner will be served in two hours in the Hall of Fire. Do you believe you can
find your way there or do you wish for me to escort you?”
“I can find the
way myself. Thank you for the information.” Eómer was about to dismiss
Melpomaen when he realized that there was something else he wanted to know.
“Can I move about freely or are certain parts off limit?”
Melpomaen
raised an eyebrow. “You can go anywhere you like.”
“Good, thank
you.” Eómer inclined his head in farewell and Melpomaen walked down the
corridor, leaving the King alone. Maybe it was time to do some exploring.
~~~
Elrond’s head
still reeled from the kiss Erestor and he had shared almost two hours earlier.
For some reason he couldn’t put it out of his mind. It had only been a kiss,
but a damn good one! They were currently sitting behind their desks in their
adjourning studies and, from where Elrond was seating, he could watch Erestor.
The Advisor had no problems with concentrating on his work, but Elrond did. All
he could think about was that kiss!
Erestor was
humming softly and a smug grin appeared on his face when he felt Elrond’s
questioning look. “You are not concentrating, my dear.”
The last two
words threw Elrond off balance again. Erestor had never addressed him like
that. Resigning to his fate, he placed the quill onto the desk. “I can not
concentrate like this!”
“Like what, my
dear?” Erestor looked up from his writing. “What is the problem?”
“You kissing me
and calling me ‘my dear’!” Elrond raised his arms in surrender and then crossed
them in front of his chest.
The Seneschal
chuckled, rose from his chair, and covered the distance between them. He sat
down on the corner of Elrond’s desk and studied the half-Elf. “Now tell me what
the problem is exactly?” Elrond remained stubbornly quiet and Erestor’s grin
became smugger. “Can it be that you desire more?” Elrond’s breath caught and
Erestor knew he was right. “Maybe we can try something new this evening after
we have dinner with Eómer?”
Elrond looked
up sharply at Erestor and tried to control his breathing as it sped up. “Tonight?” But he wasn’t ready to take the next step!
“Do not worry
about it,” Erestor whispered as he leaned in closer so he could deposit another
kiss onto Elrond’s trembling lips. “I will guide you through it.”
The Peredhel
suddenly blurted out, “Have you been with a male before?” The look Erestor gave
him was sad all of a sudden and Elrond realized that his question had brought
back painful memories.
“Yes, I had a
male lover once. Millennia ago.” He didn’t blame
Elrond for wakening this ache deep inside him. “But he died when Gondolin
fell.”
“Will you tell
me his name or does that bring back too much pain?” Elrond moved until he sat
on the edge of his chair and his face was only inches away from Erestor’s.
Erestor knew
that it was best if they had no secrets between each other. “His name was
Ecthelion.” Elrond’s breath caught and the half-Elf stared at him in open
wonder. “We were lovers for a while.”
“I did not know
that you were that old,” Elrond whispered in surprise. “I do not know that much
about you at all.”
“You know that
I love you. Is that not enough for now?”
Elrond nodded.
“I suppose it is.” But then he blushed. “I do not have any experience with
males… You should know that.”
“I figured as
much.” Erestor caressed a strand of Elrond’s hair. “It is not that much
different from loving a she-Elf. Only the mechanics differ slightly when it
comes down to making love.” Elrond grew even more flustered after that and
Erestor pressed his lips against Elrond’s once more in response, kissing him
sweetly in the hope that the half-Elf would grow less nervous the more they
kissed.
~~~
Eómer decided
to head outside before attending dinner. He would visit with Haleth before
dinner, but also wanted to enjoy being in the open first. Catching a whiff of
manure, he let his nose lead him to the stables where the horses were kept. The
stables weren’t as large as the ones they had in Rohan, but he still found a
formidable number of horses there. A few Elves inclined their heads in
greeting, but didn’t try to stop him as they cleaned the boxes, so Eómer walked
on.
Suddenly a loud
whinny attracted his attention and he looked to the right. “I know you,” he
said while closely studying the stallion inside the box. “You are Glorfindel’s,
aren’t you?”
Asfaloth gazed
at Eómer questioningly. Did the man really think Glorfindel had a say over him?
“Ah, I know
that expression!” Eómer laughed warmly and approached the box. He raised a hand
to allow the stallion to take in his scent. “You believe you have a say over
him!” Asfaloth’s gaze showed that the stallion really believed that. “You’re a
fine horse.”
“I thought so
too. He was a mere foal when I chose him.” Glorfindel had overheard Eómer and
joined them. Eómer turned and exchanged a look with him. “You have a good eye
for horses.”
“I live in
Rohan, Glorfindel. We breed horses there as well.”
Glorfindel was
pleased that Eómer had finally stopped addressing him as ‘Lord’ Glorfindel. They
were making progress then. “Would you like to go for a ride? I can show you
some splendid horses and you can pick the one you like best.” Eómer was the
first Man, apart from Estel, who he enjoyed spending time with and he wanted to
come to know the Rohan King better.
Eómer nodded. “I
would like that. Show them to me.” He followed Glorfindel about and the Captain
pointed out six horses to him. All of them were fine beasts, just as the blond
Elf had said, but only one of them really caught Eómer’s eye. “She’s a fine
beast too.” The long ears moved about at his voice. The mare turned her head
and searched for the newcomer.
“Her name is
Melian,” Glorfindel supplied. “She was named after a very wise she-Elf.”
“Ah,
Melian.” Eómer
opened the door to her box and took but one step inside, preferring that the
mare came to him. If she refused the contact, he knew he would have to move on
and pick another horse. Melian however walked toward him and took in his scent with
a nudge of her nose into his neck.
Glorfindel
leaned against the door and smiled. “She likes you. I must warn you though. She
has a bad reputation. She is very volatile at times.”
“Maybe she’s
just misunderstood?” Eómer raised a hand and patted her head. “Will you allow
me to take you out for a ride?”
Melian gave the
man a long, hard look and examined him closely. She was used to dealing with
Elves only, but the man’s scent appealed to her. Yes, she would allow him to
ride her.
Glorfindel’s
eyes widened when he sensed her consent. “She will let you.”
“I thought so
too.” Eómer smiled and pressed his face into the horse’s neck. “We’ll get along
just fine.”
Glorfindel opted
to ride without a saddle and guided Asfaloth into the open before mounting. “If
you wish to use a saddle you can find one there,” he explained while pointing
Eómer in the right direction.
“I don’t
believe I need one.” Eómer swung onto the mare’s back and buried his fingers in
her mane. “I was riding before I could walk.” It was the way of the Rohirrim.
“What about the
horse you were riding when you arrived?” Glorfindel urged Asfaloth into a
comfortable trot.
“She’s not
really my horse. Epona fell during the battle for Minas Tirith. She died
defending me.” Eómer’s voice took on a sad note. “She was the best horse I ever
had.”
Melian mourned
along with her rider as she felt that Eómer still hadn’t completely dealt with
the loss.
Wanting to do
away with all the sadness, Glorfindel squeezed his heels into Asfaloth’s flanks
and whispered, “Let us go.” Understanding that the Elf wanted him to run, Asfaloth
ran.
Eómer was
momentarily surprised by Glorfindel’s actions, but then rested his upper body
onto the mare’s neck and held on tightly, whispering, “Let them see what you
can do, my Lady.” Melian had been waiting for Eómer to say that and quickly caught
up with the stallion, who eyed her curiously. Melian tossed Asfaloth a haughty
glance. The stallion was much too arrogant as far as she was concerned.
Glorfindel
watched the exchange between their horses and grinned secretively. Apparently
Melian wasn’t that easily impressed!
They let the
horses run for another few minutes until they encountered a stream off of the
Bruinen, where Glorfindel reigned in his stallion. “Let us rest for a moment.”
Eómer had a bit more trouble convincing Melian to come to a halt though and passed
Glorfindel by. Laughing, the Captain took up pursuit.
In the end,
Melian finally slowed down and Eómer let himself slide off of the mare’s back.
A bit dizzy from the speed at which they had raced, the Man lay down on the
grass and stared at the sky. Glorfindel joined him a moment later and sat
cross-legged beside him. “She’s a good horse,” Eómer remarked dreamily. A horse
like that would be loyal to him and he would be able count on her to aid him
during battle.
Glorfindel took
in Eómer’s dreamy gaze and suddenly moved closer. There was something about the
Man that called to him. He had always been one to act upon impulses and did so
now. Leaning in closer, he pushed a hand beneath Eómer’s neck and kissed him.
Eómer’s eyes
widened as he stared at the blond in surprise. Glorfindel kissing him had
happened out of the blue and he didn’t know what to make of it. He didn’t break
off the kiss though and only spoke once Glorfindel’s lips had released his.
“Why did you kiss me?” He pushed himself upright and searched the Elf’s face. The
kiss had been pleasurable though wholly unexpected.
“I felt like
it.” Glorfindel slid a hand into Eómer’s wild mane and fingered a strand. “There
is something about you that appeals to me.”
“And that’s why
you kissed me? Because you felt like it?” Eómer shook
his head. “You surprise me.”
“And why is
that?” It was Glorfindel’s time to ask questions. “Have you never been kissed
before?”
Eómer shook his
head and laughed. “Oh, I’ve been kissed and I kissed in turn. I just didn’t
expect it from you since you’re an Elf and I a mere Man.”
Glorfindel
positioned his hand at the column of Eómer’s neck and considered the Rohirrim.
“Tell me about your lovers.”
The question
took Eómer aback. “We only met a few days ago and you’re asking me *that*? That
is very private.”
“I wish to
know.” Glorfindel smiled radiantly at Eómer. “I will tell you about mine if you
wish to hear about them.”
Glorfindel’s
course of action overwhelmed Eómer. “They were mostly encounters in the dark,
on the battlefields, after we fought. There was never much time for me to
properly court someone.” Why was he telling Glorfindel something so private?
“Why are we having this conversation?” And why were Glorfindel’s fingers
massaging his neck?
“Because
I have grown interested in you.” Glorfindel shrugged. “It is the way I am. I am a
warrior, Eómer. I have fought too many battles and seen too much death to waste
my time dancing around another for years.” That was why he was glad that Elrond
and Erestor had finally admitted that they had feelings for each other. “We
both know that death can come quickly. It only requires one stroke from a
blade.”
Eómer nodded, entranced by the way Glorfindel was looking at him.
“You’re right about that. I lost many Rohirrim these last few years. A few I had
lain with.”
Glorfindel
considered the Man in front of him. He didn’t want to move too fast, but it was
obvious that they had reached some sort of understanding on a subconscious
level. “I want to taste you again.” He was curious to see how Eómer would deal
with that challenge. Would the Man allow himself to be conquered again or would
Eómer take the initiative?
Eómer was
considering exactly the same thing. It was tempting to let Glorfindel be in
control, but a part of his personality rebelled against that, so he grabbed a
handful of Glorfindel’s hair to bring the Captain in close enough for him to
kiss. Glorfindel inched closer, surrendered to the kiss, and Eómer deepened it.
They didn’t stop kissing for another minute, but then they had to draw in
breath, so their lips separated.
“Very
promising,” Glorfindel commented and brushed some of Eómer’s locks behind the
man’s ear. “We should return home now. It is almost dinner time and I expect
you want to check on Haleth first.” He stood to his feet, extended his hand,
and pulled Eómer up as well. Eómer had a dazed look in his eyes which fed
Glorfindel’s attraction. He placed a hand at the small of Eómer’s back and pushed
the blond along until they had reached the horses, which were grazing
peacefully.
They both
mounted and Eómer followed Glorfindel back to the Last Homely House. Glorfindel
felt Eómer’s gaze upon him the entire time and that made him feel self-satisfied.
He had made the first move and was curious to see if Eómer would make the next.
~~~
Elrond entered
Haleth’s room carrying a large bowl filled with hot water and had towels slung
over his arm. Âme gave him a puzzled look, but Haleth had a good idea what the
half-Elf’s intentions were. He was about to be given an improvised bath.
“Ah, you are
still here! Very good!” Elrond smiled at Âme reassuringly
and then placed the bowl on the nightstand. “You can assist me in cleaning
Haleth up.” Elrond hadn’t counted on the panic in Âme’s eyes though. What was
wrong?
“I should
excuse myself…” Âme protested. The thought of seeing Haleth naked made him feel
on edge, though he couldn’t quite explain why.
“No, it’s all
right,” Haleth replied while taking hold of Âme’s arm as the white-haired boy went
to pass him by. “I don’t mind.” He had become used to be given such baths and
most of the time it had been Eómer helping him. The first few times he had felt
awkward around the older man, but those feelings of discomfort had waned during
his sickness.
Âme realized that
he had no way out and gave in. “Can I wash his hair?” That way he could stay
clear of the more private parts. Elrond was more than welcome to do those areas
himself.
Elrond
understood and tilted his head toward the doorway. “In that case, you need to
fetch another bowl with hot water and a stand for you to put it on.”
The youth
fetched more water and placed the bowl onto the stand a healer had given him.
“Can you move a little closer to the basin?” he asked Haleth.
Haleth complied
and rested the back of his head against the rim of the basin. He closed his
eyes as Elrond pushed down the covers and started to wash him. “I hope I’ll be
able to do this myself shortly,” he whispered as he endured Elrond’s
administrations.
“You will be
able to move more freely in a few days.” Elrond glanced at Âme and found that
the young man was wetting Haleth’s hair. “Use this.” He handed Âme a flask.
“Put some of it in your palms, let it change into foam, and then wash his
hair.”
Âme took hold
of the flagon and did as he was told. The foam tingled against his fingertips
and he took his time gently massaging the substance into Haleth’s hair. He was
comfortable doing this as long as Elrond didn’t ask him to clean up other parts
of Haleth as well. The truth was that, although he’d already had sex in his
young life, he had little experience touching someone in affection. He had been
drugged whenever those abusers had taken advantage of him and those nights were
nothing but painful memories. The only evidence he’d had that something had
happened was soreness in the morning.
“Your touch’s
gentle,” Haleth remarked as he enjoyed feeling Âme’s fingers move through his
hair. “Maybe you should become a healer.”
The other youth
shook his head. “I’m not good enough for that.” Elrond cast him a sharp look,
but Âme ignored it.
“We will see
about that.” Elrond finished drying Haleth’s skin and wrapped the boy up in the
blankets again. “That must feel better.” He rolled down his sleeves again and
disposed of the water.
“It does,”
Haleth whispered. Âme was rinsing his hair and he regretted that the young man
had already finished.
Âme wrapped a
towel around Haleth’s hair and rubbed the strands dry. “Do you want me to comb
it too?” He had seen a comb on the nightstand. Elrond had brought it with him
earlier.
“Will you be
gentle?” Haleth asked sweetly.
That tone
alarmed Âme. Was Haleth flirting with him? But no, he immediately discarded the
idea again. Haleth was the son of the King of Rohan and he was nothing but a
freed slave. “I’ll try.” Âme slowly disentangled Haleth’s dark-blond hair.
Elrond
returned, pushed down the covers once more, and smeared the fresh juices of the
squeezed herbs onto the young man’s shoulder. He also placed his hand on the
injured area and let a small amount of healing energy flow into Haleth. “You
will continue to improve. Just try to rest. That is the best thing you can do
for now.”
Haleth sensed
that Elrond was right. He felt stronger already. He had been in so much pain
when Eómer had taken him to Imladris and that pain had mostly subsided. “Thank
you,” he said from the bottom of his heart.
“I only regret
that I did not know about your injury before or I would have offered my help
back then.” Elrond watched them both a little longer and then excused himself.
He wanted Haleth and Âme to spend as much time as possible together, hoping
that they would form a bond. “I will check on you again in the morning since I
do not expect complications. Âme will keep you company.”
Haleth
happily latched onto that idea. “Maybe you can read to me?” he addressed Âme. Âme’s expression grew
saddened and Haleth wondered what he had done wrong.
“He can not
read yet,” Elrond explained. “But his lessons will start shortly. Erestor and I
will teach him.”
Âme stared at
the floor and felt beaten. He could dance for Haleth to entertain him, but he
doubted his kind of dancing would be considered appropriate.
“Âme, do you
sing?” Elrond cocked his head inquisitively.
“Not
very well.” Baal had
paid for singing lessons in the hope that it would add to his charm, but later
on, the slaver had concentrated on his dancing. “I haven’t sung for a very long
time.”
“I will send
Lindir,” Elrond decided. “Together, you should be able to come up with a way to
pass the time.” He made his way over to the doorway and grinned at Âme’s
stricken look. /It will work out. Do not fret./
~~~
Eómer was in a
thoughtful mood by the time they returned the horses to the stables.
Glorfindel’s actions were hard for him to put into the right perspective. What
did the Captain want from him?
Glorfindel
respected Eómer’s silence even though he wanted to talk about what had happened
earlier. He didn’t regret making a pass at Eómer, but now he wondered if it had
been the right thing to do. He accompanied Eómer to Haleth’s room and remained
near the doorway, giving Eómer some privacy. At least, that was the idea, but
then he found that Haleth wasn’t alone. Âme was there and Lindir was playing
his lyre.
“Would you
grant me a moment in private with Haleth?” Eómer requested, vexed that Âme was
still hovering close.
“Of
course.” Âme was
glad to have permission to leave the room and practically fled Eómer’s
presence. Lindir followed more slowly.
Glorfindel left
as well in pursuit of Âme, who seemed just a bit too nervous to him. “Âme,
wait!” The boy had almost left the healing wing when he caught up. “Wait!” He
placed a hand on Âme’s shoulder and turned him around. “What is this all
about?”
“Eómer knows,”
Âme replied once he had made sure that Lindir wasn’t in hearing range. “Baal
visited Rohan some time ago and… I danced for the King.”
Glorfindel
frowned and suddenly doubted his own judgment. “Did Eómer take advantage of
you? Baal must have hoped to make some profit in Rohan and offered you to the King,
did he not?”
Âme nodded and
lowered his gaze. “Baal told me that Eómer had refused me. When I’m drugged… I
don’t always know what’s happening to me. Sometimes everything’s blurry or I feel
like I’m falling into a black hole.”
Glorfindel
sighed in relief. He hadn’t been mistaken then. Eómer was a man of honor. “And
now you flee his presence because he knows about your past?”
“He also
doesn’t want me close to his son and I understand why. He probably thinks I’m a
bad influence on Haleth.” Âme continued to stare at the floor. “I never
volunteered to sit with Haleth. Elrond made me in spite of Eómer’s objections.”
“Âme…”
Glorfindel resolutely moved forward and pulled the young man into an embrace.
Âme tensed at first, but then relaxed and even rested his head against the
Elf's shoulder. “You have made such good progress these last few weeks. Do not
let your fear ruin it. Eómer will not hold this against you. I will talk to
him.”
Âme pulled away
a bit and looked at the tall Elf with wide eyes. “Do you have that much
influence on him?”
“I will have
it...shortly.” Glorfindel decided to continue with his original plan to seduce
Eómer and, if the Man played along, be seduced in turn.
TBC
Part 9
“They cleaned
you up nicely.” Eómer playfully patted Haleth’s still damp hair.
“Yes, Âme and
Elrond did.” Haleth gratefully accepted the cup of tea which Eómer handed him
and sipped. “You seem a bit more rested too.”
“I’ve been
spending time with Glorfindel. I like him.” Eómer smiled and felt content as he
noted how much Haleth had improved during the last couple of days.
“Why don’t you
like Âme?” Haleth hadn’t wanted to be so direct, but the words had tumbled from
his lips unintentionally.
Eómer took a
moment to consider his answer. Haleth had been bedridden when Baal and Âme had
visited Edoras. His adopted son had therefore never met the slave boy. He had
two options: he could tell Haleth the truth or make up some excuse. For some
reason the first option didn’t appeal to him. Haleth had very few friends at
the Hornburg since he was the King’s adopted son and Haleth had obviously taken
a liking to Âme. Elrond had also asked him to give Âme a second chance. In the
end, he made up an excuse. “I don’t know why. Maybe it’s the way he looks that
annoys me.”
Haleth sensed
that Eómer hadn’t told him the truth and he was tempted to press for the real
answer, but he also knew Eómer wouldn’t tell him if the older man didn’t want
to. He had better accept things the way they were, but he could try to make
things better for Âme. “Will you try to be nicer to him? He’s afraid of you.”
“Afraid? I
never wanted to scare him.” Eómer frowned. “I’ll treat him more kindly from now
on. You like him, don’t you?”
The youth
nodded. “He’s kind and gentle, but at the same time he’s so sad and he won’t
tell me why he feels like that.”
Eómer had a
good idea why Âme felt melancholy. The boy had been a slave all his life and
had been forced to do Baal’s bidding regardless of what Âme wanted to do. Life had been hard for Âme and
Elrond had given him his freedom suddenly, so he had to find his place in life.
“We’ll try to lift his spirits then,” Eómer offered, deciding to be more
tolerant and understanding where Âme was concerned. The smile Haleth gave him revealed
that he had made his adopted son very happy and he squeezed the fingers of
Haleth’s good hand to confirm their bond.
~~~
Eómer found his
way to the Hall of Fire without Melpomaen’s help. Eómer had dismissed the Elf
when he had reappeared for he wanted to prove to himself that he knew the
house’s layout. Melpomaen had humored him and let him be. Upon entering the
hall, Eómer’s first look was at the main table. Elrond, Erestor, and Glorfindel
were already seated there and chatting amicably. Once he focused on Glorfindel
again, the day’s events returned to him and he wondered once more what an Elf
like Glorfindel saw in him.
“Please sit!”
Elrond had caught sight of their guest and gestured for him to sit down next to
Glorfindel at the end of the table. “I trust Haleth is well?”
“I visited with
him just now and I must thank you for your excellent care. I haven’t seen him
free of pain for over a year now.” Eómer sat down and watered down his wine
before sipping it. With Glorfindel so close, he wanted to keep a clear head. “I
must apologize for the way I treated Âme. I didn’t give him a fair chance.”
“I appreciate
hearing that, but I trust you know that it is Âme who *really* needs to hear
it?” Eómer’s newly gained insight pleased Elrond.
“I’ll tell him
the next time I see him. Is he constantly watching Haleth?” Eómer asked.
“Âme has
trouble sleeping when he is alone, so keeping Haleth company provides him with
a solution as well,” Elrond replied as he reached for his glass.
“Does that have
something to do with his past?” Since he had accepted that Âme deserved a
second chance, Eómer wanted to know as much about the former slave as he could.
Elrond nodded.
“It has something to do with the fact that Baal drugged him whenever he was
taken to a ‘customer’. Âme has not worked through that yet and I believe he
still expects to either end up drugged or wake up not knowing where he is and
what has happened.”
“I should have
done more to help the slaves,” Eómer admitted. “But Rohan demanded so much of
my time. We were still rebuilding Edoras and then there was Haleth who needed
me.” Eómer laughed bitterly. “That is no excuse for failing the boy.”
“Sometimes, we
are wiser afterwards,” Glorfindel offered compassionately. “Everything worked
out for Âme. Maybe you should focus on that.”
Eómer sighed and
nodded once. “I really need to talk to him.”
“Maybe you
should do so before you go to sleep,” Erestor advised. “It will put both your
minds to rest.”
“Your advice is
sound.” Eómer glanced at Erestor gratefully. “I’ll seek him out after dinner.”
~~~
Eómer closed
the door behind him and checked on Haleth’s condition. His adopted son was
sound asleep, oblivious to the world. Next to the bed sat Âme and Eómer’s eyes
widened when he noticed that the former slave’s fingers were loosely curled
around Haleth’s. Âme obviously hadn’t noticed his arrival yet and he coughed to
draw the young man’s attention to him.
Âme almost
jumped up from the chair, but the sudden movement would have woken Haleth so he
stayed put instead. Slowly he removed his hand from Haleth’s and started to
rise from his chair, but then Eómer spoke and Âme froze. “No, there’s no need
for you to leave. Please stay so we can talk.” Eómer walked over to the bed and
sat down at the foot. Another look at Haleth showed that the younger man was
fast asleep and wouldn’t wake anytime soon.
The dancer
tensed visibly and let his hair fall in front of his face. His fingernails clawed
at the armrest and he shifted nervously on the chair. It was finally going to
happen. Eómer was going to forbid him from sitting with Haleth any longer. “I
understand,” he muttered barely audible. “I understand why you don’t want me
close to him.”
Eómer had
prepared a speech, but Âme’s remark left him no opening to deliver it and he
had to abandon his original plan. “Why is that?” Maybe it would be best to let
Âme talk first.
“Because
of what I am. You
regard Haleth as your son and you’re protective of him. Having a former slave
and whore sit with him isn’t appropriate, is it?” If he’d had the courage he
would have given Eómer a defiant look, but he continued to stare at Haleth’s
face. He wanted to make sure the other boy didn’t hear their conversation.
Haleth would not want him about once he knew the truth about him.
The King of
Rohan cocked his head and studied Âme. The boy’s expression was haunted and his
hands shook. Âme was afraid of him and he didn’t want to frighten the young
man. “Do you really think of yourself as a whore?”
Eómer’s
question caused Âme to look up after all. “Of course I do. That’s what you see
when you look at me, don’t you?” He quickly glanced away again when Eómer’s
gaze became too probing.
Eómer wanted to
deny that, but part of what Âme had said was true. “You’re right. I thought
badly of you...until recently.” The white head whipped up again and this time
the almost colorless eyes met his gaze. “I talked to Elrond and he helped me
put some things into the right perspective. I didn’t treat you the way I should
have. I made you feel inferior, didn’t I?” Âme nodded as a startled look
appeared in the light-blue eyes. “I’m ashamed that I did.”
Âme quickly
glanced at Haleth to make sure that he was still asleep. “You only reminded me
of my true nature. I don’t blame you.”
Saddened by
Âme’s response, Eómer shook his head. “That’s not the way it’s supposed to be.
Can’t we start over again?”
The dancer
stared long and hard at Haleth. “I like him. All I’m asking is that you allow me
to continue to sit with him. You don’t have to like me or treat me
respectfully. Just let me sit here and watch over him.”
Âme’s words
made Eómer realize that an apology alone wasn’t going to undo the damage he had
done. More was needed and gaining Âme’s trust would take time. But he could
take another step. Eómer rose from the bed and crossed the distance between
them. Âme flinched when he became so close all of a sudden and the boy almost
ran out of the room, but Eómer quickly placed a hand on his shoulder. Leaning
in closer, he whispered into Âme’s ear, “You deserve to be treated
respectfully. All living beings do and you’re no exception.”
The white-haired
youth shook fiercely and wished that Eómer would stop the pretense of caring
for him. “You showed me no respect,” he whispered. “And why should you? I’m a
slave and a whore.”
Eómer’s hand
moved from Âme’s shoulder to the boy’s head and he stroked the white hair like
he would caress Haleth’s. “I’m showing you respect now, aren’t I? Âme, I hope
you can forgive me for being prejudiced.” The tremors that shook Âme’s frame
worsened and Eómer removed his hand. “I want to be your friend. It’s up to you
whether to accept that offer or not.” He took a few steps away from Âme when he
sensed that the boy felt cornered. “I’ll visit again tomorrow morning. Guard
him well, Âme.”
Âme sighed in
relief when Eómer finally left the room. He wanted to break down and cry, but
Haleth’s presence stopped him. What if the other young man woke when he was
having a breakdown? No, he wasn’t going to give in and cry. He was going to be
strong instead.
~~~
Haleth felt
confused. He had overheard their conversation, but didn’t know what to make of
it. What did Âme mean when he said he was a slave and a whore? Haleth continued
to pretend that he was asleep, but his thoughts raced, trying to find the
answer to this question.
~~~
Lindir and his
newly assembled ensemble of humans and Elves played song after song,
entertaining the members of Elrond’s household. The half-Elf himself felt
content watching everyone dance as he sipped wine. His happiness seemed perfect
until Erestor leaned in closer and whispered, “I wish to dance.” Elrond almost
choked on his wine and quickly swallowed it.
Erestor
chuckled at the expression in Elrond’s eyes and he even winked at Glorfindel
conspiratorially. “I know that you can dance, Elrond. I have seen you dance.”
But back then
he had danced with his wife. Erestor was proposing *they* danced instead and,
to make matters even worse, they would be dancing in front of his household!
What would they think? What would they say? How would they react?
The Seneschal
rested his elbow on the table and placed his chin on his knuckles. “Does it
really matter that much what they think?”
Elrond sucked
in his breath. “Are you reading my mind?” He hadn’t felt Erestor touching his
thoughts!
With a sad look
on his face, Erestor shook his head. “I do not need to read your mind. You wear
your emotions on your sleeve, Elrond.”
Glorfindel
watched them closely, but didn’t become involved. He was confident that Erestor
could handle the matter.
“I am sorry,”
Elrond said, crestfallen. “I *do* want to dance with you, but they will stare
at us.”
“If it matters
that much to you what they think I will not ask you to dance with me.” The last
thing Erestor wanted was to put Elrond under too much pressure. “We will watch
the minstrels and dancers instead.” He was already reaching for the wine when
Elrond’s hand suddenly descended onto his arm. Frowning, Erestor looked at
Elrond, trying to find out what the half-Elf wanted from him.
“This is
difficult for me,” Elrond explained, hoping Erestor would understand. “I am
still married to Celebrían and a number of those Elves expect me to remain
loyal to her.”
“What is more
important to you: their opinion of you or your happiness?” Erestor asked while
giving Elrond a probing look.
Glorfindel
smiled approvingly. Erestor had handled that one well!
“When you put
it that way, I have little choice, do I not?” Elrond looked at the Elves
already dancing in the center of the great hall. If he wanted Erestor as his
lover, he would have to prove to the Advisor that he was serious about their
relationship. “Do not blame me though when I step on your toes. I am not a good
dancer,” he stated and rose from the chair before extending his hand to Erestor.
Erestor jumped
to his feet and smiled happily at Elrond. “You are not that bad a dancer.”
“Just wait,”
Elrond threatened as he guided Erestor toward the center of the room. “Your
feet will ache before the night is over.”
Erestor didn’t
mind though that Elrond repeatedly trampled on his feet because one of his
dearest wishes had come true: they were dancing and Elrond had put his own
happiness first.
~~~
“What was
Helm’s Deep like? I only heard it mentioned, but you
were actually there.” Âme had helped Haleth eat dinner and had then sat
cross-legged at the foot of the bed. Eómer’s visit had put him in an emotional
turmoil and he was trying to distract himself. Besides, he really wanted to
know what that battle had been like for the other boy.
Haleth would
rather not dwell upon that battle, but understood Âme’s curiosity. “It was
overwhelming,” he answered while sipping his tea. “There were so many Orcs and
Uruk-hai. The weather was bad and we were soaked within minutes. I only had a
sword to defend myself, but Aragorn had told me it was a good sword.”
“Aragorn?” Even Âme had heard that name mentioned
during the long evenings spent at the camp fires of the travelers they
encountered.
“He’s known as
Elessar now.” Haleth smiled conspiringly. “I fought alongside the new King of
Gondor.”
Âme was
impressed. “You know Elessar?”
“Well, not at
first. He took over control when Théoden lost heart. He inspired us...all of
us, old and young.”
“But you were
injured during that fight.”
Haleth nodded.
“I was no match for the Orcs and Uruk-hai. One of them cut me down and I lost
consciousness. Later, some other men took me to the Houses of Healing and Eómer
saw me there. He took pity on me and later on, when it became clear that I
wasn’t healing, he offered to take me in and… In the end, he adopted me. I was
very lucky to have caught his attention.”
“Very
lucky indeed.” Âme
felt depressed. He wished that someone like Eómer had found him after his
parents had died and not Baal.
“And
what about you? What
happened to you? How did you come to be in Imladris and Elrond’s protégé?”
Haleth was dying to learn more about Âme.
Âme tried to
find a way out, but Haleth was giving him such an expectant look that he knew
he wasn’t going to get out of it. “I hail from Harad.”
Haleth’s eyes
widened. “Harad? You’re a Southron? I’d never have
guessed!”
Âme wasn’t
proud of his heritage though. “There’s not much to tell.”
Haleth didn’t
agree however. “Is Harad really as exotic a place as they say?”
“I don’t really
know.” Âme shrugged. “I lived with Baal and stayed mostly indoors.” His eyes widened
as he realized that he had used the slaver’s name.
“Who’s Baal?”
Eómer had mentioned that name as well and Haleth wanted to know more.
“I don’t want
to talk about him.” Âme started to get up from the bed.
“Don’t leave! I
won’t ask questions that make you uncomfortable. Just tell me what you’re
comfortable with.” Haleth’s voice was pleading. “Please stay, Âme.”
Âme relented
and sat down again. He rested his back against the foot and pulled his knees
against his chest. He wrapped his arms around them and lowered his gaze. “I
don’t really want to talk about any of it.”
Haleth wished
he had more information. It was hard for him to solve the puzzle with Âme
refusing to tell him more. “Do you like living in Imladris?” He hoped the Last
Homely House was something Âme wanted to talk about.
The dancer
peeked at Haleth through his hair. “I love it. The Elves are very kind. Elrond
takes care of me and Erestor’s going to teach me how to read and write. Lindir’s
also nice to be about. He’s a very good musician.”
“Lindir’s
talented,” Haleth agreed. “Do you have something you excel in too, Âme?”
Âme blushed. He
hadn’t expected Haleth to ask him that. “I’ve been told that I’m a talented
dancer.”
“Will you dance
for me?” Haleth was curious.
“Not now.”
Haleth’s questions had unnerved Âme and the memories of his years as a slave
had returned to him. Involuntarily, he started to rock from left to right. He
felt like the child again that Baal had intimidated and forced to obey.
Haleth didn’t
know what to make of Âme’s peculiar reaction. The distress that showed in the
pale eyes worried him and when the other young man started to rock, Haleth’s
worries intensified. “Âme?”
“It’s nothing.”
The dancer was fighting his tears. He didn’t want Haleth to see him break apart.
The young man
of Rohan wasn’t sure he had healed enough to be moving about, but he pushed
himself onto his knees and then crawled over to Âme, who didn’t seem to
register his movement. “Âme, what’s wrong?” Haleth carefully knelt next to Âme
and put his good arm around the white-haired youngster. “Talk to me?”
Âme forced
himself to calm down. “I’m sorry. I didn’t want to worry you.” He suddenly
noticed that Haleth had changed position. “You should be reclining!”
“I’m fine. The
pain’s not that bad.” Haleth squeezed Âme’s shoulder and rested his brow
against the other young man’s forehead. “You look unhappy.”
“My past isn’t
a happy one,” Âme whispered breathlessly with Haleth so close. “I mean it. You
should lie down.”
“I’m fine this
way. Don’t worry.” Haleth smiled and was relieved to see that the gloomy shadow
had started to fade from the light-blue eyes. “I won’t ask you again. I don’t
want you to feel miserable.”
Since they were
so close, Âme searched Haleth’s brown eyes. “Haleth, are we friends? I’d like
that very much.” Haleth nodded and their brows rubbed together. “That’s nice. I
want to have as many friends as possible.”
“We’re
friends,” Haleth assured Âme. “I’m tired,” he admitted in his next breath. “Do
you think we can sleep for a while?”
“You should
sleep,” Âme objected. “I should stay awake.”
“But I like it
better when you rest as well.” Haleth moved away from Âme and lowered himself
back onto the pillows. “The bed’s big enough.”
Âme wasn’t
convinced though. He knew that the moment he laid down he would fall asleep and
he had promised Eómer and Elrond that he would watch over Haleth.
“I’m fine,”
Haleth repeated. “I’m healing. You don’t have to stay awake and watch me the
entire time.” He winked at Âme. “And if you sleep close enough, you’ll sense me
stir.”
“I’m not sure,”
Âme whispered. “I’m supposed to watch you.”
“Don’t be like
that.” Haleth took hold of Âme’s arm and pulled him closer. Âme gave in,
knowing very well that jostling the uninjured arm would also affect the injured
shoulder. Âme settled down on his side a few inches away from Haleth. “Better,”
Haleth commented. “And now we’ll sleep.” He was more tired than he wanted Âme
to know. His eyes started to fall shut and when they did, Âme tried to move off
of the bed. Haleth’s reaction was instant as he pulled Âme back with the hold
he still had on the other boy’s arm. “Don’t go away. I want you close.”
Âme resigned
himself to the situation and did the only thing he could. He tucked the blanket
around their forms and closed his eyes.
~~~
“I thought I
might find you here,” Glorfindel remarked as he happened upon Eómer in front of
Melian’s box. “You seem troubled.”
Eómer shrugged.
“I talked to Âme, but our conversation didn’t go as well as I’d hoped. It’s
hard to convince him that he’s deserving of a second chance. He believes he’s a
whore.”
Glorfindel
patted Melian’s neck. “We expected for that to happen. He has been strong since
the beginning, but we also knew he would crumble at some time.”
“I still
believe that I should have tried harder to help him.” Eómer stared into
Melian’s warm, brown eyes and sighed. “Horses are less complicated than
people.”
“But people can
also challenge you and push you to explore new limits.” Glorfindel wondered
about his next move. “You are restless. Would it help if we checked on Haleth
and Âme one last time this evening?”
“Maybe that
would ease my mind.” Eómer patted Melian’s head once before falling into step
with Glorfindel. It came as no surprise to him that the Captain had sought him
out. Glorfindel seemed to want spend time with him. “I want to get drunk
later,” he suddenly admitted. “But I don’t like to drink alone.”
Glorfindel
placed a hand on Eómer’s shoulder. “If that is what you need, I will keep you
company.” He would pretend to be drunk if it helped Eómer.
~~~
“They look good
together,” Glorfindel remarked with a smirk. He ignored the shocked look that
had appeared on Eómer’s face when they found Âme and Haleth asleep in the same
bed. It didn’t help that Haleth’s good arm was resting possessively on Âme’s
hip. “It can be lonely after a while when you are confined to bed.”
Eómer told
himself to accept this. It was understandable that Haleth and Âme were becoming
good friends since they were spending so much time together. Glorfindel sensed
Eómer’s tension however. “Why do you disapprove of them sleeping like that?”
“I don’t know
really.” Eómer frowned and searched his feelings. “Maybe I feel Âme’s a threat.
I was Haleth’s sole support until we got here. Maybe I see Âme as a rival.”
“It is not
because Âme has a somewhat tainted past?”
Eómer shook his
head. “I know he was forced to have sex. He was drugged when Baal offered him
to me. I don’t blame the boy.” Eómer moved toward the bed and watched them
sleep. “I’ll do better. I promise.” He was going to give Âme his chance. He
caressed Haleth’s hair and then turned about. “I need wine.”
Glorfindel
didn’t think that wine was the solution for Eómer’s problems, but he kept quiet
and decided to bide his time.
~~~
Erestor escorted
Elrond to the half-Elf’s rooms and closed the door behind him. Elrond was
already in the process of removing his outer robes as he headed for the bed.
Erestor had noticed that Elrond was tired and contributed it to the fact that
he had given some of his healing energy to Haleth.
The Advisor lit
the oil lamps and some scented candles before joining Elrond on the bed. The
half-Elf was lying down and had curled up, seemingly having forgotten his
presence. “Are you already asleep?” Erestor crawled onto the bed and spooned up
behind the half-Elf, wondering how Elrond would react to his closeness.
Elrond was very
much aware of Erestor’s close presence, but didn’t feel intimidated by it.
After dancing with Erestor in public, he had lost some of his timidity. “Not
yet, but it will not be long now.”
“Do you want me
to stay the night?” Erestor didn’t want to impose, especially when Elrond felt
tired.
“Yes, stay…and
hold me.” Elrond pressed back against Erestor and sighed contentedly. This was
nicer than he had thought. Erestor curled himself around the half-Elf and held
him close throughout the night.
TBC
Part 10
Eómer didn’t
bother with a glass and drank straight from the bottle. He struggled for breath
after downing his first mouthful. “Will I survive drinking this? What *is*
this?”
“Celeborn of
the Golden Wood brews this wine. You had better be careful if you do not want
to wish up with a severe headache in the morning. I am not touching it.” He had
settled for some Imladrin wine which was less potent.
“You said you wanted to be drunk so…”
“Is it too late
for me to reconsider?” Eómer stared at the bottle with something akin to horror
in his hazel eyes.
“It is never
too late. I never thought that being drunk was the answer to your problems.”
Eómer gave Glorfindel
a sharp look. “And what are my problems exactly?”
“You are
struggling with two problems,” Glorfindel said, starting his monologue. “The
first problem you face is that you do not think you are a good King. But that
is nonsense. You only need more time to adjust to your new station in life and
from what I have heard, you are a good ruler. Even Estel speaks highly of you.”
“You’re right
about that,” Eómer admitted. “I don’t think I should be king.”
“You only need
time to become used to the idea. Not everyone was prepared to rule like Estel
was. He has a head start on you of about fifty years and the best training he
could wish for. Elrond and Erestor trained him. Elessar was created about
ninety years ago when he was born. You have to do it all by yourself.”
Eómer listened,
spellbound. “You said I had problems – plural. What is my other problem?”
“You are alone.
You have no partner at your side to support you.”
Eómer nodded
firmly. “That’s why I told Aragorn to let Eówyn and Faramir rule Rohan, but he
refused.”
Glorfindel
coughed delicately. “Do you like females?”
Eómer had the
grace to blush. “No, I don’t. That’s another problem.”
“Even without a
mate at your side, you should be able to receive the support you need from someone
else. Haleth will make a good support once he has healed…and Âme, if you will
let him.”
“Do you have
a…mate?” Eómer didn’t think so considering that Glorfindel had kissed him, but
the Elf puzzled him and he couldn’t be sure.
“No, I do not.”
Glorfindel uncurled Eómer’s fingers from around the bottle and placed the
bottle on the floor a distance away from Eómer. “I want to be very clear about
what I am offering, Eómer. I can never leave Imladris. I am bound by an oath to
serve Elrond. But I can offer you some nights of pleasure, if you accept.”
“I’ll be
staying a few weeks, a month at the most. I can’t be away from Rohan too long.”
Although Glorfindel’s offer was tempting, he wasn’t sure he should accept yet.
“I’m not sure about this.”
“Why? What is
keeping you back?” Glorfindel inched closer, parted his legs, and wrapped them
around Eómer who sat opposite him. “You have lain with males before. You are
not inexperienced.” He placed his hands on Eómer’s shoulders and looked him in
the eye.
“Several
reasons,” Eómer responded in a moment of complete honesty. “You’re an Elf, I’m
a
“Does that
scare you?” Glorfindel slid his fingers into Eómer’s mane.
“Not scare
exactly.” Eómer did his best to explain his hesitancy to Glorfindel. “I don’t
know what to expect.”
“And you are afraid
to embarrass yourself,” Glorfindel added knowingly. “We do not have to become
fully intimate just yet. We can take steps.”
“That *does*
scare me,” Eómer confessed. “What you’re describing is more a love affair than
the casual sex I’m used to.” Glorfindel was still moving closer and suddenly
the Elf’s lips pressed against his. Eómer swallowed hard and parted his mouth, letting
the kiss happen. Glorfindel took his time and Eómer savored the tenderness of
the kiss. The kisses he had known in the past had been hard and fast, delivered
on the battlefield after the fighting had been done.
Glorfindel
wrapped his arms around him and Eómer melted against him as he tipped his head
to the side so Glorfindel could deepen the kiss. Bolts of electricity swept
through his body and he sighed deeply, letting his breath escape into
Glorfindel’s mouth. “No one ever kissed me like that before.”
“As you said, I
have had millennia to perfect my technique. Would you like to sample some
more?” He already knew the answer though as he watched Eómer’s pupils dilate.
Eómer raised a
trembling hand and touched Glorfindel’s fair hair. “Yes, I’d like that.” This
time, Eómer initiated the kiss much to Glorfindel’s delight.
~~~
Elrond turned
onto his other side during the night and watched Erestor sleep. The deep dark
brown eyes were lost in blissful oblivion and Elrond used the opportunity to
trace the outline of his love’s bottom lip. A part of him still couldn’t
believe the changes that had occurred. To find Erestor in his bed was something
he had to come to terms with. The only other person who had ever slept in it
had been his wife.
Now Erestor had
entered his life in a whole new way. The dark-haired Elf wanted to be his lover
besides being his Chief Advisor and, as lonely as Elrond was, he had accepted.
Elrond had always yearned for a new love, even if his mind hadn’t been ready to
admit that his heart had always known his need.
Erestor’s
expression grew focused and, with some disappointment, Elrond noticed that the
other Elf had woken up. “It is still early. You can rest some more.” He found
that he liked watching Erestor sleep. His love looked so much at peace when he
was lost in dreams.
Erestor had
other plans and curled an arm around Elrond’s waist before draping a leg over
the half-Elf’s thigh. “Do you know what I would like to do right now?”
Elrond
swallowed hard. “I am not sure I am ready to find out.”
The Advisor
laughed and his eyes glittered with mirth. “I would like to make love with
you.”
The Peredhel
swallowed again as his nervousness increased. “I have never been with a male,
Erestor.”
“I know that…”
Erestor let a fingertip glide down Elrond’s cheek and then placed it upon the
half-Elf’s lips. “Would you like to know me that way? Think about it before you
answer my question.”
Elrond
considered the matter in depth. “Yes, I believe so,” he replied and Erestor
removed his fingertip from Elrond’s lips. “But I have never been in this
position before.”
“Do you trust
me?” Erestor asked as he looked deep into the half-Elf’s eyes. Elrond drew in a
shaky breath and then nodded. That had to be answer enough for Erestor. “I
would let you take me, if you desire to take that role.” Erestor knew it was
important that they discussed this before they actually moved on to doing more
than mere touching.
Elrond actually
grew flustered. “That might make it easier on me, but…would you not be in
discomfort?”
Erestor
chuckled and shook his head. “I will teach you how it is done best. There does
not have to be much discomfort. On the contrary, we will know great pleasure.” He
grew silent, wanting Elrond to decide what they would do next.
“I have not
touched someone that way for a very long time, Erestor.” Elrond cupped
Erestor’s face in his hands and searched the Advisor's eyes, which had turned
near black. “You will have to teach me. Will you, Erestor?”
Nodding,
Erestor moved closer until he could kiss Elrond’s lips. “I will show you… I
will teach you. Trust me and let go of any fear you might have.”
Elrond closed
his eyes and sighed. “I trust you… Show me.”
~~~
Haleth enjoyed
not waking up alone in bed. He had been bedridden for so long that he had
started to feel lonely. Eómer had stayed at his side, but having someone who
was much closer to his own age like Âme about was different. In a way, he felt
like he had been given a second chance with Âme entering his life. He had lost
so many of his friends in the battle for Helm’s Deep
that he was grateful to have actually made a new one.
“Are you
watching me?” Âme opened his eyes and looked shyly at Haleth.
“I enjoy
watching you,” Haleth admitted. “I also watched when you were asleep on the
couch the other day.”
“Why would you
do that?” Âme frowned somewhat.
Haleth wanted
to raise a hand and touch Âme’s white hair, but wasn’t certain how the young
man would interpret the gesture. The things he had heard made him wonder about
Âme’s past. “Because you’re a riddle.” Âme’s frown
deepened, which had not been Haleth’s intention. “I know so little about you.”
The moment he said the words, he wished he could take them back because Âme
suddenly started to move away from him. “No, I’m not going to ask you again!” That
stopped Âme’s retreat for the time being. But Haleth still wondered about the
snippets he had overheard. Could it really be that Âme had once been a slave
who had been forced to prostitute himself? He knew such things happened, but
had never seen it happen personally. Eómer shielded him well...maybe too well.
Âme felt
uncomfortable as Haleth continued to study him. “Do you want me to fetch a
healer or get you something to eat? Maybe some tea?”
“Âme, what are
you afraid of? The fact that I like you?” Haleth
didn’t see another way to obtain the answer he needed, so he had to be direct.
Haleth’s
question took Âme completely by surprise. “I… Haleth…I…”
Embarrassed by his stuttering, he blushed. “I never had a friend before… Not
someone like you… Elrond and Erestor, they are… Even Glorfindel is… They are
adults… They are old…”
“And I’m your
own age…” Haleth wondered how much longer he could hide the fact that he was
smitten with Âme. He was under the impression that Âme would run the moment he
found out how deep his attraction ran. He would have liked to continue the
conversation, but unfortunately for him, a healer entered with breakfast. He
would have to continue this another time.
~~~
Tenderly,
Glorfindel stroked Eómer’s hair, which was tangled and tousled after a night of
passion. He had been right about the Man. Eómer had acted shy at first, but
then he had given as good as he had received. They had
made love during most of the night until Eómer had succumbed to fatigue,
falling asleep in his embrace.
Glorfindel had
never known love...true love that is. He knew Erestor had shared that with
Ecthelion, but Glorfindel had never found it and therefore failed to recognize
it at the moment. The man in his arms was a passionate lover, but that was all
he was to Glorfindel. Too blind to see the treasure resting in his arms, he
only thought of lust and never realized that love was at the very base of that
desire.
The fact that
Eómer slept with his eyes closed, robbed Glorfindel the chance to search the
hazel orbs. Instead, he continued to stroke the wild locks that framed Eómer’s
face. Eómer was the first male whom he had ever allowed to take him in turn. In
all of his previous encounters, he had been the one doing the taking and it had
never occurred to him to reverse roles. Eómer had touched his heart though and,
once the Man had recovered from his time as the bottom, he had moved in-between
Glorfindel's legs and had claimed him in turn. During that magnificent moment,
Glorfindel had seen a regal and serious side to Eómer which he hadn’t glimpsed
before. The earnestness and concentration with which Eómer had made love to him
had surprised Glorfindel.
Eómer’s stomach
growled and the sound ruined the perfect moment, but after a minute, Glorfindel
smiled and kissed the Man awake. The hazel eyes opened and looked at him in
wonder and, had he known how to recognize love, Glorfindel would have seen it there.
But then Eómer quickly shielded his emotions.
“Do you wish to
head for the kitchen or shall I send for food?” Glorfindel asked while tracing
circles onto Eómer’s bare chest.
Eómer wondered
how a single encounter could change his whole perception. Glorfindel had been
handsome before they had made love, but now the blond looked absolutely
radiant. Eómer desperately clung to that feeling of belonging and being loved,
but he also knew reality would claim him soon. Glorfindel had been very clear
at what he was offering: a night full of lust, but never more. “I should get
dressed. I need to visit with Haleth.”
“And I need to
debrief last night’s patrol, oversee today’s training, and work on the rotation
rosters.” Glorfindel regretted the loss of Eómer’s body against his, but the Man
had swung his feet to the floor and was in the process of standing. “I will not
be able to spend time with you today.”
The King of
Rohan made sure Glorfindel didn’t see the expression on his face as he dressed.
“I’ll spend the day with Haleth and Âme instead. I need to earn Âme’s trust at
any rate.” He made quick work of getting dressed and, once he was in control of
his emotions, turned to face Glorfindel.
Glorfindel
wondered about the strange shadow on Eómer’s face. He couldn’t quite label the
emotion displayed there. “You could come to my rooms tonight, if you wish. Or I
could seek out yours.”
Eómer steeled
his heart, but already knew that it was too late. He had already lost it to
Glorfindel. “I will come to yours then.”
Glorfindel
nodded. “Do what pleases you.” Eómer then left his suite and Glorfindel
couldn’t help but wonder what he had missed. Something was wrong, but he just
didn’t know what it was.
~~~
Erestor shook
his head at the adoring look on Elrond’s face. “Stop staring at me like that.”
They were working on Elrond’s correspondence and the half-Elf’s behavior was
making it hard for Erestor to concentrate.
“I can not
stop,” Elrond admitted self-consciously.
“Well, I should
have expected for this to happen.” Erestor placed down his quill, pushed his
chair away from his desk, rose, and covered the distance between them. “It
*has* been a long time since you tasted such pleasure.” Elrond grew intensely
flustered at that and Erestor reached out to soothe him. “Do not fret. You did
everything right last night.” He leaned in and delivered a passionate kiss onto
Elrond’s lips. “Everything,” he reiterated, smiling brightly. “You heard me
scream, did you not?”
That did it.
Elrond’s blush grew crimson. Celebrían had always been quiet during their
intimate moments. Erestor had urged him on however, screaming and loudly
approving of his actions whenever Elrond had aimed right, sending him into
ecstasy with each thrust. “Do not say such things…”
Erestor shook
his head at Elrond’s discomfiture. “You will grow used to hearing me scream.” Elrond
turned away and Erestor chuckled as the half-Elf stared at the floor in
embarrassment. “I can not help being myself…” he eventually offered
apologetically. “I am passionate… That is just the way I am. In a way, we are
very well suited for each other. You balance me out.”
Elrond turned
around and raised his gaze. A shy smile appeared on his face. “I am still becoming
used to seeing this side to you. You hid this aspect so well.”
Now Erestor
turned melancholy. “I had to keep my distance.”
“You do not
have to do that any longer.” Elrond brought Erestor in for a kiss and hugged
him close.
~~~
Eómer found
Haleth sitting up in bed and eating bread topped with cheese. It warmed his
heart to see that his son was doing better. “Good morning!”
Âme startled
and almost dropped his tea cup. He considered making a run for the door, but
then recalled the things Eómer had said the other day. Had the King been
sincere and was Eómer really willing to give him a second chance? He was going
to find out.
“Would you like
some company?” Eómer remained near the doorway and awaited Haleth’s answer.
“Of
course.” But
Haleth’s eyes added something to that ‘Only if you behave and treat Âme nice.’
Eómer nodded
and Haleth’s look showed that the young man had understood. “When will Elrond
allow you to leave the bed?”
“Hopefully
today.” Haleth
wanted to leave the bed and move about at last. “I already asked Âme to help me
should Elrond allow me to get up.”
Eómer felt a
brief sting of jealousy, but then recalled Glorfindel’s advice. If he wanted
Haleth’s support, he would have to befriend Âme as well. “It’s good to hear
that you’ve found such support.”
Âme didn’t know
how to interpret that remark since he still expected Eómer to turn on him. “I
want to help.”
“Âme’s my
friend.” Haleth smiled at Eómer. “I have few friends to begin with.”
Eómer drew in a
deep breath and turned to address Âme. He saw fear in the pale eyes. “Thank you
for looking after my son.” Âme averted his gaze, not knowing how to react.
Eómer and Haleth exchanged a look and smiled.
~~~
Elrond checked
on Haleth later that evening. If Haleth had healed sufficiently, he would allow
the young man to leave his bed for the first time. Entering the room, he found
that Haleth wasn’t alone. Âme and Eómer were keeping his charge company and
Elrond noted with pleasure that the two of them were being friendly.
“Good evening,”
he said and advanced on the bed. Haleth looked much improved and a healthy
color had returned to the young man’s face. “How do you fare today?” Elrond sat
down on the side of the bed and bared Haleth’s injured shoulder to him. “The
wound has closed. Excellent.”
Haleth grinned
at the healer. “I feel fine. Will you allow me to leave my bed?”
Elrond nodded.
“But not for too long.” He wanted to assist Haleth in rising from the bed, but
his charge gazed at him uncertainly before searching out Âme’s and he smiled
knowingly. “Âme can look after you.” He stood up from the bed and walked over
to where Eómer was standing. Eómer sought out his eyes and Elrond read approval
there. Once he stood next to Eómer, he whispered, “You managed to sort matters
out where Âme is concerned?” He kept a close eye on Haleth at the same time as
the young man pushed himself to his feet.
“We talked.”
Eómer was also eyeing Haleth closely and was ready to come to his son’s rescue
should Âme fail to support him. “I believe we reached an understanding.”
Haleth rose
from the bed and leaned against Âme. He didn’t feel weak exactly, but he was
experiencing vertigo after lying down for so long. Once he was standing next to
Âme, he noticed that they were the same height. Placing one foot in front of
the other, he relished being able to walk again.
“You should be
able to leave the healing wing in a day or two.” Elrond gazed at Haleth
curiously. “Would you like your own room when that time comes?” Haleth
immediately looked at Âme and then back at Elrond. The half-Elf drew his own
conclusions, but decided to pretend he misunderstood for Eómer’s benefit. He
had noticed something the Man didn’t seem to grasp. “Or do you want to share
with Eómer?”
The youth
cringed. He didn’t want to disappoint Eómer, but… “Can I share with Âme?”
Eómer’s and
Âme’s eyes widened simultaneously and, since they were looking at each other,
they were both surprised at the other’s reaction. “Haleth, I don’t think…” Âme
didn’t want to offend Eómer. “He’s your father.”
The older man
was about to stress that fact as well when the hurt look in Âme’s eyes
registered with him. He hadn’t given the former slave boy’s situation that much
thought, but he realized that Âme was probably lonely too and had as few
friends as Haleth did. The two boys were the same age, liked to spend time
together, and had become friends. Âme could give Haleth something Eómer
couldn’t: a different sort of companionship. “No, it’s fine with me. You can
stay with Âme.” Âme’s reaction was instant and Eómer felt guilty for thinking
badly of the boy. “Âme, I don’t mind...really.”
Âme still
didn’t agree. “No, I don’t want you…” He covered his mouth with a hand.
“I won’t feel
jealous or excluded,” Eómer responded as he realized that it had to be said
aloud. “I want my son to be happy and having your friendship accomplishes
that.” Haleth beamed at him and the young man suddenly headed toward him. Âme
had to quicken his pace to keep up with his friend or else Haleth might have
stumbled. Eómer opened his arms and caught Haleth in a hug. “I finally
understand what you were trying to tell me.”
Elrond felt at
peace as well and was proud of what he had achieved so far.
~~~
That night
Eómer returned to Glorfindel’s rooms and the blond welcomed him into his arms
once more. Eómer eagerly latched onto the red lips and kissed Glorfindel
passionately. He knew that he was setting himself up for heartache, but what
could he do? He had failed to protect himself and had given Glorfindel his
heart. He had created his own doom. Hadn’t the golden-haired Elf told him that
this was about lust and not love?
“You are not
here with me,” Glorfindel chided as he guided Eómer over to his bed. Cocking
his head, he tried to figure out what was wrong. Something had already felt off
the last time they had made love, but Glorfindel still failed to label the
emotion in Eómer’s eyes.
“My thoughts
are with Haleth,” Eómer lied. His thoughts were with Glorfindel and he tried to
bury the sadness which he felt at being in the Elf’s arms when the Captain only
felt lust for him. He let Glorfindel lower him onto the bed and closed his eyes
as tender caresses were bestowed onto his skin after the blond had removed his
clothes. This could have been about love, but it wasn’t.
Glorfindel took
the man with a tenderness that stunned himself. He had
never been this gentle with any of his lovers. Something about Eómer brought
out this soft, gentle side in him, but what was it?
Eómer brought
his arms up along Glorfindel’s back and he rolled the blond onto his back
before taking him in turn, but not with the tenderness the Elf had shown him.
When they mated this time, a desperate urgency came through Eómer’s movements.
“Eómer...”
Glorfindel didn’t know what had upset the Man, but he sensed Eómer’s distress
and tried to soothe him, even while the man was moving inside him. “Everything
is all right.” He buried Eómer in hug, pulling him close enough so that they
could kiss.
Eómer closed
his eyes then and gave into his dearest fantasy that Glorfindel had fallen in
love with him, but that would never happen for he was just a man. Anguish
showed on his face when he finally found release. Glorfindel was so close and
yet, at the same time, had never been more unattainable.
Glorfindel
reacted to Eómer’s distress by tightening his hold on him. They had climaxed
simultaneously, but it had once more felt like Eómer hadn’t been there with
him.
~~~
The next day,
Elrond walked Haleth to Âme’s rooms. The white-haired dancer had an arm tightly
curled around Haleth’s waist. Elrond wasn’t sure that it was really necessary
the dancer supported Haleth, but he suspected that they both liked the
closeness and he wasn’t going to ruin it for them. He opened the door and
stepped aside so that they could enter.
Haleth smiled.
Âme had told him that he hadn’t occupied the rooms for long, but some personal
touches had already found its way into the living area. There was the flute
Lindir had given Âme to practice his playing with and Erestor had already put
some books, quills, and ink on the desk. Elrond had gifted him with a lovely
tea pot and matching cups. A huge bearskin had made its way onto Âme’s bed and
Haleth saw Âme’s puzzled look when the dancer saw it too.
“Glorfindel
wants you to be warm at night,” Elrond explained. “Why do you not rest for a while,
Haleth?”
Haleth nodded
and Âme guided him to the bed, where he sat down. His fingers encountered the
fur and he stroked it thoughtfully. “I like your rooms.” Âme averted his gaze
and blushed.
“I will leave
you alone now. You have the things you need, but should you still require
something just ask the guards in the corridor.” Elrond couldn’t help smiling as
he left the room. Now there was a blooming romance if he had ever seen one!
“Elrond’s
right. I need to rest.” Haleth didn’t like the fact that he tired so quickly,
but knew it was normal after the injury he had suffered.
“I’ll help
you.” Âme lifted Haleth’s feet and helped him lie down. “Do you want another
pillow?”
“No, I don’t
need one.” Haleth turned onto his side and watched Âme. “What are you doing?”
“I
thought…that…while you’re resting…”
“I like it when
you guard my sleep,” Haleth said. “And your bed’s big enough for the two of
us.”
Âme’s features
contorted. “This is a bad idea.”
“And why’s
that?” Haleth asked, frowning deeply.
Âme wrung his
hands. “I should tell you, but…” He couldn’t speak the words...not really.
Haleth wanted
to ask if this had anything to do with the conversation he’d overheard, but
didn’t. Âme had to make the first step. “I’ll sleep then.” Âme nodded and
practically ran into the living room. /I don’t understand him,/
Haleth thought. /I need to know what this is about!/
~~~
Glorfindel had
fallen asleep by the time the morning had come, which was totally out of
character for him. Normally he was the first one up and about, but maybe Eómer
had exhausted him as well. When he woke up an hour later, he found his arms
empty and the side of the bed where Eómer had rested cold. The Man must have
left shortly after he had fallen asleep.
Their
arrangement confused Glorfindel, who wasn’t used to being confused. He had been
honest with his intentions where Eómer was concerned, so how had the
misunderstanding happened? And what was the misunderstanding about? He liked
Eómer and the attraction he felt toward the Man was growing. Eómer seemed drawn
to him as well and when Glorfindel had taken him, they had truly been one, but
then something had gone awry and the connection had been severed.
Folding his
arms beneath his head, Glorfindel stared at the ceiling and tried to make sense
of what had happened.
TBC
Part 11
“I fetched food,” Âme shuffled into the bedroom where Haleth was resting on the
bed. Having Haleth in his rooms felt odd. He liked
having him about, but at the same time Haleth’s presence also scared him.
“Will you join
me?” Haleth patted the side of the bed.
Âme nibbled on
his bottom lip and considered his options. He didn’t want to get too close to
Haleth and most certainly not encourage the young man to ask him more personal
questions. “But only for a moment,” he said after catching Haleth’s hopeful gaze.
He placed the tray on Haleth’s lap and sat down at some distance. “Elrond says
that you need to eat as much as you can and as many times as you can. You need
to add weight.”
Haleth wasn’t
sure how Âme would receive his next comment, but he said it anyway. “So do you,
so start eating.” Âme’s eyes widened and Haleth made sure he was smiling so Âme
didn't take his remark the wrong way. “You’re skinny too. Were you ill
recently?”
The dancer
shifted on the bed nervously. “I had problems with my stomach. I couldn’t hold
anything down, but Elrond fixed that.” Since he wasn’t being drugged the entire
time, his body had recovered and eating wasn’t causing his stomach to rebel any
longer. Haleth picked up a thick slice of bread, added cheese to it, and then
handed it to him. Âme had no choice but to start eating. He was hungry at any
rate.
The Rohan
youth's expression suddenly grew sad as he realized something. “Eómer and I’ll
leave once I’ve recovered. He can’t leave Rohan too long.”
“I already
expected that.” Âme’s appetite was gone, but he still forced himself to take
another bite out of the bread. “It was nice having you here. Maybe you can come
and visit some time?” He had become used to having Haleth around and would miss
him once he was gone.
“I’ll try.”
Haleth knew that there was little chance he would obtain permission from Eómer
to travel to Imladris alone though. His father was protective of him. “Or maybe
you can visit me in Edoras?” But Âme’s expression showed that that was very unlikely
too. Haleth didn’t understand why visiting Edoras would cause problems for Âme.
“Why is that a problem?”
Âme moistened
his lips and averted his gaze. “I visited Edoras before and wasn’t…welcomed
that warmly.” He had to give Haleth some reason so the young man would stop
questioning him. “I feel no desire to repeat that occurrence.”
Haleth quickly
shook his head. “But things will be different since I’ll be there waiting for
you!”
The dancer
gazed at Haleth apologetically. “I’m sorry.” He couldn’t possibly return to
Edoras where so many Rohirrim had seen his shame.
“We don’t have
to decide right now what we’ll do,” Haleth stated in an effort to do away with
the sense of gloom that was trying to take hold of them.
Âme
nodded, glad that Haleth was offering them a way out. “Who knows...maybe we’ll find a way out,”
he offered, but in his heart he didn’t believe that.
~~~
Elrond hadn’t
been expecting Eómer and looked up in surprise when the King of Rohan entered
his study. He was alone at the moment since Erestor was making an inventory of
their supplies. “Good day, Eómer,” Elrond gestured for the King to seat
himself.
Eómer inclined
his head and sat down. “When will Haleth be strong enough to travel? I can’t
stay away from home too long.” Although he didn’t think he was a fit King, he
took his responsibilities very seriously.
Elrond
regretted hearing that. “Haleth should be fit to travel at the end of the
week.” He searched Eómer’s eyes and found them strangely haunted. “I wish you
could stay longer.” Not only for Haleth’s sake, but for
Eómer’s as well. Something told Elrond that the King needed healing as
well, though of a different sort. Somehow, Eómer had been wounded in his very
heart.
Eómer nodded.
“We’ll be leaving in two days then. I’ll instruct the Rohirrim to ready themselves.”
“Will you not
reconsider?” Elrond felt he needed to make a last effort to change Eómer’s
mind.
“I might not
want to be King, but I *am* King,” Eómer replied with a sigh. “That limits my
choices.”
Elrond
eventually gave in. “Then I pray you will enjoy these last few days in
Imladris.” Eómer’s gaze became like ice after those words and Elrond wondered
what had happened during Eómer’s stay in his valley.
~~~
Glorfindel
strolled into the kitchen. He wasn’t really hungry, but his restlessness had
urged him to walk about in search of a distraction. His relationship with Eómer,
if one could call it that, wasn’t sitting well with him.
“Glorfindel?” Erestor looked at the Captain in
surprise. He had been counting their kitchen supplies and hadn’t expected to
see Glorfindel there during the day. “Should you not be overseeing today’s
training?”
“My second in
command took over.” Glorfindel sat down at the kitchen table and started moving
a plate which contained a selection of fruit around.
Intrigued,
Erestor placed his list away and sat down opposite his friend. “Something vexes
you. What is it?” Normally Glorfindel was willing to discuss any problems he
had.
“Did I make a
mistake, Erestor?” Glorfindel looked at his friend. But since Erestor didn’t
know what had happened, he had to explain. “I bedded Eómer.”
Erestor drew in
a deep breath and searched Glorfindel’s face. “Why did you do it?” It obviously
bothered Glorfindel and lashing out at his friend for being so foolish wouldn’t
do.
“I like him,”
Glorfindel admitted. “I really do. And, at first, I thought the arrangement was
agreeable to both of us. I did not promise him love or loyalty. I offered him a
few nights of passion and he said he understood. But something went wrong.” He started
plucking the grapes from the little branch they were attached to.
Erestor
considered everything in detail before he answered. “Are there any feelings
involved from your side?”
Glorfindel’s
eyes widened. “I care for him. I like him. I already told you that.”
“And there is
nothing more?”
“Erestor, there
can not be anything more! My oath binds me to Elrond and this valley.”
/And that, my friend, is probably the problem. Eómer cares deeply for you and realizes he made a mistake. He has to p